Good. Had a pre-op appt this morning and have been cleared for the first knee-replacement surgery later this month. Am scheduled to get the left knee replaced first because it causes more pain, but am thinking maybe I should start with the right knee since it's the weaker knee. I'm a leftie so maybe that's why my left knee is stronger? Whatever. I'll discuss it with the health team. Probably doesn't make a difference as bad these knees are. We'll see.

It’s a full moon. I have been tearful all day, while at the same time being fussy and angry. We have an arctic blast and it’s been on and off single-digit temperatures for the past couple days and then it’s supposed to get in the 40s almost 50s. This change the temperature and the moon is fluctuating my mind and body.
Can’t be spring so that I can go play in the soil? I bought $100 worth of seeds again today. I am truly eager to get started!

Thankful that I'm not sick tonight like I was last night. That was awful.

Thrifty. I have been sticking to my budget and it's showing in my checking account.

Pretty good. Climbing and going down the stairs has gotten easier. Probably because I am doing it so many times a day now. I have even stopped counting. I would say more than 5 times, and less than 10 most days. It's time to add in some walking and sitting-to-standing exercises now.

So this morning I had to get up early and take my car to the mechanic's. It was no trouble at all, walking a bit and dealing with my rollator and a Lyft, although I have a bit of a backache now. Nothing that a Goody's powder and a nap won't cure.

Pleased with myself and happy about all I accomplished yesterday.

Pretty darn happy!

Inadequate. I'm staying with my Mom for 5 days, and her dementia has worsened so much. I'm at my sister's house because that's where my Mom lives now. My sister and her husband desperately wanted to go on a vacation with some of their friends, and asked me weeks ago if I could stay. I was happy to say yes. Then one day before I'm supposed to arrive (yesterday) my sister called and described our Mom's condition.

Essentially, Mom has become more emotional, more prone to wander, and physically combative. One day recently she went for a walk down a major highway (this makes 4 times she has done this now). When her daytime caregiver went after her, my Mom slapped her and bit her and told her to leave her alone. The caregiver had to call the police to come pick her up and take her back home. By the time my Sister arrived on the scene, our Mom was screaming about not wanting to live here, and how nobody in the family wanted her here.

My sister called me one day before I was to arrive to tell me this. She also admitted that she only told me because my BIL told her she really ought to, and advocated for me that I would need this information to adequately care for Mom.

My Sister also told me she had called the doctor yesterday and he had prescribed Seroquel to help Mom sleep better and hopefully alleviate some of her symptoms. So here I am, supposedly taking care of my Mom, who is rapidly declining, and who is taking a new drug that nobody knows yet how it will affect her.

Personally, I think my Sister should have canceled her trip. If she's going to keep Mom at home, she's going to have to sacrifice more of her time and money to do it. At least she should have stayed while Mom is getting used to her new medication. There is no physical way I can chase my Mom down the highway if she should take off again. I pointed this out to my sister and asked her what I should do if it happens, and she said to call 911. I feel that is an inadequate first line of action.

I told my Sister that I feel uncomfortable but that I would still stay with Mom. My Sister does so much to take care of our Mom, and there is very little I can do to help. I also know my Sister really needs some time away with her husband and friends.

So here I am, feeling inadequate and hyper vigilant. I am thanking the Goddess that there is supposed to be a huge rain storm all day tomorrow, because I think it will deter my Mom from going outside. If I can keep her interested in helping me cook and watching TV for just a few days, I will make it through.

Please light a candle for us and/or send us your good thoughts and wishes. Thanks Peeps.

Take care of you Georgia...
 

Following along with nhplowboi response: Ms Georgia, The path you are traveling with your Mom is not and will not be an easy one. Your sister's path with your Mom is not and will not be an easy one either. Each of you have a unique love for your Mom. Both of your journeys are/will take different directions both for the love and care of your Mom.

Enjoy these personal moments Georgia!

Ks-

Feeling relieved, accomplished and lucky. Relieved because nothing of particular note happened while I was staying with my Mom. Accomplished because I hung in there and made it through with compassion and kept my cool. Lucky because folks have been so supportive. Thanks for all your kind words; you really helped me get through.

Like life is worth living. It helps that I'm no longer on antideppressants. I'm not against medication it's just if they're going to insist on giving me drugs I wish they'd give me real ones.

Numb
 

I'm feeling Numb
I found out 4 weeks ago my mother passed away,early july.
I don't know the date
my sister lives 10 mins from Mum
It has always been drama as both are narcisists,as my mother aged though,she had become much easier
She contacted me in 2018,to give me money and reconnect and write a new will,with both my sister and myself,co execetors
I begged her to not tell my sister,we had reconected
Well yeah she did and it all started again,by mid 2019,I was over it and discontinued contact.
I did try my best to keep track of Mum,but TBH,it seemed less stressful for her if I was not around.

Well Well
Mon I found out Mum had $100,000 in 2 accounts
and my sister has emptied both,one def after death
without probate.

So now it Continues
My sister BTW is worth millions BUT mainly coz of her husband

So I found a lawyer and he is assesing,if the case is winable and fraud charges laid against my sister

seriously
my life has been one gigantic soap opera

For me I'm like

Well I didnt even know Mum had that much dough

So if I get some
cool

if not
You can't miss what you don't have

N why are wealthy people such misery guts n mean

My approach is
live simply n simply live

Feeling sad and tired. This is just the result of spending so much time driving and visiting with my Mom. I'll sleep for a few days and do as little as possible and then I'll feel better.

Better than I expected. Got the left knee replaced today. Everything went well.

I’m in the hospital for one night and should go home tomorrow.

They gave me a nerve blocker, and I can feel no pain. It should wear off sometime this evening. I’ve been up walking around and I even went up and down four steps, of course with help from the physical therapist. Things are going well.

Looking forward to getting the other knee replaced in April.

Lucky me.

:bow:

I'm feeling mostly okay, but a little unsettled. The day was beautiful; sunny and warm. I had an errand to run and there was a parking space right in front and no line inside. But my nose is a little out of joint because a few things haven't gone my way; I just need to get over them. My doggo has been a little love, and she keeps me on the happy side.