Tired with a bit of a headache. Didn't sleep well. Thinking about an old work buddy whose wife passed away over the holidays. He and I are meeting for lunch today. He's been on my mind all week.

Headache free!! Wahoo!!

Happy and peaceful...and I will be even moreso in a few hours.

Tired and eyes are starting to hurt. Didn’t sleep well. Will try to get lots of sleep tonight.

Anxious and hungry

confused, hopeful, frustrated, desperate, happy, scared... yeah... I know... thats a lot.

F*cking angry, sad, and angry again.
 

Shocked, saddened, and angry as well that my fellow soldiers both female and male have experienced devastating illnesses throughout their lives because we lived in a toxic dump/experimental site during our basic training and/or AIT at Fort McClellan, Alabama. I do not use fb, but thankfully there are fb groups where Fort McClellan soldiers are banning together to work at passing legislation so that those ill because of their time in that toxic environment can receive medical benefits. I still will not use fb, but have found another way to support my fellow soldiers. Do check out the link of the website that is one way one of our female soldier is addressing and supporting us.

And, in case your wondering...No, I know I am beyond blessed to continue being healthy...and am more grateful than words can say.


Found out about this today and am sharing with all of you Vets, and lovers of Vets past and present who completed basic training and/or AIT at Fort McClellan, Alabama WAC, US Army no matter the year.

https://fmvets.org

"THE STORIES & PORTRAITS OF U.S. VETERANS EXPERIENCING A RANGE OF DEBILITATING & LIFE THREATENING HEALTH ISSUES THAT THEY BELIEVE ARE CONNECTED TO NUCLEAR, BIOLOGICAL AND CHEMICAL HAZARDS THEY WERE EXPOSED TO WHILE STATIONED AT FORT MCCLELLAN - A U.S. ARMY INSTALLATION IN NORTHEASTERN ALABAMA CLOSED IN 1999. THEIR EXPOSURES HAVE NOT BEEN ACKNOWLEDGED BY THE DEPARTMENT OF DEFENSE OR THE VETERANS ADMINISTRATION. READ & LISTEN TO THEIR STORIES..."

Pass this on your social media as well, thank you.

We Stand Strong Always, Greco

A little tired but good. Half day at work today so I can go to the soc sec office and not feel rushed. May have to work half day tomorrow morning but that's cool.

Glad it's friday!

:poc-cool:

Good today, but yesterday I was worried I might of been buying the farm..:|

(kinda)good...making granola bars w/peanut butter & jammy bits

Hey Greco
 

Greco, thanks for your post about Ft McClellan ... I did my basic training there and then stayed for my other training too after that. I will read about it later this evening when I get settled. The only things I liked about basic training was the wonderful all you can eat at every meal food. The cooks had it going on!! And throwing live grenades, shooting m-60s, m-16s ... scored top on all that. When we did m-60 night fire on our bellies at distant tanks, the boo-lits were rigged ... you could see them, watch them go hundreds of yards ... so cool! Enough of my memory lane.:)

I have had a darn good week. Feeling pretty good tonight. Been in training and my favorite instructor taught the class. He is about the most kind hearted person I have ever met .... known him for probably a decade. We fly him in from extreme NorthEast. He is head of Electrical and Computer Science Divisions at an impressive college there. In his electrical engineering classes, they get to design their own computer chips. Once my friend the instructor looks over everone's chip design to ensure it will work, the designs are sent off to be built. I find that immensely interesting!

I told him he hurt my feelings because I had asked him 3 times to send me photos of his wife's chickens. We laughed and laughed. I think I will receive photos soon. His wife is a dear too. She came with him one time and we all went out to dinner. Good people! The world could sure benefit for a lot more like them.

Keeping My head focused on what is to come. Feeling: Hopeful.

Feeling
 

I am so happy to be home with the kitties after a week on the road for work. Yay!

Sick and tired of being sick and tired.

back to Gemme
 

Hey Friend, I know it can be a difficult thing to do but perhaps you could try and fit in more time to sleep and or rest. You seem to be tired a lot lately.

I know when I get run down from lack of sleep over a long period of time and it is cold outside, I usually get really sick with the flu.

Not trying to run your business, only concerned.

*smiles and waves* :)

See, that's what you get for giving out your digits....:giggle:

I feel pretty good. I slept well last night, that was the first in a while. I've been on a very clean vegan diet all week and that feels good. I've tackled a lot of house work today and it shows and that feels good. Happy Saturday!

Pretty good, had some Peach Pie moonshine earlier!

milk, fingers and elbow issues tonight
 

I am feeling a bit grumpy towards myself.

I am out of milk and have to drive about 24 miles round trip to buy some. I intended to pick up 2 gallons Friday on the way home from work but forgot. It is cold outside, almost dark and I just drank the last glass I had.

I don't do well knowing there is no milk in the fridge. I know if I do not make the trip, it will be a rough night. :(

Plus, I have three fingers that hurt like all hell from the deep cracks in them. This always happens in cold weather - I forget about putting lotion on my hands. I bet my African-American friend who works at Home Depot has them too. He takes his gloves off and does a show-n-tell ... his looks worse because of skin color ... he is such a fun guy!! And a splinter in my right elbow that I cannot reach to extract. Laura (work friend) will take care of it tomorrow ... and laugh at me while she is doing it.

Woe is me but will be much better once I get the milk.

Rock has no milk:| i know just how that feels..i feel that way when i reach for a cookie and there are none:pirate-steer:

Most excellent! I've accomplished alot today!

still feeling cold in spite of sweater, socks, cashmere scarf:byebye:

Absolutely over the moon, proud of myself, so happy I could cry, thankful, inspired, excited my unique designs for my workshop are truly turning out beautiful, super thrilled with my newly rebuilt deck, ready to do a happy dance.

Although, my body is screaming, especially my legs, after busting my ass since last week with my sister to get things finished.

Someone inquired in my previous post:

"why do you specify "African American" friend? Why not just my friend that works at Home Depot?"

It is because of the color of his skin (darker) and it makes his finger splits look worse than mine. I thought I stated that (maybe not so clearly) in the post.

Probably others who wondered too ... thanks for allowing me to explain the "why" :)

Emphasis on Gratitude
 

I've got a full plate in life, and tonight - even though I'm up against incredible odds:

I feel.... resilient, determined, and filled with gratitude … for every step in life I've savored and for every step forward I take.

sleepy..warming some milk..i think i will put cocoa in it:praying:

Cranky. Brutally honest. Bratty.

not so much tonight ... no appetite at all ... hurting somewhat above my hips on the inside - not bones - very weird ... wondering if it is related to these lower lumbar discs the doctor wants to surgically correct ... I am now beginning to lean to "maybe" having surgery this summer ... all sorts of strange pains here and there are making RockOn a very dull boy ... starting to suck all fun from life :(

I feel a lot of things for different reasons

Nervous
Excited
Hopeful
Content
Curious
Dreadful
Irritated
Happy

Yup that about does it.
The moving that was supposed to happen last month is happening this month instead as “we speak”. A little stressful but happy about it and parts of it are fun. I find fixing things up and clearing off parts of the land fun.

Also I went for a second opinion on my chronic abdominal pain since my surgery..... damn it’s been 7 months! Wow... anyway she is going to do exploratory surgery to see if it’s adhesions and if so she will cut them out. I hope that it is! I want off all these nerve meds that is making my bp and heart rate high, and more often than not, sleep too much.

I have a few more things going on too that I Hope turn out well. :)

Good just ready to get my day started.

I am feeling anxious and in some ways very defeated.

BUT... there are also moments of hope and love.

I just need to feel more settled.

.......

Ducky just Ducky.....:eyebat:

Relaxed, hopeful, driven :pirate-steer:

AMAZING! :spank: :tongue: :awww: