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07-10-2011 06:12 PM |
Happy Birthday - to my Unka!
When my life was spinning out of control, you were there.
When my life was razor focused on one heartbreak after another in a chain of endless hurts, you were there.
When I could rely on almost no one, you were there.
When the family I was born into, abandoned, wounded, and nearly destroyed me, you were there - proof that true Family is not only blood and genetics but heart and soul connections borne of trust, love, and respect.
The other day, sitting in my car... Dixie Chicks "Wide Open Spaces" came on the radio, and I burst into tears. Happy ones... and I can't even write this without crying - but you choosing that song to dance with me as "Unka of the Bride" on my wedding day means more to me now, than maybe I knew it would then.
That song was so appropriate - because really - that was what I needed more than anything else at that major crossroads in my life. I was leaping so far out of my comfort zone it was unreal and I was thrilled and happy and terrified all at the same time. But I needed to make that leap of faith more than I had ever needed anything else.... and what you gave me was your acceptance - your approval - and most of all, your belief in me.
You believed in my ability to be a grown up more than anyone who had ever been related to me biologically ever did. You believed in my ability to break out and do new (scary) wonderful things. You trusted me, and for all of your protectiveness - made it so clear that you KNEW I would succeed in my future. And that gave me so much strength - more than I think I've ever given you credit for.
You accepted me, exactly as I was. You asked for nothing in return. I hope that you know that I have always and will always accept you - as well - exactly as you are.
I love you so much. And your impact on my life has been deeper and more profound than I could ever express - though apparently I am determined to keep trying. :)
All I wish for you today, and for every day to come - is all the happiness, love, joy, laughter, serenity, silliness, and passion that the Universe can possibly provide. And trust me, I'm keeping an eye on the Universe to make sure you get your due...
No one is going to shortchange my Unka.
Happy Birthday, Gayla. I love you.
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