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My future, possible career and just life in general
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The worst part is that many of these stores are buying their goods from third world countries, not the United States (or Canada) so they aren't even putting their own country to work. So not only are the small businesses closing, but the factories that make the goods to be bought in these stores are also closing. It sucks all the way around. Wouldn't it be nice if Obama made it a law that at least 1/2 to 3/4 of the merchandise has to be from your own country? Imagine how many people would be working then. Not only that, but more would be buying too. Why is it so hard to figure that out? |
Her deductive reasoning skills turn me on ;)
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1440.. yep that is what is on my mind ;)
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http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/0...6pLid%3D156342
This baby with SMA and her parents, who are blogging her Bucket List. She's not expected to make her 2nd birthday. So sad, but I love, absolutely love what her parents are doing to raise awareness of Spinal Muscular Atrophy. |
You know, I really enjoy being a loner. I enjoy the quiet solitude of my head. While I like hanging out with friends and can be social with the best of them, I do not require constant company. Also, like my Mother, I don't have many people that are close friends. I don't have anyone, even my one closest friend, that I require or even like to talk to every day. But very, VERY rarely there are days like today. A day that I wish I had that someone that I could just go to, lay my head on their shoulder, feel their arm around me and just get lost in my grief. A friend that would reaffirm what I know, but am having trouble grasping in the moment. That for everything there is a time and a purpose. That patience, while not my friend, can be a companion. That if it's meant to be, it will be. Just to help remind me of my joy, that will return quickly, while I wallow in my despair for the short moment.
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"That patience, while not my friend, can be a companion." I think patience is stronger for me when I look back and admit that there's a cycle—things went up, went down, went up again, and so on. Yeah, based on what I've already experienced, I can say with some confidence, It gets better—sometimes not as fast as I'd like, but in general, I turn it around. I always called it "resiliency," that ability to outlive the bad parts, but I think it's also a function of "patience." :) Thanks for your post! |
Waiting for her to get home tonight, from our wonderful weejend (though always wayyy too short)
Going for my Scans with contrast and labs the 8th, wishing I had someone who could go with...:(. Meeting a new friend for luncg Thursday Wondering about a dear, dear friend of mine... Wishing we didn't have to say goodbye each Sunday Knowing this will be a longgggg, longgg two weeks...:( Missing someone...very much... HOW could they have done that????? Hoping for comfort for the family affected by that accident we saw last night...:(...just horrible...:( |
A certain friend and wanting to help them survive their hardships ...I've been in his shoes.
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Wishing i could zoom down to So Cal for memorial day weekend so i can visit with my soon to be 92 yr old grandmother,as i wont be able to be there for her birthday in July. Instead we get to go to Pope county at the end of July..woofukinhoo :|
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I have an alarm clock that's got to be about 12 years old, and every time I set it I get all paranoid that it won't work. The little Alarm light doesn't always come on when I set the switch, and I can't leave it alone until I can see that it's shining steadily. Then I usually wake up a few minutes before it's due to go off and just watch it until it does, then I wonder, "If I'm waking up this early, anticipating my alarm, am I actually sleeping or is my body ticking away seconds unconsciously until it's sure it'll beat this infernal clock I keep forgetting to replace?"
Sleep is complicated sometimes. A friend said, "Just get an alarm for your phone." Although I've just spent a paragraph describing my distrust of my alarm clock which is so deep that it obviously manifests all the way to the level of subconscious... it's still older than my phone and thus more trustworthy. I never said I was completely sensible. |
I have so much to do and 34 days to get it done, well I got a couple things done that counts right :|
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i wish i was able to go with you on the 8th...it's killing me that i cannot and my boss will just have to deal with me being completely distracted that day until i hear from you... Sundays are truly rotten! On the plus side, my new, safer route means i can leave a little later... i cannot stand the thought of being apart for 2 weeks! We'll have to do what we did the last time... They're just bad people Honey, just very very bad people and the Universe will deal with them accordingly. Not very comforting, i know but it will... The image of that accident victim is burned into my brain...i feel horrible for them to be lying there in the highway for who knows how long while the police work the accident scene...i pray the family is never aware of that. i also pray for comfort for their family... |
Thinking about Saturday and how difficult it was for Clay...wishing i could have helped more...both angry and sad at what hy lost due to the selfishness, greed, laziness, apathy and dishonesty of "friends"...even though it impacted our time together for the next 2 weeks (among other things) i'd do it all over again to help hym and be there for hym...
How hy transformed a heartbreaking and stressful day into something so beautiful for us...THE conversation we had at Flagler Beach...this weekend further strengthened our commitment to each other...thank you for such an amazing weekend Baby...i love my Sexy Silver Butch! |
** wishing some who don't have a peacefull mind .. inner peace **
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When is it enough
When do you say stop
When do you start living the dream again When do you forgive When are you paid in full When do you open your arms When |
What's on my mind right now.... the list is endless (damn you ADD)
I feel nekkid today because I ran outta the house forgetting to put on my jewelry. Is the sea of moving boxes multiplying... and where did all this crap come from?! What's for lunch because my stomach is growling?! Wishing that the laundry fairy would make a stop at my house today. |
phone conversations with hym in the garden with the dogs playing like the silly pups they are. Smiling ear to ear. Beautiful weather. Happiness.
~~~~~~~~~ Talking with him about life in general. Plans for the week, time set aside for both of them. Undying love and understanding. Happy girl :waitinggirl: |
Gracious Universe,
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Flirting and flirtatious behavior. Been weighing the good and the bad, thinking about parameters of flirting and imposed boundaries.When does the flirt become something else, more concrete, an action, an agreement? I guess the question is what is considered flirting? I have a feeling that it is different for different people. Do we come to some type of "agreement" as to the boundaries of flirting? Just musing the concept of flirting.
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Some major life-altering decisions that have to be made within the next several months.
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Why is it that when I go to the see the doctor, I have to pay to park my car in the parking lot? Haven't the vultures (owners of the buildings) extracted enough money from the doctors for rental space? Do they really have to go to the elderly and the ill to consume more money? How disgusting one must be to take advantage of the elderly and the ill in that way.
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Sagittarius: You're all dressed up today and ready for the show. It feels as if your time has arrived and you need to swing into action to maximize your potential. You are riding a wave of positive planetary cycles that leads you to believe you can accomplish anything you desire. Obviously, you can get a lot done now, but it's still not a smart idea to bite off more than you can chew.
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Be glad when 5:00 p.m. is here. I think I have experienced the clumsiest day of my life.
I poured 7-UP in my shoe and on the base of my khakis at lunch. Soaked my socks and had to put on a fresh pair. Shot a squirt of that germ killer hand lotion on the other trouser leg around 2:00. Just a little while ago, I dropped a clump of peanut butter into my keyboard. :( |
The sponsor/sponsee relationship.
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How something lovely can come from something quite hateful.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/0...6pLid%3D156624 |
Two things actually:
Losing my Presidential Pin and still not being able to find it. The most prestigious honor one can achieve from the university... and it's gone. :sigh: Trying desperately to let go of that dream I had a couple of days ago and still not able to shake it no matter how hard I try... :blink: |
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That sucks about the pin. I wonder if the loss of the pin and the dream have any connection at all. Not asking you to share it, just putting it out there. Losing a significant object can be really loaded, emotionally. But you didn't lose the thing that got you the pin, you just lost the pin. And I don't mean "just"—it's AWFUL to lose things that mean a lot to us. Maybe the school can replace it? Just a thought. Hope it clears up soon. |
How cool it is to be getting dark so late!
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I am trying to keep it simple right now, so I'm just thinking how yummy this margarita candle smells.
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I'm waking up properly, with my butch on the phone enjoying coffee with me, and I'm thinking about how much more she is showing me of herself every day. It wasn't enough that she is handsome, smart, and responsible...Now I'm finding out she's romantic, sweet, thoughtful and absolutely scrumptious. I apologize, but I am also compelled to mention her biceps...YUM! :) Even better, she is into me. How lucky am I, that I get to experience all of this in person in 17 days? :)
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32 more days and I just did a couple more things... Im on a roll
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a rant about my evenings
I am just not seeing how to get it all done in the evenings. Seems like it is one nag fest after another and a race to bed time with the sprout. gggrrr... and sometimes when the other teachers at school gripe about how parents don't do enough with kids at home I wonder why they are so judgmental. Many of them parents them selves. Haven't they a clue? I could go on and on about the minute by minute of the evening but I won't. suffice it to say i am on guilt overload.
and I know this will be massively unpopular if I said it at work, but come one home work should be significantly limited, or eliminated. Can we switch homework to be read to enjoy and learn, connect with each other/community and organize for the next day? Sigh... |
Hy is... worried about hys pneumonia... hoping hy gets to rest soon so hy can get better... that is nasty stuff and not to be messed with...:tea:
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My nieces mother is upset that a corgie who was 9 yrs old is getting put down as i type this. Seems when he was a wee pup a heavy table landed on him,everything healed cept for his head.Evil lil sausage dog he was,he ended up bitting her brother in the face last night..while i am sad this happened im glad it wasn't my niece who is 2.
RIP Peety.:praying: |
How well rounded my life feels right now. i still have some healing to do but i am so headed in the right direction.
Syr, School, work, play, pups, family, home |
How good it feels to be getting everything back on track .. i am starting a Weight Loss Support Group at work this week, and i'm excited, full of ideas but scared too.. i hope i do okay, i've never done anything like this before.. Not to mention college, trying to get everything together, for taking such a big step in my life at 39 years old.. Working towards my LPN, that's exciting and scary too..
my exercise, working with a personal trainer soon to up my program - and really just all the positive changes i am making in my life.. Putting my foot forward and pushing myself in ways i never have before - and having the confidence to say i can do this .. It feels damn good! |
I am hungry :blink: I never wake up wanting to eat but dang my stomache is grumbling and I am hungry... what to eat hmm
did I just sound like pooh bear :| theres a rumbly in my tumbly :cheesy: |
My ex who is a friend is looking for a home in my neighbourhood for her current gf and her 3 kids. She is seeing a place this morning and called me up to have coffee.
Thing is, her new(ish) gf of one year has never met me and says my ex can hang out with me but doesn't want to know about it. This might become weird if they live a few blocks from my house.... :| So I'm thinking about how odd the whole thing is, that I never want to go back to this ex (I left her) and that really we might make awesome friends if you can stop being worried about who I am. Otherwise....awkward! |
Aaaaand, she just rented the house. This should be interesting.
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