My job.... ugh. So stressful!

Tomorrow will be a better day!

A friend from high school, his dad passed away this morning.

Being fully wiped out and no answers.

Sometimes, in silence you can find answers. Meditate or just sit .... silence can be very eye opening.

Hugs...

A conversation with my mom....

We had to have the talk about the aging process. She isn't old yet but has some health concerns....

Its just super hard to have to think that way about my own mother. I remember her in her 20s and it's hard to acknowledge that she won't be forever young....or forever here

My job...

Losing people you care about is difficult..even if their passing is the best thing for them...it leaves a void...

Not cry but it made me really said to hear that a coworker quit today.

My mom and I drew especially close this morning as we talked about life and how life has been so incredibly hard for both of us. I'm only one of her children that has kids of my own, so we share an unique perspective due to both of us being mother's to our children. She's going to be off work for ten days and will be spending time with me when she comes to my home state for work related agenda, so it will be so nice to see her and strengthen our relationship with each other. But we had a good cry, this morning. I love my mother, dearly.

Watching a rescue worker overcome with emotion after rescuing a baby girl from rubble after an air strike in Idlib.

The photo of a 5 year old boy bleeding from a head wound in Aleppo who is so traumatised that he doesn't even cry when left alone in an ambulance.

I hear people constantly complaining about providing refuge to people affected by war and indiscriminate attacks against civilians in their own homes. It makes me heartbroken and furious in equal measure.

Realizing that the Install Manager at my job is not going to recover from a massive stroke he had this last week. They have attempted to remove him from the ventilator twice and it has failed. They are going to make one last attempt tomorrow. I am fearful that he is not going to make it and will be leaving a wife and a 13 year old daughter behind.

We are all hoping for a miracle!

Nothing made me 😢, but I am having a flood of memories watching ncaa 🏈 this season. My Aunt who died unexpectedly in the Spring loved our team. Although she lived in Texas she still loved those orange tigers and would commentary the whole game. Even in emails, before texting and Facebook came along. I miss her a bunch this season, she'd be proud to be a Tiger.

Missing my dog Brandy really bad. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her and wish she was here.

I didn't cry yet but I might still...

I visited with a beloved client after a months absence.

I'm sad to say she is increasingly confused. Her communication ability is worsening. I wasn't prepared for such a drastic decline in such a short time.

That's all I have to say about that. Sigh

Preparing for the trip home without my sweet, old furbaby. And his ashes haven't been returned to me yet. Hurts my heart he's not with me to return home. He was such a happy, loving, sweet, quirky love bug.

My mom asked me about a situation with someone I used to be close to, and I just rambled off some really surface "Life goes on you know" quote. Inside, it felt like my heart was bleeding. People move on, situations change. The feelings can remain the same. I waited until I was alone and just felt the tears running down, silent crying is my coping mechanism when I have no control. It's time to accept the situation.

It can be so difficult to a lose a pet you heart and soul truly love. I'm sorry for your loss.

Not today but alllllll day yesterday....

My mother decided not to visit. She had a fight with my oldest child (who is also coming down)and is being somewhat childish....in my opinion...and not coming now til June.

Ive only been working all day....after 12 hours of work mind you.....to get the house ready.

SO frustrated!