What made you sad today...

[Miss Scarlett]

Missing my Momma. Today is her Birthday.

(((((Cowboi))))) I understand what you mean and am so very sorry. In a few months I will be saying the same thing.

[girl_dee]

Ruthie..,,,.

[Miss Scarlett]

An amazing weekend ended entirely too soon...

[Deborah]

Realizing that knowing you really meant everything you said and did everything you could it still wasn't enough.... :(

[Soft*Silver]

I know.....

[justpjhere]

remembering a really crap day a long time ago....miss you Lori, you are always in my heart...:candle:

[Soon]

~too much~

[sylvie]

losing my great aunt, Emma yesterday..

Almost 81, we got news she was full of cancer a few weeks ago, and had 2 months to live.. that time was cut short yesterday, which may be a blessing for the pain and suffering she was enduring.. :( and bless her heart, she was one of the kindest souls i have ever known.. you are sooo missed by many, Ma Tante but happy you are with Fernand once more.. RIP, xoxox.. ♥

[Ryobi]

Sylly, I just saw your post! *big hugs* I'm sorry for your loss. I am though, happy she was spared the pain and suffering. Let me know you're ok?

[sylvie]

Sylly, I just saw your post! *big hugs* I'm sorry for your loss. I am though, happy she was spared the pain and suffering. Let me know you're ok?

awwh Ryan thank you.. i am okay.. sad, but okay..
today has been a day of reflection, spent some time with my Nanny G, she always makes me smile.. thank you for worrying.. (i do worry about you as well you know, even when you tell me not to... )
i can't wait til we can catch up, i wanna know you are okay too..♥ *big huggs right back*

[wimsiclegirl]

Sylvie...

I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy to say goodbye to those we love. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers....

May you find peace, love and strength in your memories of her and your love for one another.

(((hugs)))

Wimsy

[StillettoDoll]

Watching some new images and reports coming out of Japan on CNN .
Unbelievable ! , people being sweep away. I feel so bad for them.

[justkim]

I hear you Stilletto Doll, the images are horrific! I can not watch them anymore it just rips me a part inside...

[girl_dee]

that is why I am so thankful we do not have a TV in the house! CNN makes me wanna jab myself in the forehead.

I know it happened, I know whats happening, I just don't need to have it embedded into my brain.

[Andrew, Jr.]

*Japan

*The Middle East Fighting

*Spilling my McDonald's coffee all over myself and Dino. I love McDonald's coffee.

[1PlayfulFemme]

*Having my Aunt tell me to spend all the time I can with my dad as he doesn't have much time left.

*Having my dad acknowledge his decline.

[KatieStar]

*Having my Aunt tell me to spend all the time I can with my dad as he doesn't have much time left.

*Having my dad acknowledge his decline.

I love you, and I love your dad. I am always here. *BIG giant hug*

[1PlayfulFemme]

I love you, and I love your dad. I am always here. *BIG giant hug*

*tight squeezes* Thank you Sweetie! I know that..and it means the world to me! (And he loves you too, btw) ;)

[suebee]

Found my poor kitty Owen on the front step late this morning, unable to walk and crying. We don't know what happened to him, but he has a broken femur. And just when it was getting nice out! Poor little guy.....four to eight weeks cage rest - and hope it heals. :(

[Gemme]

Found my poor kitty Owen on the front step late this morning, unable to walk and crying. We don't know what happened to him, but he has a broken femur. And just when it was getting nice out! Poor little guy.....four to eight weeks cage rest - and hope it heals. :(

Poor Owen. :(

[suebee]

Poor Owen. :(

He has been STARING at me since he got home! :| It's going to be a long couple 'o months!

[Gemme]

He has been STARING at me since he got home! :| It's going to be a long couple 'o months!

He may be blaming you. Don't let the judgement bother you; it's the pain talking.

[suebee]

He may be blaming you. Don't let the judgement bother you; it's the pain talking.

Well he's FREAKING ME OUT! I'm giving him more drugs! ;) He IS in pain - poor guy.

[Gemme]

Well he's FREAKING ME OUT! I'm giving him more drugs! ;) He IS in pain - poor guy.

If he's in a cage, he's probably wondering why he's in jail if he's hurt. Cats are like that...all judgemental 'n stuff.

I hope he feels better soon and stops looking at you like that.

[Tcountry]

Saying bye & putting her on a plane after an awesome week together...(come on jobs in SA)...

[Andrew, Jr.]

Watching Lisa Ling's show on TV...Annette Bening & Warren Beatty's oldest child, Kathlyn, is transitioning to live as man. Now she is living as a man, and goes by the name Stephen (2 years now). Warren is not so accepting of this. I think his sister, Shirley MacLaine, needs to sit Warren down for a nice long chat. Children matter. When will adults learn this life lesson. :vigil:

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Saying goodbye to one of my students...Its never easy...Especially when you know they are in a bad place...Helpless=No Bueno!!!

[Andrew, Jr.]

*Liz Taylor died. She was 79 yo.

*Jerusalem bombing is suspected to be a terrorist attack. It was at the main bus station.

*Japan. All of it.

*War - I hate it.

[Soft*Silver]

sighing.................

[Gráinne]

One of those days where I'm scraping the bottom, looking for any good news.

[Sachita]

Not sure if sad is the word. It's just been a challenging day, for sure.

I made an appointment to see a lawyer about a property easement situation I have. I have never met a more rude person in all my life. He was not only condescending but out and out disrespectful. I mean who is working for whom? lol I walked out and nothing got accomplished.

[Gemme]

Hearing about Elizabeth Taylor passing. She was one of the best.

[Greyson]

Waking up to the news that Elizabeth Taylor had passed away.

[Guy]

Just finding out that my best friend was in the hospial, and not knowing until now due to telephone problems.

She's going to be okay, but I feel sad that I couldn't be there for her and that she had to go through it alone.

[DapperButch]

The guy who created super glue died. He was 94.

[Kenna]

the baby calico kitty didn't make it through the night.... I just found her. Precious life is so fragile. All I wanted to do was be there as she passed, comfort her and tell her Momma will take care of her. :watereyes: :watereyes:

[girl_dee]

the baby calico kitty didn't make it through the night.... I just found her. Precious life is so fragile. All I wanted to do was be there as she passed, comfort her and tell her Momma will take care of her. :watereyes: :watereyes:

Ohhh so sorry!

[dixie]

Just feeling really "alone" today...

[Oiler41]

We took the fur kids to the dog park on Sunday, and one of them got a bit too carried away running and now she is hurting a bit :(

Glynn

[Semantics]

My jade plant is dying.

She's been unwell for awhile but now the death knell is really sounding in the form of her leaves falling off and hitting the table.

Silly, I know, but dammit I love that plant.

[Miss Scarlett]

Learned the true condition of a friend's business...:( if he closes down it will be a great loss for our local LGBT community and sadly they won't realize it unless that happens...

[Kenna]

A couple weeks ago, a co-worker and dear friend was very excited to tell us that she would be a Grandma for the first time and shared with us how her son and daughter-in-law had surprised her.... We were all so excited for her and she couldn't have been happier.
This Monday, through tears, she told us that they had miscarried. She is so broken hearted, sad and frail. Every day this week, you could see the pain in her eyes. It absolutely breaks my heart. This morning, I found a little gift bag on my desk...the note read: Thank you so much for your most generous and thoughtful gift for my new grandbaby to be. Your thoughtfulness meant the world to me. I have packed your gift away for the moment but look forward to the day that I can unpack them and use them. Thanks again, Always, B.
:watereyes: :watereyes: :(

I'm so sad for her; she looks like her world has been pulled out from under her.

[WingsOnFire]

Realizing some things never change....

[violaine]

telephone call-

[prettylilgrrl]

getting the test results I was hoping I wouldn't :bigcry:

[Miss Scarlett]

Saying farewell to the last of my chocolate covered espresso beans...

[Spirit Dancer]

Closing a door and knowing
it was meant to be.
Friendships should never make you sad.

[~Bo]

That 25 year old mother driving her van with her three little kids in it into the Hudson River. It sank within 2 minutes.
The only saving grace was her 10 year old boy managing to get out the window and swim to shore.

She and the two younger kids went down with the van.

Soooooooo sad. :(

[Gemme]

That 25 year old mother driving her van with her three little kids in it into the Hudson River. It sank within 2 minutes.
The only saving grace was her 10 year old boy managing to get out the window and swim to shore.

She and the two younger kids went down with the van.

Soooooooo sad. :(

Four kids total. Three kids died, Bo. A 5 year old, 2 year old and 11 month old.

It's a horrible situation and it looks like what led her to believe it was a viable option was that the father of the three younger children was cheating on her. Senseless.

[socialjustice_fsu]

That 25 year old mother driving her van with her three little kids in it into the Hudson River. It sank within 2 minutes.
The only saving grace was her 10 year old boy managing to get out the window and swim to shore.

She and the two younger kids went down with the van.

Soooooooo sad. :(

This is beyond tragic. However, in this world of ours many people don't OR can't see options short of this kind of action. Suicide - standing alone - is horrific; but taking your children with you: unthinkable.
God help this young survivor. I can only imagine the thoughts that must be in his head.
It just did not have to happen like this.

[Blade]

4 kids and their mom. The Mom and 3 of the kids died.

[canmarielan]

Realizing that I can't do it all. My body eventually gives up and shuts down.

[JakeTulane]

For a moment of realizations. Yet, thankful that it was only a moment.

[Miss Scarlett]

The passing of Grete Waitz (http://http://www.nytimes.com/2011/04/20/sports/othersports/20waitz.html)

[Blade]

a friend moving away

mowing around PJ's grave..lil stinker

another pending thunder storm...enough already I have things to do

[hpychick]

[COLOR="Teal"Being misunderstood.

Not being able to console someone I love and want in my life.

Having to be at work when I would rather be somewhere else with someone I love.

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[Starbuck]

4/20 was the 20 year anniversary of my marriage to my abusive husband, so yea, that date and the surrounding days are hard for me. I've cried and even officially celebrated 4/20 :cannabis: to try and take my mind off of it; it only worked minimally. :(

[hpychick]

The truth.

[violaine]

a 70 year old homeless woman sleeping on concrete.

[Andrew, Jr.]

Feeding the homeless and seeing so many children show up today.

[Soft*Silver]

I am stumbling today. My back is out of whack today. Some days I am ok and some days I am like this.

[Miss Scarlett]

That a fabulous weekend had to end...it was simply amazing; i felt as though i was on vacation...

[Andrew, Jr.]

More money going into the gas tank. There is no reason for the prices going up and up and up. It will be interesting to hear about the profits being made.

[Andrew, Jr.]

Finding out there is little hope for a cure for Rosie's sister. :candle:

[Miss Scarlett]

This morning i woke to the news of the death of a friend...the down side to having left my former legal community is that i am so out of the news loop...

Rest in peace Your Honour. Thank you for fighting so hard for the children; thank you for coming to Mom's Memorial Service at the Courthouse in 2007. Mom always loved being in your court and i'm sure the two of you are already doing a lot of catching up...


Judge overcame health problems, fought for children
By Meghan Cooke
Friday, May 06, 2011

A petite woman at only 4 feet, 11 inches, Mecklenburg District Judge Resa Harris walked into court for more than 20 years with a deliberate gait, a loud voice and - in later years - a cart carrying an oxygen tank.

Once, a child came into her courtroom and asked: "Are you a real judge?"

"Yes," Harris told him. "And you're in real trouble."

The retired judge known for her sense of humor and her dedication to helping children died unexpectedly Monday. She was 59.

Harris overcame severe childhood health problems to preside over juvenile and family courts - handling cases ranging from criminal misdemeanors to abused children and child custody battles. She also helped establish Mecklenburg County's domestic violence court.

During her work, she often listened to painful descriptions of physical and sexual abuse.

"Some judges burn out in juvenile court or domestic violence court," said David Cayer, a U.S. magistrate judge who worked with Harris in District Court. "It wears on them. That never seemed to happen with her. She never lost the enthusiasm."

The daughter of W.T. Harris, a founder of the Harris Teeter grocery chain, she was a native Charlottean and 1969 graduate of Independence High School. Harris attended Agnes Scott College in Georgia and then law school at Wake Forest University.

Harris was first appointed to the District Court bench in 1981 by Gov. Jim Hunt. She won election the next year, then was re-elected four times. She retired in 2002 after 21 years on the bench.

Harris then threw herself into volunteer work, serving on the boards of many organizations, including the Charlotte Community Health Clinic and the board of trustees at Wingate University. But she still returned to court occasionally as an emergency judge.

In 2002, Harris told the Observer the greatest rewards from her career came from helping families stay together.

"I really care about families; I love to help people," she said. I've been able to see positive changes in people's lives. When parents get their children back, that's a wonderful thing to see."

Tyrone Wade, the deputy county attorney assigned to Mecklenburg Department of Social Services, said he appeared before Harris many times over the years in child abuse and neglect cases.

Wade said she held each party accountable and worked to ensure children were returned to their parents only when they had made necessary changes.

"She said: 'Children are not yo-yos. They need to be put in a permanent home and they need to be safe,'" Wade recalled.

Her husband of 17 years, James Wilkins, said he believes her passion for helping children stemmed from her own childhood.

At the time of her birth, doctors didn't expect her to live more than two days. She was missing a lung and a number of ribs. By the time she was 11, she'd had nine back surgeries, Wilkins said.

Harris had a steel rod in her back, Wilkins said. But she was tough. She never complained.

"She was very strong and didn't let those things keep her from being assertive and getting out and doing the very best she could," he said.

Ten years ago, she started needing an oxygen tank.

Wilkins laughed as he recalled one attorney who came into his wife's court and told his client, "Don't let the oxygen fool you."

Harris' health problems prevented her from having children of her own, Wilkins said, but she treated her pets like they were kids, particularly her beloved Cavalier King Charles spaniels, which she sometimes brought into court with her.

Mecklenburg Chief District Court Judge Lisa Bell said she recalled how Harris sent her a sympathy card when her cat died in 2002.

"She was one of the most caring judges," Bell said. "It was never superficial. She genuinely cared."

http://www.charlotteobserver.com/2011/05/06/2275541/judge-overcame-health-problems.html

[hpychick]

Waking up and realizing it's been almost 8 years since my mother's passing -- longing for the things she didn't know to give, and missing her sweet smile.

[JakeTulane]

A voicemail.

[always2late]

Today is the memorial celebration for my dear friend. Although it is a celebration of his life, and we will share stories and smiles remembering the wonderful man he was, it is so very bittersweet. He was taken much too soon and it hits me on an almost daily basis that there is now a hole in my life that will always be there.

[Andrew, Jr.]

54 yo Steve Ballesteros, the 5 time major golf champ, died this morning from brain cancer in Pedrena, Spain. He died with his family surrounding him.

He will be missed. RIP Steve.

[femmedyke]

I swear this is the saddest year of my life.

[Chancie]

I have the it's the end of the year and

I don't really feel close to any of my colleagues and

I broke my pretty new salt shaker blues.

[Semantics]

What a shocker. A young horse fractured his leg during the Derby. Let me use this day, as I do every year, to say how inhumane horse racing is. They run them too young and too hard and many of them end up crippled and at the slaughterhouse. Sad.

[dixie]

I found out a few minutes ago that a friend of mine passed away a couple hours ago. Someone had attacked him with a baseball bat Friday night. I've known this person and his entire family all my life. When I was younger our families went to church together so I was friends with him, his brother and his 2 sisters. His mom and dad were really great folks too. His sister and I were friends in the same grade since kindergarten. He was a hard-working, church-going person with a wife and kids. I've never known him to even be rude to anyone, so I have no idea why someone would attack him in the first place. I feel so sorry for his family. His mother passed a few years ago. In a way, I'm glad she wasn't here to see her oldest child pass away on Mother's Day, especially from such a violent cause. :(

[Sweet_Amor_Taino]

I am stumbling today. My back is out of whack today. Some days I am ok and some days I am like this. Softness sending you healing thoughts I wish I could you just wish the pain away for you.:bouquet:

[Sweet_Amor_Taino]

I send all my BFP freinds love and peace and please remember that change is constant and knowing this gives us hope that tomorrow will be different...maybe even better.

The lost of a love one is also temporary becuase you will meet again in the next life becuase life is eternal while the physical returns to earth.

[Miss Scarlett]

Waking up and realizing that it was Monday NOT Sunday and i had to get my sparkly tail in gear...

[sylvie]

for Ryan -
been thinking of Ryan and his family these last few days..
so sad for his loss, and sending him thoughts and hugs his way...

[Miss Scarlett]

That a wonderful weekend had to end...geez reality can be soooo annoying!

[Abigail Crabby]

Having had to go thru all these Dr visits and hospital stays alone. I'm tired of it.

And I'm out of :chocolate:

[Daktari]

The current essay...

[Cowboi]

Damn!!! The weekend is over already?????

[Rockinonahigh]

Tomorrow is monday...baugh humbug a work day.

[Miss Scarlett]

Just realised i left my beloved red Starbucks travel cup on a certain kitchen counter...:seeingstars:

[Kätzchen]

I'm feeling (emotional) today...
so just admitting that I feel sad today
might help me to feel better (maybe).

[Luv]

[I]when I got home from work tonight I got an e-mail with some very sad info from my old job at the Gap. My old friend Ron who was my chosen straight brother died in his sleep last night..so Ive been sitting her crying cause my brothers gone...

and also a male co-worker committed suicide last night


I wish I could go back for Ron's funeral ,but I just started work and cant do it..I will miss my buddy and brother..I took him to his 1st frag show at the Connections..he was one of a kind..Im gonna miss that man...[I]

[Miss Scarlett]

A very special friend and his family are in mourning...

[Legendryder]

Finding out just this morning the I have til the end of the month to find another place to live. A little notice would be nice. And the fact my roommate owes me 425 bucks that I will most likely never see is making it just that much more fun. Yipee.

[AtLast]

Conflict. Yes, it is part of life, but makes me sad sometimes.

[Soon]

----silence----

[Andrea]

Reading about the woman who was beaten outside of a 7-11 in Virginia.

[Camo Eagle]

Attending Graveside memorials, and thinking about how much they are missed. Nothing has been the same since. Peace be with you all. We know that you watch over us.

[Miss Scarlett]

Another wonderful weekend comes to an end entirely too soon...back to the real world tomorrow...

[Violette]

Reading the violence against butches thread. :(

[SnackTime]

The news of Pat Summitt being diagnosed with the early onset of dementia

[Dreamer]

Not being where I need to be to give people the support needed...

[Starbuck]

While at the Museum of Science and Industry today, there was a special exhibit that showed the life cycle of a baby from 1 week all the way to full term. I was mesmerized at the nine week old fetus because you could see individual fingers and it already had facial features!

What made me sad was the six week old fetus. It was very tiny, about the size of a grain of rice. I had a miscarriage at six weeks and it brought back sad memories for me because I wanted that baby. I stood there just staring at it, remembering how I'm pretty sure I had seen my fetus (please don't think this is gross) as I wiped after I had gone to the bathroom. I remember holding it and wondering :confused: and now I'm pretty sure it was. That's what made me sad today. :vigil:

[girl_dee]

a missing Chicken named Henrietta .......

[~Bo]

a missing Chicken named Henrietta .......






:cluck:..................:|

[Red Dirt Girl]

I know this is an old post, but if by trich you mean trichotillomania, I would applaud your taking action to increase awareness of the disorder.

Knowing the fact that my sister does not think I should put my paper about trich in the newspaper so more people know about it. She thinks sending it into the paper is going to create gossip.

[Red Dirt Girl]

I know this is an old post, but Owen, if by trich you mean trichotillomania, I would 100% applaud your taking action to increase awareness of the disorder. Just my two pennies. Red, who has trich.

Knowing the fact that my sister does not think I should put my paper about trich in the newspaper so more people know about it. She thinks sending it into the paper is going to create gossip.

[Jeep]

Went to visit my Grandpa's grave last weekend. He has been gone a little over a year and This was the first chance I have had to go as it is a 2 hour drive and my car is not the most dependable. I never had "the talk" with him, but always felt like he knew me better than anyone in my family.

[ArkansasPiscesGrrl]

What makes me sad today? My son was arrested, I am doing everything I possibly can to raise money to get him out, but I am hitting one roadblock and wall after another. I feel so incredibly HELPLESS! I was really physically sick last week, am still sick, but this stress is absolutely killing me. This has been a nightmare building for several months now, and I had really thought we had turned the corner, until his arrest last week.

I can't think of much of anything else right now, not my health, not my work, my new business, nothing.

Prayers would be helpful and MUCH appreciated!

[Leigh]

What makes me sad today? My son was arrested, I am doing everything I possibly can to raise money to get him out, but I am hitting one roadblock and wall after another. I feel so incredibly HELPLESS! I was really physically sick last week, am still sick, but this stress is absolutely killing me. This has been a nightmare building for several months now, and I had really thought we had turned the corner, until his arrest last week.

I can't think of much of anything else right now, not my health, not my work, my new business, nothing.

Prayers would be helpful and MUCH appreciated!


((((((((((Arkansas))))))))))) I will absolutely keep you & your son in My prayers and thoughts ~ if you need anyone to talk to, feel free to PM Me anytime :rrose:

[sweetfemme247]

not being able to talk to friends

[nekohl]

I read the paper every morning, but todays news was just bad after sad after bad.
A local man was found guilty of second degree murder, child abuse and neglect. At the time of death his 2 yr old step son weighed 18 pounds, had an untreated broken arm, second degree burns, untreated cuts and bruising. The child was found wrapped in plastic and tape in a landfill. The mothers trial is in October.
How did this happen? Why did this happen. I start to cry when I think how much that baby suffered.

That story along with others involving so much abuse, mistreatment and hate, makes me so sad today.

[Leigh]

A few things make Me sad today:

~ Reading the above story about the poor 2 yr old and the abuse he suffered ~ makes Me want to take anyone who abuses children (and animals) this way and give to them exactly what they dished out !!!!

~ Not being able to text someone, still looking at My phone and realizing its just not coming

~ Being in a cuddly mood, and not having anyone to cuddle with

:(

[Venus007]

Today I miss my parents, I just want to sit and talk to them and hug them. I miss how they smell and how they laugh and holding their hands.
They have been dead 11 years now.

[Tawse]

on the eve of DragonCon I am sad that I have to keep my excitement level in check... I can't just let it all go like others can... sucks sometimes.

[MaggieBluIze]

I'm really so very scared, but so badly want to be happy about it all. :seeingstars:

I want to share my "news", but feel that if I do it will make it real and it will really happen (even though this could not be more real)!!! :blink:

I miss you my sweet friend, but trying so hard to respect the decision to "seperate". I miss my D and always will. (w)

I'm happy ... So happy, on some levels ... But people that matter to me have noclue ... This makes my heart hurt ... I feel an ache for those that are "just gone" from my life.

:heartbeat: you.

[JAGG]

Watching someone I care about make a fool out of himself. He always says the wrong things when he is angry. He apparently can't see how badly he contadicts himself, but the rest of us sure can. I know he is very unhappy, it's got to suck, it's sad. But it sure makes me grateful for my life.

[Apocalipstic]

Someone very near and ear to me is angry with me and won't call me back or text and I am not really sure what I did and I can't stop crying.

[RockOn]

A very brief thought of what "could have been" and how happy I "would have been." I bounced back to reality very quickly, realized and became so thankful for my current happiness ... and how good I have it today.

[AtLast]

Another teen suicide. Yes, a young gay teen. The stories never vary from one another much at all- always bullying going on and not a damn adult (professional or otherwise) recognizes how bullying can and does push a teen over the edge. Often, the latest episode turns into the very last straw in a young mind that is so unfinished and afraid. Hell, I'm 60 and remember the emotional roller coaster of adolescence- these people can't?

[storyofmylife]

thinking of my daughter 's dearest :candle:big brother for he was conceive this month 32yrs ago

[sylvie]

sending the children off with their father for Christmas holidays, today.. This house sure seems so quiet now.. It will be difficult, not having them here .. & was SO hard to send them off with a smile.. i want them to have an amazing Christmas with their father & his family .. i just miss them so terribly much.. They'll be home after New Years.. i will call and harrass them lots every chance i get, of course.. it's what nagging moms do! *smiles*

[SnackTime]

The first holidays without a dear buddy.

My first holiday without a long time companion.

[Venus007]

My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.

[musicman]

I'm so sorry Venus to hear about your dog. They say the last show of love is to put them down. To not let them suffer, they loved you unconditionally and we should love them back even doing this last show of love. I know that doesn't make it any easier for you right now but I'm sure you would agree it is the thing to do.

I will be thinking of you and the baby today. Give him a hug for me please.

Warmest Regards

Musicman

[starryeyes]

My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.

I am so sorry. Hugs to you.

[kannon]

My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.

My heart goes out to you venus. I'm so sorry.

[*Anya*]

My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.

I am so sorry. It is heartbreaking. There are no words of consolation that help the pain. We love our dear dogs so much. They ask nothing of us but our love and companionship. My thoughts are with you and your pets.

[AtLast]

My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.

I am so very sorry to hear this. I am glad, however, that he is home with you and not in a hospital- I bet this is a comfort for him. My little guy slept with me on the floor with my Boxer when he was passing- they know and feel what is going on. Poor Lily, too.

So very sorry to hear this.

[1QuirkyKiwi]

My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.


I'm so, so sorry you are going through this....sending you, Lily and Tuesday much love and hugs {{Hugs}}

[starryeyes]

This WHOLE day made me sad... But tomorrow is another day and the new year is just around the bend. Looking forward to starting over again.

Smiles and hugs
Starry

[softheart]

Always being alone.

[Random]

There has been absolutly no joy in these holidys this year...

I know it will be better next year, but this year? I'm glad that it's mostly done...

I am actually looking forward to the first, so 2011 can be over with..

[Soft*Silver]

my mind goes back in time,a few years ago, on a Christmas day, when a warm, sweet, much understood and lonely man died in a fire that consumed his house as he lay sleeping. He had such a softness about him, and wanted only for people to give him time and some attention, for her felt abandoned in life due to circumstances that well, were so sad and tragic. I will never forget this man, and I can still see his smile and his eyes that beamed when anyone made him happy by just conversing with him.

this is a sadness mixed with joy...I am so sorry he is gone, but oh David, my life is so much better having known you...god and goddess bless and may you have finally found the absolution and compassion you so sought here...

[Rockinonahigh]

Most of the holidays have been ok,I did celebrate some with folks before the weekend started.Then it started raining and is either raining or misting heavy wich has made the last two days bleary,cold and drab ...not what I expected for a Christmas weekend.All this crapy weather has kicked in a major arthritis issue that im barely keeping in check,this hot spot in my back has effected my left hip and leg but I have managed to get things done anyway....its just the way its goes.I hope the next week is better than this one has been so new years will at least be a dry weekend.

[Gemme]

My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.

I'm sorry to hear this. Our pets are our children and it's heartbreaking to be forced to make a decision like the one facing you.

[Gemme]

I always have a sad twinge this time of year. My maternal grandfather passed on Christmas Day and, though I didn't know him well enough to grieve his loss, it hurt me to see my mom grieve for him. Now that mom's gone, it's like a double dose of sadness. Even though she didn't pass on this day, I remember them both. Some years it hurts more than others. :rrose:

[twist of lime]

Not a thing in this world.

[AtLast]

Each year during the holidays I see how much my brother-in-law has declined due to Alzheimer's. Also, how stressed my sister is in her caretaking of him. They actually have it much better than so many other couples/families dealing with this disease because they do have good pensions and healthcare and adult children ready to help out, yet, it is very difficult. Families without resources dealing with this long-term illness and it's consequences go through more hell. My sister goes to a support group and although she gets a lot from sharing this experience with others dealing with a loved one with Alzheimers, she gets really upset with what so many others do without because of their lack of support and resources. These groups do engage in pooling resources and lending a hand, but fergoddessakes, these folks are going through such an emotional roller coaster. The whole damn thing is just plain sad.

[starryeyes]

Letting go :-(

[Jesse]

Having to make the decision to let my BearBear pass on to the other side.

He was always healthy, never sick a day in his short life, then on Christmas Eve he dropped. Refused food and would just stay on his bed, no energy whatsoever and that was not like him. Turns out he had developed a rare form of anemia that does just that; take a healthy animal and drops them. This anemia caused his immune system to attack his red blood cells, killing them off as his body struggled to make more. The treatment choices were not good and his chances of survival so slim that I had to make the choice to have him put down today.

Those who know me, know he was my right arm and my heart as he was also my medical alert service dog. I am lost without him.

[SnackTime]

How things can change in a blink of an eye...

Disclaimer: has nothing to do with ANYONE or ANYTHING here

[~Bo]

Stupid Packers. :(

[smouldering]

I wouldn't say so much sad, but rather disappointed.
Some information has come to light recently that has just left me kinda feeling disappointed.

[funkyfemme]

The fact that I'll be 45 in a couple of weeks and I'm starting over in every way. :(

*walks off grumbling...I'm too old for this shit*

[ButchEire]

It's not bad, really, I turned 45 in August!

The fact that I'll be 45 in a couple of weeks and I'm starting over in every way. :(

*walks off grumbling...I'm too old for this shit*

[1QuirkyKiwi]

One of my Scottish cousins’ being so insensitive earlier when we spoke that he reduced me to tears. I didn’t feel like going to my stitching group tonight as I still feel a little tearful, so I’m curling up with a good book and a pot of tea. :tea:

[Merlin]

That my girl was more intrested in other things than being with me and getting some sugar ..

I may be butch but it hurt me a bit .. We still aren't talking because I told her and she didn't like hearing the truth.

[~Bo]

Joe Paterno died this morning. :(


I hope the fuckin' Penn State trustees feel REAL good about themselves now. Bastards.

[Miss Scarlett]

It's coming up on that time of year again...the 5th anniversary of my Mom's death.

i'm sad but in a different way. A peaceful way...

Last year i was finally able to grieve. With the help and support of my most patient very best friend i was at last able to say Kaddish at her grave and cry from the depths of my soul...

[istolurboxers38]

Writing an email today and it got read the wrong way and mistaken. A whole line of miscommunication comes from just scanning over emails and not throughly reading them. :vigil:

[sylvie]

my father & stepmother -
they deliberately set out to hurt me, as often as possible..
& while i don't take on that anger anymore, because well - i just don't want to and simply won't play their dirty games back to them.. i am mature & do care and have love for them, as people who have been in my life for well.. my whole life..

But, what makes me sad, is their need to do this to me.. & need to ridicule and to try and lower my esteem.. They're not being supportive of the positive changes i am making..& when i think about this deeply, i realize it's because they're unhappy in their own lives. Not an excuse, of course.

But, no matter how mean spirited they can be, i'll continue to wish for happiness for them, some peace & to be gentle with themselves.. i distance them for my own well-being - but still want well for them..

[SmoothButch]

Hearing the news of a Virginia Paramedic Line of Duty Death.

RIP AFD Medic Weissman

[Miss Scarlett]

The death of an elderly client...working on his estate...he was such a sweet gentleman...

[sylvie]

Something i have been struggling with for a couple of weeks now..
Hearing my stepmother talking with her friend, at work under her breath..
& laughing at me as i was undressing in the girl's locker room.
i have lost a considerable amount of weight, however i need to tone my arms, because i have loose skin happening...

But how my stepmother ever thought that i would be okay overhearing her chuckling at me, saying how could i ever be comfortable showing that & then shivering like it was the most disgusting thing in the world.

While i know i've still a ways to go with my weight, it saddens me that she picks on me like this and not even to my face but rather, behind my back.. (or well, attempted to)...

While i have distanced both her & my father for about 3-4 weeks now (& this was a VERY good decision for my own well-being).. It's difficult to truly distance her when i work in the same building as her..

i don't like my body, however i am learning to LOVE it - and as my confidence grows, i'm learning to shake things like this off .. i still love them, wish them nothing harsh, but do wish them some peace of mind and some love in their hearts to not have to be so miserable and not be so judgemental.. life's too short.. But now i know, distancing them was indeed the right choice for me.

[girl_dee]

Whitney..............

[Gráinne]

When someone my age passes away, for no apparent reason. That makes me both sad and angry.

[Greyson]

Me too, the passing of Whitney Houston. Too young, too talented and her daughter still growing up.

[RockOn]

Someone very dear to me suffers with alcoholism.

It makes me very, very sad.

[AtLast]

Hearing about Whitney Houston's death.

[girl_dee]

Comments made by people online about the attendees of the Grammy's.

The words *chipmunk cheeked, too fat, or anorexic, not soft enough, looks like a man* when speaking about the women.

THe comments about the men were about their clothes. :|

PISSES me off.

[sylvie]

While this journey of mine is a good thing, it's hard to accept some truths..

- how my compulsive overeating & eating disorder has affected the people around me..
- the food issues my own children have, because i haven't taught them differently.. & they learned from example..
- having to make amends with people (family & friends), ways i have hurt them, pushed them out of my life and lived in my own selfishness within my disease.
- finding forgiveness, realizations about some people in my life, and of course, the ultimate - self forgiveness..
- lastly, admitting my wrongdoings in the past & making necessary changes to my life..

While overall these are good things, it's hard not to be sad about the person i was.. It's embarrassing and i carry a lot of guilt..my Dietician offered me some good advice today, however.. You cant feel guilt for things you had no power over, didn't know or just didn't know any better at that time.. You can only feel guilt for things you know were bad, but still did them anyway.. Learning that has really helped me swallow some of these things and open myself up for working on them & the forgiveness..

i think i might actually be ready - big step. So, the end result will bring something much more than the sadness.. It will bring inner peace, a happy heart & a guilt free me..

[Trey339]

That my 'dream home' I just bought has suddenly turned into my 'money pit' *sigh,,,it is trying,,, but not defeating by any means.

[Leigh]

Talking with an ex today, and feeling like my emotions have been played with far too long with her ............ I ended it today, but it still hurts :(

[always2late]

My Great Dane, Molly, died suddenly today. She was a rescue, and had a horrible life before she came to me. Despite her hard beginning, she was the sweetest, most affectionate, most loving dog I've ever had. She was approximately 8 years old, and although I know that is quite old for a Dane, it still wasn't enough time with her. I miss her terribly and I can't believe my big, gangly, funny, sweet, beautiful horse-dog is gone.

[starryeyes]

Feeling betrayed :(

[girl_dee]

Always2Late losing her beloved dog today :(

[Quintease]

That we almost had a donor.. :worried:

[softheart]

Knowing that some people have only ill intent. :(

[Seeocean2011]

Text say " I am sorry you are a wonderful person, I know she is out there waiting for you and not trying to change you"..:-(..REALLY..grrrrr

[Spirit Dancer]

Cancer.......and the way it sucks the life out of you.

[Mtn]

Knowing my little mom is having a really rough time right now, after surgery meds have made her even more confused.

[Blade]

The person at the store this morning who ask me for money. He had this sad story about taking his mother to the hospital last night and her dying this morning. Blah blah blah as he went on rambling. When he finished I said Phillip, your mother has been dead 12 or 15 yrs. Yes this was someone I knew. In the shape he was in, he didn't recognize me and I didn't recognize him.
Very sad how drugs can ruin the life of a good person.

[Glenn]

Comments made by some people online here about the Bible who are in no way experts. "The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are to be Spiritually discerned."-1Cor.2:14

[Cid]

I miss my friend :worried:

[always2late]

As some of you know...we adopted the newest member of our fur family this past Tuesday. We brought her immediately to the vet because she was sick when we took her from the shelter. She was diagnosed with kennel cough and a URI and put on antibiotics. Over the past day or so, she became very lethargic and wouldn't eat, so first thing this morning we took her back to the vet. They admitted her and put her on IV fluids. We just got the call from the vet...she has pneumonia. This poor little baby has been through SO much, and it infuriates me that her illness came from the shelter....it is so unnecessary!! If they had only provided MINIMAL preventative care..none of this would be happening. I hated leaving her at the vet's office because we just took her out of the shelter! I wish I could explain to her that we aren't abandoning her like her former owner did and that we WILL be coming back for her!

[clay]

awww darn it.....doc....I am bawling my eyes out...this just makes me furious at the Shelters as well..all they had to do was give her a kennel cough vax.....simple....anyway my heart IS joyous over the fact you have adopted her..and will give her such a wonderful home....hugs to you.,..I know how hard it is to leave one at a vet's and when they are so sick..and scared to boot....Heidi (my dachshund & I send her big big hugs and cookies and toys and love....get well baby doggy!!! Keep me posted pls? ClayAs some of you know...we adopted the newest member of our fur family this past Tuesday. We brought her immediately to the vet because she was sick when we took her from the shelter. She was diagnosed with kennel cough and a URI and put on antibiotics. Over the past day or so, she became very lethargic and wouldn't eat, so first thing this morning we took her back to the vet. They admitted her and put her on IV fluids. We just got the call from the vet...she has pneumonia. This poor little baby has been through SO much, and it infuriates me that her illness came from the shelter....it is so unnecessary!! If they had only provided MINIMAL preventative care..none of this would be happening. I hated leaving her at the vet's office because we just took her out of the shelter! I wish I could explain to her that we aren't abandoning her like her former owner did and that we WILL be coming back for her!

[girl_dee]

Mr Grubby the sickly lab having to be put down, that really sucked.Just glad he isn't feeling sick anymore...

[firegal]

My lil sisters gf telling me my sis isnt eating much...shes so fragile

[Viola]

Extremely sad hearing your sister isn't eating and so fragile. I'm so sad hearing about her...

Your sister is going through so much... My heart feels...



My lil sisters gf telling me my sis isnt eating much...shes so fragile

[sylvie]

- my grandmother is getting weaker, and the cancer is so aggressive..
At her age, she amazes me with her strength.. But accepting i am losing her is increasingly difficult... Her lungs are in need of being drained again, and it's so painful for her.. i wish i could take that pain for her, just so she wouldn't have to feel it at all.

- A gal i work with (but recently retired) is a diabetic and has been through hell & back the last couple of years.. Starting with having a toe removed, almost needing her foot removed, and constant blockages.. She went in MOnday for yet another surgery, and we found out she had a stroke.

- the loss of a good man, Ricky & saying goodbye to him this week.. The loss of some very dear residents at the Nursing Home i work at..

[Leigh]

Having my emotions played with by someone I know in real life - tired of being made to feel like I just dont matter :(

[Kenna]

While sorting through a few things today, I found bed covers that made me sad when I said "might as well toss them out, I'll never get to use them again." ... how my life has changed and been impacted by certain hard-to-cope with things as well as how my body has changed with disability has made me have no desire at all to ever need those bed covers again.

[WingsOnFire]

not being able to have a good quiet time with DamonK before bed. We still don't have a bed and going to bed alone makes me sad.

[Miss Scarlett]

Waking up alone...can't wait to get back home...:hk29:

[always2late]

We were outside grilling dinner earlier this evening, and I heard a commotion by the back fence. The dogs were racing around one of the bushes and two jays were dive-bombing them. I saw something flutter from the bush to the grass below, and realized that the dogs were after something. I ran across the yard and chased the dogs away...and found three little fledgling jays in the grass. They must have fallen from the pine tree overhanging the yard. I picked up two of them, calling for GHD to help me, and cradled them against my chest. They were so little and I could feel their tiny hearts beating so fast! We managed to save two of them, but the third did not make it. He was alive when GHD picked him up, but then he just closed his eyes and was gone, the stress must have been too much. I feel so awful. I held the little jay in my hands, his tiny, soft body still warm, and cried. I'm thankful that we were able to save the two..but brokenhearted about the third.

[MaggieBluIze]

This was going to be our Anniversary weekend ...
Sad, because it's now just the Anniversary of when we met,
Not of how long we have been together ...
My :heartbeat: is sad because she doesn't even remember ...
It was never a date to stick in her head.

I'm sad because I miss her. :praying:

[grenade]

My best friend moved four hours away. Yesterday was her last day at work. It was so emotional. My eyes are still swollen from crying. This has been as tough as any breakup... I laid crying last night listening to 'our' songs. Just knowing she isnt near leaves me nauseous. :(

[Glenn]

My Most Beloved and Devoted Fur-Daughter Martha, who is 20+, is getting ready to do "The Death Walk":(

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

The change of relationships.

Thinking about my best friend Lisa of 23 years who happened to be an ex of a 12 year relationship. How she ended our friendship on July 3, 2012, all because her girlfriend is insecure and jealous. I miss her sending me a text or calling me just because and our sharing secrets with each other like only bf can.


The decision me and my girl came to or is still coming to. That life just is not fair sometimes and though no one fault our status has changed. Not really sure what that all means right now except that the change makes me sad.

That I am finally starting to accept that my bio-family only wants me around on their terms. Will only be there if I do things their way on their time. I miss my younger sister calling and telling me to "fix it" whatever it is...and she is in her 40's and still used to come to me with this until recently.

Just a little sad today but hey the sun will rise again tomorrow.

[Jett]

My cat of almost 15 years passed away today... R.I.P. Clovis my buddy

[sylvie]

Hearing from my father and realizing that he is back in the alcohol again.
This really, really saddens me, and i worry about him and his health.
i am dealing with it much differently this time though, shows the growth within me, that which is much healthier for me mentally & emotionally.

It's his addiction. i can love him, and worry about him. But i can't change him.
i hope, hope, hope that he finds his path to recovery..And if he needs my help, he'll have it 110%. Until then, i cannot take this on.. It triggers me, and it's not healthy for me...i recognize this and acknowledge it..

[Soft*Silver]

a friend of mine, her son died suddenly. He was an adult. She is a decade older than me. But it matters not. She is shattered as a mother for losing her child. I am going to the remembrance circle Friday. This woman has lost so much in her life. But this, this is too much to bear.

I do not want to see her eyes. I know what they will look like.

[MaggieBluIze]

My little 6 month old grand-daughter ((((Aimee)))) being sick.
She in the hospital right now ... Has a fever that is spiking up to 103.
She can't keep food down and they have an IV in her tiny little hand.
This makes me very sad.

Nana loves you sweet baby girl ...
I know it doesn't feel like it, but you'll be better soon.

:praying: :praying: :praying: :praying: :praying: :praying:

[Miss Scarlett]

Waking up alone...missing my Beloved so much...

[clay]

the emptiness....after she has visited and left....:(

[nhplowboi]

Hearing my girl cry after her goats were rehomed. I love her and those &*^)%&$^# goats but I think those goats will be just fine. They are nearby and in a home that has plenty to offer. Trust me honey.

[ladyhawkxx]

Thinking of my beloved dogs.... and missing them so much!!! Soon... babies... Soon! The Big B and I will be coming to get you and bring you all Home!!! I Promise!!!!

[dixie]

loss........

[Vivacious1]

Having to go to Dr for an injured knee.... down for the count for a few days! Oy, that's rough for me.

[StrongButch]

How some people have never experienced feeling loved and wanted.

[Gráinne]

I pulled the Bed of Doom out from the wall to sweep out all the rubbish that accumulates there, and found several plastic boxes of stuff.
Two were souveniers and my teaching things from China, all my lesson plans, it was all there.

The notecards from my Geology of China lesson given to 200 Chinese students, that I wrote in an hour over lunch (I was the only one with any kind of geology knowledge).

The letters from my students, written during the last week.

I even still have the cassette tape I made of their voices; meaning to turn it into a CD. I should take the darn thing to Radio Shack tomorrow, before it gets worn out.

The goody bags from the Chinese airline. I mean, all of it.

And in another tub...all the things from my wedding. The cake topper. Spare programs and invitations. The fan I bought in China and carried. The guest book. Some of the pictures.

It's funny how decisions still reverberate years later. I'd considered living in China, at least for a year, and teaching there. Instead, I stayed in the States and married a kind, yet safe and unadventurous man, and had a safe, unadventurous life in the suburbs for a long time. I have no regrets aside from hurt I caused him or our children.

But if I'd gone back to China, maybe for years, it's unlikely I would have become a parent. I surely would not have come out, at least not when I did, and would never have met my first girlfriend nor many other important people, let alone this site. So, it's not a matter of "did I make a mistake?" but "I made the best decision with the information I had then". Now I feel the winds of change, and the approach of crossroads yet again. This time, I don't have to hide behind someone and let them make my decisions. I'm far more open to life's adventures of all kinds.

But, sitting there amid all that dust and stuff, furniture all pulled out, it was kind of bittersweet. On my wedding day, I felt happy, or at least relieved that I was going to be "settled". It was strange how little I resemble today the smiling woman in the big dress then.

[MaggieBluIze]

One of my cousin's wifes was in a car wreck today.
She had some of their children with her.
One of the 4 y/o twins passed away in the wreck.
My family is hurting.
My family is feeling a huge loss.
I can't get my daughter to answer her phone.
I know my Dad is a wreck.
I cannot imagine such a pain,
one I have been terrified of feeling for so very long.
A loss of a child ................

[KCBUTCH]

One of my cousin's wifes was in a car wreck today.
She had some of their children with her.
One of the 4 y/o twins passed away in the wreck.
My family is hurting.
My family is feeling a huge loss.
I can't get my daughter to answer her phone.
I know my Dad is a wreck.
I cannot imagine such a pain,
one I have been terrified of feeling for so very long.
A loss of a child ................

I could never understand what this must be like for you or anyone- HUGS and many prayers for you and all those lives touched by this...
So very very sorry...

[grenade]

One of my cousin's wifes was in a car wreck today.
She had some of their children with her.
One of the 4 y/o twins passed away in the wreck.
My family is hurting.
My family is feeling a huge loss.
I can't get my daughter to answer her phone.
I know my Dad is a wreck.
I cannot imagine such a pain,
one I have been terrified of feeling for so very long.
A loss of a child ................
Very tragic. No words can comfort when a child is lost. I'm sorry for you and your family. *hugs*

[MaggieBluIze]

I could never understand what this must be like for you or anyone- HUGS and many prayers for you and all those lives touched by this...
So very very sorry...

Thank you so very much my sweet friend!!!
I am trying to keep from going insane by floating around here with family.

KC, I might lose my mind if Miranda doesn't answer her phone soon.
But you know how that has been with her, there has always been fear.
You've seen this journey with us.

I am so worried about my Dad and his health.
So much loss in our family and then the complete tragedy of a tiny 4 y/o.
Loss is never good, but you know how I mean.

Tonight will be a long night ... My heart aches I am not with my family.

Very tragic. No words can comfort when a child is lost. I'm sorry for you and your family. *hugs*

Thank you!
This is a loss I have feared for so very long.
I cannot even begin to imagine it.

[~ocean]

"something" I read was like a dagger going threw my heart ~ shame on u ~

[JAGG]

The threat of ice and snow tomorrow .:|

[KCBUTCH]

Thank you so very much my sweet friend!!!
I am trying to keep from going insane by floating around here with family.

KC, I might lose my mind if Miranda doesn't answer her phone soon.
But you know how that has been with her, there has always been fear.
You've seen this journey with us.

I am so worried about my Dad and his health.
So much loss in our family and then the complete tragedy of a tiny 4 y/o.
Loss is never good, but you know how I mean.

Tonight will be a long night ... My heart aches I am not with my family.



Thank you!
This is a loss I have feared for so very long.
I cannot even begin to imagine it.

Breathe and try to remember if you dont take care of yourself first-the help you can provide may not be as adequate as it could be
cuddle up and know Miranda has her own path and it will take her where it needs to
many many warm hugs and peaceful light to you and all those hurting.

[KCBUTCH]

a friend hurting due to loss

My own grief knowing this time she wont be coming home, as it sinks into my soul more and more.

[MaggieBluIze]

Breathe and try to remember if you dont take care of yourself first-the help you can provide may not be as adequate as it could be
cuddle up and know Miranda has her own path and it will take her where it needs to
many many warm hugs and peaceful light to you and all those hurting.

a friend hurting due to loss

My own grief knowing this time she wont be coming home, as it sinks into my soul more and more.

I thank you for your cherished words and complete kindness.

I wish you peace during these hard times you are going through right now.
You have a friend that is here for you, please always know this.

You are a true blessing to my life and to all that are blessed enough to know you.

((((((hugs))))))

[yotlyolqualli]

Checking out my FB page and seeing a post from someone who states emphatically that she "loves me"... (she's my cousin) but the post was.. "Radical Lesbian to Redeemed Christian". It felt like a slap in the face... like a violation... the sadness comes from having to make the decision to remove her from my FB page and distance myself from her.

Some posts, even some "anti-gay" posts, are done in such a way that it causes me to become constructively introspective... reevaluating how I think, feel and believe. But this post was destructive and negative. As if someone can "pray themselves straight"... it hurt.

[Sun]

One of my cousin's wifes was in a car wreck today.
She had some of their children with her.
One of the 4 y/o twins passed away in the wreck.
My family is hurting.
My family is feeling a huge loss.
I can't get my daughter to answer her phone.
I know my Dad is a wreck.
I cannot imagine such a pain,
one I have been terrified of feeling for so very long.
A loss of a child ................

So sorry for your loss. What a tragic event and by far the worst experience that a parent could ever know.

I will keep your family in my prayers and light a candle for the little one.

[StrongButch]

I have been struggling all week. Tommorow is the day my Dad passed away.

[TheMerryFairy]

Hearing about the 5 young lives that have been lost at sea.

[jcisbutch]

NOT A THING!!!!!

[Blade]

realizing today that the ole boy in the back yard is blind. I think he is about 13 or 14 yrs old. But the other old boy is older than him. When it warms up I'm getting in the attic and finding their registration papers to see how old they are.

[StrongButch]

Part of our tradition is when someone is to return to the Creator open a window and let them go 10 years ago I opened the window for my Dad

[MaggieBluIze]

Just returned from a 4 y/o family member's funeral.
Such a tiny little pink box.
1 brother not even able to be there due to still being in the hospital.
The 3 others in another room due to being too small to understand.
1 of those 3 wearing a neck brace, she was the only one that is actually okay after this tragedy.
A mom being led in w/uniforms and then having to go before the service was completed.
So many tears.
So much pain.

Mom walking into room where the children are
and you can hear over the prayer being said, "Mom!".
... This was my personal breaking point.

[KCBUTCH]

sending sooo much warmth, comfort and healing energies to you sweetie
I have no way to relate or understand but I am here...I can HUG and provide support...xoxo


Just returned from a 4 y/o family member's funeral.
Such a tiny little pink box.
1 brother not even able to be there due to still being in the hospital.
The 3 others in another room due to being too small to understand.
1 of those 3 wearing a neck brace, she was the only one that is actually okay after this tragedy.
A mom being led in w/uniforms and then having to go before the service was completed.
So many tears.
So much pain.

Mom walking into room where the children are
and you can hear over the prayer being said, "Mom!".
... This was my person breaking point.

[SoSousMe]

Seeing a video of My granddaughter in the hospital.. she was in a very serious car wreck on Jan 3. She was in a coma for 6 weeks, the doctors said there was nothing more they could do for her, then miraculously she started opening her eyes. She's since been moved to a rehab facility in Nashville and opens her eyes, opens her mouth, moves her head slightly to the music on her phone. I was sent a video of her showing her trying to speak, she can't speak, but she's trying so hard.. it just made Me break down. God Bless her.. she's a beautiful, sweet, amazing 20 yr old young lady with her whole life in front of her and it just breaks My heart to see her struggle like that. But I am so thankful she has come as far as she can. It will be 2 months tomorrow since her accident, and I pray every day that she will recover fully.

[starryeyes]

Having to sleep home alone tonight :(

[jac]

Having to say our goodbyes again. :(

We all get so moody and cranky... Goodbyes till next time blow!

It's back to work and school for all of us in the morning.....

Life continues as we are... 4 months remain till we no longer have these month long goodbyes. :(

[MissItalianDiva]

That I have far too much to do around the house to be able to hit the beach today....sad sad sad panda

[TheMerryFairy]

Knowing that I must have a conversation with somebody soon, this week, and it isn't going to be easy. All of my emotions stir. As sad as it makes me, I know it is right and what I need to do for myself. After the sadness comes confidence and a floating happiness waiting for me to feel free from the thoughts and the words.

[clay]

my BFF...and "that" conversation....I don't know what to say or to do....BUT I can damn cry, hug, and live in your heart! I love you, my fierce friend..my fucking best friend in the whole world...dammit....for one of the rarer times in my life...I am speechless...:blink:

[Cowboi]

Thinking about my Momma today. She died 20 years ago today.
I miss her so much.

[Ginger]

R stopping on the sidewalk, giving her heart a chance to slow down. We were fighting. If I really love her, I would .... tough choices make me sad.

[MaggieBluIze]

It is so very hard to see my cherished friends hurting
and not be able to help in any way.
I do hope they know I am here for them, always.
I'm sure that they do.
*sending out positive healing white light*
:praying:

I have not heard from Miranda since Sunday,
but this happens with her.
Doesn't make me miss her any less,
but this pretty much is a constant with her.

I'm sick.
I think like real deal sick.
Feels like the flu.
I think my body is just worn out
and telling me it needs a break.

There has been more news of my cousin's family.
So much pain, but love how they are pulling together strong.

:rrose:

[StrongButch]

That I had no choice but to walk away!

[Kenna]

when I woke up today I never thought I'd get that call muchless from my beautiful compassionate son. My heart is truly crushed. a grief never to heal. She left without me saying goodbye

[StrongButch]

That it has taken me this long to realize where I belong. I have to tell a very special woman tonight im moving back home.

[Kenna]

a young friend's cancer has moved to her bones. She's a young mom with so much zest and inner beauty! I've heard this news before with my bio mom 4 years ago... this hurts my heart deeply

[girl_dee]

Today, April 5 is my brothers birthday.

This day always hits me hard, i miss his so damn much.

The hard part is that he is alive.

Happy Birthday Brother wherever you are.

[wahya]

Not seeing my best buddy..my grandson.

[Library_girl]

Saying goodbye.

[SoSousMe]

her... angry with Me... knowing she'll never speak to Me again

[cinnamongrrl]

memories...

[StillettoDoll]

I recently found out that one of my coworkers, that I have been working with for 12 years, does not know how to read!
Amazing no one knew. That must be a difficult life to not know how to read.
Did you know that the poorest americans can not read.
And 65% of prison inmates or illiterate.
and 21 % of americans read below 5th grade level.
and 65% of illiterate people world wide are women.
Just something to think about:thinking:

[little_ms_sunshyne]

I recently found out that one of my coworkers, that I have been working with for 12 years, does not know how to read!
Amazing no one knew. That must be a difficult life to not know how to read.
Did you know that the poorest americans can not read.
And 65% of prison inmates or illiterate.
and 21 % of americans read below 5th grade level.
and 65% of illiterate people world wide are women.
Just something to think about:thinking:

I have read in a few books and articles that there are some states that use 3rd grade literacy rates to predict future inmate populations. I don't know how factual this is, but it makes me sad to even think about all those students that are just starting out their lives and someone out there is not even giving them a chance!

[StrongButch]

Yesterdays act of violence in Boston and around the world. We need to love not hate!

[Queenie]

My back.
And missing my sister.

[girl_dee]

the second brand new rancid unopened bottle of milk this week.

[wahya]

When someone tries to come between a mother & adult daughter fight.

[Cid]

Watching the morning news shows about the Boston attacks. That's so very sad and my heart goes out to all those that were affected both physically and emotionally.

[Kenna]

connections ...

also still waiting to hear news of a dear friend that runs in the Marathon as often as possible. waiting to hear, worried deeply

mind wanders back to connections that struck me today

[dixie]

realizations....... :(

[Fatale]

Crazy, injurious motherfuckers.

[Bèsame*]

saddens me...

Watching all the people effected by the explosion in Texas. This will go on all night.
http://localtvkfor.files.wordpress.com/2013/04/waco-plant-explosion-from-mariah-garcia.jpg?w=660

[WingsOnFire]

Words spoken that can not be taken back nor forgotten.

I am also over this day of work already but have 3 hours to go.. :(

[Apocalipstic]

An applicant when I am working stole my bank card, and used it for a lot of money and its taking so long to get it all sorted out.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

That it is payday and I have two weeks till the next one

[dixie]

Realizing just how painfully obvious some things are........

[ruby_woo]

It's sunny and beautiful; I wanna go out tonight. I want to meet new people. I want to go out on a date, which is something that hasn't happened in about a year. But instead of these fun things, I'm at home packing for my move. There's no dyke bar to go to in this city anyway. I know it's silly but it still feels blah.

[Cailin]

not being able to go to the Beltane festival.. :( sigh.. here's hoping for a fantastic samhain festival.

[alexri]

Southwest Airlines in flight wi-fi has blocked BFP. I couldn't catch up with posts on the plane. Boo.

[girl_dee]

hearing about cuts on funding to the domestic violence program here