Emotionally worn out. Emotionally drained. Mentally scattered. Thanks to my mother.

I feel like a walking Tsunami. Our family is working hard to establish our new normal without my brother and it is very painful. I'm just putting everything I've got into my nephews and trying to make it through every work day. I'm pretty sure I've ended my marriage at the same time. Everything is a mess.

I'm so sorry for all of you. That is so sad and physically traumatic.

great news, Besame - glad it worked out well
 

I have some good stuff to report. I had a terrific day with sciatic leg and buttcheek pain until after lunch. I am appreciative of anything.

I was around the back of the building walking on concrete without my rollator and practicing trying to walk normal. I was hobbling a tiny bit but so what ... it thrilled me! I have not walked so well in over a year. I know the back surgery is not avoidable but still to get a half day away from bad pain was great.

Oh ... and I fantasized all morning if I could just hold her, kiss and cuddle her just one time. Of course it will not happen but it gave my spirits a huge lift.

So I had 2 good things going on this morning. :)

I have to report this. It is 3:30 in the afternoon and only a tiny bit limpy-gimpy! Sciatic pain is not worth mentioning.

I am so amazed and so happy! Very humble and thankful too. I am thinking I will not have to stay in bed all weekend. :)

Feeling on top of the world!
(somersaulting on my way out of this thread)

Happy Friday to All!!

I'm feeling committed and shattered.

Four years ago today I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Usually on this day I take the day off of work and live life to the fullest. I will do that again today. I just have to push myself harder to do so. I took the day off. I will leave shortly for a bike ride, even though it is cold and raining. Then I will go see my daughter because she has her convocation to the honors program at her college tonight and I am so proud of her. I am committing to training well for an upcoming 250 mile fundraiser bike ride for young women facing breast cancer. I am putting one foot in front of the other.

Happy. The roofers are done for the day, Monte no longer on high alert is napping peacefully giving me a much needed break. The weather is as close to perfect as nature can get. Just two more days till direct deposit hits the bank and one of those days is already partially over. Since there's a bit of a slight breeze today the place is cool enough for me to warm dinner in the oven, so no real cooking involved. :) It's a really good day.

Me too, FSF, I had a pretty good day. The weather here is so beautiful, too.

I'm feeling pretty cheerful tonight. Which is so nice. :balloon:

Spent three hours today, and similar time yesterday writing in my submissive journal in attempt to chill from techno-domination. My primary email address company thought it had been hacked simply because I logged on from a different device. Also, forgot my FB pw as it's memorized on the primary email site. FB had instructions to resolve the issue, but none of them worked for me. Main obstacle is not having a smart phone or any cell service to receive a text code.

End story is that I now have a second new main email address, and a brand new, squeaky clean FB acct without all my friend and group contacts. Starting over from scratch replacing three years of activity. All of my friends are online. Haven't seen many of them in decades. We, nonetheless, stay in contact based on similar interests or proclivities.

So, I lost contact with all of the support system, save my Dom. TG for Her!
Also, should add those of you who know me here.
It'll get patched up, but for a few hours it was touch and go through a rare panic and crying jag.

Gemme
 

Gemme with your spot-on sense of humor, and your incredible
work ethic...I take my hat off to you, much respect (f).

Greco

...OUCH :toothache: