I am just irritated with myself.

I have been purging for years with a specific focus on purging my clothing, shoes, purses, etc.
Last year right before the Reunion when Juney was here, I did another huge purge and let go of a bunch of clothing that I really loved but either couldn't wear, would never wear again, or had never worn. It felt good!

Well, suffice it to say that I am now in the guest room in that biggo closet again because I need to completely empty it so Jack and I can work on the room tomorrow painting and laying new floor.
Carrying armload after armload of ballgowns, cocktail dresses, fancy purses, etc has made me realize that I am STILL hanging on to way too much stuff. Already making a pile of stuff to give away at this year's swap and still need to go through my jewelry and purses. :|

I don't even own 1/5th of what I used to own. Before I moved to California, I had amassed 4 5 walk-in closets chock full of stuff. None of it was worth much because I tend to shop at thrift stores and yard sales but it took me WEEKS to go through all of it and pack what I saved.
When I arrived in Cali, I purged again and had many of those "why did I bring this with me" moments.
Before we left Cali, I knew that space would be at a premium on the moving truck so I did the biggest purge of all and let go of over half of my clothes.
It still wasn't enough.

I hope I don't have a pair of jeans and a raincoat left by the end of the day because I'm in the mood to SUPER PURGE!

I'm watching Property Virgins on HG channel. I can't believe how some of these jerks act on national TV.
Unbelievable. :seeingstars:

ToKissAgain, your story is tough to read. I too left a very (emotionally/Mentally) abusive relationship. It is hard to say goodbye to a life, and I hardly know you...but it is the BEST thing you can do, even though it is so hard to do. Just remember to live for number 1 and that is you!

It's not really about the TV.
 

I'm thinking about a TV. We need one. She talked about us going in halves on one. It's a nice one. All the bells and whistles. ... HDTV. LED. 1080p. 240 hz. 47" screen. ... I want it. And if we halved the price we could afford it. So what is my problem....
OK, maybe this isn't about the TV. It's about me being in my mid-30s and not having anything to show for my life because I've always invested so much in my relationships. I spent the past 10 years investing in the wants of my other half. When I wasn't being his cheerleader I was working my butt off so he could have all of the toys he wanted for all his hobbies and next hairbrained schemes.
So, after 2 failed marriages I'm insanely gun shy about sharing property or paying anyone else's way for anything. I'd rather wait, go without TV for 2 months, and buy the whole thing myself. Because that way, if the universe pees in my cornflakes again, if another relationship dissolves on me, I know who owns that fucking TV.
*sigh*

I have found the PERFECT birthday giftie for Juney and I will hand-deliver it next month :)

Ever had one of those days when the whole world seems to frustrate you? Then all of a sudden something clicks and all the pieces start to fall into place. That's my day today.

Dreamer... You are on my mind.

Why did I dream I was a Playboy bunny. It cracked me up. I'm going to google it. Too funny. :)

Fail! ... Attempt to incorporate more exercise into my life landed me in the Doctor's office with a series of pulled muscles. Seriously? It was a frakking yoga ball! How did I do that????? *laughs/cries/medicates* :seeingstars:

I hear those yoga balls are dangerous!!! LMAO! You can come to the boxing gym with me, at least you know you're going to hurting after!

*laughs* ... The only thing I learned from my 2nd marriage was the technique for using a 10 inch chef's knife and the correct way to hit a punching bag ;)

But I hate gyms. Inevitably some skinny betch gets on the elliptical machine in front of me and I have to watch her bony butt wiggle for the entire hour I'm there. I'm short. I'm fluffy. And tall/skinny chicks who don't sweat off their makeup make me angry. Someone aught to tie them down and feed them some cookies ;) LOL

AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Toddlers & Tiaras freaks me out.