IYRKM....

....that what Miss Tia said is my MO, too

....that I will forgive up to the point where my own forgiveness becomes self-abusive or self-flagellation

....that, we accept the abuse we believe we deserve*

....that, although I'm often a blockhead, I'm not interested in being a martyr

....that I like to have fun, that though I'm sometimes a loud-mouth, I actually like to live tranquilly and pretty much do





*adapted from RitaSink's favorite quote

IYRKM That I put my hand in yours to walk beside you ~
When I look up into your eyes , it's to follow your lead ~
That I admire hym, cause hy thinks for himself ~
A follower loses my attention ~
Once respect is gone, my heart closes ~
I read btwn the lines ,not the way u make your words appear ~
I don't care about others quotes, I watch who you are instead ~

If You *REALLY* knew Me...
 

You would know I am fiercely loyal once I commit to someone or something.
That I would do anything for my family and friends. Even those I may not like I would not turn away.
That I am a very strong woman with the innocence and vulnerability of a child lurking right below the surface.
That I am not religious but very spiritual.
That I collect stone specimens and believe they have healing properties.
That I always wanted to learn Kama Sutra.
That being bitten gently on my neck is a major turn on for me.
That I love animals and have a cat named Punkin. He was a stray. I have had him almost 15+ years now.
That I would never buy an animal but adopt ones in a shelter.
That I refuse to attend a circus because they treat the animals horribly.
That I wear fur...Imitation that is.

If you really know me...
 

... then you know that:

- I find striking a balance more important than being too high or too low.

- I know my strengths and limitations in an acute, cognizant, type of way.

- I thrive when I feel loved, liked and adored for who I am.

- I am more than ready (for whatever life brings next).

- I have to have chocolate on a consistent basis (*lol*).

- I will smile, even when I don't feel like smiling.

- I care, even if it seems like I don't care at all.

- I need a better bed than the one I have (sheets, too).

- Nothing irks me more than what's going on in our country right now (political upheaval, wealthy business owners taking their business overseas and treating their workforce employees like slaves, loss of viable job markets because greed takes precedence over social accountability; I have to stop now, I might blow a gasket - I'm fresh out those little jewels today). :|

if you really *knew* me, you'd know that..

I am not who I was two years ago

I hate shopping for myself

I adore dresses but rarely wear them

I LOVE my age

I've made decisions that I hope another parent never has to make

if you really knew me

you would know i have a tender heart and a tender soul
you would know that my broken heart
takes time to heal
you would know that solice is my only reprieve from this
you would know that i feel like a fool right now
you would know that i dislike liars and game players
you would know that i dont like misrepresentation of self
you would know that i will be all right because im truly strong
you would know that i beleive i keep meeting the same coward over and over with different names...

IYRKM You'd know I've been using the same ol coffee cup everyday for years. It has cracks, chips, stains, and the face of a Bull-Dog that says, "This is my mug."

IYRKM you would know that

I am cranky lately, with so much stress from the store. Lots of hours, lots of paperwork, lots of decisions, lots of physical pain from doing too much

I am also happier than I have been in several years

I coloured my hair blue black and wear magenta lipstick now

work as hard at home as I do at the store

cannot, for the life of me, balance a checkbook longer than a month

IYRKM...

You would know I am a wrist watch whore. I perve on total strangers if they have a better watch than me.

My collection is extensive. I saw a white ceramic Michael Kors watch on the girl I bought my pack of cigarettes from today that I immediately went home and bought on eBay because I adored it.

My moral dilemma will be that I will have a hard time wearing it because the Tissot I bought last weekend might feel jealous.

if you really knew me
you would know i don't take kindly to being lied to
you would know that Im smarter than i look
you would know that I spent 8 years to many with a master manipulator
and ill call you out for your shit
you would know that im stronger than you think
you would know that I believe in Karma
you would know that I give people the benefit of the doubt
you would know that I probably shouldn't
you would know that Im sincere
you would know the reasons i had chosen celibacy
you would know that im choosing that again
you would know that this week has taken its toll on me and its only Wednesday
you would know that when i say im done, im done and im done
you would know that honesty,integrity,values and morals are important to me
you would know all that
you would know that my favorite movie is Somewhere in Time
you would know how much my family means to me
you would know that my granddaughters are the apple of my eye
you would know that i can turn a negative experience into a learned lesson.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I reached my breaking point and you'd know why.

I Y R K M

you'd know that a little earnestness goes a long way with me.

you'd know that people who never fuck up make me suspicious.

you'd know it isn't perfection I admire in others, but progress in the right direction.

you wouldn't mistake my self-depracating humor (I was raised by Texans), for low self-esteem.

you'd know how much I value and seek out environments where I can be myself.

IYKM you would know I am very happy, blessed, and grateful.

If you really knew me...

You'd know that I'm really good for blaming myself when any ties I have with someone proceed to go south.

You'd know that I tell myself that I really did know better, but I went ahead and did it anyway.

You'd know that I would say never again, even though what was right before me was the exact thing I had been waiting for.

Sue

If you really knew me.. then we'd both be in the dark.

If you really knew me, you'd be a little worried.

IYRKMYWKT:

I am so in need of a hair cut and that is the norm for me. I can never seem to get around to going to the hairdresser

I look hot in leopard print

I love cosmos flowers in stands against a fence...it makes my heart smile

I change my mind ALOT

I wear nag champa as my scent unless its a society evening..then its Samsara

I have recently begun to wear all kinds of green shades on my fingernails...

If you really knew me you would know how crazy forgiving I am. I can't stay mad or hold a grudge ever. Sometimes I wish I could though!

If you "REALLY" knew me...

YWK it's all good cause I'm wearin' a smile!! :cheesy:

just a lil something from me
 

If you knew the real me you would know im more comfortable outside then in.
If you knew the real me you would know why i cling to my work and my horses.
If you knew th real me you would know that i stand alone where ever i go.
If you knew the real me you would know the hell i been through and the pain i have to take apawn myself so noone else would get hurt.
if you know the real me you would see the scars that are faiding just like the past.
if you knew the real me you would know the kind heart that is under the cold unfeeling outside.
If you knew the real me you would see past all the bs and see the soul who looks for a place to belong.

If you really knew me....

You would know that I don't give my heart easily.

You would know that I don't like to hurt anyone.

You would know that I don't like to be hurt and will try everything not to feel that emotion if at all possible.

You would know that I cry but that my subconscious makes me stop shortly after starting.

You would know that although I may be persistant, at some point I do give up.

You would know that I hate to be ignored.

You would know that eventually I get it.

You would know that I pay attention, even to the littlest of details.

You would really know that I care, a lot.

If you really knew me im lazy at spelling words out.
That i put my friends and family above everything.
Im really shy but give me time ill be a goof ball get u to laugh.
Im a technology freak i love any new technology.
That im a gamer and will act like a kid 70% of the time.
That i love music but will listen to more country than other genres.
Im more solitude than anything and hate crowded places.
That im a really simple person and will make due with the smallest stuff.
That i go straight in with out thinking (which got me into alot of trouble)
Only a select few can read me, i like to watch people try and read me.
That im alittle opposite from online than in person.
I dont drink alot so when i do i ge drunk faster.
Im a middle child of 6 and a big daddys girl growing up, and changed when he died to who i am now.
That ill go out of my way to help friends family and work.
That i like to observe people before talking to them or observe people in general.
That ive mellowed out compaired to when i was growing up.
That i can stay quiet for long periods of time.
Ive met my best friend min at a place no one would think of.
That i look not so friendly at first but really i just wanna know how u react.
That i listen and help as much as i can.
That thanks to my family im a jack of many trades.
Im a "class clown" i cant be serious for very long or make a joke when it to serious.
That i have a really short attention span and short memory but i also have photographic memory (idk how that is though)
That i will keep some stuff more private than others.

I Y R K M ... you'd listen.

If you really knew me im lazy at spelling words out.
That i put my friends and family above everything.
Im really shy but give me time ill be a goof ball get u to laugh.
Im a technology freak i love any new technology.
That im a gamer and will act like a kid 70% of the time.
That i love music but will listen to more country than other genres.
Im more solitude than anything and hate crowded places.
That im a really simple person and will make due with the smallest stuff.
That i go straight in with out thinking (which got me into alot of trouble)
Only a select few can read me, i like to watch people try and read me.
That im alittle opposite from online than in person.
I dont drink alot so when i do i get drunk faster.
Im a middle child of 6 and a big daddys girl growing up, and changed when he died to who i am now.
That ill go out of my way to help friends family and work.
That i like to observe people before talking to them or observe people in general.
That ive mellowed out compaired to when i was growing up.
That i can stay quiet for long periods of time.
Ive met my best friend min at a place no one would think of.
That i look not so friendly at first but really i just wanna know how u react.
That i listen and help as much as i can.
That thanks to my family im a jack of many trades.
Im a "class clown" i cant be serious for very long or make a joke when it to serious.
That i have a really short attention span and short memory but i also have photographic memory (idk how that is though)
That i will keep some stuff more private than others.
That i'll spend more time with technology than people sometimes when i dont want to be near people.
That i cant cook to save my life but i know how to use the microwave and grill :p
That when people get the chance to want to get to know me i surprise them and have them re-evaluate me.

If you *really* knew me...

You would know my ringtone on my phone is Cazwell's "Ice Cream Truck", has been forever and I will NEVER change it! EVER! Even when I'm 80! *jammin*

:dance2:

IFYRKM...you would know to ask.
That I live be a set of principals I have no problem defending or explaining why not I earned every scar that came with those principals.

IYRKM....you would know to ask!!!

IYRKM... you would know I have a life off this thing and there is a real person typing these words.....

....you'd know my breaking point
....you'd fight with me
....you'd fight for me
....you'd know I say what I mean and I mean what I say
....you'd know I do it when its hard, because its hard....especially because its hard
....I will fight to protect my family
....I have immense patience
....I wouldn't have to say it
....I know how lucky I am to have such a great guy and girl that fight for me
....you'd see how much that girl has grown under me, and how proud of her I am
....those dogs are the heart and soul of me. I need them like air
....there are 4 others, besides a Bear and a girl, that I say good morning to on a daily basis
....I am constantly amazed by....

If you really knew me...You would know how badly I need a hug right now and why.

IYRKM you would know how strong I am

IYRKM you would know that doesn't mean I am made of steal

IYRKM you would know I am old school and would say good night to you before sending a text to you that says gnite

IYRKM, you'd know I'm very sensitive and it's really quite easy to hurt me
IYRKM, I have more scars than you know
IYRKM, you'd know what I crave
IYRKM, you'd know how willing I am to give the shirt off my back to someone who needs it more
IYRKM, you'd give it back to me.

IFYRKM you would know that I only tolerate the online environment

IFYRKM you would know that I am a very stubborn person and that can be both positive and negative

IFYRKM you would know that I would buy your favorite cologne to wear just to see you smile

IFYRKM you would know I will go out of my way to find creative ways to build memories together

IFYRKM you would know that when I say you honor me I mean it with everything I am and it is the highest compliment I can give

IFYRKM you would know that I would rather hear your voice then see your words

If you really knew me you would know I love like no other
If you really knew me you would know I fight things when they are hard I dont give up, I dont give in, especially the hardest of things
If you really knew me you would know im not as strong as I act
If you really knew me you would fight for me
if you really knew me you would know I am scared
if you really knew me you would know how badly I see mysel
if you really knew me you would know I am a complicated person

you'd know I'm afraid to love again... and why...

Its ok to be scared to love its okay to be completly terrified and I dont even have to know why you are.. just know this community is full of people that will lend a listening ear

If you really knew me...

... you would know I take a long time to understand whats right for me... because I always look for whats right for others...