***i WILL be at the reunion 2013 next year!

Thinking about how sometimes what we need to do and should do is not always what we want to do...interesting how we conflict ourselves sometimes

this is just one of those days where i really just need to keep things simple or i may very well rip somebody's head off their shoulders and sh*t right down their neck.... off to bed i go.

***just means that you have a forever fine... you can either pay it... or don't drive in Colorado... OR next time you get a letter~don't open it... instead cross out your name and put "no such person at this address return to sender" and put it back in the mail.

this happened to me before for a stupid fine i got in NJ...

why is it i'm always on the wrong train?
 

We are in Phoenix.

Our last flight has been delayed 45 min so far.

Yes, my $.50 toll turned into $47.00. It's all good and I am not a fugitive. Yay! Which is good because I plan on going back to Estes Park at some point in my life :-)

Reunion memories. All the great people of the Planet! :)

My head hurts. I'm nauseous.

I have a ton of homework.

I've not been this unhappy in over 3 years. I was hoping she would be right, but I didn't wake up feeling any different. I hope she rested.

Hiding sounds good.

Contemplating if I wouldn't be better off selling my place and moving then none of my exes could find me.

im thinking the the extreem humid weather has finally gone!! time to start ridding again before winter hits.
trying to make my plans for the holidays.. little confusing right now

how good it feels ... happy and relieved ... to purge so much stuff that i hadn't touched in a year.. to see BUNCHES of empty boxes (some I reused for kitchen glass stuff)... how good it feels to see clean, uncluttered floor in my spare room...to feel those "ugly feelings of memory boxes" get released as I process them and dispose of them as I purge the physical clutter and mental clutter.. how I know when I get set up in my next place that unpacking will be less work/less clutter because of all the work I've done now... how good it feels to be ready to make changes in how I keep things in the future (like be more organized with my papers and important things, rather than letting it build up)... how good it feels to NOT live in a house like my mother kept (where the kitchen was so awful that you couldn't get to the appliances or sink because of all the trash)..my house might be cluttered on times, but never the stressful mountains of trash my mother couldn't let go of..

right now, the amount of work I need to do is stressful and the level of pain in overwhelming ... but I am making progress ...

I've used this as a self discovery time.. a place of bad mental space to transitioning to positive decision to make changes ...

... Now.. I am ready for a walk in the apple orchard and then next spring in the cherry tree groves in D.C.

Falling asleep alone.
Not wanting to be alone
Needing something so badly that's out of reach currently
Trying to be as understanding as I can
Knowing life happens
Waiting for my life to ge back on track
Damn a lot on my mind lol

Coffee...need more and almost lost it out my face cause of Electrocell's post.

Wondering if that dude....is a friend of mine from awhile back?

And ah...mmmmm...some other things. I shouldn't have to ask to have my coffee refilled.

and...all work and no play makes Jack a dull man

Morning routines...
so fragile and yet so important.
the entire day is built upon them and i find it ultra annoying/laughable that we struggle with them so much.
seriously child... it goes like this...
wake up
dress
eat
do hair and teeth
relax until mom is ready (with some cartoons)

I have made it as simple as possible. play along and you will be very happy!

The every day things I miss. That person that knows I take my coffee two different ways depending on the time of day. Not being able to sleep but because I am busy watching her sleep. That person that knows that while I am a damn good cook and even enjoy doing it sometimes it is just nice to have my favorite meal waiting for me. The person that knows that I would rather be talking to her then typing this. The every day things that I miss is on my mind. These and others but yeah the every day things maybe then I might be able to sleep.

...so many incredible things :)

Not being able to sleep last night, and what that could mean.

Im a truck driver looking for a local truck driving job..

I was out on the road for 14 months and it was very stressful..Now that I have exp under my belt I was hoping I wouldn't have a hard time finding a job closer to home..I was wrong,everybody either just hired a few new drivers or they want more exp..
I reallly don't want to go back Over The Road..but it looks like i might have to ..

Keep well people,

The fact that is is currently 58...cmon sun it's 10am did someone forget to set your alarm clock

Communication...choosing the right word or words to express myself and not always succeeding at that.

Jeez, I can relate to this. A constant struggle for me.

I'm discovering if I don't think, I don't feel and... That suits me just fine right now.

So much on my mind right now. Work is trying. Folks need to just focus on the kids and it will be so much simpler. I am finding that when I stick up for myself and I am assertive or appear to be assertive then they overreact.

My favorite co worker is having a hard time. She is pregnant and needs folks to give a little room to move. I want to help but I am being stymied. Still trying to come up with ways to be a help.

how much I enjoyed reading my poem thread, I havent been in there in awhile and felt good to read those words again

thinking I need to write more, feels good

Trying to decide if I should decide my own thread...just so I do not have to find the perfect thread to post my thoughts, writings-both erotic and non-erotic. Some where I can gather my thoughts and writings. Communications...again is on my mind...I most be moving into a communication area of my life.... decisions decisions and it is a full moon ugggg

The crap that goes on with my disability benefits for my vision or lack thereof and how even when I do what I am supposed to do they still find ways to screw me over. How is it I can report my earnings monthly and I am still having to pay them nearly $200.00 back (out of pocket) for their mistake and they are withholding my check for October? Actually I know how, I had a mediator person that helps to bridge the gap between the little people and them explained it all to me. What I don't get and never will is how it's always two-sided and never ever is it in favor of the little guy. Never! I am so over them and how they operate and especially how they don't...

Thanks to the mediator woman I have working for me. At least none of the letters, notices, and warnings will come as a shock or surprise when I find my P.O. box has blown up with all their crap!

No, this will definitely not be me in the next several days >> :gotmail:

I'm a hard one to put down but this continual lack of sunny days and overwhelming smoke is starting to take it's toll on me. I'm feeling like a prisoner in my own house these days....