Good. Had a pre-op appt this morning and have been cleared for the first knee-replacement surgery later this month. Am scheduled to get the left knee replaced first because it causes more pain, but am thinking maybe I should start with the right knee since it's the weaker knee. I'm a leftie so maybe that's why my left knee is stronger? Whatever. I'll discuss it with the health team. Probably doesn't make a difference as bad these knees are. We'll see.

It’s a full moon. I have been tearful all day, while at the same time being fussy and angry. We have an arctic blast and it’s been on and off single-digit temperatures for the past couple days and then it’s supposed to get in the 40s almost 50s. This change the temperature and the moon is fluctuating my mind and body.
Can’t be spring so that I can go play in the soil? I bought $100 worth of seeds again today. I am truly eager to get started!

Thankful that I'm not sick tonight like I was last night. That was awful.

Thrifty. I have been sticking to my budget and it's showing in my checking account.

Pretty good. Climbing and going down the stairs has gotten easier. Probably because I am doing it so many times a day now. I have even stopped counting. I would say more than 5 times, and less than 10 most days. It's time to add in some walking and sitting-to-standing exercises now.

So this morning I had to get up early and take my car to the mechanic's. It was no trouble at all, walking a bit and dealing with my rollator and a Lyft, although I have a bit of a backache now. Nothing that a Goody's powder and a nap won't cure.

Pleased with myself and happy about all I accomplished yesterday.

Pretty darn happy!

Inadequate. I'm staying with my Mom for 5 days, and her dementia has worsened so much. I'm at my sister's house because that's where my Mom lives now. My sister and her husband desperately wanted to go on a vacation with some of their friends, and asked me weeks ago if I could stay. I was happy to say yes. Then one day before I'm supposed to arrive (yesterday) my sister called and described our Mom's condition.

Essentially, Mom has become more emotional, more prone to wander, and physically combative. One day recently she went for a walk down a major highway (this makes 4 times she has done this now). When her daytime caregiver went after her, my Mom slapped her and bit her and told her to leave her alone. The caregiver had to call the police to come pick her up and take her back home. By the time my Sister arrived on the scene, our Mom was screaming about not wanting to live here, and how nobody in the family wanted her here.

My sister called me one day before I was to arrive to tell me this. She also admitted that she only told me because my BIL told her she really ought to, and advocated for me that I would need this information to adequately care for Mom.

My Sister also told me she had called the doctor yesterday and he had prescribed Seroquel to help Mom sleep better and hopefully alleviate some of her symptoms. So here I am, supposedly taking care of my Mom, who is rapidly declining, and who is taking a new drug that nobody knows yet how it will affect her.

Personally, I think my Sister should have canceled her trip. If she's going to keep Mom at home, she's going to have to sacrifice more of her time and money to do it. At least she should have stayed while Mom is getting used to her new medication. There is no physical way I can chase my Mom down the highway if she should take off again. I pointed this out to my sister and asked her what I should do if it happens, and she said to call 911. I feel that is an inadequate first line of action.

I told my Sister that I feel uncomfortable but that I would still stay with Mom. My Sister does so much to take care of our Mom, and there is very little I can do to help. I also know my Sister really needs some time away with her husband and friends.

So here I am, feeling inadequate and hyper vigilant. I am thanking the Goddess that there is supposed to be a huge rain storm all day tomorrow, because I think it will deter my Mom from going outside. If I can keep her interested in helping me cook and watching TV for just a few days, I will make it through.

Please light a candle for us and/or send us your good thoughts and wishes. Thanks Peeps.

Take care of you Georgia...
 

Following along with nhplowboi response: Ms Georgia, The path you are traveling with your Mom is not and will not be an easy one. Your sister's path with your Mom is not and will not be an easy one either. Each of you have a unique love for your Mom. Both of your journeys are/will take different directions both for the love and care of your Mom.

Enjoy these personal moments Georgia!

Ks-

Feeling relieved, accomplished and lucky. Relieved because nothing of particular note happened while I was staying with my Mom. Accomplished because I hung in there and made it through with compassion and kept my cool. Lucky because folks have been so supportive. Thanks for all your kind words; you really helped me get through.

Like life is worth living. It helps that I'm no longer on antideppressants. I'm not against medication it's just if they're going to insist on giving me drugs I wish they'd give me real ones.

Numb
 

I'm feeling Numb
I found out 4 weeks ago my mother passed away,early july.
I don't know the date
my sister lives 10 mins from Mum
It has always been drama as both are narcisists,as my mother aged though,she had become much easier
She contacted me in 2018,to give me money and reconnect and write a new will,with both my sister and myself,co execetors
I begged her to not tell my sister,we had reconected
Well yeah she did and it all started again,by mid 2019,I was over it and discontinued contact.
I did try my best to keep track of Mum,but TBH,it seemed less stressful for her if I was not around.

Well Well
Mon I found out Mum had $100,000 in 2 accounts
and my sister has emptied both,one def after death
without probate.

So now it Continues
My sister BTW is worth millions BUT mainly coz of her husband

So I found a lawyer and he is assesing,if the case is winable and fraud charges laid against my sister

seriously
my life has been one gigantic soap opera

For me I'm like

Well I didnt even know Mum had that much dough

So if I get some
cool

if not
You can't miss what you don't have

N why are wealthy people such misery guts n mean

My approach is
live simply n simply live

Feeling sad and tired. This is just the result of spending so much time driving and visiting with my Mom. I'll sleep for a few days and do as little as possible and then I'll feel better.

Better than I expected. Got the left knee replaced today. Everything went well.

I’m in the hospital for one night and should go home tomorrow.

They gave me a nerve blocker, and I can feel no pain. It should wear off sometime this evening. I’ve been up walking around and I even went up and down four steps, of course with help from the physical therapist. Things are going well.

Looking forward to getting the other knee replaced in April.

Lucky me.

:bow:

I'm feeling mostly okay, but a little unsettled. The day was beautiful; sunny and warm. I had an errand to run and there was a parking space right in front and no line inside. But my nose is a little out of joint because a few things haven't gone my way; I just need to get over them. My doggo has been a little love, and she keeps me on the happy side.

I have a slight headache that just won't quite go away. I took a BC Powder, and it helped a little, but I don't want to take another one right before bed because of the caffeine.

I ditched my annual physical with my PCP today. I just did not feel up to it. There's a $25 fine if I don't call two hours ahead to cancel, and I made it by five minutes. They rescheduled me for next week. This is the 2nd time I've rescheduled, so I suppose I will really have to go next week. I got a 4 p.m. appointment, so that should give me plenty of time to get ready and get there.

Kind of blue. My sister and I decided to sell Mom's house as is, after we take a few things out of it that we want. It's really kind of depressing to decide which things I want. But at least we don't have to go through the whole estate sale/Goodwill/take things to the dump rigamarole. My Mom is a neat freak, but also a hoarder. At least everything has a place and it's all put away. There's no clutter. Her house is neater than mine could ever hope to be. It's pretty close to looking professionally staged for sale. Unfortunately, it's also tragically 1980s in décor.

My Sister and I agreed that the easiest thing to do, in order to avoid ending up with more clutter in our own houses, is to make lists in advance of the things we want. Then when we go to the house we should pretty much try to stick to the lists. Other than some gifts I gave my Mom and my Dad, and a few mid-century modern pieces, I don't really want much of anything. I plan to go through the Christmas ornaments for things that we handmade.

Our Mom has most of the photos with her at my Sister's house, where she now lives. My Sister and I thought about just leaving the house intact, so our Mom could visit when she wanted to, but Mom has no interest. The last few times she has been there, she just wanders around and asks my Sister who the people in the photos are. She acts like it's someplace that she thinks ought to be familiar to her, but she can't quite remember ever being there. Also, we just had to pay the taxes and insurance on the place and we really just can't afford to keep it empty.

Thank goodness this is not the house where I grew up, or I'd be a basket case. Mom and Dad retired to this house after my Sister and I left home. And thank Goddess we are not waiting until Mom passes away to do this. I think it is the saddest thing to have to pack up somebody's possessions after they die. It's sad enough as it is; with her dementia, it's like Mom is passing away slowly, a little bit more every day.

nice .....

have the...
O no (its almost)
Monday Blues:seeingstars:

I'm really pissed off. Naked homophobia is on display in a politically partisan column written by an official in THE major motorcycle rights org magazine. The people I work with most closely in that org are upset and have been properly responsive. The President/CEO has not. His lackey answered me with a non-apology that manages to be dismissive AND condescending. She didn't even bother addressing the homophobia.

I hate this. It's supposed to be about riding motorcycles.

Little bit stuffy. Haven't been sick in 3 yrs I don't think. Guess constant hand washing and sanitizing and mask probably helped that.

We have heavy pollen right now so I really believe it is allergies

Relieved. My dog ran off today, and thank the Goddess she didn't get lost and she came back after about 20 minutes.

Like my lower spine has been twisted to the left :blink:

Really down and blue. I don't know if it's just the rain or something else.

I haven’t really felt myself ever since my first bout with COVID-19 back in 2020. Never fully got my memory back or my taste and smell. Then I got COVID again last month. Thankfully not as bad but I’m still tired all the time and I’m really down. My doctor says my memory may never come back, my taste and smell may never come back, and I’m having a really hard time dealing with all this. I just want the old me back……..:blink:

Feeling now.
 

Feeling pretty good . My brother came into town today and I made us some sirloin burgers with tater tots and battered onion rings. I had ice tea and he had milk.

Better. I've been able to rest a lot this week.

Good and anxious. Ready to get surgery on the right knee. My left leg is so damn sexy now that it's straight.

Have been approved to drive but am still waiting on approval to ride my exercise bike. Go figger. Maybe I'll get approval tomorrow when I go to PT.

I have almost no swelling from elevation and ice (ice and pillows are my friends). That makes it easier to move my knee and ankle when exercising and that makes it easier to reach the goals the surgeon and PT have set.

I'm still using the walker at times, but I need it for my bad knee more than I do for the replaced knee.

Semi-relieved. The boi had a biopsy on hys lung today, and all went well. No anesthesia problems, which is always a concern with hym. The worst thing is hy has a sore throat from the intubation, and hy is grumpy because hy hasn't been able to eat since yesterday morning. I guess that's a good thing - if hy has the energy to be grumpy, hy must be alright.

Good. Got the right knee replaced a week ago and it looks good and is doing well. I don't think it's doing as well as the left knee but I'm not sure because the first couple weeks after surgery on the left knee is a haze to me.

Haze. The Percocet/oxycodone is working well, regulated well, and now I take less than they recommend. Haven't developed an addiction and don't expect to, but this shit keeps me crying. I have cried more in the last 8 weeks than I have in the last 8 years and I'm a cryer who doesn't hold back. Crying is often a therapeutic device that helps me when I need to accept things and move on. On Percocet/oxycodone I start crying if I see a tv commercial with a puppy or a kitty. Will be glad to soon be off these pills.

Apart from that, the knees look sexy as a mf and every time I pass my full-length mirror I stop to gaze at them (g'on girl). And can barely wait to show them off later this summer or early in the fall.

Lucky me.

:bow:

I am having my right eye operated on Thursday. My macula opened again so that has to be re-done. And then cataract removal. The following Thursday I have my left eye’s cataract removed. I am having insurance problems at this late date which may delay the surgery. The next available surgical date is in August!
AND our house keeper/aid came to our house on Saturday with a full snotty nose and a cough. Guess what I have today? A cough. This too could postpone my surgeries.
I can barely see out of my right eye. I hope Thursday happens. I can feel my worry beginning to take root as panic.

I just found out Monday I'm going to need to have cataract surgery. Well I suppose I don't have to but it turns out that's what it is. The surgery center is backed up so it won't be for awhile. Late July was the soonest J said they could get me in. It's helpful to hear others talk about it.

I had my first cataract surgery today, and it was easy Peezy! From the time I walked in to the time I walked out it was only two hours. No pain whatsoever. I can’t wait to see what kind of vision I’m going to have as my eye heals. I’m so relieved that it went as well as it dead. I’ve had numerous eye surgeries, and this was the only one I was really fearful of. And there was nothing to be afraid of!