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86F not a breeze humid as all get out. I would like to emerge if possible. Gets depressing unable to go out and about but the park would be intollerable right now. Go shopping, get food, come back. All in air conditioning. Not hot for some folks but killer to cold living folks.
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Most of the time I just stay in the A/C, but today I have to go out: dr. appt., oil change and emissions test. It's supposed to get up to 91*F, which is bad enough, but it's also supposed to rain off and on. High humidity, bad hair day. Oh, and I also have to change my tag. That's just a screwdriver and two bolts, but it might be what does me in.
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Feeling a bit overwhelmed. I'm quite involved in taking care of my elderly parents, mostly my father. Mom is still a spitfire but is nearing 80. My father broke his hip last week, just fell getting up out of his chair. Surgery was successful and today we move him to rehab. I don't see him recovering to a point where he can go home. It's a lot of navigating his health care, insurance, finances, and my mother's emotional load around it all. We will need to sell their house no matter what. She can't keep up with it alone and he can't get around in it anymore. My full time job is at a high with multiple stresses. And it's hot AF.
On the upside, over the winter, I signed up for an adult rowing team and that starts tonight. I'm committed to keeping that self care piece - 4 hours a week. The class tonight is on land teaching the team how to carry boats and other instructions. Then on Thursday evening we hit the river. I'm really looking forward to that. |
feeling a little elated, (which good feelings are far and few these days)
I was sent to another location to help with inventory. In fact my third one in two months. They must like me! Lol Anyway, I met a cute woman. We had a few conversations during our 3 day stint. I think my gaydar was working, but this is not my norm. I gave her my phone number, under the pretense of a work thing. She smiled and thanked me. And I said...I hope our paths cross again. She said, I hope so! Sounds promising and maybe, just maybe, I'll hear from her. |
I’m feeling zapped of Energy. I had Covid and most of the symptoms are all gone and I’m no longer contagious, but it feels like I’m waking up from a long long sleep. Foggy and dizzy and weak. Earlier today I decided that I would walk around my garden just to see it again. I haven’t been out there since this started. I leaned over to grab a vine and I don’t know if I passed out or what, but I ended up face-planting myself in the middle of a grove of nasturtiums. It took me a while to get out.
so I guess I’m not going outside again for a while |
I'm feeling some relief from emotional weight. There have been a number of unresolved matters that are out of my control but weigh on me heavily and they are starting to come together.
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Relived. My three 12 hour days are behind me. At the end of the week, I will have worked 51 hours. Wow!
My feet and legs are saying, thank you for the 8 hours today. *sigh* I'll get a full 8 hours of sleep. Yay! |
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Thankful. ..
That I met a dear friend a little more than 14 years ago and where our journey has developed. That I moved to the Carolinas many years ago because I've met some amazing people and gotten to travel to some incredibly beautiful places. Thankful that when I was facing soul crushing grief last year, a dear friend never let me down...then stood beside me again this year when I tried to correct some stupid decisions. Thankful I have a home that allows me to go help close friends.. then how safe that home feels to return to. Thankful for security, common sense and quiet, cool nights. Thankful for a certain kind of pain that taught me lessons. Thankful for kindness and gentleness. Thankful for compassion. Thankful that the news I received from a doctor recently wasn't near as bad as it could have been. |
Tired as Hell.
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I’m pretty excited.
I now work for Yale health care. This requires me to make the trip to New Haven (tomorrow actually) to sign in with security and get a spiffy badge. I’ve decided to make a day of it. Yale has an amazing science museum that I’m going to peruse. Then a coffee shop and hopefully a bookstore followed by a brewery. I feel a bit nerdy with my itinerary…..but when at Yale…. 😃 And I can officially start saying I went to Yale lol |
Tupperware files bankruptcy-
https://www.npr.org/2024/09/18/nx-s1...are-bankruptcy
My Mom was a Tupperware believer- I inherited hers and cherish mine- So many bowls with out lids - RIP roof less containers :( Ks- |
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I really need a couple of new cereal containers. I better order them soon! I also inherited Tupperware pieces, some originally from my grandmother. They are that opaque white non-color, and some even have the Tupper "seal" on the lid. They're still hanging in there. I think I might have some of your lids, ks. Somehow I lose bowls but not the lids. |
I am feeling $384 poorer. The AC unit was fixed today, and I actually feel like I got lucky; the repair technician didn't have the part I needed, so he actually altered a universal part to fit my system. It took him like an hour. And, not once did he try to tell me it was time to get rid of my AC unit and buy a new one.
I realize $384 is almost nothing these days to have a service tech come to your house to fix anything. I don't think it's even possible to get any kind of car repair for under $400. Still - I wanted that $384 for something else. Oh well. And thankfully I am COOOOOOOOL again! |
Bored, angry, frustrated, scared, lonely, worried, etc.
I have a thing going on with my left eye. I have a hole in my macula. That means I’m off work for a while. I’m worried about my vision. My partial disability from work hasn’t kicked in and my bills are piling up. I’m tired of being home! I’m so frustrated that I can’t be productive! I’m angry that the doctors aren’t turning the paperwork in on time. I used to yearn to have extra days off. And now I don’t know what to do with myself |
Right now I'm feeling 1000% percent better than I have the last 3 days.
Let me tell you, the girl, Hurricane Helene, did not come to play. It was hard to watch it form and see the projected path. I was feeling pretty lucky that we hadn't even come close to any other storm. That thing just exploded and grew to be ginormous I had a few days to prepare, and two 12 hour shifts in there as well. (I do need sleep in-between, lol)Monday was the preparation. Come Thursday, forecasted paths and time tables. Ok, great, it will be tropical storm for me. That first band that came thru, extreme thunder and lightning. Ok, it got real. Work on Tuesday, Wed and Thursday was really busy. I tried not to watch weather reports, but talking with customers brought out storm anxiety. We closed early last night. It was getting closer! My car was shaking from the wind gusts as I drove home. I got home and turned on classic rock on the radio, and turned up the volume. No need to hear every wind gust. Lol As the storm approached , it was running parallel to my coast. The wind getting louder and the rain pounding, very stressful. Anxious for it to hurry and pass. The eye of the storm was over a hundred miles away, yet there was going to be tidal surge. The water didn't effect me, it was the hurricane wind gusts that freaked me out. I never lost power! Yay to having A/C to sleep with. As soon as that eye passed, oh probably like 20 miles north, everything changed. Oh so much calmer, for sure. Back to work today, and facing customers with them dealing with the aftermath. Our coast took a beating, for sure!! Now I am at home and have tomorrow off. I'm hoping to have a great night sleep. And after eating chocolate ice cream, life is good right now!! Feeling relaxed... |
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