Much better! No one, not me, not Poshmark, not the seller knows WTH happened to those packages but they gave me a full refund and reassured me the sellers won't be out the product and minus their money either. I'd rather have the items and be out the money but guess it just wasn't meant to be. Now with the money credited back, I can get back to the fun of shopping again.

Feeling
 

Pretty good.

Tired, stressed, kinda homesick for Texas, worried about my truck.

Like I need a double hip replacement, wishing I could be 30 again.

Feeling
 

very relaxed

Pretty darn good. The post office finally found the packages! I let Poshmark know and they said I could keep them free of charge, sorry for the hassle, thanks for telling them and happy poshing! Note it wasn't Poshmark who screwed up, it was the postal worker, maybe even workers. Yet it was Poshmark who apologized, made right and the post office who couldn't care less, did diddly squat. Well eventually they did deliver them but no apologies, sorry for the delay. My order wasn't anything important but what if it had been? Anyhow I'm glad I held off on shopping because it will be easier to find pieces to match what I already have than it would be to start all over again.

Well everything I ordered is fantastic and brand new. Even the T-shirts which I couldn't tell from the photos because they didn't show tags or stickers on and the listing didn't mention it but that's what they are. I couldn't believe it, everything in fantastic shape, at such savings and the sellers through this whole process were really great about it and easy to work with too. So now I'm sitting at the computer, happy to be back to poshing again. My youngest grandson likes ladybugs, really likes the color navy blue and I found a long sleeve navy blue top with cute, tiny little red ladybugs printed all over it. I'll wear it when we work together outside. He'll get a kick out of it and it will protect my arms from the sun. :happyjump:

Thankful to be safe at home.
Thankful this medicine is taking the edge off excruciating pain that sent me to the ER on Sunday.
Thankful for my best friend who has had to deal with me while I've dealt with horribleback and hip pain.
Feeling exhausted but enjoying the profound quiet of the house at this moment.

I feel much, much better than I had over the past couple of weeks - everything is centered - the physical and emotional - that is always a welcome feeling.

Very exhausted after today's trip to my new spine surgeon. Upset that insurance is making me go to 6 to 8 weeks of PT before surgery.

Relieved
 

I am finally on the mend from a sinus procedure done in Sept.

Overwhelmed. Lots going on right now. Rationally, everything will be okay. Emotionally, I need some relief from the negative. I’m well aware that I’m blessed. I have an amazing wife, a fur baby, friends and family, a well paying job that provides the material things I need, like a roof over my head, etc. sometimes it’s hard to feel blessed even when you know you are blessed.

Things happen
 

So, I decided to take the day off today. I have been a bit stretched with work, making myself available to accommodate several time zones for this new project.

So, to start the day, I decided on a later-than-usual run, in which I ended up with a nail in my foot. Luckily, I have had a recent tetanus shot.

Second, I decided to make a favourite high-protein lunch which ended up on the floor as I was sitting down to devour it. It gets better, while I was cleaning up the glass bowl slipped and shattered.

Finally, as I was leaving the house, I thought I will finish my coffee, which ended up all over my shirt.

Some days remind us of why we have a sense of humour.

I feel a ton of gratitude tonight.

<<<<<<~~ 🤫😘☺️

I'm feeling apprehensive. For several years, I've been sidestepping a (former?) friend. Basically, I screwed up: we were flirting, as we had the habit of doing. He's a gay man, so I thought this was totally safe flirting, just for fun. Then I took it a little too far one night; it was at a party, we had been drinking, and we were lying on his bed (which we had done many times in the past, in just a close, friendly way). He flirted back in a way that went just a little too far - and it shocked me. It occurred to me that he could be serious. And I freaked out - just a little, but it was enough. I realized that my mouth had written a check that my ass couldn't cash. And, I got up off the bed, made some lame excuse, and ran away, basically.

From talking to a mutual friend later, I realized I had really hurt his feelings. We have only seen each other since then when we are around our mutual friend - like for a funeral. We send each other Christmas cards, but like our conversations around our mutual friend, they are carefully worded. Not so much cold, but distant. And I have never been invited to another party. Nor have I invited him to anything.

I did a lot of thinking while I was going through cancer, about things I regret in my life. There aren't many, thank goodness, but I do regret messing up this friendship. I think about him often. I wonder if I should call, I've consulted our mutual friend about how he thinks the friend might take it. But I've never done anything about it.

Until now. He was on my mind again (it's Christmas card writing time again) and I thought, I have mostly recovered from my cancer treatments and other illnesses. There's no reason I couldn't give him a call and ask to meet up. Because I want to make this apology in person. It's much too deep to do it over the phone, or worse text (although a part of me, that part that is still highly embarrassed over this whole thing, would love to do it by text or phone. But no. No, no, no.)

So I gave myself a good talking to, and then I called him Sunday night. And we are meeting tomorrow night for dinner. Thus, the apprehension. And I know I can get through this, although it will be painfully embarrassing. I just hope he forgives me, and that we can be real friends again.

Dinner went great! He didn't even remember the specific incident until I gave him details; he pointed out that we were both really drunk at the time. He said he felt badly that I had worried all this time about such a thing. He said he had wondered why I hadn't called him, and I had just seemed to cut him off. Anyway, we made up, lots of hugging, with sincere "I love you"s. We have definite plans to meet again. We caught up on some of what's happened, but there's more talking to do. I feel relieved, grateful and happy.

Second Wind
 

Sometimes, when we least expect it, someone will come along and say something about your work ethic or conduct on the job and make your day.

This is what happened to me yesterday. They even gave a tremendous boost to our company website by articulating their observations about my service skills and conduct on the job, after waiting nearly an hour for their turn for service.


When this happened to me yesterday, it felt like a "Second Wind," and it lifted my spirit and even my new boss boosted that feeling as well.

I feel validated. Seen. Heard. And I feel like a valuable person (which I know I am, but it feels good when a complete stranger sees you in your entire state of being).

Here's to "Second Winds".


:kissy:

How are You Feeling?
 

Feeling pretty up to see my brother for a few hours.

How are you Feeling.
 

I am feeling upset with me. It crossed my mind again today that I had met this fine woman and she made some of her income from making comforters etc. in her home. I thought that would be ideal to have so I spoke to her about it and told her what I wanted and she started looking for the material etc. that was needed. A friend of mine brought two that she had bought and gave me one SO. I cancelled on this lady and probably got on the bad side of her because of this and to this day I do not blame her and I still feel very bad about what had happened but I have never had a real opportunity to tell her how sorry I am and that I have never forgotten about it. For this I feel upset with me as that is not like me but it is done and I can't undo it. I do hope she is doing well with her work.

I'm feeling sad because I'm probably going to miss out on the family Christmas weekend. I will probably Zoom part of it, like I did for for Covid. I am so sick right now and I don't really seem to be getting better. Even if I am better, I'm not sure I would not be contagious in time for the get-together. I am especially concerned about being around the family baby, who is currently eight months old. He has surgery scheduled for the 20th and he does not need to catch something before then.

Zooming isn't like being there, though. I'm not baking anything this year either, because I don't want to poison people with my germs. I'm not going to go stay with my mom for a few days either. So I don't expect much Christmas spirit to come around here.

I'm still feeling sniffly, sneezy, cough-y and wheezy.

I'm feeling very tired and frustrated. I can't. quit. coughing!

Pampered. Instead of saying oh that's too spendy I don't really need it, went ahead and purchased some Dr. Teal's Eucalyptus & Spearmint soaking solution that was on discount and gave myself a pedicure. The combination seemed odd and I wondered if it would smell good but it does. The directions said to use half a bag, no way! I only put in ½ a tablespoon and even that might have been overkill, I probably could have gotten away with half that amount making it such a great deal I'm going back and buying more tomorrow. I also bought myself some winter theme slipper socks and when I put them on another surprise they're double layered, better than just one plush layer because they'll wash out better and stay looking nice longer.

J and I bought some slipper socks at Costco recently and what a waste of money. No grippers on the bottom, don't stay put, twist completely around on your foot from simply just walking in them not tap dancing or anything. Then though I washed according to package directions they still came out pilled up with all kind of bits of fuzzy stuff clinging to them. Well I should say embedded in them. To get it off you'd have to tweezer it out. Just one wear and it already looks like I've worn them for a couple. So these are great. Even better I just realized the pair with a different print I bought on discount last week at a different store are made of the exact same material by the same company. I am in home spa day heaven!

Better. Have been in a funk. Listened to a friend's blues that caused a lot of triggers. Tried to reframe it early in the conversation, but she needed to face it in her way. After listening for awhile I felt like I was in a mental war zone and gave myself till Sunday to get over the grief. That didn't work but things are getting better.

Don't know if the cloud is moving on or just letting a few rays of sunshine through. Whatever the case, I'll go with it.

Accomplished! I got all my holiday cards done, and I'm going to start on a crafty project next.

Here & Now
 

I'm okay today. Kind of feisty, in a non-confrontational way. :bow:

I'm wearing some favorite shoes and a matching belt, which is close enough to "black belt" status for me

(LOL :jester:)

Warm, cozy and in a happy mood. The kid's washing machine broke down and mine isn't heavy duty enough to deal with all the big bulky things that got got caught up in the flood. So I'm getting ready to watch my grandson while J takes it to the laundromat. Of course that would happen not under normal circumstances but on an off day when the place is a sty. So i had to do some last minute cleaning, spend time getting the place more toddler friendly. At least as much as I could on short notice. I'll just have to watch him more closely.

Anyhow the place looks great and it's snowing. I can sit at the computer view my handwork, gaze at what I've accomplished and out the kitchen window and through the sliding glass door watch it fall. Or sit on the couch, take breaks from the television shows now and then and watch through the living room window. So peacful. That combined with maple doughnuts for breakfast, fresh coffee, my new warm slipper socks on and Monte sleeping peacefully away all cuddled up next to me has me in fine spirits. It's a great morning.

Feeling ?
 

Feeling pretty good. We didn't get any snow yet, lots of wind and rain just like I like it. I am here with the window open enjoying the sound of the trees in the wind. It is 34o now.

Friday Groove
 

I went to Walmart and as I was walking I came to where this young woman was and we stared for a few then I remembered it was my ex wife's daughter and she had her daughter with her. I haven't seen them in years and they both were happy to see me but my stepdaughter says to me your hair is really short...lol. I guesstimated her age because I really didn't remember but I guessed 40 and she was only 39 and says don't age me....lol kids