It's kind of trivial but nonetheless, it made me sad...

I realized that I may not get to go to a Halloween party next weekend when I could really use a fill me up from my friends.

:(. (((((((SleepyButch))))))))

This morning, on a highway I frequently use to get to Charlotte, a Sheriff's Deputy was killed when a truck driver lost control of his rig, hitting a tanker truck and flipping over on top the Deputy's car. We lost a very dedicated public servant.

Later in the day, I spoke to a family friend who "was numb" by the news..they shared with me that the Deputy's wife was in the hospital for surgery, recently dealing with major health issues and she hadn't been told yet. They went on to mention that the family had been through many hardships recently and that his body was "downstairs" (at the hospital) being "watched over" by no less than six other Deputies.

It breaks my heart. The family will have a big support system and many loved ones to help them through their pain.

Took Daddy out to eat tonight. He ordered a 6oz Top Sirloin instead of a big fat Ribeye or Prime Rib like I know he'd like to have had. He hasn't much appetite since he started radiation and it's making his throat sore.

Dr has asked VA for permission to put a feeding tube in now before he needs it rather than wait til later when he is thinner and more frail.

A resident of mine passed away today... :(

living in an 8th floor condo with a semi-incontinent dog.

While watching the SEC championship game, I am realizing that this is the end of my greatest passion until next September. Except the bowl games NCAA football is over for the year. What makes me even sadder is that means it is basketball season and there are way to many basketball games and the season is about 3 months to long.

Hearing "I'll be home for Christmas"....:blush:

this morning:

realizing that I won't be here to feed my big, sweet tom any more...and he's not tame enough to take with...

this afternoon:

my dad sent me a Christmas card and it was very sweet and made me cry...He always gets the best cards...*sniff*

It made me sad this morning to read that there are those who are so terrified of the aging process that they would rather live a life almost completely devoid of laughter and smiles simply to avoid wrinkles.

I typically don't read celebrity "news." And that tidbit certainly reminded me why. As for me, bring on the smile lines; I want to unabashedly enjoy life.

And anyway, am I the only one who finds crows feet sexy? I love to see the lines on someone's face when they smile at me; or even when they don't. It brings a depth and character to the face and speaks of a life fully lived and sincerity in whatever emotions are being expressed through it.

My lines are a part of my life story. I earned each one - most of them the hard way, lol - why on earth would I want to trade that for a puffy, frozen face?

Ah well; to each their own. Ask me again ten years from now and maybe I will have a different opinion, lol. But I doubt it.






P.S. Frowning and pouting endlessly are going to cause lines, too. :cheesy:

Seeing my stray tomcat, surely for the last time, and having him run fast as he could away from me...although Jacques was with me....maybe he hates long, drawn out goodbyes too...

That this year is so far full of death. In one week, two friends of mine lost their mothers, another lost her father, and yet another friend learned that her father was full of cancer and only has two months, if that. I almost dread opening my Livejournal or even Facebook.

Is it so wrong of me to be "glad" that most of my family has already passed on, except one brother in very rocky health and my 89-year old aunt? Would frankly not be surprised to get a call about either of them.

Reading on FB that a classmate has passed away suddenly

Hearing that someone drown at the county park today.

My 21 year old son (who is in the Army) called me tonight to tell me he wasn't going to be transferred to another station and he was pretty down, which makes me sad. What makes me really sad is that when I said "I wish I could give you a hug and it would make things better" and he said "I wish i was still little enough where a hug would make it all better." :(

Awwwwwwwww

It made me sad to find out that one of my next-door neighbors has apparently just committed suicide approximately 90 minutes ago.

Finding out my aunt has been in the hospital for five days...they think she had a stroke....

Also...hearing that in those five days she hasnt been washed up even once. They moved her to a better hospital...thank god...Im making arrangements to go home. This is killing my mother...

After much testing they determined my aunt did not have a stroke; she has lung cancer. Her sodium levels went awry and apparently that causes some serious symptoms. Confusion etc. I guess bad sodium levels is a sure sign for lung cancer...soo...they found it.

No idea what comes next. My mother's other sister is dying of colon cancer. Now this..

Sigh....prayers will be happily accepted by myself and my family..

The sudden feeling of loneliness.

I don't know why, but I started pulling pictures of my family off my FB page and cropping them so they just show me and my dad.

Realizing that im still adjusting to how this year started.

Being right. :(

The fact that we can't control what happens in our lives or when it happens. Sometimes, you just got to take it as it comes and roll with it!

I got a friend request on fb from someone I dont know...so I was perusing their profile to see how I might know them. They had a link to a facebook page belonging to a ypung boy, Dawson Moore who was struggling with cancer. After a little while, I found that he had actually passed from the disease....I just think children should be exempt from all things horrible. There's plenty of time to deal with that stuff as a grown up...

roll with it baby!

My mom told me my aunt's prognosis today.

She has a very aggressive cancer in her chest, its in her lymph nodes, they are doing a brain scan to see if its there too.

They are giving her 1-2 years to live. And her older sister wont likely make it through this year...

My mother will be a wreck without her sisters.

I'm getting too attached.

This morning I was up way too early and thought of my lady I cared for before I left Asheville...

Her family said they'd keep in touch...they never do...

But I googled her name and found out she passed awaya week before I returned to Asheville..2 days before Christmas...

I'm veey upset that the agency didn't at least inform me so I could pay my last respects. You really can't help but love the ones you care for...

It was a beautiful day and I couldn't even hike...I got a tummy bug... :(

My kitten broke through a screen and got outside. Now she's nowhere to be found...

Marriage equality has been so long coming to us...

I find it so incredibly sad when something so hard to get is tossed aside like the hetrosexuals do. Unhappy? Don't try to work it out, divorce! See someone cute? Don't remember your vows, flirt and fall in love!

Sigh...my friends are divorcing, and now we'll have to choose sides.

Sucks to be me. :(

My doctor not having my MRI results makes me very sad cause I can't get any pain meds for my back pain. UGH

seeing 6 inches of hair on the ground... but, on the same note, shorter hair looks good and easier to manage


... all the people getting cancer lately. my uncle was diagnosed with stage 4. I haven't talked to him since he cheated on my aunt and left us all, but from what I understand he knows its coming soon. he's giving away everything and getting divorced. so sad.

My aunt passed away in the very early hours of the morning. She had been battling cancer for years. My cousin, Dave, was her son...and when he passed I think she just stopped wanting to live...

Worst part was my mom's voice. She's heart broken. She told me she lost her bestfriend...

very sad...this girl was at her engagement party...

Hearing certain bird calls....and even the sound of the hinges opening the door...sounds like a small meow...but its never her...

Thinking something was there.

Watching the news about Freddie Gray is disgusting. These things seem to be happening at an accelerated rate, even though the whole country is watching more closely than ever. It's depressing to think that the frequency probably hasn't increased, we're just more aware of it now. You'd think some of these guys would tone it down, if only because of the increased risk of getting caught.