not being able to go to the Beltane festival.. :( sigh.. here's hoping for a fantastic samhain festival.

Southwest Airlines in flight wi-fi has blocked BFP. I couldn't catch up with posts on the plane. Boo.

What the heck?!

Mother's day without my mom. One year since she has been gone and its just not the same and never will be.

I miss my mom. She passed a week before Mother's Day 17 years ago, and it really doesn't get easier.

I accidentally hit two birds on my way to work this morning. I tried to swerve to miss them but they changed their flight pattern. I saw them fluttering on the road. I couldn't stop to check on them because it was a highway entrance ramp with cars and trucks behind me.

What a stupid world. I feel awful.

And then things just went downhill from there.

I give my boss 2-3 months notice that im looking for a job...just
trying to be nice, and friday I've been told its my last day,
not even a month later. I had worked freakin hard for this person too.

Waking my morning client only to find that her hip was somehow displaced. Luckily, she is back home now, and I will see her tomorrow. I just hate that she has suffered such a set back when she has worked SO HARD....

and

I hate thinking that she may have been put to bed that way...since her leg wasn't weight bearing when I found her. I can only imagine her discomfort....thankfully she will be ok...tomorrow is another day

:praying:

My moms been feeling not well for 10 days and I take her to the e.r. at a hospital in Kentucky yesterday evening .
She was telling me she's been short of breath with new onset of epigastic pain .
They take her back promptly with her symptoms and hook her to the monitor and her heart rate is in the 50's, her sbp 150's 160's and she has a sat of 88 on room air .
Prior to taking her I listened to her lungs and they were clear and took her bp and pulse which were consistent and the nurse says to me does she have copd and I said no ma'am nor any history of heart problems , no hypertension etc...
She says oh well the doc says to give her 2L bolus .
Ummmmm....... Well gee lets just make her bp shoot up higher with fluids.
That's what I was thinking to myself .
Meanwhile they are sticking blood and iv on her and I said well does anyone mind if I place her on 2l of oxygen since she is desatting to 86 ???
The nurse says ohhh no we have to wait til the doc writes an order for oxygen .
Shakes head well where I come from we don't wait for a pt to decline and become more hypoxic while the doc may not come in for another hour geez.
The doc comes in and says her blood gas is picture perfect so she doesn't need oxygen .
20 min later the nurse comes in and says her blood gas says she is hypoxic and places her on oxygen bc they looked at the wrong pts gas result .
Lord !
So the doc asks me what I do and I said I'm an RN I work in trauma and she is yakking to me
About wanting to work in a trauma facility . I'm thinking um first you should master the art of looking at right pts lab values and be ok if a nurse places oxygen on a hypoxic pt .
She comes back and says I'm gonna release you Mrs H bc your cardiac enzymes are negative .
Ummmm wth!!! I said I really don't think that is a good idea doc bc .. the doc interrupted me and said well what do you think she needs then ????
I said well how about doing a CTA of her chest and rule out a PE since she is hypoxic and vert short of breath and complaining of dizziness and upper abdominal pain .
Also, the heart enzymes can be negative and show up positive on the 2nd or 3rd set .
She said well I don't believe she has a PE lets check her glucose .
I said I checked it before I brought her here bc my dad is a diebetic and it was 83 when I checked her and besides you ordered a chem panel which has glucose result on that . She said oh did I order that ?
So she appeases me by ordering the CTA per my request.
How about that , she had a PE in her lung . Geeeee
She is going to be ok but this whole ordeal made me sad .
Think of how many people out there do not get proper care . This is sad .

RNguy....in the 2 years I cared for my Mom while she was on Dialysis and before she passed, if I hadn't been with her every time she went to the hospital and to each reg appointment, they would have killed her many times over.

Everyone should have an informed advocate whenever possible...when you're sick and scared, you are often unable to be your own.

But you already know that :)

In less than two minutes; a still growing strong and healthy, two-three hundred year old oak tree, was murdered today in the woods. I don't know why. Maybe because it grew different than the others, grow straight and upright like the others. It was the animals favorite climbing tree. I watched as the men acted all egotistical about killing the beautiful tree.

Coming home and you aren't here because you travel so much with your new job.

While on my way to work, a bird flew into my car and was killed :(

and

I found out today, I'm going to stop seeing my Sunday evening client. I'm working over 40hrs/wk (and have been for weeks) and they need to cut my hours....

Not only will I miss the client, but I'm quite attached to her pets as well...especially her African grey parrot...who, since he's been receiving positive attention, has stopped plucking his feathers and is actually letting them begin to grow again.

He hasn't learned how to say "redrum" yet either....but he did say my name last week....sigh...

I haven't seen my babygrrl kitty Sis for six days :( I really think the same Folk's pitbull, who killed her brother, killed her, because those folks have been hiding from me, and stopped letting their dog loose in their yard, and have been walking it on a leash. It would escape sometimes. The last time I saw her, I tried to keep Sis in, but she howled til I let her out. She loved being free.

some co-workers making fun of me... :( it sucks...