On my mind
 

I have the same thoughts Ms Bluem.

The last date I had was in 2007 or was it 2006? Who can remember ?
Of course I was in a relationship for a long time. Still I do miss dating.

I often wonder how much is too much...
when is something consider broken beyond repair?
is everything fix-able?

Life is feeling a little overwhelming again. It seems that as soon as I feel like things are settling down enough that I can do a little something for myself... the whole world explodes around me. Life is hard right now... emotionally and financially... and I am feeling like my support system is almost non-existant.

I just have to remember to take a deep breath and keep moving. I can get through this, just like I have gotten through everything else the fates have thrown at me.

I'm bone weary tired...tired of being sick...tired of just being today.

I know, I know, do you want some cheese with your whine?

A layer cake of spiritual awakenings


:tinfoil:

The colors of the leaves as they start to change. My drive to work is beautiful. I will miss the colors later. Yet right now, the colors are just beginning.

:praying:

The
 

Pain I Bring

Teaching....

I always seem to end up in a position where I am asked to teach someone something... I have decided this is both a blessing and a curse.

*sigh

So much needs to be done right now that I can't plan ahead - like, apply for jobs.

Thank goodness I have my own (company) car but it's tough living with someone else in their house.

I need a holiday. A proper holiday that consists of cocktails and a big fat novel.

Sex....not quiet in the middle of the night tame stuff, but loud, sweaty, Gatorade needing , putting holes in walls,wild middle of the afternoon where ever the impulse strike sex....

Must have our own place soon or rent a freaking hotel room..

A dear friend who passed away 16 years ago today.

I love you and miss you buddy.

But when I watch you in this video, I know that you happy, home and at peace.

Until we meet again...

After a few "can't find time to breath" days of juggling a heavier than usual work load (yay!) plus the teenager, school, etc, I'm sliding into the easier part of the week.
Which means that this morning is paperwork time and cleaning my house, and then, at noon, taking my daughter to her first day at her new volunteer job. Which is a dream job, working at the coolest historic theater in the world, then picking up my mom for her birthday to take her to see the play that my daughter is working, then home for a little regroup time. Then take the kid to her new late night dance class (makes me feel really old) and then home by 9pm to collapse.
Tomorrow is our homeschool group day which we love. Then it's the weekend with my guy! My daughter is working at the theater again Friday night so we get a little date night time. This whole working teenager gig isn't so bad!:hangloose:

My son. He is having such a hard time in school... he's so very smart, but its just not an environment he is comfortable in he doesn't understand how other people think or what is appropriate socially. Every year its getting worse... I really just don't know what to do to help him any more.

reconnecting with some family
future plans
butch sweetness

this pretty picture

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I hate that it's already dark at 7:45 pm . :|

The extreme tea party republicans insist on shutting down the government, using the Affordable Care Act as one of their excuses to do so.

well, why not add an amendment to take away each members of congress government issued health care,which is paid for by the people, and then let em pass a continuing resolution bill that shuts down the government.

And then add another amendment that takes away their paychecks since they
won't be working.

And then add another amendment that takes away their retirement paid for by the people. Example...like what they did to the us postal workers and the threats to
our social security.

So many ways to do this.

Heck those little kids banking adds make more sense than this spin.

Get real congress. This is our country and our future. It is beyond our future
that they are messing with or our grandchildren's future and beyond.
And gotta love the hypocrisy of the flags that they wear on their lapels.

Next up...failure to raise the debt ceiling, via the tea party republicans.
USA future...city of Detroit is an example...and Greece.
Detroit is working hard to come back with no help of the republicans.

Thinking about my mom and her declining health these days. :(

Lots
 

My health is on my mind lately. The good news that there is no pneumonia in my chest however there was bad news from the xray. Isn't there always bad news when a doctor gives you good news. My T levels are where they should be at two months with no real "bad" or unwanted side effects. Of course I am inpatient with the slowness's of some of the effects I want. I know be patient Alix, all in good time. At least the sore throat went away, finally. I don't know if I could have handled it on top of this nasty as chest cold.

Now there are present things on my mind. Like this handsome boy from another site that is making his presence known and felt. I don't know where it will lead if any where he is a tad young and not in Oregon. Not that that has stopped me before....chuckle. Did I say he was handsome and service oriented. I can't forget the girl that is on my mind either. I know bad Alix.....

Throw in school and my bio-family and you get half the picture of what is on mt mind these days. No wonder there are not enough hours in the day and I some times forget to breath.....

People in the world
 

How much shit (sewing and all) I have to get done before Steamcon V next month. :blink:

I worry that our community is loosing its ability to support members when they have a tough time.
How can we discuss our pain openly and receive support from each other? I understand the TOS and not posting drama.

However, when a member is at their wits end where do they go to share their hurt? Yes, for some counseling is a luxury they should access. Yet since it is a luxury it isn't always an option.

It is just on my mind. Some of folks are intensely private and even our BFP "friends" don't know they need help until it boils over.

My upcoming finals. At least I don't have any double days this quarter however I do have one day where I have a final and then a presentation afterwards. I do not do good standing in front of a group of people and speaking not even people I have known like in this situation. At least it is a subject I know about and should be able to pronounce all the medical words involved. If I can get an A on the anatomy final I will actually pass the class. This makes me happy since I know the material and the only reason I have such a poor grade in it is because well life got in the way this quarter and the instructor is a hard ass that does not allow you to make up any missed exams no matter the reason.

I hope everyone has safe travels back home from the reunion today and tomorrow. That is also on my mind.

The house republicans have had ample chances to pass a continued resolution to allow the government to stay in operation. A blank slate continued resolution to keep government funded systems running is once again in their hands.

They have refused to vote to keep the government systems running.

Nowhere in the constitution of the United States does it say...congress can choose not to vote for the people. Not to my knowledge and memory.
The hastert rule is not part of the constitution.

“Hastert Rule,” which saith that no House Speaker shall bring to the floor any legislation not supported by “the majority of the majority” (i.e., the majority of the Speaker’s caucus). The tea party minority is controlling it.

The majority of the republican congress did not win by a majority of the people
voting for them. They got elected because the way the districts were redrawn.
Yes, Remade for the repubs in the minority( of those districts) to get elected.

Just in regards to fiscal policy:
Shutting down the government will increase the deficit by 30 billion dollars
over a ten year period.

Obama has decreased the deficit by 50 percent since he has been in office.

The last time we had a budget with a surplus and created more of a surplus,
was with Clinton.

Solution. Congressmen and women who refuse to vote, for the majority of the people, should be labeled "Non essential" government workers and thrown out of congress.

Non Essential. Really a nuisance.

Finding a job, I thought I had a caregiving position and I got a email today saying they would rather wait on hiring anyone right now..


Making new friends and then them turning out not to be what I thought.


making plans for my 27th birthday

On My mind
 

On my mind??
 

What is on My mind
 

What's on my mind...

My mindset and my priorities. Time to get back to where I once was - pain or not, I have priorities and they all need tending to... with love and affection.

Words
 

My life is divided into two sections, that's all I have room for right now. When one event is over I have another chomping at the bit to take its place. So many serious life 'things' going on and I've had to push a couple to the back burner to deal with others.

Today I'm reflective about my words. In one case I'm pleased that there is nothing I've left unsaid. In another, I wish I'd kept my shit to myself. C'est la vie, what is done cannot be undone.