How am I feeling? Stressed out. Because I am going to the states in a week to see my family for a month without my husband. I haven't seen my family for over two years. For some reason I am really stressed and nervous.
I love my family and for the most part I have a great relationship with all of them. I have been away from my husband for a month before so I'm not nervous over that. I just wish I knew why I am feeling like this.

Feeling
 

I feel sad and upset because one of my pets is missing.

I hope you find your baby soon!

I'm feeling bitten. The mosquitoes are horrendous tonight. Don't they ever sleep?

Pretty good! I negotiated a pretty large contract for work today and won! Very exciting!

Pffft
 

Not so much all over the map this evening, but still a little frazzled.

I like having this thread to come and whine to. I'm not one to complain or 'air my dirty laundry' for everyone to see but it's kinda nice having a 'thread' ask me how I'm feeling. In the real world despite how I am doing and even if there are tears rolling down my face or I'm doubled over in pain or limping along or... when asked how I am feeling or how am I doing, my answer is always, "fabulous" "wonderful" "if I were any better, I would have to be twins" blahblahblah. It's the polite thing to do. So having here to say what I really want to say, and not because I'm not polite here rather because no one is most likely reading my whining and so in that there is the freedom to um, whine on ... and so I can.

I'm a little exhausted from crazy busyness at work.
My leg is still giving me grief.
I've had about all the Texas Summer I can have. Not only for this year but forever I do believe. It drives me cranky.
I am still feeling the surreal emotional roller coaster that is love at first sight with my precious two week old grandson who I just can't get enough of. He is the absolute light in my soul now.
But I'm still feeling quite sad and disappointed in that which could have been, might have been, would have been. And not sure I understand why this is lasting so long. It shouldn't be. It's quite a strange situation to find myself in. What's lovely too about this 'space' to speak to about how I'm feeling, is that I know she's not on BFP nor would she find me here and so there is freedom in that to be able to freely ...again, whine. Pitiful. Pathetic. Shameful. Blahblahblah

Thank you for asking though.

sleepy....

its a good thing...Ive not been sleeping well....

Feeling
 

Thank you Ms Tinkerbelly.

I feel content: Content with progress I have made in certain areas of my own private life. I also feel a certain strand of happiness, too. Life has been rather robust with intermittent sprinkles of tiredness, being tired from exerting tons of energy to foster change in my life.

A certain blend of content; a type of satisfaction.

I am definitely enjoying life, lately. :stillheart:

Feeling
 

Thank you to everyone that inquired about my pet and my feelings. I am sorry to report that I do not believe that this will have a happy ending. I am grateful to the caring friends that offered support during this difficult time.

I'm in a foul and vile mood right now. But I'm working it out over a cup of coffee and some thorough navel-gazing, lol. (That phrase always makes me laugh).

I became aware of a palpable heaviness and dark intensity in my own energy today. It's become sort of interesting for me to closely observe my own "weather patterns," so to speak. I notice many similarities between this particular energy and the sensations one might sometimes feel when a low pressure electrical storm moves over the area.

Duh - it makes sense that it would; since the body runs on electrical current.

Anyway, I find it so intriguing to be sort of hyper aware of energy shifts as they occur, though; as long as I don't become too emotionally involved with them.

Oddly enough, the sun is now starting to peek through the dark, foreboding clouds again. These summer storms here always seem to be over almost as quickly as they begin.

reconnected....

my life changed completely when my daughter came to live with me....

she left for Massachusetts a couple days ago to tie up loose ends and Im just now starting to get back into my formerly normal routine...

Im always happy to see friends and family, but I realized Ive truly become a creature of habit..and I just like things the way I like them...

Really sad, kind of haunted about something. Yesterday I helped a friend clean out a recently deceased woman's apartment. All I can say is we were very respectful of her privacy, and I am stunned at how hard it hit home, to have a will—the woman's family is enraged that her estate will go to her partner's care in a very compassionate facility. But since there was a will (they weren't married), the partner is safe and will live out her days in a lovely, gentle place.

Feeling
 

Thank you Clay, I appreciate your kindness.
Chad

HANGRY! FEED ME!

Chad, I have been thinking of you and your missing pet. Heartbreaking!! I hope things will turn-around and you two will be haapily reunited.

Really good Monday. That guy who snorts his nose, drums his desk with his hands and clicks his pen constantly was out today. I have my huge high performance fan all ready for when he returns. :)