What are you thinking about doing? The search process can suck but it can pay off if things line up right for you!

The process does suck especially in this day and age!

I have great faith you can manifest exactly what you want, it worked once right?!

It sure did. I should be happy where I am, but I’m just not. I am trying to be grateful but also want to upgrade my employer. I saw the job posting for this position and I knew I would get it. It was mine. Perfect location and hours. It just hasn’t fallen into place and it should have by now.

Mentally and physically exhausted.

I wasn't supposed to work today but I went in for a few hours to catch up before the weekend since I'd been out all week for the holidays.

2 hours after I got in our street was filled with police and K-9 unit and state troopers and other trucks I couldn't name. Police hiding behind cars with guns drawn, dogs everywhere, sirens everywhere. I put our building on lockdown and called police to see what on earth was going on. All they could tell me was there was a "situation" at the church a block up the road. I asked if we should be on lockdown, they couldn't tell me. I asked if there was a person at large to watch for, they couldn't tell me. It was another 2 1/2 hours before we would know there was a bomb threat with a person saying they had an AR-15 ready to shoot any police who came.

We put the child care children into shelter in place in one room in the basement. I ran around the upper floors putting all the residents who were home to shelter in place in another location up there. All while remaining calm to not freak out children and adult residents more than they already were. Then it was just watching and waiting. Quiet inside, sirens and chaos outside.

News hardly reporting anything other than heavy police presence.

Eventually, hours later, the pastor at the church was able to say that their surveillance cameras didn't show anyone entering or leaving the church and that it must have been a false alarm. But they weren't saying anything about police actually having searched the church physically, so we waited longer.

Eventually all but two police cars left the scene. Roads were still closed. But we got parents to get their children from the daycare and we got the residents of our buildings out of shelter and went into an uncomfortable space of more waiting.

But we're clear now, though I still don't know what happened. At least I'm home and it seems the danger has been cleared. My spouse brought me home CBD infused tea and whiskey which I will partake in shortly. That will help settle my nerves. Spouse is driving my daughter to a party and picking her back up after so I don't have to be responsible for that. I need to just decompress.

I am feeling really good- better than good. I am also really looking forward to 2019!!

Good. Looking out my newly washed windows. Had someone wash them yesterday. He did a very good job (cleaned screens and tracks) at a really low price. He broke the screen handle to close the screen, but went to home-depot bought a new handle and fixed it.

So, I’m doing good and am a happy camper.

:pursebee:

Feeling
 

I feel exhausted from moving my mom's stuff around.

The excitement of my new lady has worn off under the weight of my current situation.

Oh how I miss my independence.

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i was feeling great until i ate too many pecans :(

Like a million bucks!! (though a million might be low-balling). :pirate-steer:

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dee feeling nutty ? lololol :blush:

I kind of slept through Jan. 1 till this afternoon.
This new year is so welcome, I'm afraid to jinx it with words. I want my life back--the one where I didn't need to be hyper vigilant every morning to make sure trump didn't get us blown up.
2019 has to better--2018 sucked all the joy out of life. :fastdraq:

Pretty tired but pushing through the pain and tiredness.