sorry for your loss.

Woke this morning with a sore shoulder, it's now 3PM and still hurting. I'm starting to think there might be something more than just than slept on it wrong going on here.

~
 

" hands fire a lidocaine patch " try this !

Feeling
 

Anxious, waiting, hopeful, smiling.

I'm exhausted, anxious, and frustrated. We have our first covid case at work (I manage a communal living program for 55 women). She was rushed to the hospital at 3am Monday and by noon the DOH was on the phone giving me the news. It has been a sh@t show of epic proportions that I can't even begin to describe. I've been working 18 hour shifts frantically as the state put all residents on mandatory quarantine, putting all new procedures into place for how they can shower/bathroom/eat when all of those areas are common areas. Not to mention the residents themselves who are scared and anxious- worried about losing their jobs, not being able to pay their bills, getting sick. Only one staff member was close enough to her to be at risk and that staff member was my daughter- who was helping her when she went out with the ambulance. So my daughter is on mandatory quarantine and waiting until Thursday when they will test her- but still have to wait days for the result. We have bleached the living daylight out of the whole building and continue to do so several times a day but it's still a crap shoot how this will play out. I arranged for DOH to come on site Thursday to test every resident. And then there's watching the election results trickle in and feeling sick about the state of America.

Sleep deprived, stressed,anxious, fatiguee putain

hungry, sleepy. Not looking forward to a day of doctor's appointments
and lab tests.

Excited and a little nervous after signing up

Clearly. You made me really laugh out loud at work, and now I have people looking at me trying to figure it out. I’m grumpy looking so it seems to be a big deal.

Nothing as great as your suggestions, I mean who wouldn’t want to go to space camp, but it was just in reference to signing up for the holiday card exchange on here. I have talked myself out of it the last couple yes I have noticed the thread pop up

Dang noticing that took the wind out of my sails
Time to turn on some feel good music and hit the shower, going to be a very long weekend at work

Sad and lonely.

Diva Kitty passed on yesterday. For weeks she has been looking ill, losing weight and drinking tons of water, peeing everywhere. She's been to the vet twice, who was ultimately unable to help. She had to live in the bathroom for the last month or so, due to the peeing, and that's no way for a cat to live.

She was a good cat. She liked to play, right up until the very end, even though she was an old kitty. Her favorite toy was a red ribbon that I would toss out and jerkily pull towards her. She was inquisitive and interested in things. She liked to be petted, and would occasionally consent to be snuggled. She followed me around the house, and would (usually) come when I called her. She tolerated grooming pretty well, especially when followed by treats. She would tolerate lots of things in exchange for treats - like being snuggled.

So I have no pets now. It feels lonely and weird. And since I'm dealing with this illness of my own right now, I don't foresee adopting any new ones any time soon. I dreamed about two of my former dogs last night. I hope that they and Diva Kitty and all of my other pets are happy together on the other side.

Diva Kitty, I loved you. Thank you for hanging with me for so long.

How are you feeling
 

Not too sure, getting unsteady sitting on this fence.

I’m sorry for your loss G M lost my little guy last summer and I’m still depressed when I think of him . It’s like losing a part of your heart

Sad,tired and sleepy

Pretty good. I know it's too early to decide on these latest pillows, but I woke up without a stiff neck and am not taking tylenol today.

Could be worse.

So very sorry. It's hard to lose an animal companion.

Feeling
 

Feeling very concerned about my older brother. He woke up blind in one eye and Dr. says that sight is gone for good. I spent 3 days with him the beginning of this week and saw how he tried to manage. Not bad but not good either. I guess I will have to go and see him more often. We email daily and talk a couple times a week. I am only an hour away so if he needs me I can go. He is super independent so looking after him is totally out off the question.

Really feeling that seasonal depression. If anyone has any tips, (supplements, etc.) I'd be appreciative (besides a sunlamp, which I already use).

Have you tried Vitamin D in addition to the sunlamp? I have used it myself and it has helped me.

All the best!

My down spirits are usually holiday-related this time of year - a result of growing up wondering why my family wasn't like the Brady Bunch.

I'm feeling pretty good and prepared for the upcoming holiday season. Going to get Uber delivery for the Thanksgiving meal, and spend it with two good friends. I ordered my holiday cards and stamps, and it will take me some time to fill all of those out and mail them. I haven't started gift shopping yet, but hopefully I can get to that soon. I'm going to just have a small tree in my bedroom this year - some friends are going to decorate my bedroom for the season.

These are a few holiday traditions I like to stick with every year, as they keep me from getting the blues. Another important thing for me to remember is to have _no_expectations_. I get back about half the number of holiday cards I send out, but everyone seems to enjoy getting mine. People are like, "I enjoy reading your newsy cards! I just don't have time any more at the holidays and so I quit sending them." I get phone calls and emails instead.

One holiday tradition I won't be able to keep up with this year is baking cookies. What with COVID, who could I give them to, anyway? I might make one or two batches for myself and my friends who come over. But honestly, I don't know if I will have the energy to do so. We'll see. Hopefully my self-imposed holiday puttering will ward off the seasonal blues.

Je suis morte de fatigue 😥not only because of school but ne the usual i hate feeling on autopilot

ELATED! I spoke to the oncology doctor and the PET scan showed that they got all the cancer out when they did the surgery. Yay! Basically, I am cancer free!

I still have to do the chemo, though, just in case there are any microscopic particles of cancer floating around that are too small for the PET scan to catch. But it will be worth it. The chemo will give me a 50% better chance that there will be no recurrence.

:balloon::happyjump::cheer:

:pile:

That's such great news for you and your loved ones. What a kick ass way to start off/head into the new year - congrats!

That is so awesome, Georgia! There are several people in my life here at home who are battling cancer; so I know how special it is to get a positive outcome like this. Hooray for you! :bunchflowers:

Wonderful news indeed! So happy for you GeorgiaMa'am....

I have a sneaking suspicion more people than usual may be sending out Holiday cards this year. And on a more personal note, I remember being in the postcard exchange with you and loved all you sent me! In fact I have the Coca-Cola one in a small frame...:hangloose:

I would love it if sending out holiday cards became a thing again. They're fun to get in the mail. They're festive to hang in the house. They're good reminders to people that they are important in your life.

You were great at sending postcards, too, homoe. That was a fun project! I still have several of yours . . .

Feeling
 

We had a few days of really nice weather and although it has turned cold no snow so all is well. Clear and cool is nice weather for me.

I am feeling very optimistic about my new career.
I started yesterday and today I am looking forward to going to work, it has been quite a minute since I have felt like that

OsteoArthritis
 

Better. Found a huge lump on my collar bone this weekend. Doctor was able to see me today and after examining it he told me it osteoarthritis and assured me it had noting to do with parathyroid problem. I was concerned because it’s close to my parathyroid.

When I found it on Saturday, my first thought was, oh, I’ve lost so much weight I can feel my bones. LOL

I stopped smiling when this “bone” was only on one side of my body.

Feeling much better.

How are you feeling
 

Slowly getting through this holiday season and trying to keep my head above water with depression. I have spent most of it watching tv and a bit of time in here. After losing my best friend/cousin, I find out she was cremated and kept away from all her friends, not buried with her husband or mom and dad so none can go to pay respects and I spoke to a close friend of hers down home and they are all very upset, no funeral to attend and no grave to oversee. These were closer to her than family for many many years. I feel very sad for them also as they are all older women and most are living alone and they all hung out together. Life is not fair at times so even if I get down there no connection will be made. I hope her daughter gets some satisfaction from keeping her on her mantle.

Moanin and groanin
 

Dreading that I'm getting ready to list my place back on the market. Which means I've got to start looking for places again, placing offers, accepting offers. Sitting in parking lots while people view my place. I would gladly shop, dine alone, check out a movie, visit some nearby friends, hang out in local book stores, shoot some pool with the local yokels.... but of course I can't.

I'm having a hard time being graceful and appreciative about this move. It will be joyful once I find a place. More than anything I think it's being in limbo that has me out of joint. Half my shit is packed in the garage. Thank goodness Mitzi and I labeled all the boxes. Last week I needed mango butter and bees wax. Was able to find them.

Feeling good about my cannabis concoctions. The canna-coconut oil and salve I made came out great and the salve is way less expensive than buying from the dispensary. I'll post the recipes if anyone is interested.

On top of the world
 

Pretty dang good. I did the math and discovered I can have my debt completely paid off in four months if I Scrooge it, am dilligent about it. Or just six if I afford myself a bit of fun each month, and that's without any additional COVID relife monies. It would sure be great if we get another stimulus check but I'm not banking on it. However if we do, I'm going to reward myself with something major I've been wanting for a very long time – a freezer! For which I will pay cash. Lesson learned.