What Made You Cry Today?

[Gemme]

Okay, I've gone through 37 PAGES of threads in this forum since the beginning of the site and there are threads on happiness and pissoffedness and disappointments and ones about what cracked you up and what you're doing but I saw nary one mention of tears.

Here are the ground rules: this can be what made you cry happy tears or sad tears or mad tears or tears for no reason or unknown reasons or too many reasons BUT this is NOT a thread to be passive aggressive and/or try to slide a jab at someone. Keep it clean, folks.

This is simply about you and the water and salt droplets you shed today.

[Gemme]

Now, for what started my search for crying threads:

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This song is sweet and sad and beautiful and the tears just trickled down as I listened to it.

Love this artist. Love this ditty.

[NorCalStud]

I cried for my human condition. Im not a super hero. I have episodes where I will don a torture coat and be in fear for awhile. I will be in agony and want a way out. I realize what I.am doing and cant rescue myself for awhile. Then I see they are feelings. I can do something about this that is healthy. I cried because I was dis---couraged(my courage was away). Then I cried when I realized I was in charge of my pain.

[nycfem]

Glad you started this thread, Gemme. I've always liked it. Last time I cried was Friday. BB was having issues with a relative and cried out of feeling hurt, so I started crying. To me there is just about nothing more painful than knowing my husbutch is hurting. All is well now, thank goodness.

[SleepyButch]

When I started on my journey home today... I cried.

[clay]

Thinking of all the women who unselfishly gave their lives and suffered incredibly for our Country...who are true heroines....I salute each and every one of you!!!.......I cry for you each one...(f)

[Kenna]

tomorrow I give my puppy to her new owner ...
we had some special cuddle quiet time today ...
I know this is for the best and that she'll be very well taken care of...
but it doesn't hurt less.
I've made many sacrifices and given up things and those I love because of hardships in my life or theirs ... this struck home even deeper because she won't understand why she's being pulled from her home and me... because this is one more time I've had to give up someone I love deeply.
such a sweet little love bug.
She'll be with a family who can get her medical care and spend more time with her ... but she won't cuddle with anyone like she does me. When Blade had to puppy sit her for a month, she didn't even cuddle with him like she does me.
I hope she bonds with her new corgy brother and momma...
I'll miss that little bed bug.

[*Anya*]

Not only the injury to my leg and the resulting sutures this morning but something I read this afternoon.

The latter, more painful than the former.

[morningstar55]

this makes me cry everytime i hear it...... makes me think of my daughter.
i loves her to pieces.... :)


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[Massive]

Admitting to the fear I'm feeling right now made me cry ...
After posting on a different thread I had to go stand outside in the dark to breathe and without even knowing it, I realised I was crying, to the point where I had to sit down or fall down. Doesn't happen often.
I'm glad I have this place as 'home' where I can admit to and talk about the things that I can't discuss with the people around me, it's not that they wouldn't care or wouldn't understand, I just don't want to burden them and have them worry more about me.
Thank you Gemme :)

[Elijah]

Loss and loneliness, sometimes it's unbearable.

[Glenn]

I don't know. I rarely cry. All I know is, something bad happens when I cry this hard.

[laruss]

That my daughters phone me when they panic about their babies. It feels so good to have them call me for advice and to get comfort on this new journey they are on.

My daughter was in a panic because her daughter threw up. All is well, they are trying new foods and she didn't like one.

Made me cry though... I didn't have that with my mom.

[sis]

I cried today when I thought of the two boys I was co-parenting. Break-ups hurt.

[Gemme]

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[Syr]

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Thanks............. ouch........

[Sachita]

Not today but yesterday and many days... I get overwhelmed, sad and cry over the amount of homeless and abused animals there are. As much as I support these venues I had to remove some groups and pages from my newsfeed on facebook because it has been just too much for me.

[weatherboi]

The video Daywalker made of all Our/our dogs. We lost two pack members in the past year. No more please!!!

[UofMfan]

This made me cry, laughing!

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[girl_dee]

tears over my falling apart.

[SelfMadeMan]

tomorrow I give my puppy to her new owner ...
we had some special cuddle quiet time today ...
I know this is for the best and that she'll be very well taken care of...
but it doesn't hurt less.
I've made many sacrifices and given up things and those I love because of hardships in my life or theirs ... this struck home even deeper because she won't understand why she's being pulled from her home and me... because this is one more time I've had to give up someone I love deeply.
such a sweet little love bug.
She'll be with a family who can get her medical care and spend more time with her ... but she won't cuddle with anyone like she does me. When Blade had to puppy sit her for a month, she didn't even cuddle with him like she does me.
I hope she bonds with her new corgy brother and momma...
I'll miss that little bed bug.

This. :(
My heart goes out to you today Kenna...

[Miss Scarlett]

Yesterday - watching a show on PBS about a group of WWII veterans returning to Belgium and Luxembourg for the 60 year anniversary of the Battle of the Bulge...

[lusciouskiwi]

Watched "War Horse" on dvd tonight. Cried. Lots.

[SleepyButch]

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This damn song made me cry. I'm really not one to cry but appears I've been doing it a lot lately or at least trying. I start and my body usually stops me before I can get a really good cry in. Hopefully one of these days...

keep putting up songs like that and I'm sure I won't have any issues.

[cinnamongrrl]

Watched "War Horse" on dvd tonight. Cried. Lots.

Thanks for the warning :(

[Leigh]

Some really crappy news today :(

[girl_dee]

tomorrow I give my puppy to her new owner ...
we had some special cuddle quiet time today ...
I know this is for the best and that she'll be very well taken care of...
but it doesn't hurt less.
I've made many sacrifices and given up things and those I love because of hardships in my life or theirs ... this struck home even deeper because she won't understand why she's being pulled from her home and me... because this is one more time I've had to give up someone I love deeply.
such a sweet little love bug.
She'll be with a family who can get her medical care and spend more time with her ... but she won't cuddle with anyone like she does me. When Blade had to puppy sit her for a month, she didn't even cuddle with him like she does me.
I hope she bonds with her new corgy brother and momma...
I'll miss that little bed bug.

(((((((( Kenna ))))))))))))

i am so sorry ! you are such a good, responsible owner, and selfless to give her a better life. You are right, no one will cuddle like you have. She will have good care and that is a good thing.

i had to leave my little pup when i left Oregon. It hurt like hell. There will always be that little space in my heart where July is. Even though, like you, she is in good hands i still miss my cuddle bug, and that is OK.

Big hugs.

[Ciaran]

I've been much more tearful and prone to crying (for a whole gamut of emotions from happiness to sadness and much inbetween) in the past 3 years or so than in the past. Not sure why.

Over the weekend, I cried once - at the cenotaph yesterday as part of Remembrance Sunday commemorations.


Interestingly, yesterday evening on BBC I watched a live interview with a British WWII naval veteran. He must have been in his late 80s / early 90s, still looked to have physical strength, was incredibly articulate and composed in detailing his memories of the comrades he had lost. Then, suddenly and without any warning, emotion took over and he burst into tears.

It was very poignant and, without words, said more than any platitudes or such like ever could. I don't think anyone who watched the interview could not have been touched nor to view his tears as any sign of weakness.

[jac]

I pretty much cry daily with the kids at the shelter. It's not a gusher of tears but my eyes definitely water and my heart breaks with some of the words they say and the things they've experienced. They don't deserve this crap hand they've been dealt.

[ruby_woo]

Good ole seasonal affective disorder. I really have trouble handling the 8 months of rain and gray that Vancouver has to offer. Seriously, where's my sun lamp? :(

[Gemme]

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[little_ms_sunshyne]

No matter who sings it...this song gets me every time...

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[lusciouskiwi]

Wonderful music, animation and love story.

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[StrongButch]

Toddler found in cage. WTF!

[starryeyes]

Waiting to hear the results of my ferrets heart x-ray.... While Animal cops is playing in the waiting room :/ what kind of vet shows this!??? Lol *tear*

[Gemme]

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[jac]

Laughing and being silly with kids in the kitchen at lunch and having a "comeback kid" brought through the entranceway worn down, sadness in his eyes, and just as sweet as ever...

I really hoped to have not seen him in the shelter again... but so glad he's back where he is safe and can be taken care of.

[Gemme]

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[Mistress]

HELLO.
IM NEW TO THE SITE BUT WHAT MADE ME CRY IS THE GIRL WHO HAS BEEN MY BESTFRIEND AND MY FIRST EVERYTHING SINCE WE WERE 14 AND IS STILL A GOOD FRIEND TO ME NOW CONTINUES TO BREAK MY HEART NOW THAT WE ARE 24. HAD IT NOT BEEN FOR THE WAY OUR FAMILIES WERE TOWARDS US AND EACHOTHER I HONESTLY BELIEVE WE WOULD BE HAPPY. AND STILL IN LOVE THIS VERY DAY BUT INSTEAD WEVE FALLEN SO FAR APART THAT IT HURTS MY HEART TO TALK TO HER AND SHE DOESNT NOTICE THE PAIN...

~MISTRESS~

[jac]

No need for crying today... wrong thread drop :sigh: So tired!

[Soon]

disappointment

[deb0670]

seeing the damage done to my van after the accident

[deb0670]

the loss of my indepence

[Gemme]

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[jac]

What made me cry today... Exhaustion.

Work
Finances
Health
Life

Not sure what a nervous breakdown feels like but I think this might... Nevermind.

I broke down and cried on my bus ride home. People don't know how to cope with this kind of thing but the compassion in their eyes... made me cry more. :(

[LaDivina]

Finding out that yet another of the three eaglets I fell in love with this past spring has died, electrocuted on top of a power pole. Senseless.

http://www.raptorresource.org/forum/index.php/topic,1614.0.html

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[lusciouskiwi]

The movie "Bicentennial Man". Need a box of tissues for that movie.

And, thinking about her.

[Nomad]

same thing as always ---- x 4

[cinnamongrrl]

I do recall crying today...but I can't recall why it was...may have been a movie....I just don't know....gosh it's bugging me now...I know I was at work...beyond that I have no recollection of the why....lol I guess it's past now....

[Gemme]

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[cinnamongrrl]

I cried from happy relief today.....

My lil Cricket got into some chocolate (that I left out...) and was feeling poorly...

This morning she is up and at em and eating again..... <3

Thank you God and St Francis

Blessed be...

:moonstars:
:praying:

[Teddybear]

I cried from happy relief today.....

My lil Cricket got into some chocolate (that I left out...) and was feeling poorly...

This morning she is up and at em and eating again..... <3

Thank you God and St Francis

Blessed be...

:moonstars:
:praying:


I was about to send u a text asking bout her

So glad she is doing better this morning

[Miss Scarlett]

Wonderful news!

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I cried from happy relief today.....

My lil Cricket got into some chocolate (that I left out...) and was feeling poorly...

This morning she is up and at em and eating again..... <3

Thank you God and St Francis

Blessed be...

:moonstars:
:praying:

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[Miss Scarlett]

The same thing that made me cry yesterday morning...story on the news about the NYPD Officer that purchased warm boots and socks for a barefoot homeless man...

[Glenn]

I don't know. I rarely cry. All I know is, something bad happens when I cry this hard.

Something bad DID happen appr. 2 weeks after this post. My beloved cat daughter died suddenly:(

[Miss Scarlett]

Something bad DID happen appr. 2 weeks after this post. My beloved cat daughter died suddenly:(

(((((Glenn))))) I am so very sorry...

[Leigh]

A song my sister played this morning.

[cinnamongrrl]

He Did'nt Have To Be Brad Paisley - YouTube

[Nomad]

Eddie Vedder

Israel Kamakawiwoʻole

Cake

Johnny Cash and June Carter Cash

Talking Heads

Adele (i might hate her so much)

Amy Lee and Seether

and Amy Lee on her own

and Walt Disney too

[firegal]

thinking about this holiday season.... the importance of every moment with lil sis. I want time to go slow.

When i look ahead the tears come...... but i,m gratefull

[WintergreenGem]

Words can cut deeper into the soul and mind then a knife through the heart. This too shall pass.

[kittygrrl]

Missing my mom(f)..this is excruciating:candle:

[GraffitiBoi]

Anger. I was so angry at one point today that it brought tears to my eyes. So I did some hard manual labor and then settled into a hot bubble bath, complete with candlelight and a book. Much better!

[cinnamongrrl]

A bad dream and the feelings it brought on.... (w)

[grenade]

I cried a few times at work today. We had our Christmas party for clients and it got emotional for me.

[Gemme]

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[clay]

Two horribly traumatic pet abuse stories BUT both with happy outcomes.
A senior Chihuahua was put into a crate, set outside in heat, in a trash barrel and almost was hauled to the dump. She WAS rescued by a passer by moments before truck came to get trash barrels...and will be adopted!!!
A pit bull puppy, tied to a truck..and the truck owner wasn't aware...it was dragged 2.5 miles I think it was...had traumatic limb fractures, facial injuries, etc. Arrived at a Pet hospital in critical condition BUT it, too, was able to be saved. It has casts on 3 of 4 legs...and will be adopted.
I cried for the babies.......bless the heroes for rescuing these babies...

[justkim]

EVERY.little.THING

[Medusa]

I am crying from laughing so hard.

I have been watching an Internet troll fight between Arkansans and just read the funniest fucking comment I have ever read on the Internet. I mean, it literally took me 10 minutes to write this post because I keep messing up!!

[lusciouskiwi]

Two horribly traumatic pet abuse stories BUT both with happy outcomes.
A senior Chihuahua was put into a crate, set outside in heat, in a trash barrel and almost was hauled to the dump. She WAS rescued by a passer by moments before truck came to get trash barrels...and will be adopted!!!
A pit bull puppy, tied to a truck..and the truck owner wasn't aware...it was dragged 2.5 miles I think it was...had traumatic limb fractures, facial injuries, etc. Arrived at a Pet hospital in critical condition BUT it, too, was able to be saved. It has casts on 3 of 4 legs...and will be adopted.
I cried for the babies.......bless the heroes for rescuing these babies...

This makes my blood boil.

[Blade]

It wasn't today but for 2 solid days and nights I cried with joint and muscle pain from this flu that I've had. I swear I have had car, bike, dirt bike, 4 wheeler and horse accidents that never made me hurt as bad as I have hurt this week.

[kittygrrl]

enough.......

[Gráinne]

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This was one of my Dad's favorite songs, about his ancestral home (well, he was everything in the UK) in Northern Ireland. I've thought of him a lot today.

[Ciaran]

This was one of my Dad's favorite songs, about his ancestral home (well, he was everything in the UK) in Northern Ireland. I've thought of him a lot today.

My mum used to sing that song to me as a lullaby when I was going to sleep. She grew up in County Down, the Mournes country which the song is about so always had an affinity to the song. The underlying sentiment of the song relates to the Northern Irish diaspora and contrasts the beauty of the Mournes in Northern Ireland to life in London.

Slightly ironic for me that I should find myself in London all these years later and, of course, continually missing my Northern Ireland.

[takehimaway]

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[little_ms_sunshyne]

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[Bella~Vita]

Christmas without my Mom, I miss her so much. RIP Mom ! I will put out your favorites Christmas ornaments and decorations just for you. I love you!(f)

[pajama]

I seldom, very SELDOM, almost NEVER cry. But today I wept in a way I haven't in over 11 years.

6 years ago, I got my ex a surprise puppy for her birthday. I had her convinced we were going to look at Labradoodles, which she realllllly didn't want. When we get to the house and walk to the back door, a big black head looks in. And the ex starts yelling "They're dobies, they're dobies." As we walked outside we were greeted by two of the biggest Dobermans I have ever seen. We went down the stairs of the deck and into the back yard. The litter was playing and kinda shying away. But then this one little red-head came right over and grabbed aholt of the ex's pant leg and tugged. Isabella Bleu came home with us that night.

While the marriage didn't last, the friendship did. And I cherished the visits I would get to see Bella. She had a ridge down her nose where her hair grew against the grain that she never out grew and two tiny white spots on her head where her brothers and sisters had bitten her. She had a big red nose that could always make me smile. She was big, her shoulders came to above my waist and solid. She was so smart, and fast. She loved catching squirrels, chipmunks, and even showed up at the back door one day with a deer leg someone had discarded on the property. Convinced it most definetly belonged in the house with her. She loved sticks, they belonged in the house too. LOL And used to pull our sweet ole Mo's bandanas off and eat them. LOL

Today, my beautiful, energetic, funny, sweet, Boo Raddly had what we believe was an aneurism and is gone. :bigcry: I knew when this day would come that it was going to hurt like hell. I don't usually get this attached to animals. But I always thought that it would be known. That I would have time to say goodbye to her. To tell her how much I loved her. Although I told her every time I saw her. I hurt for my sweet ex and her partner. Boo was her child.

Just waiting here for The Boy to get home. We didn't tell him yet because he is driving home from work in rush hour traffic and didn't want him to be distracted.

[Penelope]

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[Ginger]

christmas. I want the holidays to be over with.

[GreeneyedMe]

Memories....some good, some bad, some happy, some sad....another year almost gone...a new one about to begin...sigh....

[Gemme]

I seldom, very SELDOM, almost NEVER cry. But today I wept in a way I haven't in over 11 years.

6 years ago, I got my ex a surprise puppy for her birthday. I had her convinced we were going to look at Labradoodles, which she realllllly didn't want. When we get to the house and walk to the back door, a big black head looks in. And the ex starts yelling "They're dobies, they're dobies." As we walked outside we were greeted by two of the biggest Dobermans I have ever seen. We went down the stairs of the deck and into the back yard. The litter was playing and kinda shying away. But then this one little red-head came right over and grabbed aholt of the ex's pant leg and tugged. Isabella Bleu came home with us that night.

While the marriage didn't last, the friendship did. And I cherished the visits I would get to see Bella. She had a ridge down her nose where her hair grew against the grain that she never out grew and two tiny white spots on her head where her brothers and sisters had bitten her. She had a big red nose that could always make me smile. She was big, her shoulders came to above my waist and solid. She was so smart, and fast. She loved catching squirrels, chipmunks, and even showed up at the back door one day with a deer leg someone had discarded on the property. Convinced it most definetly belonged in the house with her. She loved sticks, they belonged in the house too. LOL And used to pull our sweet ole Mo's bandanas off and eat them. LOL

Today, my beautiful, energetic, funny, sweet, Boo Raddly had what we believe was an aneurism and is gone. :bigcry: I knew when this day would come that it was going to hurt like hell. I don't usually get this attached to animals. But I always thought that it would be known. That I would have time to say goodbye to her. To tell her how much I loved her. Although I told her every time I saw her. I hurt for my sweet ex and her partner. Boo was her child.

Just waiting here for The Boy to get home. We didn't tell him yet because he is driving home from work in rush hour traffic and didn't want him to be distracted.

It's always hits me so hard when it's an innocent that's lost, be it two or four legged or even winged baby.

(((((((((((((Ana and Boo)))))))))))))

[SleepyButch]

Just a lot of different things...

[Bella~Vita]

The Holidays, and the rest of stuff ..sigh

[Words]

A sappy Christmas song on the TV.

It's the first Christmas without Dad and each and every sappy Christmas song has me in floods of tears.

I feel so stupid. He was hardly the perfect father but he was the only one I had and I miss him so damn much.

And now I'm fucking crying again. I hate this. I really and truly hate this.

Words

[puddin']

another orphaned christmas makes me cry.

but, on da high side, i get to cook a christmas meal fo' 18 at work...

[Gemme]

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The song plus the story plus the quart of ice cream in front of me lead me to believe that the waterworks I've experienced aren't accidental. But still, they are here and this set them off.

[grenade]

I am always emotional this time of year. It doesn't take much to make me cry. Today was... feeling lonely, homeless guys in the freezing cold that thanked me for working with the disabled, my dad calling for his yearly memory that he has a daughter and inviting himself and ultra religious wife to my house xmas day.

[sara-bera]

#26randomacts - pass the love on.

[Prudence]

---A casserole dish. It was given to me many years ago by my best friend. She lost her life in December 4 years ago of lung cancer. I cherished her. I cherish this dish.

[GraffitiBoi]

The appropriate question, for me, would be 'What DIDN'T make you cry today?' I seem to be an emotional mess right now. LOL

[Nomad]

my sick dog
Christmas in a strange place
broken promises
my own stupidity and naivete
smugness and malice
people who take pleasure in the pain of others
that stupid Sarah McLachlan commercial with the frightened and hurt animals
over 300,000 deaths since 2003 due to our conflict in the Middle East
over 4 trillion dollars committed to that same conflict
impending bankruptcy and student loan default
the loss of a cherished memento
homelessness


reality
reality made me cry

[Dance-with-me]

Good tears: A completely unexpected and exceptionally generous and compassionate offer from a new friend, which brought forth a wellspring of emotions from deeply realizing that I am surrounded by love in my life, from new friends and old. It gives me hope at this rough time of year at the end of a brutally rough year, that there is hope of my finding that one special someone that I dream of - and deserve to have in my life.

[Canela]

~*Prayer*~




Thinking about the healing that I received last night at church...wow...

One of the ladies there, signs to music and it is so beautiful...she signed to Silent Night and O Holy Night and I mean to tell you, it was a very powerful anointed moment. I cried like a baby. I thought about Jesus. I know some people don't believe in Him but I do. And I thought about His birth, all the obstacles, how He came to be born on earth and died here too, crucified and resurrected so that I and others like me could be saved and look forward to eternal life.

It was this thought of childbirth against huge odds that reminds me of my own children's births, (high risk preganancies, among other things) and how we as mother's bear our babies for our own selfish or loving reasons as the case may be. Then they grow up, and they live their own lives and sometimes they bless us with grandchildren and that whole life cycle continues and keeps bringing more and more love and blessings...it's the gift that keeps on giving...lol

And so, this morning, as we get ready to celebrate the birth of my savior Jesus Christ, I'm cleaning and cooking and making everything ready like I used to every year since my children were born, I get to celebrate this holiday with another added little bundle of joy (still in the oven), but here nonetheless. The legacy, the life cycle continues and I am so very blessed. I am now no longer just the mother, but have been granted another title of love--that of Abuelita...Grandmother...Nana.

And I pray for everyone of you that you have this (and/or other) insurmountable joy in your lives especially today, but everyday, too, in your lives, and that you recieve the desires of your heart.

I just did.

Love and many blessings to you all--and Merry Christmas--

Canela

[Sachita]

I woman contacted me to care for her older dog while she went out of the country for 6 months to do something she always wanted to do. I gave her a fair quote and she said it was too much and that she would try and find someone to watch him. He's 9 years old and she's had him all his life. A week goes by and I emailed to just follow up and see if she found someone. She and her vet decided it was best to put him down because if she took him to the pound or in foster care he could spend his life in a kennel and she couldn't bare to do that to him.

I swear if she was standing in front of me I would have assaulted her.

[GreeneyedMe]

4 firefighters were shot this morning here in Rochester...2 have died, one has a shattered spine and pelvis...responding to a fire...the shooter was a convicted felon. He opened fire on all first responders...O.M.G...The fire spread to 7 homes....innocent peoples lives destroyed for no reason at all...I am so incredibly sad.... sad beyond belief, stunned. Families displaced, no home to be safe and warm in....one person is still missing and they are hoping there were no more victims in any of the homes.....please send prayers up if you would.....

[WintergreenGem]

Someone drunk driving on a freeway pulled over, turned around and drove about a mile before slamming head on into another vehicle. Yes, people were killed and children left without their parents and siblings. SAD!

[Katniss]

Watching the magic leave a child's eyes when they were told by their grandmother that there is no santa claus........

(F*ck bio-family. Next year me and my kid party in Vail, Steamboat Springs, Tahoe, etc....anywhere where "family" isn't....)

Katniss~~(experiencing the last holiday from hell borne of guilt and obligation)

[Miss Scarlett]

Happiness...

[Gemme]

Music. If nothing else loosens the tap on the waterworks for me, it's music. Whether it's because of grief or sadness, happiness or pure appreciation for a voice or lyric that grabs you by the jugular and won't let go until you give into it, music has the power to move me like nothing else.

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[Kätzchen]

it was earlier this morning...
listening quietly to music streaming
through to my ears and wandering
through photos and albums of things
my sons have given to me over the years
and the song below, was in the playlist
and tears spilled... funny how music
gives us the ability to connect more deeply
to our feelings...

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[laruss]

Watching Dear John, I bawled.

[Soon]

I cried in a terrible dream I was having...I made myself wake up but was gasping as I did. Horrible.

[ArtistLady]

My son acting like an a** and screaming at me over stinking politics. Is this really the same person I raised? He was such a sweet child. Grown children can really break your heart.

[Bleu]

Remembering my father and my best friend.

[cinnamongrrl]

I picked up a favorite book of mine, Merle's Door...I read the last page...

That book was one of many that I read in preparation for losing my dog, Matty.... it was all I could do in the form of self help...

I loved the book...but it made me profoundly sad...both the story and the memories it evokes.....

:moonstars:

[firegal]

Knowing there won't be another Christmas with my lil sis.

[starryeyes]

Seeing my Dad, and the state he is in. All alone and in a horribly abusive relationship and not willing to do anything about it. No wonder he's going half cookoo. I wish I could force him to come home with me, but I know I can't. He needs to make the first step. I'll be here when he is ready tho.

[Greyson]

Today, I stayed away from the news of the day and thought of my deceased Mom and Christmas past. I also enjoyed some of the now of today's Christmas with my now family. All of this, tears of sorrow and joy.

[Breezy]

These were good cries:

My Mama called me! I know my brother dialed the phone and held it for her, but my Mama called me!!!!!!

Later on, I was listening to one of my kids talk about this gift he was given and how he didn't expect it. Well, he left the room and I was alone, everyone is asleep, and I hear a noise behind me. I turn to look but no one is there. Then I realize I see the Methodist symbol on the floor on a white note atop a red card with a green ribbon.

I got up and before I picked it up, I immediately thought of my Dad who died 2 years ago. I picked it up and said to the room, "Do that again." The noise re-occurred and I knew it was my Dad saying here I am. You found the card, you didn't need me to make that sound again but I obliged you.
I cried like a baby.

And, last but not least, my youngest teen. We made chocolate cherry cheesecake together. She never wants to cook with me. It was the best! Yep, you guessed it, I cried.

[rockstar lover]

I just got home from seeing Les Misérables in the theatre.... :bigcry:

[Gemme]

Yesterday was one of those days. That kind of day that just when you recover from one experience, another one knocks you down again. Rinse, lather and repeat. All day. Some things were connected and some were not, but had the misfortune of occurring at the same time. Some were professional and some were personal.

Many a tear fell. Some came quietly, sweetly and some came noisily, clamoring for recognition. I don't think I'm finished but, for now, they are silent.


RlWOf8zamJo

[girl_dee]

still thinking about those poor firefighters who were gunned down. Maybe it hits home more than anything else because my beloved Syr goes out to calls all the time, and this could have happened.

Firefighters and their families make great sacrifices. i am sure being a first responder that there was never a fear of being gunned down after being paged to a call, a call to save lives, and possibly being a target.

Now there is.

[bkisbutchenuff]

Music....it is such an important - driving/guiding part of my life... This morning....melodies and lyrics....says it all about the past, present and the future!

[Blade]

writing a check for my property taxes....dang my checking account was looking so good....didn't really cry but it sure knocked the wind out of my sail

[Miss Scarlett]

My Mom...just yesterday I caught myself reaching for the phone to call her...wanted to share several recent happy events and news with her...I still talk to her but it would have been wonderful to hear her voice...

[cinnamongrrl]

This did....and while I was at work too!


http://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/found-long-lost-brother-171500313.html

[Gemme]

This did....and while I was at work too!


http://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/found-long-lost-brother-171500313.html

Yanno, until I read that, I hadn't shed one single tear today.

I blame you.

[Scottish MacDaddy]

Written by Nila on Dec. 29, 2012:


That girl, the one without the name. The one just like us. The one whose battered body stood for all the anonymous women in this country whose rapes and deaths are a footnote in the left-hand column of the newspaper.

Sometimes, when we talk about the history of women in India, we speak in shorthand. The Mathura rape case. The Vishaka guidelines. The Bhanwari Devi case, the Suryanelli affair, the Soni Sori allegations, the business at Kunan Pushpora. Each of these, the names of women and places, mapping a geography of pain; unspeakable damage inflicted on women’s bodies, on the map of India, where you can, if you want, create a constantly updating map of violence against women.




For some, amnesia becomes a way of self-defence: there is only so much darkness you can swallow. They turn away from all the places that have become shorthand for violence beyond measure, preferring not to know about Kashmir or the outrages in Chattisgarh, choosing to forget the Bombay New Year assault, trying not to remember the deaths of a Pallavi Purkayastha, a Thangjam Manorama, Surekha and Priyanka Bhotmange, the mass rapes that marked the riots in Gujarat. Even for those who stay in touch, it isn’t possible for your empathy to keep abreast with the scale of male violence against women in India: who can follow all of the one-paragraph, three-line cases? The three-year-old raped before she can speak, the teenager assaulted by an uncle, the 65-year-old raped as closure to a property dispute, the slum householder raped and violently assaulted on her way to the bathroom. After a while, even memory hardens.

And then you reach a tipping point, and there’s that girl. For some reason, and I don’t really know why, she got through to us. Our words shrivelled in the face of what she’d been subjected to by the six men travelling on that bus, who spent an hour torturing and raping her, savagely beating up her male friend. Horrific, brutal, savage—these tired words point to a loss of language, and none of them express how deeply we identified with her.

She had not asked to become a symbol or a martyr, or a cause; she had intended to lead a normal life, practicing medicine, watching movies, going out with friends. She had not asked to be brave, to be the girl who was so courageous, the woman whose injuries symbolised the violence so many women across the country know so intimately. She had asked for one thing, after she was admitted to Safdarjung Hospital: “I want to live,” she had said to her mother.

We may have not noticed the reports that came in from Calcutta in February, of a woman abandoned on Howrah Bridge, so badly injured after a rape that involved, once again, the use of iron rods, that the police thought she had been run over by a car. We may have skimmed the story of the 16-year-old Dalit girl in Dabra, assaulted for three hours by eight men, who spoke up after her father committed suicide from the shame he had been made to feel by the village. Or some may have done something concrete about these things, changed laws, worked on gender violence, keeping their feelings out of it, trying to be objective.

But there is always one that gets through the armour that we build around ourselves. In 1972, the first year in which the NCRB recorded rape cases, there were 2,487 rapes reported across India. One of them involved a teenager called Mathura, raped by policemen; we remember her, we remember the history and the laws she changed. (She would be 56 now.)

Some cases stop being cases. Sometimes, an atrocity bites so deep that we have no armour against it, and that was what happened with the 23-year-old physiotherapy student, the one who left a cinema hall and boarded the wrong bus, whose intestines were so badly damaged that the injuries listed on the FIR report made hardened doctors, and then the capital city, cry for her pain.

She died early this morning, in a Singapore hospital where she and her family had been dispatched by the government for what the papers called political, not compassionate, reasons.

The grief hit harder than I’d expected. And I had two thoughts, as across Delhi, I heard some of the finest and toughest men I know break down in their grief, as some of the calmest and strongest women I know called and SMSed to say that she—one of us, this girl who had once had a future and a life of her own to lead—was gone, that it was over.

The first was: enough. Let there be an end to this epidemic of violence, this culture where if we can’t kill off our girls before they are born, we ensure that they live these lives of constant fear. Like many women in India, I rely on a layer of privilege, a network of friends, paranoid security measures and a huge dose of amnesia just to get around the city, just to travel in this country. So many more women have neither the privilege, nor the luxury of amnesia, and this week, perhaps we all stood up to say, “Enough”, no matter how incoherently or angrily we said it.

The second was even simpler. I did not know the name of the girl in the bus, through these last few days. She had a name of her own–it was not Amanat, Damini or Nirbhaya, names the media gratuitously gave her, as though after the rape, she had been issued a new identity. I don’t need to know her name now, especially if her family doesn’t want to share their lives and their grief with us. I think of all the other anonymous women whose stories don’t make it to the front pages, when I think of this woman; I think of the courage that is forced on them, the way their lives are warped in a different direction from the one they had meant to take. Don’t tell me her name; I don’t need to know it, to cry for her.

[nycfem]

"What cannot be said, will get wept." (Sappho)

Stolen from: http://www.postsecret.com

[TheMerryFairy]

I cried this morning. After having a long night with only 2 hours of sleep, I had to force myself out of bed hangover and all to be at work JUST to do the paperwork. I hope I don't sound petty for I understand there are things far more severe which I could be crying over.

[SleepyButch]

I cried because a year that was not so great for me ended and a year with new beginnings started.

[Abigail Crabby]

Watching the Moopster curled up in her blankets - realizing this is the last time I will see her for awhile.....:bigcry::bigcry:

[clay]

I cried....for all of us....
I cried....to purge...for losses, gains, and life itself

[cinnamongrrl]

This song....and I have no idea why....

I Drive Your Truck - YouTube

[DMW]

I couldn't cause i was holding everyone else up. Even my Uncle.

[TheMerryFairy]

He fucking ate my candy! LOL There were tears of frustration streaming down my face. I think I had been holding things in for awhile.

[alexri]

Sometimes reality just smacks you in the face.

[KCBUTCH]

That song-she gave to me that said forever...she left one month and two days ago.

[TheMerryFairy]

That song-she gave to me that said forever...she left one month and two days ago.

I am so sorry. Remember that each of us has something to teach the others. Happiness will come to you again, remember you are the source.

[Bèsame*]

its time to smack it back...first on the right side then on the left. If that doesn't work...throat punch..lolSometimes reality just smacks you in the face.

[Bèsame*]

Its time for a new song....la la la laThat song-she gave to me that said forever...she left one month and two days ago.

[MaggieBluIze]

I cry when I start to ache from the missing of my beautiful daughter
and amazing grand daughter since they have moved out ...
I am so happy Miranda is starting to find her path in life,
but I just could not miss them more.

[chai~]

church moved me to tears this morning and having pms sure didn't help~

[cinnamongrrl]

A bad dream...and a memory...

[TheMerryFairy]

Knowing the site was back up and running! It was a great surprise

[laruss]

but then finding out that a friend was in the hospital when I had meant to contact her numerous times but was too "busy".

[cinnamongrrl]

Having to say goodbye to my car of over 2 years. She was my liberty when I came home to Mass and was rebuilding my life after the disaster it had become while I was away...
Figures I just named her...I won't name any others. It seems as soon as I do they die...or I'm stupid and sell them...

Goodbye, Careen. It was good while it lasted... rest in pieces... :(

I'm also saddened that all my Patriot's stickers will be lost with her too...not a good day...I feel like the fates are aligning against me...yet again...sigh

[KCBUTCH]

I cried twice today-
this afternoon knowing the my clients who needed to feel they were safe to explore their feelings while in treatment may not feel that way for circumstances I am hoping get answers on-due to managerial issues, not counseling issues.
AND JUST NOW-with the news the my LONG time dearest friend died a few hrs ago of a very very long fight with cancer.:praying:

[laruss]

Knowing that my daughter was upset. Knowing that her perception of what had happened was incorrect. Knowing that it didn't matter what had happened, but that her perception was her reality.

We then had a conversation about it and cleared it up and all is better now.

[rubygirl]

I KNEW this site would help me. I came back here after a very long time away and thought I could find comfort here and sure enough, I'm feeling a sense of support. I used to log in often and made many wonderful on-line friends and some real time friends. It's a sense of belonging.

I cried today because my son is rejecting me. The pain and hurt I feel is unreal. Never in my life did I ever think this would happen. His is only 14 and feels he "knows" it all. For the last year, he has been living elsewhere. There is no contact between us. I'm feeling so much pain that I'm finding it hard to come up with words to type. The tears are flowing, because this is the only way I know how to handle this.

To those who have taken the time to read this, thank you.

[cinnamongrrl]

I cried several times today....

Once while watching TV, I was watching a show about stalking (Somebody's Watching on ID) and it turned out the person being stalked got murdered by their stalker. :( I didn't expect that....

Then...

While coming into work, I saw the aftermath of a massive fire in an apartment complex Teddy and I had mused about checking out when we were out that way looking for a place...It's such an awful thing, house fires...tragic and devastating. My hearts went out to them. I have lost everything in a fire before. It's difficult to imagine things you have had (and loved) forever gone in just seconds...

[Kenna]

watching sweet little old Trippy sleep in a sunny spot and think how much I miss that four legged critter

[WintergreenGem]

I found out that an old friend of mine has brain cancer. I am saddened for him and worried. Not knowing what is going on is stressing me more.

[genghisfawn]

A close friend of mine took his own life on Sunday. I spoke with his sister early this morning, and we cried together. He was my first love, and that love recreated itself into a beautiful friendship.

He was an architectural and musical talent, a gentle man and a gentleman, and I grieve for him, his family and his baby daughter who'll never know him.

[Cid]

I'm much more fortunate than my friends here, my tears are usually from songs or just something heart warming. This morning it was watching the news showing Obama introducing his wife at the inauguration gala.

I think partly because it was so nice to see that kind of love and partly because I wish I had that in my life.

[cinnamongrrl]

The same thing that made me smile...we went to see Lincoln...What an amazing man...and an incredible story....

[cinnamongrrl]

I've just discovered the show Lonesome Dove....it's a wonderful series. I laugh and cry...but I'm doing more crying...

[Teddybear]

I've just discovered the show Lonesome Dove....it's a wonderful series. I laugh and cry...but I'm doing more crying...


Ur watching it without me??? That will make me cry

[sis]

Although it is a few days early, I passed out " Li Xi' today at work to my staff and co-workers. 'Li Xi' are the red envelopes containing money traditionally given as a gift for the Lunar New Year. The housekeepers at the school I work at earn USD$125.00 per month; I placed USD$10.00 in an envelope for each of them. They thanked me and had a look of shock/surprise on their faces. A bit later I walked towards the restroom and happened to look in the housekeepers room as they were just opening their envelopes. I stepped back and observed. The women all looked at the cash, looked at each other, looked back at the cash, again. They started jumping, giggling, talking excitedly .... the look of joy on their faces brought tears to my eyes. These women are extremely hard-working, considered on the low end of value in the work world, live a meagre existence. I had probably given them the cost of a bus ticket which will take them to their hometown, and their family, some 24 hours away - a place they only visit once a year and that's during the Lunar New Year which is happening this weekend. The women came up to me, group hugged me, kept saying 'thank you, teacher, thank you, Ms Deb' and as the tears streamed down my face I kept thinking of the wonderful gift I have received, the gift of observing true gratitude. My life is so blessed.

[laruss]

Our 90 lb puppy gets so excited and can be really hard to handle when he is.
I was putting him outside and was attaching his line (he jumps the fence otherwise) and he saw someone passing the house and he got so excited he lunged away from me. Stepping on my baby toe and ripping it open while bending it back. We both almost went flying down the stairs but I held on and got him attached and he went out to greet the passer by with excited barking while I sat down and cried and then had to clean up the blood. I then messaged my girlfriend for sympathy (she is really good at it). It hurt, and then I had to try and put a shoe on and go do my shopping at Costco, I was hobbling and cut the trip as short as I could. Yep I cried... because it hurt A LOT!

[maryam]

I bashed my knee into the gateleg part of our kitchen table. It's pretty owie and purple.

[JinxieB]

just finished watching the movie...Boys Don't Cry...and I can't quit cryin for that poor baby and for every person who has died at the hands of monsters who felt the need to prove a point or whatever their sick minds tell them to do...

Why does there have to be so much hate and anger? I guess if we knew the answer to that we would be millionaires..................

[cinnamongrrl]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=tfHhpnWDduc

I don't know if I did this right, but...if so...this made me cry buckets.... I'm a sentimental sort...

[starryeyes]

Waking up at 5am for work this morning. Wahhhh!

[Cid]

I went to see a psychic tonight and she told me that I'm doing a great job as a mom and that my kids are amazing kids. She also told me that they will do very well in school and have great careers when they are done.

[JustBeingMe]

having a disorder that I cannot "fix" that makes me more emotional that I wanna be and being looked down upon by people that think I am too emotional for being a Butch.

[cinnamongrrl]

Not getting to see my little girl today.....she was at my mom's for yet another birthday party I didn't get to attend... I just miss her a lot....she's still my little bug... (and she's 18 now)

[MissItalianDiva]

Dumb shit and poor choices..ready for today to end already

[AnnRkey]

Mostly her. I didn't cry but sometimes I feel like it when she says the fucked up shit she says. I know it isn't her fault her defense mechanism is to call names. I of all people should know all about defense mechanisms. And I should also know better than to get SUCKED into it and call names back. It's not her fault I can be an asshole sometimes too, I know it.

I always try and make it better, and I'm alway the first to apologize and beg to be in her good graces again. Ugh. Stupid women. Why do they always have what I want ....

[Kitten.With.A.Twist]

::hugs:: I wish I could undo that entire conversation yesterday. I feel terrible that you were upset by it.

[Cid]

Finding out that its going to be a few years before I find that one person who I fit with. I'm so tired of being alone.

[jac]

Fighting with my son today. He and I never fight with one another...

He has to know I care and love him very much. :bigcry:

[TheMerryFairy]

Lately when I cry, it's tears of joy or even an unexplainable comfortable energy.

[StrongButch]

I watched a video on Native American youth and the percentage of our youth commiting suicide. Its very sad.

[Gráinne]

For the last two months or so, a huge black stray cat has adopted my family. The kids named him "Izzy" and when the weather was warm, he enjoyed sleeping just outside the door or exploring. He would periodically come inside and was getting along at least peacefully with the other cat.

Yesterday, I found Izzy on his rug but he was holding a front leg off the ground and wasn't moving it. He also didn't meow for his breakfast as he always does. Today, when I saw no improvement, I took him to the vet. Someone had shot him in the leg :(. The vet said he needs to amputate the leg, and keep Izzy there for a few days.

The good news: He should be fine, and he's otherwise healthy. He'll just be a three-legged cat with a stump where the tail should be, and a notch in his ear.

The bad news: How do you tell even more worldly older kids that someone shot the cat? How do you explain cruelty?

I'm still so glad I took him in, rather than wait. He was suffering. Yes, it's $500, but I couldn't let him be killed, or put him down.

What cretin does this?

[starryeyes]

Seeing pictures of abused animals and shelter dogs on Facebook. I want them all :( Dogs are the most precious creatures on Earth (to me) and it is disgusting how people treat them.

[starryeyes]

For the last two months or so, a huge black stray cat has adopted my family. The kids named him "Izzy" and when the weather was warm, he enjoyed sleeping just outside the door or exploring. He would periodically come inside and was getting along at least peacefully with the other cat.

Yesterday, I found Izzy on his rug but he was holding a front leg off the ground and wasn't moving it. He also didn't meow for his breakfast as he always does. Today, when I saw no improvement, I took him to the vet. Someone had shot him in the leg :(. The vet said he needs to amputate the leg, and keep Izzy there for a few days.

The good news: He should be fine, and he's otherwise healthy. He'll just be a three-legged cat with a stump where the tail should be, and a notch in his ear.

The bad news: How do you tell even more worldly older kids that someone shot the cat? How do you explain cruelty?

I'm still so glad I took him in, rather than wait. He was suffering. Yes, it's $500, but I couldn't let him be killed, or put him down.

What cretin does this?

I had a neighbor kid break my chihuahuas jaw, for no reason. I dislike people more and more everyday. I am so sorry about your kitty. I will be thinking of him!! (Hugs)

[MaggieBluIze]

What made me cry today?

The novicaine did not "take" in my dental appointment.
The work getting done hurt so very bad.
The shots to get the novicaine 1st an 2nd set, hurt so bad.
:toothache:
Okay, done whining, but thank you for listening.

I'm going to go pout for a bit now, then get back on the phones for work.

Have a :praying: day!

[Ginger]

I cry when my baby cries.

[Gráinne]

I can't edit my post above, but I just found out that Izzy did fine in the surgery, and will probably come home tomorrow :). The leg was a mess; we did the right thing. Oh, and the vet saved the damn buckshot that someone shot him with.

I know his name has sort of stuck, but frankly, he'll be "Tripod" from here on out.

[maryam]

The Woman of Qumar episode from the West Wing. Love the West Wing, but sometimes it hits you right in the feels. Of course, that's why we <3 the West Wing.

[maryam]

I can't edit my post above, but I just found out that Izzy did fine in the surgery, and will probably come home tomorrow :). The leg was a mess; we did the right thing. Oh, and the vet saved the damn buckshot that someone shot him with.

I know his name has sort of stuck, but frankly, he'll be "Tripod" from here on out.

Thank you for taking care of Izzy the Tripod.

[Miss Scarlett]

"My Dog Skip"

[TheMerryFairy]

I had a great day but it was so busy that I cried when I realized how little time I had to get ready for a very special event. I made it on time :)

[maryam]

The Van Gogh episode of Dr Who... At the end when they take him to the museum and they ask the Curator what he thinks of Van Gogh... Oh the FEELS!

[firegal]

listening to my lil sis wife telling me her fears about life without my sis....she love her so much....we must be there for each other

[jac]

Two things:

A scene from Good Will Hunting (it always makes my eyes weep...) and this status a friend sent her partner this morning on FB...

"Do you know what I love about you? Your strength, compassion, commitment, humor, sarcasm, honesty, courage, creativity, modesty, charm, talent, passion, pride, thoughtfulness, selflessness, gratitude, endurance, positivity, your beauty from the inside out. You are worn down from the cancer, treatment, and side effects and I see and feel your struggle. You don't feel like you and you say you don't look like you. To me you look amazing... you look like a cancer fighter... a cancer survivor. The side effects will go away in time and there will be no visible sign of the battle you fought but for now I want you wear your fight like a badge of honor. That puffy face, the nose bleeds, the fatigue, the mood swings, the pain are all your medals of honor... wear them proudly as they are the visible sign of a fight well fought. You are the woman I love and you do still look like the woman I fell in love with. You tell me she is in there somewhere but I see her everyday standing front and center on the battlegrounds defeating cancer. I could not be more proud of you or more in love when I look into your face and know that you are my here and now and my forever and always. Every side effect promises me a future with you by my side so I say bring it on! We've got this! The side effects will go away when the treatment stops and the treatment will stop when the tumor is dead and that will be so very soon. Hold on baby we are almost there... hold your chin high as you are a pure sight of amazing beauty that I adore each and every moment of each and every day!! ♥ ♥"

I'm just really sensitive this morning... :bigcry:
:eatinghersheybar:

[morningstar55]

OMG...... this made me cry .... im such a sap ..

9hnbmml8fOY

[TheMerryFairy]

I cried when I had that terrible zombie dream. I think I need a break from walking dead talk.

After I woke, I was able to cry tears of joy or maybe anticipation for all of the dreams I am going for in terms of my business projects, community involvement and for my own well being.

[Miss Scarlett]

"My Dog Skip"

It's a movie about a boy and his dog...

[lusciouskiwi]

It's a movie about a boy and his dog...

If you like dog movies Miss Scarlett, I highly recommend a wonderful Australian movie "Red Dog". But you'll need tissues.

[StrongButch]

I dont think I have anymore tears. I have cried all day. My Dad was my best friend!

[jcisbutch]

hurt feelings...my choice but stung none the less...

[Contessa]

A bundle of things all at once..Makes ya wanna turn off the dayum radio!! Dang those sad songs..

[TheMerryFairy]

I was feeling really sick and stressed. It's better for the most part now.

[Contessa]

I was feeling really sick and stressed. It's better for the most part now.

awww c'mere Merry (((((((((((((MERRY)))))))))

[TheMerryFairy]

awww c'mere Merry (((((((((((((MERRY)))))))))

((((Contessa)))) Thank you for the hug! I hope you are feeling better now too. I know how hard it can be when a bunch of things happen at once and emotions take over. Radio songs really can be a trigger!

[pajama]

My Mom passed away. We had been mourning the loss of the woman she was for several years. But it still hurts. Specially since I was almost there, 5 more minutes and I would have been with her. *sigh*

[LeftWriteFemme]

YXfMwwyuY18

[TheMerryFairy]

Being generally overwhelmed and emotionally disconnected. I didn't know how to help friends or what I could do to break out of that mood.

[femmeInterrupted]

Hugging my son good bye. Reading week is over, and he's back to University. We both really miss each other. I'm so proud of him, but it's hard to see him go at the same time.

[Kätzchen]

Later on this evening I'm going over to my gay man friends' home that he shares with his partner and long-time lesbian friend and her partner....

I always break down in tears of laughter when I hang out with them:
They're such kind, loving souls who found love late in life after cazillions of attempts to find a life long love to share. Their stories give me hope. Their kind of humor keeps me sane...
(for a moment or two or three or four ;) ).

:)

[laruss]

We have two sick puppies and one seems to be in renal failure. He is my baby and I am just sick about it. I sat and cried with him this afternoon. He feels so awful, just lies and shares space mostly. We may have to put him down this week and the thought is so horrible to me.

He was an abused dog that my girlfriend took in years ago and he has become very lovable to family. He can be quite vicious to strangers, but he has loved me since my first visit and we have been inseparable.

[Glenn]

I have cried today, and everyday lately. I must move away to I don't know where, and cannot take all of my 12 furkids (cats) with me (unless I can hide them all from my new landlord somehow).The shelters are all full, they said, and have advised me to make a 'sophies choice' between which kids come, and which to abandon to starve outside, or put my kids, who have always loved and trusted me, to "sleep."

[girl_dee]

today.... a long lost friend died of cancer today. She fought really hard.

My mom having a bad day.

Life is too damn short.

[TheMerryFairy]

This toothache or infection, whatever it is. I hope it heals soon.

[SnackTime]

Knowing the final phase to Mom's resting place will soon be finished.

[Velvetkitten]

Realizing My only son is moving across the country in 3 weeks, my Daughter is getting married in 2 months and my Mom is starting to lose her memory

[maryam]

PMS. :chocolate:

[starryeyes]

Listening to the Michelangelo Signorile show on OutQ. It was all about parents not accepting their gay children. It really hit home for me, and I started crying in the Starbucks drive thru line. He was pretty much saying that if they don't accept you, they don't love you and don't deserve you and to move on. I love my family, but his points were valid. I almost called in to talk about my Easter experience this year, but decided not to. I was too shy.

[Gemme]

TJUSKdpWks8

[girl_dee]

my mom having another hard day, and me fearing the meds are not working

missing my loved ones

those dang commercials of the animals in shelters

[Hollylane]

US animal activist laws 'may impact globally' (http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-22098224)
By Matt McGrath Environment correspondent, BBC News

Animal rights activists in the US have told the BBC that so-called "ag-gag" laws could be copied in other countries including the UK.

The laws are designed to limit undercover investigations on factory farms by campaigning groups.

Around a dozen states have passed or are proposing legislation banning these activities.

Supporters say they are designed to protect the privacy of farmers and agriculture businesses.
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Such atrocious public policy sets a dangerous precedent for UK industry, as does the introduction of US-style mega-farms.”

Ben Williamson PETA

Large, intensive factory farms have shown significant growth in the US over the past 20 years. Between 2002 and 2007 the total number of livestock on the biggest of these farms grew by more than 20%.

But concerns over the conditions in which cattle, pigs and poultry are raised and slaughtered have prompted many animal welfare groups to mount undercover investigations.
Candid cameras

Because there is no single US federal law that protects animals, welfare investigators have played a significant role in bringing public attention to inhumane practices.

In 2008, a distressing video of staggering cattle secretly recorded at a California slaughter plant led to the biggest meat recall in US history. Last year a recording from a pig farm in Wyoming was used to secure convictions against a number of workers for cruelty.

However in Utah and Iowa the undercover recording of videos like these is now illegal. Several other states including Indiana, Arkansas and Pennsylvania are considering similar laws. Other provisions in these bills require prospective farm employees to disclose any link to animal welfare groups.

These regulations are already having an impact, says Cody Carlson, a former investigator who has documented inhumane activities on farms in several US states.

"When I applied for a job in Iowa in 2009 and they asked me if I had any affiliations to animal protection groups, I would have had to say yes, I wouldn't have gotten the job and I wouldn't have been able to expose the conditions that raised questions about the egg industry there," he told BBC News.

"It is exactly what these industries want - they want to shut down the conversation that's going on about what is happening with the animals we raise for our food."

In California an animal welfare bill, doesn't appear to be as restrictive as many of the others under consideration. It is supported by the California Cattlemen's Association and it requires anyone who records video or other evidence of cruelty to turn it over to the authorities within 48 hours.

But campaigners are highly sceptical, arguing that requiring the handover of material so quickly would undermine an investigation and prevent the collection of wider evidence of inhumane behaviour.

"They've done a clever twist on it," Charity Kenyon from the Slow Food Movement told BBC News.

"They want to make it look like their concern is animal abuse, but it is all part of the same deal which is to prevent ongoing investigations of the type that ended in the largest recall of beef in the history of the US," she said.
Global impacts

Welfare groups say that the American Legislative Exchange Council is the moving force behind these laws. This group supports conservative causes and promotes legislation to limit the role of government.

They have described animal rights campaigners as terrorists. They support the laws because they believe investigators are threatening the privacy rights of individuals and businesses. However they declined to be interviewed by the BBC for this article.

While the "ag-gag" laws are primarily designed to have impact within the US, many feel they will also have an impact outside the country.

"As factory farming spreads like a plague around the world," said Matt Rice from Mercy for Animals, "international agribusiness interests will certainly attempt to import America's ag-gag laws along with its tainted meat and animal abuse.

"The UK and other nations should be on high alert."

In the UK, Peta the animal welfare charity said these US laws were "shameful".

"Such atrocious public policy sets a dangerous precedent for UK industry, as does the introduction of US-style mega-farms," said Peta's Ben Williamson.

"Legislators should instead be passing laws to require cameras in all abattoirs and factory farms in order to catch animal abusers," he said.

Others are concerned that if these laws are passed, consumers around the world will no longer be able to trust that exports of US agricultural products are produced without cruelty.

"A significant amount of meat, dairy and eggs produced on US factory farms goes to foreign countries," Matt Dominquez, from the Humane Society of the US told BBC News.

"Anyone who consumes animal agricultural products imported from the US should be scared. This prevents them from knowing what's going on - it blocks an entire industry from transparency."

[Daktari]

Difficult feelers :|

[Gemme]

Emerson's story. (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/the-pet-collective/abused-dog-keeps-running_b_3066139.html?ncid=webmail32)

[WingsOnFire]

Hearing this play on my phone...

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[The_Lady_Snow]

This %#^% cold day...

[girl_dee]

a certain song.........

[candy_coated_bitch]

The fact that sometimes the person you love can turn into the biggest ass hole in the world during a fight. :(

[sierragirrl]

a friend from school had a stroke and was flown to UCSF.
they had to drill into her skull to releave the pressure
she has 3 little girls one of them is my youngest daughters age
and is a bit on the chunky side we talk about how our girls are
treated and such
the other two are just 2 and a half
my heart breaks for the babies
how they must miss their mom
as of now none of us know if she is going to pull thru this
and if she does if she will still be a functioning mother
to top this all off there is no health insurance as they own a
small buisness..
people from school have been posting pics & stories for the past week and a half
i try my hardest to read thru the tears
we are a small community up here and it seems everyone knows each other
so many prayers and light are sent everyday
she just has to pull thru this
she just has to..(w)

[Daktari]

Frustration and disappointment.

:watereyes: <<<my unafraid to show real emotion with tears face.

[cinnamongrrl]

Frustration at my own inability....

[torchiegirl]

the cost of college tuition.



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[StrongButch]

I fractured a bone and it hurts like hell. I cant get comfortable and im super friggen bitchy! They gave me pain pills but it still hurts.

[AnnRkey]

Marley and Me.

[MysticOceansFL]

The passing of my brother in law

[StoneOne]

Mary Thom died today
She was on her motorcycle and went down
I am sad
She died doing what she loved
:watereyes:(f):rrose:

[*Anya*]

Reading the Grieving your pets thread made me teary.

All the dear dogs and cats that we have loved and will love forever.

:dog:

:cat:

[midwest chick]

A person dying in the hospital, her family aware of her impending demise, and she was alone, except for staff at the end. The television was on a Catholic religious channel, and she left after mass this morning. She was an elder, and had celebrated her last birthday while in the hospital. Cards, balloons, notes and stuffed animals held vigil with the nurses; the family members didn't respond to the telephone messages to please call the ICU.

I used to think that I would prefer to die alone, to save my family a small part of the grieving process...don't look, and it won't hurt. That isn't true, of course. It robs those who are close, of the celebration of the life/love/foibles, the uniqueness of the individual. It steals the last chance to forgive, or be forgiven, to laugh or cry (or both) over special times and memories.

and it happens all the time...

[~baby~doll~]

A simple kindness with a love note signed with a lipstick kiss.

Also post #221 by midwest chick.

[StrongButch]

It makes me sad that our grandchildren and children have to grow up in a world and ask questions like Grandma will there be anymore bombings. WTF!

[RNguy]

A person dying in the hospital, her family aware of her impending demise, and she was alone, except for staff at the end. The television was on a Catholic religious channel, and she left after mass this morning. She was an elder, and had celebrated her last birthday while in the hospital. Cards, balloons, notes and stuffed animals held vigil with the nurses; the family members didn't respond to the telephone messages to please call the ICU.

I used to think that I would prefer to die alone, to save my family a small part of the grieving process...don't look, and it won't hurt. That isn't true, of course. It robs those who are close, of the celebration of the life/love/foibles, the uniqueness of the individual. It steals the last chance to forgive, or be forgiven, to laugh or cry (or both) over special times and memories.

and it happens all the time...


We have the most gratifying , most depressing , most stressful, most disgusting , most Amazing jobs being nurses , ya know . Start a nurse thread for us to post and get it all out , vent , laugh and such. Not many understand the intensity of our Jobs , especially icu .

[Velvetkitten]

My son left this morning to start his new life across the country and though I am happy for him I will miss him something fierce.......

[pajama]

posts on FB, texts, and trying to figure out what I'm going to do today without my friends

I love the gatherings, but the partings are getting harder and harder

[maryam]

It makes me sad that our grandchildren and children have to grow up in a world and ask questions like Grandma will there be anymore bombings. WTF!

Me too. I thought we were supposed to be past this by now. Sometimes I think our enlightened times are not very enlightened at all.

[maryam]

Looking at the pictures from Wilcox County's First Integrated Prom on Facebook. (https://www.facebook.com/IntegratedProm2013?hc_location=stream)

They were happy/sad tears... Sad because this is frelling 2013 and integrated Proms should't be a Thing in this day and age. The fact that there are still a few of them in this country is shameful.

BUT happy tears because hello? Awesome integrated Prom! Planned and thrown by the kids themselves. (Kids these days! Are awesome!) Loved the pictures and loved some of the dresses... If I were ever to have a chance to go to a Prom (because I missed both of mine) I would want something like that awesome tiered peachy one.

[makinlove]

Went to have a temporary crown replaced with a permanent crown. Ended up having a 3 hour surgery. 20 shots and 35 stitches later....I cried during the shots to the roof of my mouth. Had no idea it hurt like that! And I never cry!

[maryam]

Went to have a temporary crown replaced with a permanent crown. Ended up having a 3 hour surgery. 20 shots and 35 stitches later....I cried during the shots to the roof of my mouth. Had no idea it hurt like that! And I never cry!

Aaawe, I hate dentist stuff too! Did they root canal you? I had to get one last time that happened to me. For what it's worth, I cried too! Hope you're better soon!

[Queenie]

What made me cry today?

My pain. I am so fucking sick of being in pain! I dont see an end in sight with my pain. I wake up in pain and I go to sleep in pain. You'd think after 5 years I would be in less pain. All the doctors I see cannot seems to do anything about it. I really think some of them think I am just a drug seeking moron. UGH!!!!!!

[makinlove]

Aaawe, I hate dentist stuff too! Did they root canal you? I had to get one last time that happened to me. For what it's worth, I cried too! Hope you're better soon!

No root canal thank goodness! Bone graft and removal of 3 failed implants. Thank you I am actually feeling ok, not really any pain but I do look like I was in a boxing match.

[Queenie]

No root canal thank goodness! Bone graft and removal of 3 failed implants. Thank you I am actually feeling ok, not really any pain but I do look like I was in a boxing match.


Ouch! Get some frozen peas. They really worked last year when I had my jaws reset. Yes, it was painful!

[maryam]

The unexpected death of a very good friend from High School. Woke up this morning to a phone call from her mom. It's a beautiful spring day outside and it seems wrong somehow, that it's spring and Dana's going to miss it.

[cinnamongrrl]

Today I found out that my 1st/2nd grade teacher passed away about 5 years ago... I had been trying to locate her online. I so wanted to see her again and thank her for giving me such a wonderful educational foundation....

[Kätzchen]

It was this afternoon, while making something to eat for my youngest son and I.
I was sharing a very real concern with my son that will affect the two of us and out nowhere, he told me not to worry - that he'd take care of it, if push came to shove. Which, of course, then he followed up with telling me something that touched my heart so deeply. He realises how incredibly hard it's been on me over the years, being the sole provider of our little family and that while, proverbially, his hands are tied at the moment, he says to me that everything will be okay. Then he hugged me.

And then, my tears fell.

[WingsOnFire]

A song that made the walls crumble a little and was just what i needed to hear.

[Hollylane]

Watching her go, and knowing I won't wake up next to her tomorrow.

[SugarFemme]

I have had myself all geared up for almost week, to get the MRI on my C-spine and shoulder. I am in excruciating pain and they cannot fix it till the MRI confirms when the doctor thinks it is. I get to the MRI place. Get undressed. They put me on the tray and push me in to the magnetic abyss, and NOTHING happens. The machine is BROKEN. Oh did I mention I am seriously claustrophobic and it takes a lot of meditation and positive thinking to even be able to do the damned thing. Now I have to start all over again at a new place. And how was YOUR day LAO

[sis]

Missing the two children who were a part of my life for five years. Mother's Day is really hard for me.

Deb

[Queenie]

I just watched the last half of last weeks ep of The Big C.
I sobbed at the end of it. If any of you have seen it then you know why.
It's been really painful for me to watch the last season of The Big C. Because of what I have gone through with losing my father to cancer when I was 16. You'd think after all these years that watching something like The Big C wouldn't be all that painful. Ah no!

[Glenn]

My ex wife's admit pic from a psych facility her brother sent me today. She has schizophrenia, and has been missing and homeless, living on the streets, for the past three years. She was nearly unrecognizable to me, and looked sooo bad, I almost vomited.

[starryeyes]

I cried today. Ugly cried....

I was, again, not invited to an outing with my sister, niece, nephew and mom. They are all hanging out at the Strawberry Festival in Vista, about 15 minutes from my house having a grand ol' time. And, again, I found out on Facebook :|

I called my mom, and she confirmed she was with my niece and nephew in the kid zone watching them play. I started getting upset and crying and asked why I wasn't invited? She said they both decided to go last minute, and just "forgot" to ask, but I should come now that I know about it.

hmm... really? Because I wasn't invited. I feel like the only reason they want me to come is because I was upset. It's a shitty feeling. I feel like ever since coming out, I have lost my family. Its sucks. I had an ugly cry... unfortunately, right when Justin was leaving for a memorial service, so I had to ugly cry alone. :(

My sister texts me, asking me not to be mad, they just planned it last minute... I text her back saying, "I am not mad, I am very, very sad. I feel always left out, excluded and I feel like I have lost my family" I get a text back from her saying "i feel like I have lost my sister... I haven't been around... i haven't been to my niece's soccer games.. and so on"

My sister lives an hour North of me. The soccer games start at 8am. I am not a morning person. Yes, this is not a good excuse, but it is the truth. And, Justin has NEVER been invited, only me. So it's a sucky situation.

What she doesn't realize is, and can't possibly understand, is the hurt one feels when their other-half is not acknowledged (which is the root of all this). My sister and family did not meet Justin until 2 years into our relationship. When I am invited (on the rare occasion) Justin is not. We were not invited to Thanksgiving or Easter. My family lives in Carlsbad, which is only 15 from me. This hurts.

I have some responsibility in it. I have a lot of issues and insecurities about coming out to my family (grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins). My father came out as Gay (well, was outted) when I was about 13. I had to listen to my family make horrible remarks about him and calling him Faggot. He and his partner were always the butt of the family jokes. My dad is no saint, and his partner is horrific so they deserved some of it, but not because they are gay... because they are jerks. There is a difference.

Anyways, because I hold these memories, I get insecure. I wish I could just "show up" for the family Thanksgiving with Justin without an invite and say "Here I am!! Like it our not, you can't shun us!!!" but I don't have that confidence, and I start sweating even thinking about it.

Now, I am out on Facebook. I post pictures of us. I have a "relationship status" so I know they know. This was my way of "coming out" without having to announce it in the middle of Christmas dinner. I did not know any other way to do it that I was comfortable with. Still, no one has said anything to me, asked me about it, or acknowledged it.

Anyways... I'm going in a million different directions with this post. I guess I just needed to get this off my chest. This is what happens when one had ADD and is upset at the same time.. lol.

My sister texted me and asked me if we could go out to lunch to talk. She is picking me up in an hour. I know its going to be an ugly cry talk, but at least I can get some stuff off my chest and maybe we can get on the same page. I miss her and my family. I just want them to accept me, Justin, our life and I want things to go back to normal, like when I was married to my husband Ryan. Ahhh.. those were easy times! I hope we get there.

And to think people actually think we "Choose" this life. I wish they could walk a day in my shoes.

Rant done.

[SugarFemme]

Waking up to an almost 100 pound sick dogs poop ALL OVER the house this morning. I so did NOT need it today. It's been such a rough shitty week anyways, I did not need a physical representation of the aforementioned shit LMAO.

[Velvetkitten]

Being so far away from the one I love...

[cinnamongrrl]

Watching shows about the Titanic on History....

[girllikeu2]

A Tribute to the life of Bella Rodriguez-Torres - YouTube

[~baby~doll~]

discovering a warm and beautiful friend who in her goodness stood up for me when i was incapable. a gesture so touching. tears yes and tears again with the thoughts.

[Daktari]

Being over-sensitive...then mah eyes leaked...bugger it!! :blush: :sunglass:

[Words]

I bought a dolls house off of eBay and was annoyed because the seller hadn't responded to my request for a contact number for collection purposes for several days. Anyway, I requested his number from eBay and gave him a call. Again, no response. Until this morning.

Turns out the wife of this obviously very elderly (and extremely sweet) gentleman had a passion - and I mean passion - for dolls houses, and this was her final project. Great. Except she died in February and now he can't bear to look at it but at the same time wants it to go to someone who will cherish it. And his reason for not getting in touch before? He's been in hospital being treated for cancer.

It was all I could do to get off the phone without bursting into tears.

Words