Been thinking about the government shutdown and how so much that the current administration (exception being the POTUS) has chose to NOT do is affecting the general populous.

Also thinking about those who struggle to find work and balance expenses when the economy is such shit right now.

Thinking about how I fit into this all, and what I can do on a macro as wel as micro level to help.

I really believe that you are making a blanket statement about community members not being able to support each other. I have been supported through A LOT of health issues that I have had in the recent past. TOS does NOT say that we cannot discuss our lives when we are having a rough time. It says that if you are having personal drama with another member of this site that you cannot make it public and air your "dirty laundry". I totally agree with this TOS because I have personally witnessed some pretty ugly stuff when people break up. It becomes actively aggressive and passively aggressive shit slinging. It is unproductive and serves no purpose in the long run that everyone knows about the drama between exes. That is just my opinion.

As far as where do people go when it "boils over", TOS does not prohibit someone from privately discussing whats going on. It can be done in PMs with "friends" here. The whole site does not have to be privy to it. And if someone is "intensely private", why would they want to air all of this private stuff anyways?? That line of thinking for me makes no sense.

A lot, but the most pressing of them is how much I could use a cocktail.

There is always a lot on my lately. But, something amazing has happened as well. I finally feel like MOST of the time I can handle what I am handed... Its not that what I have to deal with has gotten any easier, its only that I have finally put my foot down and insisted on doing a few things for me. Its amazing how the time at the theater, or a night out with my friends each week really makes it possible to get through each week without feeliking like I am loosing my mind.

Self discovery is never ending, and I am just beginning to understand who I am again... after all this time.

Getting through the rest of the week when I have hit my wall at work.

Spending some much needed alone time with my partner this weekend while my step-daughter is in Canada with her dad.

How I need to get more of Ace Brewing's Pumpkin Hard Cider

And sleep

I feel
 

I feel so loved. Everyday I am humbled with the incredible gift of gaea's Love. We just "get" each other. So we Get each other. We are walking hand in hand into our forever.

Friday!:cheer:

Getting this work week over with and spending some time with friends Saturday!

I love my job. But lately I hate my job. I love it, I hate it. I want to run away. I want to be in the mountains, I want to be in the forest, I want to swim in the ocean, I want to be free. And I want more time with everyone I love. But my job is my safe harbor, it keeps me sane, it keeps me from all that running wild I wanna do. I love it. I hate it.

Watching someone make a huge mistake, and knowing there is nothing i can do to stop it....it makes me sad.

God, I need to get laid.

After I finish my coffee, I will go to pick up the ashes of my beloved cat. And as eager as I am to finally bring her home, I find myself drinking it very slowly.

trying to make sense of a lot things.

Thinking that patience is not one of my strong points :hammer:

My final, which is due Sunday night. UGH

The possibilities that spring will bring...new beginnings....decisions to make...travels to undertake....prayers answered....starting over and doing things the right way...reclaiming my life

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trust.......

Surgery
 

Having major surgery done on Wednesday seems to be on my mind lately.

My son has an appointment on Tuesday for testing... the second of three appointments that may finally get me a diagnosis of high functioning autism.... and hopefully, the resources to really help.

This trip is long, almost 3 hours drive one way, and I am going up with my mother. I havent had the time to finish ale the paperwork yet and I really just wish I could wave a magic wand at that daunting pile.

I really hope its all worth it in the end.

Sleep ..... Which doesn't seem to be happening :|

on my mind....

a friend who is ill....just waiting for news...praying all will be well....and soon...

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It's amazing what a good nights sleep will do for your emotional well being & put things back into perspective.