Exhausted, I had to for the first time in my career, advise people they were being let go due to a reduction in the size of our work force. It's an utterly soul crushing experience, to do this to people who really don't deserve it.

Excited, we are going to see my sister graduate her technical training in the USAF and spend time with her and my nephew. We are going to laugh and play and make memories and just have fun.

Finally feeling somewhat relaxed for the first time this week. And it doesn’t hurt that tomorrow is Friday.

:hanging:

I'm still feeling a bit exhausted after a full of shopping and errand running in Seattle yesterday!

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[Tw: contains homophobic slur]

I feel really bad, y’all!! Went for an obligatory visit with relatives I had never met and was subjected to some bigoted bullshit!! Yay!!

Here are some highlights: “I don’t feel sympathy for those Africans at all. Why have so many children if they’re too poor to feed them?”

My favorite: “They should just close down all those AIDS clinics. Then all the fags would die. All those sexual weirdos.”

The best thing is that my mother, who dragged me to this hellhole in the middle of Satan’s Ass, Nevada, didn’t even try to call them out. Meanwhile, I was sitting there wanting to cry.

I wish I were here with the butchiest butch ever to exist who could kill a man just by looking at him and I would sit on their lap and bake them a pie and then we would talk about our shared experiences of homophobic bullshittery and then literally make out in front of these Trump-supporting, xenophobic, cantankerous, climate change-deniers.

Thanks for reading my sob story

I'm not really sure I can describe how I feel I'm ticked mad then again I'm also totally concerned for a couple of friends of mine who promised to check in because they're in situations that are not the best in the world and then they don't they don't reach out and when they do reach out it's like in code to be deciphered and I'm not wind talker

I'm not sure if I should just turn my back on them or if I should just wait in the wings and be there when they need me because believe me is going to happen I can see the writing on the wall and unfortunately I can't stop the path of destruction

Damn sometimes I hate being a friend no that's not true

worn out. I cannot wait till 'reading week' so I can just spend a week exercising to regain some level of fitness, as I just can;t seem to improve whilst simulatneously having to go to college and keeping things going in my flat. yesterday's last two lessons, both outsiode, felt utterly gruelling, but I would've been fine with them in warmer weather.

Feel great this morning!

The dogs and I slept late until almost 7:00 a.m. ... and we all woke up so sweet and cuddley. Played kissy-face. I had to sing Jeffrey's favorite song to him. Kevie and Jennifer like it a lot too but no matter what Jeffrey is doing, when I sing this song, he comes and sits right in front of me centerstage. I believe he finds the tones soothing. It is the Romeo and Juliet song ... you know it ... starts out --->>> "A time for us someday there'll be ..."

My mom gave me the gift of receiving joy from singing. She took me to the movies to see all the Rogers (Rodgers??) and Hammerstein musicals when I was a child. Then afterwards, would buy the soundtrack album and we would sing together. Always joined the singing groups in school, plus some rock n roll with my Fender as a teen.

I just experienced a "warm fuzzy feel good" remembering those times. :)

Happy Saturday to Everyone!

I sing the "Good Morning Song" to my pets since 1978 every pet I ever had loe that feeling of waking up to happy singing and playful 1/2 hour.

Why couldn't you sleep babygrl?

Proud! Yesterday my sister graduated from her training in the air force and I got to take a tour of her training simulations, it was awesome. She worked so hard and faced a ton of struggles to get to this point, but never gave up.

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I'm feeling so fucking joyful!

My oldest friend in the world is here visiting and we've been catching up and gabbing and snacking on healthy foods and piling up together in my bed and doing that thing where we put on lots of lotion, read magazines together, and listen to 80's music.
She's my best girl since we were 15 and having her here feels like my soul has it's twin back.

We got up this morning and I took her out for a giant pancake breakfast at one of her favorite nasty-good greasy spoons in town and the we proceeded to blast Tupac and roll all over town running errands and window shopping.

We hit the post office, the bank, the consignment shop, the weird antique mall, TJ Maxx, the car wash, the oil change place, the thrift store to drop off donations, and stopped for a Diet Coke treat on the way home.

She's so exhausted and happily snoring away in my bed and I am prepping some vittles for when she wakes up.

I feel such joy for getting to spend any time with her. The truth is that she has spent most of her life working for the government in various locations and we have gone years without seeing each other before. And the extra truth...the really painful one...is that she's sick and that brings up scary, painful shit I can't even stand to write down.

For now, there is joy. And that's good enough.

Accomplished!

response to Medusa's post
 

Medusa, I enjoyed reading your post a great deal. You provided lots of good details. I could picture you and your friend in every situation in my mind so well.

The bomb at the end shook me.

I wish for lots more good times together for you and your friend.

I wish your friend the very best in dealing what I perceived as serious illness.

In the future, I wish for you to be able to gather up some form of peace about what could eventually be approaching and hurting your heart.

High Regards,
RockOn

Still achy, coughy and sick. Waiting for all this to pass.