Someone that I really care about...been on my mind the past several days.

On my mind... watching Play Misty for Me on cable, a movie from the seventies, and remembering a poncho I had when I was a little girl.

If a broken heart will stay that way forever...
How difficult will it be to let someone else in.
Do I want to bake or write today.
Home.
My Grandbabies.
My daughters.

I don't want to go shopping.

How truly ~*bright*~ the future is. :candle:

I hate being sick...

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That this time last year, my then GF and I had ended our relationship and were still living together....

I am thankfull I live alone right now.

i watched a little girl dressed like a princess, gold sparkly top, pink skirt and pink leg warmers and matching ballet flats and a tiny little tiara, dancing in circles and singing at the top of her lungs, "a dream is a wish your heart makes....." i barely made it away from her before i burst into tears.

Walt Disney is lucky he's dead. if he were alive i'd force feed him every single script that bore his name and then pay someone to stuff him into a big big hole, under a big big rock, with a hundred zillion big big BIG scorpions . and maybe a hungry badger to drive my point home.

"...no matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true."

WHAT was that guy THINKING?!?!

my mind is always a cluster***k....
whats on my mind is..trying to figure out what is best for me and not fall back into old habits

Sleep and how I have not had any in the last three days. I am tired and need it but my body just hurts to much to allow for any good sleep to happen, *sigh*

My mind is filled with thoughts about the rapidly nearing end of the semester and all of the outstanding internship hours I have yet to complete. This will be the first time I have ever received an Incomplete in any college course since I normally have maintained a 4.0. My mobility continues to decline due to the pain in my legs. The tendons are deteriorating and I keep getting major charley horses from hell too. I just wish I could have one day without the pain and the ability to get out of the house other than for a doctor or physical therapy appointment. I guess I shouldn't complain because my life still has so many blessings. I just need time to work through the changes in my life I suppose...that is what is on my mind.

After five years of being together, my son is finally taking his girlfriend to the Virgin Islands next week for a week, to ask her to marry him. First he's going to her parent's this week down south to ask their permission. Who raised that kid??? They did a good job! *snicker* Oh wait, I did! *snort*

McKinney, Texas... Let's make it an LGBTQ town. :)

Um...(cough, cough)...I still believe in dreams...and hope. Granted the outward landscape of what I believed my dream would look like is vastly different from reality. But the core concept and feeling of that dream is still there. I have to keep hope in my dreams alive otherwise things will never get better. From personal family issues to social and civil rights, etc. We can't let the Cruella deVilles, Maleficent, and Sea Witches win.....

Lest you think all is stardust and sunshine here...yesterday was my nephew's funeral. He was only 18 and died of bacterial meningitis. He went from healthy/happy to life support in 48 hours. I say this not for sympathy, but it drove home yet again two concepts dear to me; 1. Life turns on a dime 2. Make the most of every day and no matter what, keep moving forward and never lose hope in your dreams.

Big Hugs!

Katniss~~ (going off to find a crowbar for that rock, scorpion spray and a stick for the badger....)

.....now wouldn't you like to know...

LOL Damon...maybe, maybe not or it depends.

Heh!

Seriously, pm me with those musings.

I finally got over being sick last night, which kept me up until 3:45 AM. Thus, I slept until almost 1. I can't recall the last time I slept solidly like that, no waking... none that I can recall. I didn't even know MBE got up. Nor the dog. And that dog makes sure we all know that I am hers and she will NOT appreciate having to leave me sleeping alone, and she'd be more than happy to cuddle with me until I woke up.

I disagree with her, but I digress...

As a result of all this sleeping, I suspect sleep won't be occurring for me tonight. I'm hopeful that within the next 3 hours, I will be entirely done with one class, and at least another chapter in the stupid law class.

I keep telling myself Dec 3, Dec 3, Dec 3....

I told Bear I knew what my consolation prize could be... I won't miss much of the 25 days of Christmas on TV. I love that.

And it's about time to hang up the calendar he got me.

As usual, I'm thinking of how I'm a lucky guy. Chosen family that loves me. Two fantastic partners.

And the other.... who doesn't even truly realize what she is to me.... She's getting it though

This song...

I was reminded how much I love it today... and I need to listen to it more often...

I want cake.

nightmares about my son. too vivid

What's on my mind...

I just found another student loan bill(s) that were hiding out in my stack of unread mail. There's just no way I can start paying over 200.00 rght off the bat this December...

I have calls to make this evening but, damnit man, this kind of stuff makes me sick to my stomach!

Then I get another one in April :worried:

Max and I are watching some roofers working on my backyard neighbor's house. I'm thinking that Hurricane Sandy has become such a blur over the past few weeks for us, yet some people were not as fortunate. His house is relatively close to ours, and he's had to deal with two downed trees and a ripped up roof.

I need to spend a little more time thanking my Guardian Angels.

having to leave my daughter here in Oklahoma tomorrow
still trying to decide whether to move here or not
then having to leave my son in TN on Wed
trips trips and more trips.... then i'm hibernating through winter
*song rollercoaster running through my head for different reasons*

Just wondering if it's possible to love/fall in love with someone you've never met in person... random thoughts...

Thoughts about a sweet friend of mine, how she always makes me laugh and feel good whenever I talk to her. I hope she knows just how appreciated she is.