I am feeling some holiday blues... This holiday season is stressing me out and it hasnt even started yet...

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A bit frustrated...perhaps it is the holidays coming up...in any case
picking up my new glasses (to run in) lifted me up some...I'm sure
it will pass soon.

Greco

relieved my test results were benign. YEAH !

I feel ok
Leaving before 7am and getting home at 8pm make for a long ass day. This will be how my days are now. But I will get that extra day off. Yes I will. *stares blankly*

I’ll get used to it...........

Feeling rejuvenated
 

Good, rested, and back at work.

But I'm looking forward to more days off later this morning and next month.

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Sore as fuck, tired and cold. Think I need fuzzy socks and PJs, hot cocoa with 4x marshmallows and a heater.

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aware ~ the flood gates have been opened all day ~ sometimes less is best when you just know.

Excited, nervous and scared as hell.

I start Chemo tomorrow and I am not sure if it is what I should be on or not. We are still waiting on the DNA test to come back. They were suppose to have been back Friday 2 weeks ago. We keep saying we know I am some kind of special I guess the DNA test are going to prove that.

I am not sure if I will be able to sleep tonight. What if I sleep thru the alarm in the morning? What if my blood work isnt good enough for them the start. Hell it has been over 2 months since we found out I had cancer just how good is it suppose to be?

Questions I have 1000s of them and I don't know the answers or if anyone else has the answers. Its a horrible place to be and I dont wish it on anyone

I haven’t experienced what you are going through and I can not compare it nor would I try. But I know the feeling of worrying about sleeping through the alarm with important procedure in the morning, being nervous, anxious etc. and having a million questions. I go in ready to ask and the doctors are always so damn quick and fast and I usually get some questions in but the environment feeling rushed makes me feel rushed and I talk too fast and rushed and leave then realize I forgot to ask half my questions. So if this happens to you make them stay and listen to you! Make them slow down. I hate how doctors are these days. Good luck to you!

A little down but nothing serious. It can't be rainbows and sunshine all the time.

Woohoooo!!!!

I'm cool.

At work—the music is blasting and the decaf is hot. Could be better and could be worse.

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amazing, coffee does that for me

I am tired. I spent six hours raking leaves. The pile is so big you could hide a car in it.

Sad and happy all at once!!!!

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what a shame if the wind picks up ~ just saying lol