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Anatomy test on Wednesday...... good grief :(
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i had a MRI done today at least i think thats what it was called they tried to find a vein 4 different times made me drink this stuff.being told the stuff could give you the trots..
guess who has a toilet that don't work so good yes i have plunged it a bunch of times.. FML! oh im out of TP as well thank goodness for baby wipes YUP its Monday:blink: |
My day, catching up and moving forward. I need to eat something to settle my nerves.
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What is on your mind?
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How yummy this guacamole is...:blink:
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I feel that I am on a new road. One free and clear of mental and emotional debris and one that lacks roadblocks and hazards. I believe that the past couple of months especially, though difficult, have shown me what I need to see to move past shadows and darkness and into the proverbial light. I see truths that were not evident to me previously and, though it's not ideal, I can work with what has been given to me. I'm stronger than I gave myself credit for and I can move beyond these temporary setbacks to gain greater insight into myself as well as those around me. This too shall pass. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Insert your cliche of preference here. I'm 'that' sort. The sort to wait for Unique's same shoe. But maybe it doesn't have to fall. Maybe it's fine where it is, wherever that may be. Maybe I don't even need that damn shoe. Maybe barefoot is the way to go. The past few days have allowed me the chance to step outside of myself. Outside of limitations placed on me, both by others and myself. I dropped into a world of possibilities and I'm hopeful. Like dixie, I won't settle. Not this time. Big girl panties are fully engaged and ready for pulling, should the need arise. But I don't think so. I think we'll be fine. This feels fine. This feels good. I don't want to follow old patterns and behaviors and don't feel as if I am. At least not internally. So, what's different? What makes THIS situation different than previous ones? Me? Them? Both? I can breathe. Fear is minimized. Obstacles dealt with openly and honestly. Maybes and what ifs have made their way into the recesses of my crotchety old brain. Could bes and why nots have followed. For the first time in a while, I feel free. Freedom is the greatest gift one can give to another and I feel very rich right now. Quote:
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Grilled Marinated steak and chili- but cooking it for someone who may need a rest after working too long a day. :canadian: and I'd bring some chocolate just in case :chocolate:
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Another step taken.
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On my mind huh...?
The many deep and loving conversations my Spritz and I had this past weekend about our future life together.
Knowing that some things have to be properly timed. I really want to start the Braille course but appreciating that this will have to wait till fall. Preparing for and settling into our family life ii of top priority. Talking to current and past landlords for further options. How desperately I want to sleep. Maybe a cat nap is in order. |
What is on my mind ? Sleep, this new job, little projects I have been working on, special little gifts and the energy that I feel from floating.
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Everything...very long day and now I can't sleep when I really should be. Time to count some sheep I suppose
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wondering if this cold is trying to kill me. Thankfully I am on prednisone and antibiotics. Too bad I can't take my cough medicine with codiene at work. Well I could but then I would fall asleep. Not good. Lol.
Conversations that were necessary, painful, heartfelt, truthful. Did I mention painful? Honesty is always the best policy. Always. Even when painful. Other thoughts running through my head. The 2800 claims I should have done by Thursday but won't. Hoping they really are getting me help to work those claims. Friendships I have let go silent out of fear of rejection. Coworkers who have been so kind to me lately, one of which has become a good friend. How much I missed my pups and was so glad to see them. |
I have such a weird issue. I think I've finally started "tasting" foods. I smoked a hella lot for about 15 years (close to 2 packs a day OR more). Also, I drank NOTHING but Pepsi. So...for the last few weeks I have had no cigs, no soda of any kind, have been eating healthy foods, and am on vitamins and meds (for Type 2 diabetes and was also on Chantix and blood pressure meds but off of those 2 now).
Here is the issue.....I've always loved spicy and bold foods. Now, even bland foods are seeming to be "too much". I freakin love tacos and spicy chili. I literally can not eat either. Not only are these spicy/bold foods bothering my taste buds, but most all foods that I eat do not taste "right" to me. I can't figure out what the heck is causing it! Is it the lack of smoking and acidic soda? Is it the meds? Or did my taste buds just choose an odd time to do a complete change?? What's up with that???? LOL |
What is on my mind...??
Crap that just churns my butter...
And the shit of it all is that it's not even me and the issues I use to have with the whole thing anymore but now it's more a matter of concern and sympathy for someone who has been casted a part but not yet ready to make a debute in this play we call "life." Yeh, I'm sure the person exists, just not added into the grand scheme of things at this time. So, I contemplate the idea of, can one really feel sorry for another they have not even met and possibly never will meet but wonders what lies ahead for them? Yeh I'm tired and needing my sleep before my midnight shift... Here's where I would be referred to as "cryptic." :sigh: Peace to you unknown soul... You have my best wishes waiting for you when you enter stage left. :praying: |
Hoping the HABS don't give up any more goals to Winnipeg :hockey::canada:
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Co-interpreters taking advantage of my professionalism. They know I am always early, so they take the opportunity to be 10-15 late, walk in and disrupt the professor who is in the process of lecturing. This happens often, and it really fucking pisses me off. What is so hard about showing up in time! The worst part is the interpreter offender is a femme friend, so she knows I won't call her out to the agency who hires us. I am going to have to bring it up to her, because it is really bugging me. I made a commitment to honor my "inner goddess" and start pleasing myself, instead of pleasing other people. This is one of those times I need to speak out.
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Smoking and deadening the taste buds with high sugar drinks (I'm a Coke fiend myself) definitely caused foods to taste different and now that that is gone, you will certainly have an adjustment period. Also, you are in your early 30s. Between 30-40, folks usually find their taste buds changing. Then you've got some meds that may or may not be affecting flavors as well. Chances are, your system is hyper sensitive right now. I'd stick with the milder stuff until your taste buds adjust a bit and then work your way up. You just may not be into as spicy stuff as you were before. It could be fun, if you think about it. Kind of like a foodie adventure. |
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I tried Chantix years ago, and it sometimes made food flavors, smells and sounds "too much", like dixie said...Even after I stopped taking it, it took quite some time for those side effects to abate. |
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What's on my mind.. hmm.. what isn't on my mind?
My Mom got her results from her biopsy and she is clean and clear! Yay! My Step Dad is in good spirits and is painless, just has a hard time peeing and anxious about his upcoming surgery. My school is going well so far.. i am determined to do well in this class even if i do not understand it. My soon to be daughter in law can be very annoying at times. i love her.. but.. *sighs*. KC: my Mom and Step Dad live in Sacramento. Thank You very much for Your kindness. The DayWalkers: If i do have to make a trip out there to help my Mom, hopefully i will get the honor of meeting Y'all. There is sooo much more on my mind.. but.. somethings are better left unsaid. |
I'm thinking that butterfly gummies are da bomb diggity!
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Hym .... hys coming here till sunday .... I miss us ... :blush:
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Glad things got back to normal for you! |
so much is on my mind.
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Whoever said 'don't play with your food' obviously never had gummy lobsters on their plate.
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http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobile...n_2576404.html
Another gay teen suicide. This 15 year old boy hung himself in a school yard. The article says he was taken off life support, but other news outlets are reports he passed away several hours ago. This is really still happening!? How much longer does this have to happen?? In my own work, I witness kids calling eachother faggot and gay, and nothing is done, other than a glare or a talking to from me, the subsitute interpreter who doesn't know them and will probably never see them again. It is disgusting that this is everyday verbage that is part of everyday dialog. Where are the teachers? Noon duties? Administration? I don't even know what to say other than let's not forget Jadin and figure out a way to stop this. |
1. School.
2. A friend that's like a mom to me. 3. I'm hungry again. 4. A fair amount of work done. 5. Most won't understand this, and that's ok.... More bricks being pulled down. |
wth is up with my chat???
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How much I appreciate my friend and Coworker for always checking up on me.
How i wish this cold would just hurry up and move on. How consequences and rewards from actions can be both good and bad. I wish I could go back to bed instead of working another 7 hours but then how would I have money to play ? :) |
A conversation that I had last night.
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One year ago today, Gaige and I exchanged our first Private Message on the Planet, about a post in 5 letters...Happy 1 year Private Message Anniversary my Handsome Butch :stillheart: :aslIloveyou: :stillheart:
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How incredulous it is when the Universe keeps us on track. How amazing it is things just happen exactly like they are supposed to. How wonderful for this Universe and all her wisdom....I may not always like what she provides for me or prevents me from doing, but in the end, I am always so much more blessed.
Thanks wonderful Universe. I am open to your divine interventions...:) |
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a message about need of a cuddle session...i wish...
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A wonderful conversation with a Dear Friend.
The tornadoes that almost hit us .. My step dad's surgery is scheduled for Feb 21st. He will be in the ICU for 2 days and a regular room 3 days afterwards.. then a home health nurse for a month after that at least. Poor guy. and poor Mom for having to go thru it with him. |
trying to figure out what "clayme" means. :deepthoughts:
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I have a pain in my left shoulder WTF?
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