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Limitations!!!!!
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4 days till Christmas
laundry snuggles and morning kisses and... breakfast... soon |
good morning kisses...snuggles...breakfast...and an amazing article i read
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I'm wondering if it would be OK to leave work 7 hours early to go home and make Christmas cookies?
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A 5K race (organized run) Christmas morning.
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i wonder if i was good enough to get a visit from Santa.. :santa1:
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I'm tired of getting strung along by people!!!!!!!!!!
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Tentative date for my next Fight Night...... March 17th!!!! Time to train! :training:
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Beaches :)
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The hysteria is starting to set in....
Ramblings no one will understand, but it makes me laugh a little to write:
=========================== S held hostage: Day 10 The rank and file masses are fewer and fewer every day. I suspect poison is the culprit. They entice the workers to eat the sweetened fried dough rings. And when they leave at the end of the day they don't return. The talking heads haven't been seen in nearly a week. I suspect they're cloistered away in their respective mansions, gorging on fine food and wine and plotting how they can get more for less out of the worker bees in the coming new year. As for me, it's as if I don't exist. But I know that isn't the case. If don't get everything done that's expected of me there will be severe consequences. People dash by without a word or a smile. The building is empty and still I'm here, plodding along like a good corporate citizen, a worker bee quietly buzzing in the background, oil the machine, pet the machine, make the machine happy. Did anyone else out there ever play that game, Paranoia? It was an RPG from way back. "The corporation is your friend. You are property of the corporation." I feel like a clone. =========================== Translation: I'm on day 10 of an 11 day stretch at work. Long damn week, long damn days. And definitely no thanks or appreciation for my efforts. The big wigs are all away on holiday. Me and my staff are killing ourselves to get the daily crap done -- a hard job when other departments seem to be unwilling or unable to do their part. And when the big wigs get back, not only will they criticize and abuse me and mine for our failings (...can't let the peons think they're actually capable of anything. they'll start thinking they deserve to be treated reasonably...), but they will remind us all to be thankful for the abuse as they send us out the door to take a cold week off without any pay so that the gods of corporate can afford their ambrosia and liposuction. Methinks I passed jaded a long time ago. Hey baby, that's the news. |
My Baby Girl...as always:cheer:
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christmas is on my mind a lot....wishing i could physically be with my fam to spend christmas morning with them....and trying tp map out how to get things finished over the next day or 2 ....
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Her. I wonder if she knows. I wonder if she cares. :hk2:
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I got a phone call from her in New Orleans today. She was manic-y and babbling and all over the place in her conversation. And broke. And panicking. And generally not making sense.
My BFF is spiraling -- no wait, has spiraled out of control. There is nothing I can do to stop it. I feel angry, because her brain works against her to make her this unstable person at the worst possible times. I feel lonely, because she's who I usually talk to. And she isn't here. I feel guilty, because I'm so very weary of picking up the broken pieces and putting them back together. I feel resentful. And I feel very, very sad. |
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If you don't mean it, then just say adore... it's sort of *love lite* |
- Distancing. It's difficult to do, sometimes.. Weeding negatives out of my life where i can. One major negative for me is my father. His alcoholism of course played a huge role in how he acts towards me today.. He doesn't accept that i am changing for the better and tries to knock me down each chance he gets.. Unsuccessfully, though. i think i have walked far enough on this journey that i can safely say i am continuing to do better for ME.. And the people who aren't supportive of the positive changes i am making, won't be allowed to drag me down any further.. And i know, when it comes to my father, it pains me to say it, but i just can't allow it anymore.. The anger and frustration he brings me with mere words, he triggers me... plain & simple.. Distancing is necessary...He should want my well-being.. i've always wanted his.. - Anyway, moving forward... & sooooooooooooooooooo ready for the next exciting chapter in my life! This has been one helluva journey, thus far.. |
How incomplete i feel when away from her even though it's only for a short time.
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At this very moment, I am thinking having a 4 day weekend without pay sounds a whole lot better than being stuck working during the holidays. Yes, quality of life just might trump making money.
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I hate being sick...
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Mother has decided that she is going to make an honest effort to learn how to use her new laptop computer. I told her that I would help her. :|
This morning, she came to me in my office, carrying a bag of dried figs we bought at the Costco, wanting to visit the company's web site to get some recipes for the figs. She says they are "too dry and tough" to just eat out of the bag. Mother has been resistant, so far, to learning how to use her computer and the internet, but this recent "need to know" may be the motivator she needs in order to drag her (kicking and screaming) into the 21st Century!!! :winky: I have told her that, at nearly 90 years old, she should be smarter than a 2nd grader, as they are teaching kids this age to use a computer. Mother, with her Master's degree in Education, should be able to catch right on to it!!! Rock on, Mother!!! :clap::awww: ~Theo~ :bouquet: |
Some may have noticed that I haven't been online in a long while. I've been in somewhat of a funk over the last few months. Sometimes I don't realize how time goes by. I've been dealing with family bullshit, sickness and everyone wanting a piece of me with trying to fix situations and fix people. Story of my fuckin' life.
I wish the fuck people would try and help themselves and their situations rather than want to ignore shit like it will go away. You feel beat up on the inside and now it's come to me finally being done. I can't do it anymore and the rest is up to everyone else. Take ownership and do something about your situation(s) and your life. I can't be your oxygen or help you if you're not willing to help yourselves. We've done just about everything for you and that's what the problem probably is/was. Fuckin' expectations. I've become numb and just doing my thing now and concentrating on me and my household. To be honest, I have some Christmas spirit but honestly, not much. Which I must say, my motto in regard to life is: Treat people the way you want to be treated all year round. Don't wait for a Holiday or special occasion. Because of everything whirling around me you don't realize how time does fly. I'm usually better prepared for the holidays and this year we haven't even sent out Christmas/Holiday cards. I made a last minute decision yesterday. I decided that my wife should be able to spend the holiday (which is celebrated very big) in MN with her family. We are able to get a major deal with our friend who is a flight attendant. That's my present to her. Her family is wonderful and there is NO drama. It's a very peaceful environment and they are good people. Sometimes it seems too surreal of what a normal family atmosphere is. We will be there for 3 days only, but it doesn't matter. It will be 3 days of happiness especially for my wife as she/we will be with her loving family. |
It's not always about money. :blink:. I love living in Pittsburgh. I think it's a great city to live in and love telling people who visit here, all of the great places to go and MUST places to see. I've been thinking about this for a couple of years. I'd like to spend part of my life as a *JUST DUCKY* tour guide and take people around in those goofy amphibian DUCK boats, and show them what a great town this is.
Today, I took ONE more operator license test, to get me closer to doing this. :rubberducky: |
LEFT OVERS!!!!! From the Christmas party here at work...... all kinds of stuff in the fridge! GOOD GOD! Strawberry cheesecake! Damn good thing I'm going to the gym tonight!
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Blossom completely luvs "Star" from the Sprout channel.
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Completely distracted at work today. We've decided to throw in the towel on getting any work done, and sit around one of the meeting rooms later this afternoon watching Elf, eating cookies, and drinking Bailey's. One of my coworkers is wearing a red snuggie with a Santa hat at her desk. She looks like Papa Smurf.
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It's windy in Oakland....
Therefore... A King Lear quote comes to mind..
"Blow, winds, and crack your cheeks! rage! blow! You cataracts and hurricanoes, spout Till you have drenched our steeples, drowned the cocks! You sulphurous and thought-executing fires, Vaunt-couriers to oak-cleaving thunderbolts, Singe my white head! And thou, all-shaking thunder, Strike flat the thick rotundity o' the world! Crack nature's moulds, all germens spill at once That make ingrateful man!" |
Moving, the weather, and school.
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missing someone's voice......having to help pack a bag....movie dates....snuggles....and stocking stuff :)
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Life in general and getting things going :)
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That some members of my Scottish family maybe finally accepting the fact that I'm gay. ....I'm forever the optimist. :)
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Today has been a very strange day. Emotional. Thought provocating. Stalling in plans, for 2 very good reasons. Yet, I can not help but wonder.....
I think I shall peruse the rest of the forum and contribute on this day, it seems the wise thing to do. |
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On my mind, though Life may hand me a disappointment now and again. .. I am still able to stand up and dust myself off and move forward. I have a wonderful and loving family that means the world to me. Though there are miles inbetween one phone call from my Mom and she is right here.
Merry Christmas everyone. Also, never forget to tell family, friends, whoever is important in your life that you love them. It takes only momemts to say the words, however it would be a life filled with regret if you had not and they were no longer in your life to give that moment to. |
what you're thinking at this very moment.....how excited the kids will be for christmas morning....how long until i hear my beautiful dear ones voices again...
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