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i know, isn't it amazing? if not for him finding & helping her, she would never have made it! |
I'm trying to resist going to get a messy bacon cheeseburger and crispy tater tots...
it's been the kinda day where that's calling my name .... I did however get two large bags of clothes together to donate...feeling productive |
Stalking a certain person's posts ~ because its fun & i can *grin*
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:moonstars: When hy goes it is so sad. And then I think but that hy was here and we experienced our peace and joy is priceless. I ache when hy is gone and I choose to see this as a blessing. To know and long for what was so much that it drives/focuses me on what will be is a gift. The path to our future together is clear. In our moments together I live the choice of building with hym. In our moments apart I live the choice of working us toward together.
The General moved closer to us all and opened up to hym in her own way this visit. She wanted to know how to describe and tell others about Stoney. I just really feel the overwhelming peace and ease of us all in our time together is remaining consistent and constant so that she flows, we grow and glow. I love hym and know. :candle: We are family. |
For the first time in a long, long time I can honestly say that the only thing on my mind is peace and quiet. Yea some random thoughts but nothing frantic or worrying. Just a nice feeling.
Going With The Flow, Brute. |
there are several things on m mind.... Finally had to give in to the headache and leave the BFP suite....
Something I have been pondering for a very long time. Wondering when does it change? When do the feelings of inadequacies that creep in when you doubt yourself stop creeping? Do they ever? One minute life is great... The next your on an emotional roller coaster. It can really drain you. I am hoping I am on the upward climb of the last rung of the roller coaster. I have made the right decisions lately that benefit my life. Moving to Oregon was the best thing for me. I didn't have to jump that hurtal it just fell away. When I got my job here I was blown away at what a wonderful job it is. Life is starting to definitely move in the right direction. Now....to get rid of those creeping feelings of inadequacies that I have had all my life. I am worthy. |
Whats on my mind is pretty sucky right now,
I miss her, I want her here,She is too busy for me, the whole attitude changed and I dont know what I did Im feeling sick, and really wondering what to do about the future of my health My little one is on my mind its like she senses i am upset she keeps running over and kissing me |
Thinking about our friends in Little Rock and remembering our time (some of them) in Vegas! Have fun friends... I sure miss you!
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Cajun chicken on biscuit and a coffee .. yummy |
My job has lost that new car smell...
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you reminded me of my own good fortune...................
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my dad was required to use an oxygen tank for about 12 years (COPD). he was driving on the highway once and ended up with a flat tire. being himself, he decided to change the tire despite the summer temperature, the remote location and the addition of a largish O2 tank "following" him around. needless to say, he was affected by the heat and the labor and passed out behind the van, not in full sight of drivers passing by. a Schwann's driver noticed his van and pulled over just in case anyone needed help. that's probably the only reason i got to spend 5 more years with my father. when i finally met the Schwann's driver i couldnt decide whether to hug him or put in an order for a lifetime supply their chocolate peanut butter ice cream. hey! they work on commission ya know! |
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Changes....seasons change...routines change...most people change and grow with time...some don't...I see this with my family, friends, acquaintances, and at work...
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The Reunion, knowing the true significance of the weekend and how truly bummed I am that I'm missing this :(
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Leaving and not coming back. It's days like today that make me realise how miserable I am here. It's bad enough that I'm 200+ miles away from Ariel, but when my family pull their usual shit, it reminds me of how desperate I am to be away from them. I just can't handle it anymore. The only time I feel the least bit at peace is when I'm away from here and with Ariel. I need to have that peace all the time and there's no way I'll get it here. I love my family, but I just can't do it anymore.
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I have the most wonderful soulmate. Some days I am not sure how on earth I was ever given the gift of his love. We have had our ups and downs but through it all we have maintained the communication and trust that was needed to overcome any obstacle. I still remember the moment he proposed to me on a quiet star filled night on a street corner under a tree...
I love you baby and I cant wait until the day comes that I get to marry you. I know it was supposed to be this year at the Reunion... and I know that the universe had lots of other plans for us... but just know that the day I walk down the isle with you will be the happiest day of my life... with Unkle Tommi by my side and Unkle Bard at yours... Baby, have I told you lately that I love you |
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What is on my mind?? Other people's happiness its so beyond amazing to see :) I love seeing people happy.
What else is on my mind keeping positive hoping I get to move, nothing is keeping me in Oregon anymore! |
what is on my mind: all of the doctors appointments that i am going to have coming up..
i am sure my anxiety will kick in for a couple of the tests..i will breathe thru them hopefully that works.. in the long run it is so going to be worth it..i am worth it.. what is also on my mind: knowing that money is so squeeky tight and my dotter is needing fall and winter clothes. What is also on my mind: is my body still mad at me for sitting <driving9+hrs > and sitting in the docs office waiting over an hour for my appt.my lower back is mush im old :vigil: :peacelove: |
Just read an Ann Coulter article on Yahoo News. Sometimes I do not understand me at all. Guess I will have to chalk Coulter up as being like a train wreck. To me, she is horrible but like the train wreck, I cannot look away.
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On my mind is the weird phone call I just had; my ex of 2 years ago just called me out of the blue! He tried earlier today and I looked at the number thinking wait I recognize this phone number, dawned on me it could be him but I thought nahhhhhhhhhhhh yeah right it can't be ~ but when he called back a second time and actually left a message, it was exactly who I thought it was! Talk about a shock; he wanted to see how I was doing and it was nice but I was surely reminded why we broke up. He wants to one day meet up for coffee but isn't comfortable doing it yet; I left the ball in his court and told him if he ever wants to meet up I'll leave that choice upto him. Weird to get that blast from the past, but the conversation closed up a few holes that were left gaping when things ended ~ finally a chance to close that chapter of my life and truly move on :) |
I'm hoping I don't have to turn around and make an emergency trip to Texas. I'm worried. And sad. And hating my training, knowing what to expect. I don't want her to have to watch this again.
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thinking about how sometimes I can do something or say something in a frustrated moment that really hurts someone I care about and how it really sucks that you can't take it back.
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People from the past coming back into my life & wondering why.
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How much I miss asking..Drakar, Polo, Axe, or just me to that special someone when this guy just can not make up his mind. So which should it be... decisions decisions....
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Alix ~ I'd say Drakkar, its my favorite men's cologne besides old spice so I think that's the one You should wear :)
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Saying something that I should have kept to myself...Not like me...and I hope I don't live to regret it.
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on my mind right now is wishing i had less to do for other peeps and more time to do for myself. also on my mind is whether or not that makes me selfish? and also also on my mind is the idea that i should get back on the road somehow. i cant shake the pressing urge to cut and run before i can establish any roots. i dont feel at home here. i wasnt even supposed to come to Massachusetts. i was supposed to be in Maine. i keep kicking myself for getting off track. Oregon to Maine, Nomad. Portland to Portland, remember?! what a schlemiel!
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No it doesnt make you selfish, maybe its time to start saying no and put yourself first. always here to listen if you need
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my interview for the personal training position is next week tuesday.
this enables me to save~not only for moving out of state up north~but also for the reunion of 2013. |
A letter that I missed a court date over my toll violation (which was 50 cents, and there was no where to pay it!!) back in 2009... ummm.... does this mean I am wanted in the state of Colorado!? LMAO.
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How tired I am, and it's only Monday!(w)
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Kidding but hope you'll be there Tazz :) |
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