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Today I am feeling isolated and sad, the holidays bring out the "mean reds" and I know this but it still doesn't mean I get to skip out on feeling it. I try to embrace it every year, celebrate and accept it for the cycle and ritual it is and use it for catharsis, it still sucks, every year

Life and the moments that
create memories.

I've had a lot on my mind lately. I've wanted to post about it but then I don't know, shrug. So here goes....

For one thing I worked with total i d i o t s last week. And rude idiots at that. Ya know, I've kindly decided that because I won't tolerate abuse in my personal life, I'm not going to tolerate it in my professional life. I almost contacted corporate on those guys but someone beat me to it. I also made a complaint to my store manager and I'm going to say something to my district manager the next time I see him.

And this week has been bitter cold. And the heat is out at work. But then customers expect me to go outside in single digit weather to work on their car. Ummm fuck that. At least we all took turns.

But that's all fodder to what's really been on my mind. I miss an old friend that walked out of my life. I want to call her and say really? Really? It's been a couple of years. But I still miss her terribly. I really thought we'd grow old together. Best friends til the grave. I've been thinking of calling her just to say I love you, I'll always love you - no matter what. I think I've thought up a zillion excuses to not call her lol What's that saying? Reject me once fuck you. Reject me twice fuck you. Well maybe that's not the saying, but I think it should be one.

And I miss my other best friend that moved away. See there was 4 of us. Me and the one above hung out with Bruce and R, but Bruce and R hardly ever hung out with us together. So it was either me, the one above and Bruce or me the one above and the one that moved away. So now it's just me and Bruce. But we've known each other for 20+ years. But the one that moved away was just awesome. We laughed so many stary nights away together. One of my best fishing buds ever! Always competing with each other - fishing wise. One phone call she was there. One phone call I was there. Lots of good times. Shewwwwwww

Anyway, enough of that sad shit .... I want to ride a camel. I'd love to have one for a pet. Friends would call and ask - whatcha doing this weekend man? And I'd say - oh I'm going out riding. And they would say - oh you got a Harley? I'd say - no man, a camel. Shit, everyday would be hump day. I wonder what they eat? I mean they live in the desert. Anyhow, it's not like they eat grass or hay. Or oats. Or maybe they do. I might have to look that up.

And something else that's been on my mind is what in the hell is in a butterfinger to make it stick to your teeth like they do?????????????? I've had just about every American - and many foriegn no foreign candy bars and there isn't a one that sticks to your teeth like a butterfinger. And it tastes so good. Ingrediants .... sugar, glue, chocolate.

I love the geico woodchucks commercial hey you danged woodchucks quit chucking my wood! HA!!!!! I'd love to have a woodchuck!!!! My Mom had a woodchuck. No kidding. When she was little they lived in Wisconsin. In the winter they had a woodchuck that would live behind their stove.

Well, I'm out for a smoke then off to bed. Sleep well and sweet dreams my friends

~~~shark~~~~~~~

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Originally Posted by sharkchomp (Post 247724)

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Anyway, enough of that sad shit .... I want to ride a camel. I'd love to have one for a pet. Friends would call and ask - whatcha doing this weekend man? And I'd say - oh I'm going out riding. And they would say - oh you got a Harley? I'd say - no man, a camel. Shit, everyday would be hump day. I wonder what they eat? I mean they live in the desert. Anyhow, it's not like they eat grass or hay. Or oats. Or maybe they do. I might have to look that up.

And something else that's been on my mind is what in the hell is in a butterfinger to make it stick to your teeth like they do?????????????? I've had just about every American - and many foriegn no foreign candy bars and there isn't a one that sticks to your teeth like a butterfinger. And it tastes so good. Ingrediants .... sugar, glue, chocolate.

I love the geico woodchucks commercial hey you danged woodchucks quit chucking my wood! HA!!!!! I'd love to have a woodchuck!!!! My Mom had a woodchuck. No kidding. When she was little they lived in Wisconsin. In the winter they had a woodchuck that would live behind their stove.

*blink blink* bwahahahahahaha...

I've ridden a camel. They bite. (ouch...) And yes, butterfingers are the yummiest yet most sticky thing I've ever tried to eat. Love 'em though. LOL I love the woodchuck commercial too. I used to get confused as a kid because some folks call them woodchucks and some call them ground hogs, so my child mind would stumble and blurt out "look at the ground chuck!" It stuck. Now that's what everyone in my family calls them...lol

my computer speakers are not working but if i giggle the plug in the back the will come on.. wonder if the can be rewired or if i need to replace them..or even what a set of speakers cost.. whats the diffrence in pc speakers? guess i need to do some reading and studing before shopping.

I have reconnected with some very dear local friends recently. It warms my heart. But whats on my mind is that they are amazed at what I have been through over the past few years, and in telling my story, so am I. I hear myself as I talk of my health, my AA relapse, my romances, my slide down the financial scale and I am in awe that I survived and still have a smile on my face. This all happened to ME? It sure sounds like alot when I say it out loud in one conversation....

Getting a kick in the butt, via note :sunglass:
Cookies and candy being made, :eatinghersheybar:
the smile on her face; she still believes in Santa.:grinch:

My Christmas list. I always try and MAKE the gifts I give to friends... and I am a bit behind schedule... plus I added a couple names to my list... still not sure what to make for them.

On My mind is the fact that I've recently gotten back in touch with someone whom I've missed very much, but due to past hurts (My mistake) its taking us awhile to even get back on common ground to be friends again. It hurts very much but hopefully this rebuilding stage will allow atleast something to come out of all of this ~ I just hope that I haven't screwed that up completely :(

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Originally Posted by katsarecool (Post 247671)

I totally get that!!! I have three strays that I feed and doctor up when needed. Only one has been neutered; the female. If I could afford it I would take them for the surgery, check up and vaccinations. I loathe irresponsible pet owners!

The SPCA has specials around here where they will do it for $25. The boys are out there making babies! Maybe there is a rescue/feral car group that will pay towards neuturing/spaying for wandering cats? I dunno, I only know dog stuff.

I think it is kind of you to care for them when they need it/you can. :-)

My nightmares last night, that picked up even after I woke up twice. Left my heart aching and broken and insecurities gnawing at the leftover pieces...

:watereyes:

Two things are on My mind:

1) A so-called friend who turned her back on Me tonight because I am transitioning

2) Finding out from a friend that she went to go visit someone I knew in the hospital who had his top surgery today ~ knowing I couldnt be there to even visit hurt alot :(

Don't you just hate it when you go to bed and sleep sooooo hard then wake up (wide awake, mind you) to realize you've actually only slept about 45 minutes? Grrrrrrrr.... :twitch:

My icy commute this morning.

..... don't push, don't push, don't push....

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Originally Posted by cody (Post 245259)

im wondering.. my dog has this constant hack.. someone who had him befor me had his voice box cut. the vet said often when they do that they leave a lil tic and it causes a hack.. it seems to be getting worse as he ages. the vet i spoke to said there was nothing that could be done. seems to me with all the modern med. they would at least be able to make it so he doesnt have a hack.. i think i should talk to more vets. maybe someone will have a way to help him.

I was wondering about what kind of rat bastard would do a thing like this. (As if they didn't know a dog barks before they got one.) Imagine my complete astonishment to find that this is considered a "cosmetic surgery" and that it is not at all unusual. God sometimes people just suck.

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Originally Posted by cody (Post 245259)

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Originally Posted by Cirrus (Post 249684)

Second and even 3rd opinions can save our pets lives. I lost my Shelty to misdiagnosis by my vet, then complications from surgery as a mass had closed his airway off. It wasn't just Kennel cough. you can contact your states vet assoc for specialists,

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=229190143588 Maybe the bloggers can relate and give you some help cody. poor critters

Sounds like mabe scar tissue, or possibly infection.

http://altamesaanimalhospital.com/

my feet are cold

PeachesBoy woke me up at 3 AM on sleep in lazy Sunday,football day, and me :mohawk:staying up.

My family and how things change. That sometimes you just have to accept that change, quit fighting it.. and move on.