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Hummmmmss... 10:30pm.. craving some french pressed goodness.. yes.. or no?
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i'm getting the feeling you have an addiction my friend ;) |
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ps. Was that a vote for yes or no? grins. |
Once again I am in the dark. I am thinking that is a good thing in this case.
Andrea |
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*wanders off to put the tea kettle on* |
Fail....
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Jim Carrey's a grandfather. :|
No. Really. From his mouth on Letterman. |
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Has lost the battle with the jetlag :|
...... & is in a state of missing! |
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I couldn't sleep tonight...And found myself at walmart... I hugged the cashier...for like 20 seconds. The woman looked at me like :| as I walked away like nothing happened. I think..when my regular gas station opens at 6...Imma hug the clerk... :blink: |
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Now I'm waiting for the respiratory therapist to come back to the house for another mask. Used a different one last night got a couple of hours sleep feel a little bit better but not all the way there yet..
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The clerk had a :| moment... Smeh..people just don't seem to appreciate a good hug from random strangers. |
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I love it when I've baked a cake and my hands smell like cocoa......reminds me of my Mom......<soft smile>
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the little boy kitten(Grayson) is getting his ass whooped by the new white kittie(MsGracie) and seems to be liking it hmmmm
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I'm happy..
I'm peaceful and content and non conflicted and sane... I've been sane for four whole days in a row.. With sanity comes clarity.. With clarity comes truth... The truth is... I need professional help... I've been living in survival mode since the conception of my son. Probably before then, but I know since then... Keep going, push it down, take one more step, get knocked down, get back up and keep going... Don't treat the wound, just make sure the blood doesn't stain anything... The things that happen to you happen to everyone, don't be a whiner, these things happen to everyone, you are not special... keep going..... What happens when the thing that keeps you going... the reason that you get up every day and make it through the day is gone... What happens when you are in a safe place, what happens when you don't have to be in survival mode anymore... What happens when that will.. that ability... that cord of steel turns into damp toilet paper? What happens when you stop beliving all the lies you have told yourself over the years? truth is.... I never planned on being here after my son was grown and out in the world... I float through the world not really making that much of an impact, not letting people in, not having friends or plans because I wasn't going to be here.. If you don't let people in, then you are just a casual comment when you are not there... no one grieves for you... Somehow that didn't work... I have people who love me in spite of myself... I have people who would grieve me... I find that I don't want to die, but I don't know how to live... I've been living with the knowledge that I wasn't going to be here so long, that I simply don't know how to live the way I want too...I don't know how to fix what is crippled.... I don't know how to let myself say.. What happened to you WAS horrible... It WAS important... That by saying that it wasn't doesn't change the fact... I am the child of an alcoholic.. I am an addict I am a rape survivor I am a mental abuse survivor I have chemical depression I may be manic/depressive I may be bi-polar.... It's funny how these things happen... I have been working on me.. trying to find out why I do things, who I am, what I need.. Self awareness is a bitch... I'm in the best relationship that I have ever had... I'm with the most wonderful person that I have ever met.. Everything in my life is moving forward,(except this inability of mine to NOT quit perfectly good jobs) I'm enrolled in school, I know what I want to be when I grow up...the future is so bright and full of possiblities... and I come undone.... I know it's because I'm safe.. I know it's because I'm loved beyond words and accepted(If you knew the hell I put her through in the last year without her walking.. you would feel it as well..)... I know it's because I don't have to be in survival mode anymore.. But it sucks... To have to change this image of yourself.. to accept that yes you do need meds and a therapist and no.. you can't fix this by yourself..that you can not control this simply because you will it so.. That your will is gone.. it sucks big green donkey dicks... but I'm still at peace... I'm still content... and I'm still so very happy.. lol.. Happy to know that yes... I am crazy... but that one day, I might not be... |
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yeah!!! my order from omaha steaks got here..
top sieloins bonless pork chops stuffed sole w/ sclp&crab gourmet franks potatoes au gretin steak burgers boneless chicken breasts carmel apple tartlets weeeee... and instrutions how to cook everything i love ordering from them everything is soooo good! |
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Dinner at Cody's ... Wooohooo!!!! |
It was worth the wait. The long lines. Packed in at midnight. Cheering with teens and youth.
I forgive David Yates everything he did previously... HP and the Deathly Hollows ... best yet! :trampoline: Yeah, I'll be seeing it two more times with other friends. |
When shaking hands, find the balance between a grip that is too tight and one that is too loose.
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((((((rav))))))) Anytime! :thumbsup: |
Its now Shabbat the Jewish Sabbath so its time to rest and relax for the next 24 hours until one hour past sunset tomorrow!! I'm gonna watch some tv and get into jammies with the dogs...
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So in my celebrations of International Make Someone Uncomfortable Day...
I successfully made 9 complete strangers and 4 family/friends absolutely out-of-their-skin uncomfortable today. I hugged,..stood too close too,..stared at,..and followed people ALL day. Next year I'm going for 15. I need new plans.... :| |
I would like to order a do over day... and I would like to use it today... |
I am now able to drive stick shift! Been doing it all week without injury to persons or property! Yay, me!!!!:flyingpig:
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all for $74.00 once you order from them they mail out there specials every month all there food so far has been fantastic!! there meet is better then any o have gotten at the grocery. |
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One of the funniest books I've ever read is Children's Letters to God
I used to sit in the chapel to spend time with God and I would laugh my ass off. I'm buying a copy—keeps me humored: “Dear God. How did you know you were God?” “Dear God. Are you really invisible or is that just a trick?” “Dear God. How come you did all the miracles in the old days and you don’t do any now?” |
eating a whole pomigrant by yourself can be well kinda filling.. lol
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booking a load right now.......... for AZ...... |
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OMG!!!! I went to the midnight show! I was so happy with it.... ecstatic really... over the moon, now... to make the DAYS TILL poster counting down the midnight showing of the second half in July. |
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So then you'll beat me there MS ... Don't eat it all!!! :) |
The Extra Dessert Delights in Key Lime Pie and Strawberry Shortcake are yummy delicious.
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I have decided that, for my 5.8 birthday in Feb., I'm having hot dogs!!!! All kinds of hot dogs!!!! Any way You want 'em!!!
My Sissy (ShariBerry) and I went to Dog Almighty the other night. It was so fun and campy.....I thought what a fun idea for a party! And....since I'm having a birthday party, what better time, right? A fun time will be had by all! :eyebat: |
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