Really really ??
 

If you really knew me you'd know that:

-I enjoy meeting my guys for breakfast :police: (actually they started invading my quiet breakfast spot).

-I invited a few guys last year. We have now grown to about 12 for the mid morning break.

-I dissed them badly for their pork-outs (no pun) on bacon, sausage, pancakes, cheeeeezy omelette's, and biscuits and gravy....heart attack city.

- I order the side order special (eggs scrambled, sourdough toast dry, substitute a large fruit bowl for hash browns). Sometimes I fore-go the eggs.

- If you knew me, you'd know I was relentless about the grief I gave them over their heart clogging fare. Take a guess who's now ordering fruit bowls instead of hash browns ... about 12 overweight motor dudes..LOL.:byebye:

If you really knew me, you would know:

I am a kinky bastid.

I am an intellectual of odd sorts.

I am a voracious reader, although, admittedly most of my reading is from the internet these days.

In the last 2 weeks I have taught my dog, Bear, to speak on command, pee/poop on command, (great for rainy/cold days) and shake hands. He is now learning how to walk backwards. He’s a good boy. :)

I love having deep conversations with folks who get it.

Shallowness irks the hell out of me.

I am very friendly, until I am not… at that point; I am most likely done with the BS billowing from that person.

I truly admire women who are strong, capable, intelligent, and kinky. Add to that mix women who aren’t afraid to honestly know and appreciate their inner selves and I am in absolute AWE!

I have a good sense of humor and appreciate others who do as well.

I am single and okay with that for now.

I have a thing for quotes, euphemisms, and metaphors.

I continue to grow and will always do so.

you'd know that not being in LR took the wind out of my sails. :(

You'd most certainly know I'm a complete and total cheese ball, and omg I fffffuuucking love me some cheeeeeeeese.

Seriously.

I am so embarrassed to admit this...
 

Intil most recently, I did not know what cutting the cheese met...

I am horrified to remember some moments in my life when this statement was brought up...and my responses to them...

Haha. I didn't mean the proverbial cutting of the cheese. But this made me totally smile, I have to admit. I meant cheese like David Hasselhof or really horrid B flick horror.

You are too awesomely cute for admitting what you just did, tho.

thank you...it runs in the family. Once at a dinner party my 10 year old daughter made a big production about how she could tie a cherry stem with her tongue....we all sat there and looked at one another...daring not to say a word. The trip home was filled with howls...hers for being mortifyingly embarrassed and mine for laughing and not being able to stop myself before I made her howl more...

no, I am being totally serious!
 

wait...you really werent talking about colby and longhorn>? :seeingstars:

Hahahahaha. Omg, totally that kinda cheese, too. ;)

Yeah, I was thinking cheddar myself.

:|

confessions of the culturally limited
 

Oh honey, you have NO idea how my mind works. My daughter and I were recently talking about how we have gaps in our cultural knowledge that really create social blunders for us at times. I got this way by being raised by 1st generation born here. My parents had very little understanding of the ways of America. My kid was raised by me and my parents...she was double doomed..lol...

so what are you saying...cheesy movies? They are funny?

Someone once tried to explain "Kitch" (dont know the spelling) to me. I didnt get it. It sounded like everything I had on my walls. Or at my mother's too. Was kitch good? Bad? Demeaning? Treasured? What?

If you knew me you would know I face some challenges with my health, but it does not hinder what is in my heart or the really important things I have done with my life.
If you really knew me you would know that I have overcome many adversities.
If you really knew me you would know my adversities have only made me a stronger, independent woman. If you really knew me and what I have had to overcome in my life it would make you proud.

If you knew me you would know that I adore my daughter and see so much of myself in her and yet she is so uniquely herself...I find such promise in her for the world and know that whatever evil lurks ahead for the children, she will be one of the mightiest to fight to protect them

If you really knew me you would know that this year I have learned to stretch my ideals of what traits a partner might have. I am not as rigid about some things, and have decided that some things are necessary that I never demanded before.

If you really knew me you would know I have made peace with two of my exes (not on any BF site) and it feels amazingly freeing.

If you really knew me, you would know I am struggling with spirituality ..mine and others in my life

If you really knew me....

..you'd know those damn cupcakes are TOO TEMPTING!!

..you'd know and understand that I'm under a lot of stress lately, and, sadly, no amount of chocolate will help. :eatinghersheybar: :eatinghersheybar: but it is appreciated!!

..you'd know not to question me about my "tough love" stance with my son.

..you'd know how much I appreciate your compassion on my "Lupus Days".

...you'd understand that I've made many sacrifices in my life and am ready to put "me" first for a change.

...you would know how much it aggravates me to "be talked down to" or treated like a teenager. It's very belittling and an insult to my intelligence and the serious hardships/work I have faced to get where I am as an adult.

...you'd know how much "burn out" has affected my life in some truly unexpected, difficult-to-recover ways. (and how sorry I am for this, but I'm working at it.)

...you'd appreciate how much I really love being a "country gal" and how good it's done my heart to get away from the city.

...you'd know I am not accustomed to being taken care of, because I have always been the caretaker....and how humbling it is (and sometimes depressing) for me to be at a point where I need some care.

Those who truly know me:

Know I'm able to express myself best and most clearly in writing. It's why I excelled in my course of studies (Public Relations) but ultimately steered away from the PR world.

Know I am a very good listener and a keen observer.

Know there's a lot of depth and darkness underneath my smiley layer, although I am generally a very warm, kind, and giving person.

Know that I'm more than just an innocent face.

Know I'm a music theory geek wannabee, but cannot memorize my key signatures for the life of me. Especially the minor keys. I think solfege (the kind with a moveable Do) is sexy.

Know I am scared and angry of dying the slow, painful death my dad is dying but seem to be following in his footsteps.

Know that it takes me awhile to make a concrete decision, but once I have made a decision, I'm pretty stubborn about changing my mind.

Know that I :stillheart: and respect my friends here on BFP so very much!

:stillheart:

cara

la fruita y
 

i like peanut butter straight from the jar- unsalted, and extra crunchy spoonfuls every day..

If you really knew me you would know I am not as thick skinned as I wish I could be.
That I bruise easily sometimes. That I carry around with me many little scars from the past that are not visible to you but they are still there nevertheless. That my old wounds open back up sometimes when I am triggered but I heal quickly.
If you really knew me you would know adversities have only make me stronger over time.
If you really knew me you would know I forgive easily and I do not belive in holding grudges. If you really knew me you would know I don't expect anyone to be perfect. Including myself.

U would know
 

That my mother has pancreatic cancer and also had a craniotomy done. That most days after work I go home to feed and help bathe her. I go back to my apt and along the way, I cry because my time w her is short.
I choose ppl very closely that will be in my life and I hardly trust anyone.
And I've had my heart broken, but still have to see/ work w person everyday who did it.

Last post
 

Okay that last post I did was kinda depressing sorry.
I would like to add that if you knew me I love to sing very loudly and badly to radio to cheer myself up.
That I have one of the best moms in the world, who taught me to love and judge no one. That I have two very cute and costly neieces who remind me that the simplethings in r sooo important.
And I'm addicted to video games (wii,ps3,xbox) and gadgets my apartment looks like radio shack lol:glasses: