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hmm dont know what im doing messin around on here today anyway.. have stuff i need to do.. grrr broke my bed wrestling with my dog last night... guess i better fix it befor bedtime.
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Looking forward, wondering what is to come of the future
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I took some kind of relationship assessment thingy a little while ago. I had to answer 100 q's. I finally got my results. Now I'm contemplating them. Kinda interesting, but didn't really tell me anything I didn't already know.
Interdependence...you need someone who reciprocates a strong feeling of attachment to a partner but who also respects and copes well with the fact that you benefit from a reasonable level of physical and psychological space at times. Intimacy...you need someone who believes and acts on the belief that the intimacy of a relationship is sacred. Self-efficacy...you need a partner who is energetic, enthusiastic and has high self-efficacy like you and will support or even participate in your personal and professional interests that feed your sense of identity and accomplishment. Relationship readiness...you need someone who is not looking to be taken care of, but rather who is realistic about the hard work it takes to build and maintain a stable and satisfying relationship. Communication...you need someone who is eager to give, collect and discuss information with you patiently versus communicate with you on superficial levels out of convenience. Conflict resolution...you need a partner who is patient, a “big picture thinker” and can relinquish control and pride to make the best decisions for the good and growth of the relationship. Sexuality...you need someone who regards sex as a meaningful bond between people in love and who appreciates when it is planned to some extent rather than completely spontaneous. Attitudes toward love...you need someone who believes that the best kind of love grows out of a strong friendship. Preferred Expressions of Affection...You need someone who can express affection through simple or grand acts of kindness – such as helping you out around the house, running errands for you or doing favors without being asked. This does not mean that you neither like nor need Verbal Communication. Rather, it suggests that you need someone who can show affection in ways other than just verbal expressions such as spontaneous compliments, frequent “I love you’s,” occasional notes for you to find and recognition of your achievements. |
I just finished having a shower and even with how little time it took to finish, I had been doing alot of thinking about My future and where I want it to go. As of right now I am 31 years old and other than having My G.E.D, I don't feel that I have much to show for it. I'm not currently working (though I have a couple of reasons for this right now), I don't have My own place and I'm not as independant as I would like to be. I realize that I am responsible for this however I really came to realize why I lack those things ~ I've been spending most of My adult life sabotaging My own need to be happy.
Having dealt with being constantly teased and tormented as a kid for My weight problems, suffering from depression and panic/anxiety attacks as well as a father who has no problem reminding Me constantly of what is wrong with Me as a person, I simply never thought that I deserved to be happy. I've had people tell Me that I deserve it, however I never really wanted to listen to that ~ until now. I've finally begun to really look into My soul and try to figure out what it is that I want ........ what is going to make Me happy? What are My goals, wants, needs? Where do I see Myself in 5 years? 10 years? This new found knowledge, and sense of empowerment, is really beginning to change My way of thinking. I can see a very bright future for Myself, as long as I stick to going after what I want then I will succeed in being happy :-) |
I just remembered that on Friday I have to work a 15hr shift. Oh, and we have a staff meeting at 4pm on Friday also. Yay...not.
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Whether or not I'm going to be able to hand my assignment in today or whether it will be tomorrow.
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so much on my mind...
wondering why I wasn't answered...
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were headed into a few weeks of 100+ days then i cant wait for it to settle into the 80s.. it will be time to go play on the river!!! :beachkids:
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Wondering if I got into a fight in my sleep. I woke up from a nap earlier, showered, then before I got dressed I noticed that I have multiple bruises and scratches on my arm, leg and chest. wtf??
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Thinking thoughts I dont want to think. Feelings I try to stifle and tonight I cant.:sigh:
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~ What the results of My blood tests may be ~ Whether or not My T doses will be able to be increased ~ If in two weeks time I will have an appointment with the surgeon for top surgery |
Keyboard imprints on my face, if I take a quick nap right here-----* Right now
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Five, six, seven, eight...
Again: step, kick, kick, kick, leap, kick, touch. Right. That connects with turn, turn, out, in, touch, step, step, kick, kick, leap, kick, touch. Got it? Going on. . . Turn, turn, touch, down, back step, pivot step, walk, walk, walk. . . |
All the things I SHOULD be doing today....
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job prospects......lots of interest but no offer yet ..
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Whining and complaining, are these really suitable forms of mating call?
As for me, I am most often drawn to strong, independent people with a notable sense of self-awareness, so it's very difficult for me to see how the opposite could be even remotely attractive. |
met someone .. liking each other a lot..
but on my mind......... getting hurt again... getting hopes up to high. |
The fact that I apparently hurt the feelings of someone I consider a friend, and that they now question my motives for our friendship. This bothers me, because they are an awesome person whom I genuinely care about and respect highly. This makes me sad. :(
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Wondering how long it will be before the Japanese put their "new artificial meat" on the market.
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Visiting Mt. Rushmore mid july...I am so excited to stay in a cabin!!!!
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Sometimes having someone standing behind you, believing in you, can make all of the difference.
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My Aunt and Uncle are going out of town for the night, so I am going to order baked manacotti and watch movies with the dogs tonight.
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My father of course. Father's day can be hard for many of us. Just wanted to post a quick note, put it out in the universe... This song....geeze. Daddy, Your hands, oh how i miss them. Teaching me to tie my shoes, reading me books, teaching me to pray. They were there to hold me when i was scared. You were always cheering me on no matter what i did or how i bad i was at sports...lol. You yelled louder than any parent there, you were always proud of me no matter what. If me and mom got into a tif, or later when i had problems, you were always there to tell me everything was ok. Oh what i would give to feel your hands, feel your hugs and tell you what you mean to me. I miss you. I love you. Happy Father's Day Daddy...i hope where ever you are, you know how much your little girl adores you. |
How much I really miss my father. He passed a few years ago from lung cancer. One of the hardest thing's to let go was my best friend. RIP daddy, Not a day goes by I dont think about you.
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Well, of course, it is Father's Day so I'm thinking about my dad. He passed away in 1985 so it has been a good long while. He was the greatest man I ever knew and I miss him still. I supposed I always will, but not in a sad kind of way, more just wondering what he would have been like in his older years. He gave me much good advice when I was a teenager and into my very early 20's before he passed away. I value his advice to this day.
Missing Puplove, of course. I'll be back home on Wednesday, but I'll miss her and the fur kids while I'm away. Wishing she was here. I got a major upgrade on my hotel "room". I am in what amounts to an apartment in a a hotel that was originally opened in 1925 in downtown Tulsa. It was completely refurbished and reopened about a year ago. It is beautiful, complete with marble floors in the lobby, a grand staircase and crystal chandeliers everywhere. My "room' has a living room with a 42" television, a couch and two chairs, a full kitchen with stainless steel appliances and granite counter tops, dining room with a table for four, a two room bathroom, a huge marble walk-in shower with full body sprays, and a king-sized bed in the bedroom with another 42" television, desk, dresser and two sitting chairs. Eventually, this will be an apartment but they have to operate as a hotel for some period of time and then they can rent places like this as apartments. My gain! And, I only have to walk out the front door and across the street and I'm at my company's corporate office building. This will work out just fine! Glynn |
tomorrow's tidal forecast
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Obsessing - thinking in circles at warp speed.
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I am emotional tonite...I am such a girl!!!
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Diva makes the best garlic mashed potato's ever!
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a new camera.........
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A hot sensuous kiss.
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Snow ******
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Thinking about what this summer will mean to Me, and to a definate bright future :-)
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Too much stuff. Grappling with all the internal stuff, all the school and work stuff. Just stuff. Swirling in my head. I really really really want (need) a vacation.
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The crazy old man neighbor down the block just pissed me off. He's got a lot of nerve telling me I should bag my lawn clippings when he himself never bags and blows his in front of everyone's house but his.:annoyed:
Breathe. He's old and senile. It isn't worth it. Although I would love to ride up one side and down the other. :slapfight: |
Wondering if a tornado will hit tonite...We have a warning...the sky looks scary...T said "If you see me fly down the stairs and into the basement you better follow" lol I guess I will wait for T's signal!
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Why do some people come into our lives, only to wreak havoc?
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