I am just irritated with myself.

I have been purging for years with a specific focus on purging my clothing, shoes, purses, etc.
Last year right before the Reunion when Juney was here, I did another huge purge and let go of a bunch of clothing that I really loved but either couldn't wear, would never wear again, or had never worn. It felt good!

Well, suffice it to say that I am now in the guest room in that biggo closet again because I need to completely empty it so Jack and I can work on the room tomorrow painting and laying new floor.
Carrying armload after armload of ballgowns, cocktail dresses, fancy purses, etc has made me realize that I am STILL hanging on to way too much stuff. Already making a pile of stuff to give away at this year's swap and still need to go through my jewelry and purses. :|

I don't even own 1/5th of what I used to own. Before I moved to California, I had amassed 4 5 walk-in closets chock full of stuff. None of it was worth much because I tend to shop at thrift stores and yard sales but it took me WEEKS to go through all of it and pack what I saved.
When I arrived in Cali, I purged again and had many of those "why did I bring this with me" moments.
Before we left Cali, I knew that space would be at a premium on the moving truck so I did the biggest purge of all and let go of over half of my clothes.
It still wasn't enough.

I hope I don't have a pair of jeans and a raincoat left by the end of the day because I'm in the mood to SUPER PURGE!

I'm watching Property Virgins on HG channel. I can't believe how some of these jerks act on national TV.
Unbelievable. :seeingstars:

ToKissAgain, your story is tough to read. I too left a very (emotionally/Mentally) abusive relationship. It is hard to say goodbye to a life, and I hardly know you...but it is the BEST thing you can do, even though it is so hard to do. Just remember to live for number 1 and that is you!

It's not really about the TV.
 

I'm thinking about a TV. We need one. She talked about us going in halves on one. It's a nice one. All the bells and whistles. ... HDTV. LED. 1080p. 240 hz. 47" screen. ... I want it. And if we halved the price we could afford it. So what is my problem....
OK, maybe this isn't about the TV. It's about me being in my mid-30s and not having anything to show for my life because I've always invested so much in my relationships. I spent the past 10 years investing in the wants of my other half. When I wasn't being his cheerleader I was working my butt off so he could have all of the toys he wanted for all his hobbies and next hairbrained schemes.
So, after 2 failed marriages I'm insanely gun shy about sharing property or paying anyone else's way for anything. I'd rather wait, go without TV for 2 months, and buy the whole thing myself. Because that way, if the universe pees in my cornflakes again, if another relationship dissolves on me, I know who owns that fucking TV.
*sigh*

I have found the PERFECT birthday giftie for Juney and I will hand-deliver it next month :)

Ever had one of those days when the whole world seems to frustrate you? Then all of a sudden something clicks and all the pieces start to fall into place. That's my day today.

Dreamer... You are on my mind.

Why did I dream I was a Playboy bunny. It cracked me up. I'm going to google it. Too funny. :)

Fail! ... Attempt to incorporate more exercise into my life landed me in the Doctor's office with a series of pulled muscles. Seriously? It was a frakking yoga ball! How did I do that????? *laughs/cries/medicates* :seeingstars:

I hear those yoga balls are dangerous!!! LMAO! You can come to the boxing gym with me, at least you know you're going to hurting after!

*laughs* ... The only thing I learned from my 2nd marriage was the technique for using a 10 inch chef's knife and the correct way to hit a punching bag ;)

But I hate gyms. Inevitably some skinny betch gets on the elliptical machine in front of me and I have to watch her bony butt wiggle for the entire hour I'm there. I'm short. I'm fluffy. And tall/skinny chicks who don't sweat off their makeup make me angry. Someone aught to tie them down and feed them some cookies ;) LOL

AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Toddlers & Tiaras freaks me out.

On My mind today is something very sad ............ I started to cry when I read Yahoo's front page just moments ago!

If any of you grew up in the 80's or just loved that decade, and were as HUGE fan of hair bands (like I've always been) you may have heard of the band Warrant who sang such songs as Down Boys, Heaven, Cherry Pie, Sometimes She Cries etc .......... they were one of My absolute ALL time favorie hair bands along with others like Poison, Def Leppard, Motley Crue, Cinderella, Bon Jovi and more. I was just listening to their song on tv, Sometimes She Cries, and I LOVE that song so it always puts Me in a good mood. Then I decided to fire up My computer and come to the Planet, stopping along the way to check out the front page of yahoo.ca ~ and there was the headline:

"Jani Lane, former lead singer of rock band Warrant, found dead at 47 in Los Angeles hotel" :seeingstars:

I'm sad, stunned, shocked and I can't even believe he's gone ~ I JUST listened to him sing on the tv not evne two minutes before I found that headline and I just froze then started to cry. Warrant was so much a part of My childhood, it was the music I listened to and still will listen to even now that he is gone but somehow .......... its not sinking in. Jani Lane, one of the best hair band singers in the entire world, is gone :watereyes:

R.I.P. Lani ~ you are a great singer and I will always love your music :praying:



A fitting tribute to an incredible artist :)

Saints pre-season game tonight!!!!

My brain is in a dark and twisty place. (Been watching too much Grey's Anatomy, maybe?) I'm annoyed at having pulled a muscle. I'm annoyed at taking muscle relaxers which make me slightly dizzy -- though I'm relaxed, lemme say. I'm annoyed at being at work at 9pm and still having 3 more hours left in my day and nothing left for me to do. (Not because there's no work but because I run a tight ship dammit so today's work is busted out and we can't start on tomorrow's because we're waiting on other people who are slackers...) ... But if I leave early -- as I've every right to do as I'm salary and have already put in more than my 40+ at this point -- the head of that other department in the building will be sure to mention my early departure to our mutual boss. At this point, any appearance of competency or efficiency evidently results in staffing cuts (as past layoffs have proven), which my department can't handle. So I can't leave and hurt in the privacy of my own home. *whimper/rage*

tomato, toMAHto.
 

Tomato juice.

I had a Bloody Mary last Sunday and now all I want is tomato juice. With an olive. And a stalk of celery. And maybe some vodka. Every day.

* Thinking of folks who are going through medical stuff

* Overwhelming to-do list

* Running away from to-do list by going out to Farmer's Market and a few yard sales this morning

Thank you for your supportive words.

I have 3 more days I am leaving Tuesday now instead of Wednesday.

So far I am still doing okay still staying positive and still pushing down the anxiety and fear. I still believe even though its hard its the best choice.

So Tuesday is it and I will be in FL by Thursday and have internet again by Friday.

I have to mow my lawn today and it is my least favorite chore. I would rather cook dinner, clean the kitchen, and do all the laundry!

I'd help you mow the lawn if I could :)

Getting ready to head back home to the east coast after a week with my family in AZ. It had been 4 years since I had been here. I reconnected with old friends and celebrated my 50th B-day. I spent most of my time with my dad, who is 74 now. It's been difficult to see how much he has aged. Today was the talk I was dreading....... the living will and living trust conversation. I know it's important, but still not an easy conversation for me. We managed to make it through with a few tears and a few laughs. Plans are in the works for my move back to AZ. I truly miss it here.

I'm going to call my mother tomorrow and ask her how my brother is doing. Last time I saw him he was thin and somber. He said 2 whole words in the hour I saw him before he headed out to work. I'm worried for him. He and his wife are going through something. I'm not sure about the whole story but I've never seen my baby bro hurt so bad. I love my SIL, but at the same time my big sis instinct is in overdrive. It's taking everything I can do not to drive to her house and shake her til her teeth rattle for making my li'l brother sad. *sigh* ... I just keep telling myself, "You love them both. It's their problem. They've got growing pains. Every relationship hits that spot. Stay out of it... " ... and, of course, "I'm too pretty for jail..." LOL

Another headache. Can't blame it on the heat. It's 65 today.

I chased the Treximet with coffee, if that doesn't eat a hole in my stomach, nothing will. I don't want food!

What's with these headaches!

To-do list... meet motivation... *nods briskly*

Well, the treximet took care of the wicked headache ( @ $75.00 a pill it better have:|)....now I have heartburn.
and I'm craving cheese curls.....I'm giving into that craving too. Hitting everyone I work with up for a quarter, junk food machine bags are so small.