Can we we not have conversations without slurs?
 

I could argue that my questioning, even criticizing, trans/gender ideology/behavior is not motivated by hate, but arguing sacred canon with ideologues, or fundamentalists, is never fruitful. They may preach: “Hate the sin, not the sinner”, but they rarely practice it…. More importantly, arguing would be me lending credence to a false accusation. A false accusation that is typically used by trans/gender ideologues to derail conversations and discredit lesbians/Feminists who do not embrace trans/gender ideology. So, I’ll just shrug and say: “Your” canon hurts women who share my sensibilities. That doesn’t automatically qualify “you” as a lesbianphobe in my book, but I could be persuaded.


Chazz,

I felt and feel uncomfortable with this particular part of your post. It's feels like you're wanting to have this conversation using slurs? Yet transfolk are not allowing you? It seems oogy it feels oogy am I misreading you?

Chazz -

I have multiple reports about this post. All of the reports I have received are from Butches and Femmes who feel that this type of posting is not only ugly and incendiary, but super unwelcoming to anyone who doesn't buy into the "Lesbians over HERE, Transpeople over THERE" dogma.

The use of the term "once men" is not ok in this context or space. I understand you are trying to explain your position and I appreciate that but you have proven yourself to be highly articulate and capable of critically thinking around this issue and I am quite certain you can make your point without dragging out that tired-ass, marginalizing verbiage. And mind you, it isn't the words I have a problem with, it's the disrespect to the Transwomen who have/do/will frequent this thread.

You can question Trans or Gender ideology all you want. That isn't off limits here or anywhere else on this site but if you need to employ disrespectful language or ideas to do so, then you might want to check yourself.

I am not sure why you think we can't have a meaningful conversation around Lesbian Pride without trashing the Trans experience or Trans women who don't have either the money or inclination to have surgery but it IS possible. We do not need to shred someone else's identity to celebrate our own. I know you know this. Employ it.

I will agree with you that there is an elephant in the living room but I think we disagree on what that elephant is. I hope you understand why questioning/dismantling Trans Gender Theory in a "Lesbian" space is potentially dangerous. It would be potentially dangerous for the same reason that dismantling Lesbian Feminist Theory would be in a completely "Trans" space. If the intent is to draw a straight line from "your oppression" to another person's diametrically-opposed identity, then I would suggest that the elephant in the living room is that there is either some phobia or some ignorance that needs to be unpacked.

Either way, feel free to have a Lesbian Pride discussion in this thread but do so with respect and good will and refrain from employing words and thought processes that feel ugly and unwelcoming to the people on this site. That includes ALL Butches, Femmes, and Transfolks of every identity and gender presentation.

Thanks,
Admin

I'm sure someone will take it upon themselves to explain me. It's been happening. My feathers don't ruffle easy, so don't concern yourself with that.

No, some things aren't black and white with me, except when they are.

I'm not presuming to speak for anyone but myself. I am putting it out that some people are afraid to speak.

Coming after????

Your "policing" of my terminology, opinions and communication style is duly noted. I find the use of the term cisgender/ed offensive and alienating as a butch lesbian; I've said as much in a number of threads. It's use continues unpoliced.


I take you at your word that you don't see it - which is precisely my point. Certain perspectives have become so entrenched and "normalized", they've become embedded in "our" psyches and the "community" lexicon. When something is said that challenges any of that (i.e. does not comport with the ideology or the sanctioned neologisms) it's deemed a TILT and deemed phobic. That's a death knell for critical thinking.

You're entitled to your feelings. Your opinion about my motives is entirely wrong, though. I'm not remotely invested in anyone agreeing with me. Really and truly, I'm not.

You see, ScandalAnd, you've just pointed to the problem. Questioning trans/gender ideology, politics and behavior is NOT a call to NOT INCLUDE trans people. Though that is too often the conclusion many people jump to. That jump justifies calling people who disagree with the ideology, transpobes.... My issue is NOT WITH TRANS PEOPLE, it's with aspects of an ideology, politics and behavior which I see as anti woman/lesbian/Feminist.

I'm out of the conversation. So........

I did some online searching after reading what Toughy said in the BV thread, about "inflamatory" blog pieces being written, post-BV Conference. I found some (not hard to find), read some from both sides of the coin/ideological divide/whatever, and while none of it is surprising, I am left feeling utterly heartbroken.

Many of the posters, here and elsewhere, are articulate, passionate, convincing, many others are intent on policing what is being said, still others are desperate to bridge the divide at any cost.

My vision is not clear by any means and the overlapping oppressions and marginalization I see at work makes me dizzy with dispair. I am not of the school that there must be "one tent," I am not of the school that there can only be separate camps. I believe in allyship, solidarity, and coalition that honors differences and utilizes commonalities, I have seen it work in areas that are frankly more important than how any one of us identifies. So why is this so hard?

I think the deep intertwined roots of racism and sexism are at the heart of these divides. Racism, sexism, and classism are the pillers of patriarchal systems. We are of those systems. All patriarchy has to do is sit back and watch us devour each other, as we get caught up in the webs of our own histories, privileges, (in whatever way we gain those), and most poignently, our own losses.

Thank you Chazz for your nod towards my efforts. My feelings about your terminology is this: it adds to an endless loop of erasure -- which is not something you started, it was already happening obviously, but continuing to meet erasure with erasure is counter-productive in the community sense. Of course it's your choice, anyone's choice, how/if they will participate in any community. Last I heard there was still womon's/wymyn's land and separatism is a valid choice in a world of such ongoing brutality towards women. Those on such land will have to wrestle with their definition of "woman."

I also logged onto MWMF boards, something I had never done before, and read a bit. It was hard, but illuminating. I realize that at heart I'm a deconstructionist. Rigid definitions, even my own, make me suspicious -- guess that comes from a lifetime of wandering limnal spaces and gender borders -- (not in terms of what gender I was per se, but in terms of what it meant to be the gender I was).

I was telling Cheryl about an experiecne I had where a particular transwoman in a queer space was stalking me in an inappropriate way. While it occured to me that she was engaging in what I thought of as "male-ish" behavior (my frame of reference), the bottom line was that she was a jerk and had no boundaries. It was individual.

Yet, it did concern me in terms of the space we occupied together which was "women and trans space," and that it didn't feel "safe" in a very particular, gut kind of way -- a way which is NOT only individually about me and this person, but about history and reality. That is the part that gets avoided, I think, in the intense focus and care given to inclusive spaces. What are the values we share about participation in inclusive queer communities? How do we tie that to the actual history of sexism, classism, and racism, and the impact that has had on groups of people? Queer inclusivity cannot exist in a vacuum, as if we started with a clean slate and are creating a brave new world from scratch. Because we're not, we can't. We are carrying everything with us, every bruden, oppression, and division that racism, sexism, and classism ever created. Whether we want to or not.

Heart

I respect that you maintain my opinion about your motives is incorrect. Thank you for letting me know that I was mistaken in that respect, I feel better knowing you are only speaking for yourself. I apologize for my error in attempting to guess your motives and appreciate that you took the time to answer my question directly.

Is your use of quotations around the word "policing" intended to be sarcasm? I can assure you, the only reason I directly called you out on continuing to use the phrase in question is because it was already deemed inappropriate by an admin, and I take direct offense to it. I am not afraid to call you out on something that bothers me, and I believe I am within my rights to do so, just as you are within your rights to respond or not as you see fit.

I asked who you were "coming after" because you quoted Cheryl's post, posted comments in red which appeared to be you agreeing with her points (albeit in a, to me, inflammatory manner), then proceeding to respond below in such a way that accused her friend of "not genuflecting enough" (more sarcasm?) then implying that she is a lesbianphobe. That seems contradictory and accusatory to me, which is why i brought it up. I may be incorrect in this thought as well, so I pose the following question: For what purpose did you quote Cheryl's post if not to agree or disagree with it?

Finally, I would like to make sure I am not misinterpreting your last paragraph in response to me. Are you implying that I am wearing blinders and am so inundated with trans ideology that I am incapable of critical thinking? I hope not, since I spend a large amount of time questioning why I feel the way I do, and whether it is beneficial and inclusive (or exclusionary) to do so. I know I am not required to justify myself, but in this case I feel it can only help.

You have repeatedly said you are questioning ideology, politics and behaviors. Please direct me to where, in a trans discussion/space, you have stated what specific ideology/politics/behaviors you take issue with and why you do so. If those specifics were pointed out in a lesbian space, or have yet to be addressed, I hope that they can be moved to a trans specific area where they can be pulled apart and discussed in depth so that I may better understand you and your deep feelings about this subject. I also hope that you understand how, in my personal opinion, they have no place in a lesbian discussion since it is not the politics of being a lesbian that you take vehement opposition to.

It is clear that you are proud to be a lesbian, like the title of this thread states. I hope you will not leave the thread in which you have invested much experience and dedication. That would be a great loss indeed.

I personally feel heartsick by what I read in this thread.

Heart, I, too feel despair at reading them.

My bottom line is that I do not want my own woman-identified lesbian identity erased by anyone. Anyone.

Aren't the other posters also stating that nor do they want their own identity: butch/femme/trans, however they ID; erased or discounted either?

That each identity is fiercely protected by those that have claimed their own identity?

Am I reading correctly?

There is enough division out in the "real world", do we need to do it to each other too?

Do we all have to agree with each other?

Can we not respect each other without attacking each other?

Must this go on?

Yes, some of my very ambivalent experiences with trans people have been damaging. The individuals were acting as individuals. No one should expect each member of a minority to represent that minority in all their actions. That said, all transwomen have spent at least part of their lives being socialised as male. Aj has written about this eloquently in another thread, but I don't have the patience to find it. She spoke about many small ways in which she was privileged over her sister while growing up because she was a boy. She acknowledges the obvious, which is that she benefitted from this, and probably continues to benefit a bit from that early boost, whether or not she wanted to be a boy. (Apologies for the paraphrase.)

As I wrote previously, my experiences with transwomen who have been socialised as male, who, unlike Aj and my friend A who I mentioned previously, have never questioned their history of privilege, who continue to use male-centric power dynamics they've learned over their lifetimes to gain advantages in personal and business matters, who have always lived by a 'power-over' model rather than a feminist universal empowerment model, are very VERY visible when they enter women's space. Those are the transwomen that make my friend A cringe, and that cause her to fear that she will be judged based on others' bad behaviours.

Denying the reality that some transwomen who haven't questioned their conditioning and socialised behaviours can make other women uncomfortable in what's supposed to be women's space, is painful and erasing for women like myself who rely on women's space for it's relative safety. When I'm told that I must not say the above because it's allegedly transphobic, I hear that my sense of safety is secondary to the safety of people who are acting 'like men'. Their oppression as transpeople is more important than my oppression as a woman, etc.

In real terms that means that when I'm at a women's sex/play party and a crossdressing man exposes his naked dick tied up in a bow, women who know he doesn't belong there don't feel empowered to challenge his invasive presence. That man with all the sensitivity of a tree stump felt emboldened to circumvent my playmates' efforts to shield me from a sight they KNEW I didn't want to see. More than a year later I still think about my anger and feelings of being invaded instead of the lovely scene I was having before Mr. Dick-in-a-bow stuck it in my face. He claimed to be trans. His safety was more important than mine.

...it didn't feel "safe" in a very particular, gut kind of way -- a way which is NOT only individually about me and this person, but about history and reality. That is the part that gets avoided, I think, in the intense focus and care given to inclusive spaces...

We lesbians have the most to lose when we lose women's space. Because issues of trans inclusion have proved difficult, the trend is to dismantle women's space altogether in favor of queer space. Eliminating the language means eliminating the problem, right? Not on my watch.

What you just posted Cheryl is eloquent in the ways it illustrates how we cannot avoid patriarchal history, (built upon racism/sexism/classism), as individuals or as communities, no matter how inclusive and correct we want to be.

I did not ask for help with the person following me around in that space because I feared, a) that I would be seen as transphobic by others, and b) because I questioned myself for having a reaction to her behavior.

In some ways b. is even more insidious than a. It's a classic internalized self-blaming/blame-the-victim reaction women are specifically trained to have, so as to keep accountability off perpetrators. That particular conditioning, as a woman, may not be something I share with my trans sisters who grew up male.

Heart

On the other hand -- the transwomen that I know personally grew up living in fear. They were not socialized as girls, they had access to boy/male privilege, but because of their internal wiring, they knew early that they were "counterfit" and therefore at risk. And they also internalized self-blame, not in the same way as girls, but as "others," as queers, as being different. It's not easy to belong to the privileged class (boys/men), and know that you don't "measure up," especially when you know that the consequences for that can be harsh, (for a large group of transwomen, that translates as rape). This feels important to me, in part because of the work I have done with transwomen survivors.

But. It doesn't mean that one should not be held accountable for their actions. One of the problems with individualizing these issues (i.e. some people are just jerks, there are assholes in every group, etc) is that when someone is called out on their inappropriate behavior, they evoke their status as part of an oppressed group, and then become untouchable. They shift the focus away from their behavior and onto others' behavior as "oppressors." Classic. And dangerous. I see too much of that. And I tend to agree with Cheryl, that women and lesbians stand to lose the most in that game.

What it brings me back to is something I've talked about before -- the importance of coalescing around shared values and goals, rather than just shared identities.

Heart

Yes, heartbroken sums it up for me. And an unwillingness to participate in any way with something that matters to me, but just cannot do it any longer. the cost is far too high.

Cheryl:

Up until you posted the other day, I honestly thought I was a minority of one. As it turns out, maybe I'm in a minority of two.

Reading the part about the transwoman who was nude in a woman's space makes me cringe and makes me sad. It also makes me sad that NO ONE can have this conversation without being accused of transphobia. The older I get the more I see that the queer community has tried to have the right ethic but implemented it crudely. The ethic that no one should be judged for what they are has been transmuted into one where no one should be judged BECAUSE of what they are. Here's the difference:

Judged by what you are = Because Aj is a transwoman she is...

Not judged because of what you are =
Someone: "Aj, you know that thing you did that just annoyed me..."
Me: "The only reason you are criticizing me is because I'm..."

Both statements are equally ridiculous. In the first, I stand in simply for some label 'transwoman'. Everything I do is filtered through the lens of 'transwoman' and whatever the speaker thinks of when they use that term.
In the second, no matter how open or friendly the speaker may be, I'll deploy my being trans as a shield.

If I should not be judged harshly because I'm transgendered, then I should not be judged loosely based on that criteria. However, it goes beyond that. That is what I would hope to receive from the spaces I move through. That's only half of the contract. The other half is my behavior.

Yes, I need to be aware of my background. I need to be *especially* aware of my background when the question comes round to issues of space and privilege. I need to be hyper-alert to it and err on the side of caution. It means that feminism and taking feminist ethics seriously is non-optional. I'm going to go so far and say that it is non-optional for transwomen. By non-optional, I mean it two senses; I think that transition is hard. At least it was 20 years ago and I doubt that it is significantly easier today. If one is going to transition successfully then I think one must go into the process with a feminist sensibility. If one doesn't then one is going to be blind to male privilege and will drag it around with one. I am not going to say that there are NO vestiges of male privilege in my life. Certain head starts I receive can't be undone.
That means I have something to keep my eye on, something I need to self-monitor throughout my life.

Now, before anyone says that it shouldn't be that way--I agree. It *shouldn't* be that way. I *shouldn't* have a Y-chromosome. Certainly, I didn't ask for it and if I could give it up and have actually gotten to give birth to my son I would do so in a heartbeat. You could even take my one good eye in the bargain! But I don't get to have everything I want in this life, in the time frame that I want it, delivered in the manner I prefer and in the color I like. I just don't and all the exclamations of 'that's not fair' don't change it.

There are always trade-offs, there are always costs. We can try to pretend that there are not but they will still be there and the longer we pretend that there are no costs, no matter what decision path we follow, the more we spin our wheels in these conversations where people go off feeling that they are being accused of bigotry--sometimes even when they are not.

It isn't in the adjectives, it is a bit in the pronouns, but ultimately it is in how we treat people as individuals and how we take responsibility for ourselves. Part of me wants to apologize, on the part of the transwomen who 'get it' but that is not my apology to make. It has not been my path. I have tried to model the idea and to 'spread the gospel of feminism', if you will forgive the phrase, so that transwomen who are just starting their journey will have an easier time of it and transwomen who have been at it for a while and keep wondering why certain kinds of things keep happening will have some reference for what they might want to consider.

We can debate whether people are less 'harmed' by the use of the termed 'colored' or the use of the term 'people of color' (which, by the way, POC strikes me as 'colored people' met coming the other way, just so you know). Or we can decide that adjective games don't help people, treating people as human beings--full human beings capable of agency--helps people.

Honestly, I'm done with identity politics. I was suspicious of it 20 years ago but thought I lacked both the intellect and education to perhaps understand it in its subtlety. Two decades and a lot of pages and discussions and panels and workshops later, I return to where I started but more confident than ever that my first impression of identity politics was right. This emphasis on identity, this idea that *as a black woman* I have certain rights is the wrong way to achieve a noble goal. If bigotry is saying that *because* I am a black lesbian that I am less deserving of certain rights, responsibilities and opportunities anti-bigotry is NOT stating that *because* I'm a black lesbian I deserve those very things. My rights are my rights as a human being *regardless* of whether I am a member of this or that group. Until we decide that you and me and that woman over there are all entitled to a certain level of civility and, perhaps, maybe even the benefit of the doubt and thus are all required to treat one another civilly we will get nowhere.

Do I have a right to be treated civilly. Yes, I would argue I do. But the price of being treated civilly is treating others civilly as well. My being a black, transgendered lesbian does not exempt me from either.


Cheers
Aj

I think I have a lot to learn from all of you here, there are plenty of people who have been fighting these battles long before me.

I still have trouble figuring out how to have a safe space for women while respecting everyone's gender identity. There MUST be a way to do it, but I'll be danged if I can figure it out. I think at the end of the day it will come down to sticking to your guns and repeating that it isn't about excluding, it's about making a safe space, and that the boundaries are there for protection. There will be other events that will not have as stringent of boundaries, but those that are strict should be respected instead of vilified.

Does that sound like othering? Is there a better way to go about delineating what is acceptable in a safe space without being exclusionary? Is there a good way to enforce rules about safe spaces without being vilified as a phobic person?


I think proud lesbians can coexist with proud transpeople. I am proud of my lesbian identity, but I am also proud to be a trans lover and trans ally. All of these things live together in me, so I cannot understand why I am struggling so much to find a way for them to coexist in our community as a whole.

SA:

I think that the way forward has two parts. One part is public--spaces being open to people. The other part is personal--people holding themselves accountable. As a community (and here I'm talking about the queer community) I think we've focused on the former at the detriment to the latter. What I would LIKE to see is that we put some emphasis on the former but that is going to require breaking the spell that we cast on ourselves perhaps a quarter century ago--one manifestation of that spell is this idea that if you are a member of an oppressed group, your moral slate is not just wiped clean but remains forever a tabula rosa. This cannot continue because *until* we break that spell there can be no accountability.

Regardless of one's gender identity one should not be given a free pass. I would go further than that, though--much further. One cannot use one's gender identity (or kink or sexual orientation or race or ethnicity or religion, etc.) as an excuse to abandon feminist ideas. This means that if, for instance, a trans-woman claims that she could never have had male privilege because she never identified as a boy, we call bullshit on it. Because, in fact, OTHER people identified her as a boy and treated her as such. She might have felt survivor's guilt (which is how I experienced it) but she still had the male privilege. It is her task, as a woman *becoming* a woman--and Simone Beauvoir wisely said "one is not born a woman one becomes one--to be vigilant about male privilege. In the same way, trans-men don't get a free pass either. If a trans-man behaves in a way that is sexist, that does not take women seriously or acts in a manner consistent with throwing his male privilege around it simply should not matter whether that person lived everyday before that very day as a woman. What matters is how that person behaves.

Does that mean we cannot understand context? No. It means that in this minefield, there are costs. If we are going to have a community that errs on the side of openness (and I think we should strive for that) then we as individuals are going to have to err on the side of accountability, self-reflection and taking the hard path when called for. What does that look like? It looks like trying to have consistent standards of what is and is not considered racist, sexist, homophobic, or any other form of bigotry we might care to mention. That means that we abandon this idea that when a trans-man behaves in a sexist manner it isn't really sexism because he's a transman. It means taking the words that the individual in question may have just uttered and putting it in the mouth of some heterosexual white male and then asking the question of how we would take it. IF, as I suspect we would in most cases, we would call that man out on his sexism then we call ALL men out for the same behavior. All men. All men includes trans-men.

Is that fair? Yes, as a matter of fact, it is fair. Is it respectful? Actually, yes, it is in fact MORE respectful than what we've been doing. It is taking trans-men at their word that they are men. When my son was growing up, I tried to explain to him what I meant by 'when you grow up, I want you to be a good man'. One of the components of that was self-reflection and being accountable. I look at my trans-brothers and if I love and support them, I will think that they should be accountable. Why? Because they are men and part of how we designate a man from a boy--at least in the black community--is whether or not he is accountable. The same applies to our trans-sisters and for the same reasons.

I am talking about a very different kind of community than what we've built so far. I don't think we need tear it all down and start from scratch but what we have been bequeathed by our foremothers and forefathers is kind of a fixer-upper of a community. It's pretty, the lawn could use some work, definitely needs some new paint, some roofing, electrical work and it probably wouldn't hurt if we stripped and redid the hardwood floors while we're at it. Heart mentioned a community based less on identity and more on shared values and goals. I think that is a stronger basis upon which to build community and while I'm sure it has pitfalls of its own, it will certainly avoid the pitfalls that have brought us to this place.

What are those values? What are those goals? That is the question we have to ask ourselves. Back when I first came out, I recognized a weakness in the queer community. At the time I thought I might either be wrong or I might not have understood. As an older woman now, I realize that my instinct was right. What is that weakness? We lack generational transmission of our values and goals. Growing up as a black child, I was immersed in a set of values, goals and expectations that were handed down to me by my parents who received them from their parents who received them from their parents before them. It was automatic and just happened in a very organic fashion. The queer community, because the vast majority of us come to it in or near adulthood, has not yet developed a mechanism for transmitting those values, goals, expectations and lessons from one generation to another. If we are a community--as opposed to merely a temporary conglomeration of identity groups--then part of what a community does is transmit that which has been learned and that which is necessary.

We have the potential to do this, but first we're going to have to unlearn much that we thought we knew. We will have to break the spell and in doing so, move forward.

Cheers
Aj

AJ, I like where you're going with this and I agree with you. I want to find a way to turn this back toward the lesbian pride this thread was created for, too, since I consider that one of the values that, while I wasn't raised with it, has become something very important to me. Pride in who I am.

I have an overwhelming sense of right and wrong, and i get very prickly when that feels threatened or another person I interact with tells me it isn't functioning properly according to their beliefs. I want very much to hang on to the values I have, but I also want to be open to the re-examining the principles I built those values on.

I began identifying as bisexual as a way to shield myself from the brunt of the absue in high school, but along the way changed that to identifying as a lesbian. Now I choose to identify as queer, but I still want to hold on to my lesbian identity. Is that contradictory? I'm not sure.

I loved your whole post, dreadgeek, especially the part about NO ONE being given a free pass on what we expect in terms of behavior. I do believe that this has been overlooked in our community.

Additionally, I think that you pointing out that it is actually BETTER for the person themselves to be held accountable, is an important point. Being held accountable is how we grow as individuals. How we grow our community into being a healthy place.

(nod to our mods here at the Planet)

The above reminds of how "back in the day", butches and femmes would take on mentoring new members to the community. You hear about the "butch code", where one would not date a friend's ex-girlfriend, for example.

Although I believe that the mentoring of the "baby butches" happened more often by both butches and femmes, I do believe that this was true for some femmes in the community as well (I have read less about this, however).

I'm not sure how to have a discussion about lesbian pride without discussing issues that drain me of my lesbian pride.

Perhaps I made a mistake in thinking that a thread about lesbian pride was an appropriate place to address that drainage. It is what I had in mind when I was approached by the OP about starting this thread. This thread did evolve out of the thread about BV changing the definition of butches, after all.

It never occurred to me that this was suppose to be a kumbaya retrospective of the not so glorious lesbian/Feminist past. My bad, I guess.... I did anticipate it would be a difficult discussion, but a necessary one for many of the reasons Heart and Cheryl have touched upon in their posts.

The LGBTQ "community" is seething with resentments that foster both transphobia and lesbianphobia. The mostly well intentioned response to those resentments has been denial, kumbayaism, magical thinking, and when all else fails, censorship. That may have perpetuated the "big tent" mythology, but in reality it has not served anyone well. It's fragmented and depoliticized the "community"; it's allowed parallel phobias to fester....

Sequestering ourselves in endogenous (online or off) "communities" and going la, la, la, la, is avoidance - not something to take pride in. Genuine ally-ship is about engaging in a heuristic, facing hard truths and conflict, not wishing, or dear me-ing, them away.

Perhaps it was naive of me to dare addressing these issues, here. I could limit my expenditure of time and energy to communities that reinforce my beliefs. You know, places that are preaching to the already converted. That isn't my understanding of "community" building.




“Now if you learn philosophy in a given language [gender vs. Feminist theory], that is the language in which you naturally philosophize, not just during the learning period but also, all things being equal, for life. But a language, most assuredly, is not conceptually neutral; syntax and vocabulary are apt to suggest definite modes of conceptualization.... If that philosophy was academically formulated in English [or, gender vs. Feminist theory] and articulated therein, the message was already substantially westernized [both gender and Feminist theory are painfully westernized - it's just that too few of us are willing or brave enough to look at that]….
- Kwasi Wiredu, African Studies Quarterly

:vigil:

This was what I was thinking of when I wrote that post. There was once a time when an older butch would feel comfortable taking a younger butch under her wing and saying "listen to me, young pup, you got the swagger, you got the attitude, you got the recognition nod down pat but there's more to being a butch than just that. I've been around the block so stick with me, kid, because someone has to give you this teaching and those of us in the life are the only ones who give enough of a damn about you to do it". I would like to see us return to that idea.

When I first came out, there was a group of women who had a D&D group that met every Friday. For three years, we got together, broke bread and rolled dice and generally geeked out. Those women taught me so much. When I needed a shoulder and advice, one of them was there for me. When I needed a kick in the ass, one of them was there for that as well. They routinely said things to me that would, today, have them excoriated for being ---ist or --phobic. Yet, that wasn't the place they were operating out of. They were operating out of a sense of love, tenderness and a sense that as older, wiser lesbians they had a responsibility to help me find my way in the world as an adult, queer woman.

To me, that WAS community and it was as strong a sense of community as I'd had sense leaving home.

Cheers
Aj

I read about these communities but haven't experienced one. While I was in college a group of butches who were seniors did attempt to recreate that by having Sunday potluck dinners and inviting all us young bucks over. Unfortunately they were all fighting over the same femme, who took me aside and patiently explained to me that while i looked great in drag, I wasn't actually a butch. It fell apart after a while because their libido got in the way of the drive for community, and i ended up just as lost and confused as when I got there, albeit with a new wardrobe.


Why don't these things exist anymore? Is this online community the only place where I can find something like that? Am I supposed to be mentoring the young queers? Who is going to mentor me? I have lots of questions!