A nice long massage.

Well..I've got the top off my gas stove ,and still tryin to figure out how to fix the electric sparking system on 2 burners that don't light.:blink::blink:According to this book I have, to correct the error in the system, I will need to replace an ignition module, but...I don't really need anything right now.

Like in Chess...
 

I learned this morning that a childhood friend had passed away. Been crying, I admit, most of the day. I'm often the one holding, comforting others. I used to being told it's unmanly to show grief, tears, emotion. I do despite this because to lose my sensitive side is to lose a vital part of who I am. I'm a switch, but I naturally am a protector. I'll be the first to step up even if my feet are shaky because I'm needed.

But right now, I don't feel so strong. And unfortunately, experience has taught me that many women cannot handle their fella (FTM, Butch, Masculine of center SO) admitting that.

Right now, I need the sweet, sure arms of someone I love and who loves me wrapped around me, my face in HER neck, her lips on MY forehead for a change. I need to feel safe and loved and valued. I need to be reminded that it's okay for it to hurt this bad and that it doesn't change who I am. I need the love and comfort of a woman who understands that I can't always be strong, that my tender side is just as precious and valuable. Like in Chess, sometimes, often, the King needs to be protected by his Queen.

Another cup of coffee

HER...smile, laugh, the softness of her hands as they are being held by mine, the endless conversations about anything and everything.


For November to be here. Seems to drag up till time to leave to go see her then speeds the hell up while I'm there. That chit needs to stop!!!!

An exfoliating salt rub followed by a deep-tissue massage.

need a mini vacation:bunchflowers:

I need sleep and cuddles from my gf.

:thinking: Cough Drops. :pipe:

I haven't slept well for the last part of the week. The funeral was Friday for one of my oldest childhood friends, and I managed to hold it together... for the most part. I teared up several times, but when I saw her younger sister start crying after the services graveside, I went to her, and that's when I started crying. I paid my respects, said goodbye to my friend.

I am so thankful to friends here and on Facebook who have checked in on me throughout the day. I'll respond to messages and voicemails tomorrow when I am more awake and able to respond to questions and add to topics. I had a very rough few days, a really tough yesterday, but a very comfortable, very relaxing evening. Thank you!

I need several hours of solid sleep, more evenings like the last few nights, and a recipe for sugar free brownies for my Dad's birthday. I have an idea where to get the latter. Now for the others. G'night-- or rather, g'morning!

Hahaha clearly a new truck

More avocados...
Another cup of coffee..

Some pain meds. This aleve stuff ain't working but my doc took me off all narcotic medication about 6 months ago.

To find the Dear thread I need to write a letter I know I won't send :l