I'm feeling tired, achy and mostly happy. It was a long, struggle-filled trip to see my sister and mom and the rest of the family today. I got up at 6 a.m. and it took me 6-1/2 hours to get prepared and go 100 miles. So much time in the car led to the tiredness and achiness. But then things mostly went right, and it was good to see the fam. We shared a delicious meal, oohed and ahhed over the baby, and exchanged Christmas presents since I was too sick at Christmas to attend the festivities. My mom and I got some quality time to talk, although honestly I think I mostly bored her with stories of my dog. I texted my sister when I got home and asked her if she thought mom knew who I was. She said she thought that mom knew I "was a familiar person to her". She said mom "knows" her the same way most of the time. So that's bittersweet. I also had some good conversation with my sister today. The drive home only took an hour and a half, thankfully.

Sleepy but good, and like I don't want to sleep any more today. I blew off a doctor's appointment this morning; the soonest I could reschedule was July, and I don't really care. I feel like I'm really glad I don't have to leave this house in the rain today.

I'm feeling pretty good. :blueheels::cherry::hk20:

I'm feeling fine except for the very tip of my right index finger, which feels like it's burning. It's kind of weird - it might be nerve pain as a result of the chemo.

How am I feeling?
 

A little over three weeks and I think this flu has lost its battle.

I think three weeks is about par for the course for this strain of flu. That's what I've heard from almost everyone I know who's had it. I'm glad you're on schedule and are getting better.

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I'm feeling very tired and kind of depressed. I need to have my car worked on before going on vacation next week, but I just can't make myself do it. It will delay our vacation if I don't do it today, but it's just not going to happen. I got up and took care of the dog this morning, but I just can't even make myself take a shower. Maybe later today.

How are you feeling?
 

Georgia Ma'am ty so much for your kind words when you have and are going through so much yourself. I think you are a very brave woman to stand up and not give in one inch. You are a lesson to all of us with problems that facing things make the tolerable. ty again and do take care of you *S

Stone-Butch, you are so thoughtful. This put a great big smile on my face! It surprises and pleases me greatly to be thought of as brave. To paraphrase Melissa Etheridge, I think I might be "brave and crazy" (in a good way). Thank you. Please take care of yourself too.

Unraveling….

In 1973 when I was a teenager, I had two weeks worth of dreams about a death of a young person. So many details. Alarming ones. Very specific sexual ones. Then suddenly the dream stopped. And within a week, a body was found. So many things around that death were details from my dreams. Including the specific sexual torture. I even picked up on the killer. But they never found the killer!
Until now… 50 years later.
So many things about the killer were also in my dreams. I am re-experiencing the god awful feelings I had when I was having those dreams. Now that there is closure I hope this all ends…..

Soft*Silver, I'm so sorry you're experiencing this. I've had a couple of premonitions, including that someone was going to die. After going through dealing with it, I realized there was nothing I could do, there was no reason for me to get this knowledge and there was no one who could benefit from it. It was just some glitch in the universe that I found out. I just had to let it go.

I hope you can let this go and find peace. Your situation includes awful details that mine didn't and I know our circumstances are not the same, but I sincerely hope this is not as vivid and immediate for you now as it was when you were a teenager. You have my best wishes, and if you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me.

Relaxed and happy. A brief vacation was a very good idea. It rained all day today, but we stayed inside with the fireplace going and were warm and cozy.

Slightly guilty. I postponed/rescheduled all the doctors' appointments I had this week. It was just too many for one week. Also, I'm too tired to get dressed in nice clothes and fix my hair. Vacation was fun but it kind of wore me out. I've spent all day sleeping ever since we got back.

Feelling better. Woke up on Monday with a sore throat and it was downhill from there. Feel like I've been in a feverish haze for a couple days. Woke up this morning feeing much better.

Took a couple covid tests that gave me negative results—that's good. Guess is was a 24-48 hour flu.

And I lost 5 lbs. There is that.

:bow:

Still tired but at least I didn't sleep all day. Currently taking a break from cleaning the kitchen. Three espressos following dinner helped. I don't expect any difficulty falling asleep tonight though.