If you really knew me
 

you would know...
I am a genuine person. I would give my friends the shirt off my back if they needed it. I truly am a protector by nature. I do not like to see even strangers hurting and will I tell you I am here for you I mean it and am not hitting on you. I love all different types of people but can not stand any type of intolerance. That my true friends are my family and that family comes before I do sometimes. That my bio family is not anything I would wish on my worse enemy however, I am there for them when they need me. I adore my nieces and nephews and that they are my friends on FB so that I can make sure nobody is trolling after them and so that they can always reach me.
you would know..
That just because I id as masculine I do not hate all men or women that id as lesbians. That just because I male-id does not mean you can't hurt my feelings or that I don't cry. That although part of who I am includes being a Dom and Daddy that does not mean I am not Old School or that I would ever force anyone into an experience they did not want to be in. That I have been in relationships with butches and bois in the past and I am not ashamed of it.
you would know..
That I do not go into chat on here. Why I am still awake after being up for 22 hours straight. That although I change my about me often does not mean I have changed just that I am sharing new information about myself. I love music of all genres. It is not the genre that draws me in but the beat and the lyrics.
My favorite color
My favorite scent on me
My favorite scent on you
When I finally tell you I love you I mean it they are not just words to me.

I can't stop laughing. This really cracked me up. You're awesome. :superfunny:

If you really knew me, you'd know that I've never given up hope for the one who's my other soulmate, other half, etc. Even though I've set myself up plenty of times for hurt and disappointment, I still hope and desire that for myself.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm my own worst enemy. No one can hurt me any more or punish me any more than I punish myself.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm more than a name on a screen. I'm more than the words I type, and gee, I actually have feelings.

If you really knew me, you'd know I struggled with depression. I can function okay and not have to struggle with getting up in the morning, but this has been something I've had to deal with since I was a teenager.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I came from an abusive family. My father drank, he was mean when he drank, so I'm sure you can put two and two together. I haven't spoken with him since 1994 (my choice), and I'm better not having that bullshit in my life.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I wished that I was less wound up and uptight pretty much all the time, and people can feel that when they're around me. It's not much fun for them, either.

If you really knew me, you'd love me.

What does having a masculine ID have to do with not hating "all men or women that ID as lesbians"??

If you really knew me
 

You would perhaps understand why silly little things are so important to me.

If you really knew me, you'd know why I have no pity for almost anyone, even though I think I'm pretty compassionate. Pity is just not in my vocabulary.

IYRKM, you'd know when you lose my attention, but you wouldn't take it personally.

IYRKM, you'd know I'm long-winded and there's much more to come...

If you *really* knew me ...
 

that if I'm really upset I tend to isolate myself

If you really knew me you'd know the impact my father's violence had on all of us.

If you really knew me you'd know about the only two songs I know all the lyrics to are Bohemian Rhapsody and Mahnamana

If you really knew me you'd be coming over to Malaysia for a holiday because I love playing tour guide

If you really knew me, you'd know that for me to say what I *really* feel is a big deal because it's not always easy for me

If you really knew me, you'd know that if I try to make amends or right a hurt my actions may have caused you, it's because I know personally that life is short

If you really knew me then you'd know that I have strong shoulders to lean on and it's ok to lean.

IYRKM, you'd know I work in spurts instead of spreading things out. This means I get involved in a project for entire days sometimes instead of doing little bits at once. My "flow" is very important for finishing things. I find I don't finish a lot of things I start if I try to piece them out.

IYRKM, you'd know I'm a harder worker than you might imagine from my current level of productivity.

IYRKM, you'd know that, although I am pretty self-motivated, it's nice to have someone who pushes me to be better. I am better when someone expects the best from me, particularly if that person is someone I admire.

IYRKM, you'd know I'm not as tough as I present myself to be and that my feelings get hurt quite easily, though if you don't know me well, you may never realize when they do.

IYRKM
 

-You'd know how much I struggle with being vulnerable

-You'd know how much I'm working on making my life happen

-You'd know that I really just want to go on a Buddhist meditative silent retreat or to the mountains for a few days.

-You'd know that I've made some scary changes.

If you really knew me you would know that I have been accused of those two things on a consistent basis since I was 15 in my rel life experience.

If you really knew me you would know I am capable of being single. That I do not need someone to complete me I want someone instead to compliment what I have to offer in a relationship.

If you really knew me you would know I love to travel although I have not been outside of the U.S. yet.

If you really knew me you would know I have a thirst for knowledge and I am constantly trying to learn something new.

If you really knew me you would know...
 

You have been "accused" of being a lesbian?

WTF?

People call me a lesbian. I would not call it an accusation.

I call it my identity.

No I have been accused of hatting all men and all women that ID as lesbians since I was 15 because I have a masculine identity. Which was your original question. Sorry for not making it clearer.

IYRKM you would know:

I crave sugar like an alcoholic craves their drink of choice. It is my hardest addiction yet to crack

I am wildly crazy about projects. And I finish them if nothing gets in the way. And I dont mean small projects. big ones. Like my store. Going to college to learn how to ID trees. Working at a zoo and creating a primate environment

I read the paper back to front. But I rarely read the funnies anymore.

I play gnometown and people make fun of me for it. Shame on them!

I coloured my hair blue black. Dropped a few more years off my looks...

I am not afraid to fight with someone. I have huge balls and have taken on people with guns and knives (back when I worked as a Domestic Violence director and again, when i ran a homeless shelter) and wont take shit from anyone who hurt or is mean to someone in public. I might be a femme but I have a touch of insanity when it comes to protecting the wee,the innocent and the needy

IYRKM, you'd know how much I adore people like you. I think it's my naivete. For the most part, I take most people at their word, because I'm a pretty open book and I forget other people aren't. I love the no bullshit people. Teach me your ways....

If you really knew me...you would know that friendship is the only ticket in...
If you really knew me...you would know that, for me, first impressions are formed within the seconds and everything beyond that is just trying too hard.
If you really knew me...you would know that being yourself is more important than being what you think I want you to be...

IFYRKM you would know I do have a life that is not tied to this laptop.

IFYRKM I like sites like this one and others mainly because I get to be exposed to people I might never had the chance too and because I am secretly a vampire I get to meet a lot of people not form the U.S. and other late night inhabitants.

IFYRKM you would know I am in my home state of IL for now. I love the mountains of NH, the beaches of southern Mass., the out of the way towns of RI, the tall cactus in the Phoenix dessert, and seeing Amish buggies parked in an IN Walmart parking lot. The warmth of the gulf on the western side of FL, and although the drive on the Sky Way into IL is beautiful at night I hate driving on the loop.

IFYRKM you would know how much I love the outdoors and all it has to offer, except the awful humidity here.

If you really knew me you would know...

I am an open book if you want to know the truth about me just ask I will answer honestly whether I consider it one of my faults or one of my positive attributes

That I love deeply but have only been IN love three times

That none of those relationships lasted badly it was just the wrong place and time for both of us and they would agree

That I am a loyal friend that would give you the shirt off my back, defend you to everyone, and protect you from all pain if you would allow

That my words have no string to them...just because I say something it does NOT mean I am wanting or needing something in return.

If you really knew me then you'd know that I'm always honest. I'd rather hurt someone with the truth then hurt them with a lie.

IYRKM
 

...you'd get my family. They're weirdos, but they're loveable weirdos. Loveable weirdos who really like to argue. So, bring your best debate face, and take nothing personally. If you're a raging liberal, you'll do just fine. If you're not, prepare to defend your postion well. They're liberals in some of the most conservative areas of the country. They're prepared for your Fox News arguments.


...you'd know that if you can make me calm when I'm stressed, you are more addictive than crack cocaine LOL


...you'd know that, for me, the worst emotion in the world is disappointment.


...you'd realize that if I call you because I need you, you're in -- you're in deep.


...you'd know that if you impress my best friend, that would be a first for anyone I've ever dated. She's a tough cookie.

If you really knew me ...

You'd get my dry sense of humor, and you'd know I only tease people I like.

If you really knew me you'd know that when Mama aint happy aint nobody happy......So if you knew me you'd know I'm headed to Mom's. She says there is a big black critter behind her building and she isn't going back down there.:blink:

If you really knew me you'd know I am leaving with pistol in hand.:fastdraq:

IYRKM
 

I think your a hoot Island :)

Ah thanks Ocean! :tea:

You'd know how tired of this I am..... And slowly getting a bit worried

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm a big mushball.

If you really knew me, you'd know how hard it is for me to forgive, yet so incredibly easy to write someone off.

If you really knew me, the two things I struggle with often are lack of patience and having a bit of a temper.

If you really knew me, I'm always ready to bail on someone, but only because I'm afraid of getting hurt.

If you really knew me, you'd know how much I crave intimacy, and long for a healthy relationship. But because I get scared and have a tendency to sabotage things, I don't know how realistic of me to even hope for that.

This is so introspective, I really liked reading it.

Oh, I think I could do with way less introspection. Just saying.

If you really knew me you would know that I take care of those that I care about.

If you really knew me, you'd know:

• that I have a turkey baster in my office, and I recycle the water from the dish under my plants, back into their soil. This makes a sound like I am in gastrointestinal distress; but I swear, it is the turkey baster :|
  
  
• that there are eight elevator banks in the lobby of my office building, and I like to stand with my eyes closed, seeing if I can guess which elevator is on its way to me—I love that quiet whooshing sound :hk6:
  
  
• that twice this week, men have given me their seat on the subway, and this morning, a man stood holding open the elevator door, though I was way on the other side of the lobby, walking toward it (f)
  
  
• that I sometimes fantasize it is a handsome butch performing these acts of kindness, which snap me out of the spaciness that helps me float unbothered through the rude experience of day-to-day public transportation :olive:
  
  
• that I listen to movie soundtracks at work while I write, and my favorites are composed by John Barry, like the theme song from Last of the Mohicans—and I don't care how schmaltzy the soundtracks are, they chill me out and let me think :coffee:
  
  
• that I am so excited about the Reunion, I go back to the threads on it over and over, trying to figure who is going, and what they are like, and how it will feel to be in that hotel, in that city, with that crowd.:blueheels:

If you really knew me, you'd know that Rear Window is probably my all-time, favorite movie.

If you really knew me, I enjoy Batman as the character, and not the comics themselves.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I was worth the time and effort.

Sue

If you really Knew me........
 

IYRKMYWK: This is the first time in my entire life that I've been without a partner, and I'm doing much better than I thought I would.

IYRKMYWK: I had the best parents who gave me the most beautiful example of being in love for a lifetime.

IYRKMYWK:I only become violent if you try to take my ice cream away from me

If you really knew me...you would know that I absolutely despise blue cheese

If you really knew me...you would know that it takes more than just good looks to seduce me

If you really knew me...you would know that I despise clutter (physically and metaphysically)

If you really knew me...you would know that it can be 110 degrees outside and I'll still order a hot coffee

If you really knew me...you would know that it's always the little things that matter

If you really knew me...you would know that I tend to be a work-aholic

If you really knew me...you would know that I see more than I say

If you really knew me...you would know that the NFL Sunday Ticket would make the best gift ever :)

If you really knew me...you would know that I'm not that hard to get to know

If You REALLY Knew Me..

you would know i am actually very nice and have a heart the size of Texas

you would know there is NOTHING i would say to someone about you that i wouldnt say TO you.

you would know I have a lot of acquaintances,but few REAL friends!

you would know that for the first time in 13 yrs I am finally experiencing real love