Sleep? lol jk. Lots of things, life, possibilities. I like to float there, it is nice and comfortable.

I am thinking about errands and wondering how my friends are today.

I know

Right?

You know how a relationship ends, and then the two you, because you love each other and it's so painful, try to talk yourselves into different modes of bargaining and denial so you can believe it isn't really over, and then one of you sends an email that's like 1,000 words long with very few paragraph breaks, one dense chunk of rational yet irrational, measured reasons for giving up and admitting once and for all, it's over? That's where I'm at, and I'm the one who received the email, not the one who sent it, though it doesn't really matter which one of us took that step and gave the horse one final shot to the head. My ears are ringing and something is out of its misery but it isn't, just yet, me.

Mind
 

Wonder if anyone has ever trained their cat to cook breakfast? (lol)

This marriage deal going on in the courts. The Prop 8. DOMA etc.
I have not been abreast of what transpired yesterday ,except for the "news hour" bit.
Make the act of marriage for heterosexuals a commitment of love to one another on paper.
Minus a few items...
Take away the legal and social benefits. Societal recognition and acceptance, health insurance, tax laws etc...
In this way...we would achieve equality for all people (who vow to commit their lives, their love and devotion to one person) and there would be no reason for heterosexuals to feel threatened and there would be no reason for same sex couples to argue for equality and justice for all.
Right?

Just take away the rights and privledges that recognized marriage provides heterosexual couples now;and all will be equal.
Right?

Separate the church and state...take away the state privledges for the few that already have them. And then tell God that you know what love and marriage is ,better than he.

Grrrrrrrrrr.

hmmm
 

I'm starving . I wonder if those pizza sliders at pizza hut are any good ?

I am hoping that a friend isn't being too hard on themselves and that they txt soon.

I am thinking that today has been a really busy day and I can't help but wonder how the rest of the night is going to go.

Bittersweet day
 

Yeah i got bummed out today because my nutritionist released me as a patient today...said i no longer needed her services. Lol

Camping gear and repurposing found objects.

Trying to sort out my family snarl, I mean tree. I wish I had all kinds of time to untangle distant cousins and tantalizing names that dangle out there, like "Crosby", as in Bing, and "Mowry", as in Tia and Tamera (their father is white of English descent). I already spent a great deal of time finding out that I'm a first cousin removed a bunch with the founder of the Pillsbury Baking Company. Another ancestor owned a tavern in which some of the Salem Witch Trials took place. I love this hobby, but it sure can get complicated and woe is me if I take a wrong turn somewhere.

Seriously? What part of the 14th amendment don't you understand?
How do they tip toe around this? Roberts trying to rid the court of this DOMA cases existence. Scalia too.

Equal protection under the law. Federally, it's a no brainer. It is discrimination plain and simple. There is no argument.

Makes me want to have my logic ethics and philosphy classes fresh in my head.

The prop 8 hearings were messy.

I am thinking about the way things happen sometimes.

My mom is on my mind. We've never gotten this close to the end before. She's always bounced back in a way. The bouncing not happening. I get to be there for her. It is her ending she wants to write it. :typewriter: as much as she can write it. I will help her.

Mind
 

A 2 hour session with my therapist today.

-1:glasses:

Knowing I've helped one person smile today. Makes life worth living.

The coffee machine in Kansas City was out of order today so what is on my mind is how badly I wish I had some coffee right now. :(

How the person that knows you best in life and used to share the dream that you are losing for good with you....Can say you just have to get over it! You are strong!

My mother... she drives me fucking crazy.

My friends, easter baskets, hair styles and what I can put on to watch so that I will still be motivated to work.

Is it really necessary for me to own 5 bottle openers? I don't think so.

Loving and being loved. Needing and being needed.
The first week of April. 8 days.

My mind is filled with much more peace tonight.

It was a very difficult day and thankfully my body shutting down after the internship was a positive thing. I awoke grogged, but in a better frame of mind.

I also have decided to jump from the frying pan into the fire. The boss made life difficult today...tonight I decided to walk right into it. Upon waking, I texted and asked to go in tomorrow despite the really bad day I had today.

Today was the first time my body has shut down like that...immediately upon arriving home. I walked in, emptied my pockets, grabbed a sandwich, went to my recliner, gulped down the sandwich, didn't even finish my milk and I crashed for 3 hours!! I woke up disoriented and very groggy. Once I got up and took the dog out I felt a lot better and was able to figure out that I need to walk into the fire instead of shirking away from it.

Much of life has been quite paradoxical for me lately. I am glad the path is becoming much clearer even if it is extremely stressful.

I did talk to my supervisor today about the available position. Assistant counselor starts at $26/hr. Much better than the offer the HR Dept gave me before. After 2 years I could then get more licensures and receive much more pay as well as an increase to Counselor. It pays much better than the Vocational Rehabilitation Counselor position with the state, but state benefits...ahhh the choices..We will see. My path will be revealed to me...of that I am sure!

That is what is on my mind.

He is. :rrose:

The kiddo is. :)

The housemates are. :)

Life is really good.

I'm wondering if I'm peri-menopausal. This is the second time now I've had pms quite some time before my period started.

Now sure if I'm ready to be menopausal yet. :eatinghersheybar:

Where did all these flirting femmes come from, seems like they're coming from all directions, school, social sites, etc... WOW... my dirty Daddy mind is cooking up with lots of dirty things...

More plans being made.
Much laughter.
Many talks.
Much love.

I absolutely CANNOT wait for next Friday.

Intense needs

On my mind
 

My mind is on that dead tree in the back yard.I bought 2 new chains for me to use on my tree stuff and not on my neighbors tree stuff.Thinking I would like to put the "house work" aside for a few days and do something fun like cut down that tree.Sunshine today.

Mind
 

Think ill take a ride and take some pictures!