It's been 2 years and 8 months and I still want one.

It seems to be worse on vacation. Kind of like since we are doing something special we should be "allowed" to smoke. Since we are away and on vacation it shouldn't "count" or something. We should be given a reprieve from the addiction part of it/hell that will ensue if I pick up again, and just enjoy the cigarette, without consequence. So odd. Magical thinking.

Anyway, it happened this past week when we were away at the beach. I said to tantalizing...."lets buy cigarettes!" (she quit when I did). Of course we didn't, but....

My point is, for me it never changes. If I could "get away with it" (meaning, if smoking didn't cause health problems"), I'd be the first in line!

i have an addictive personality. cigarettes, i am totally addicted. it has been a month since i've had one. june 4th, quit date.

the very sad part is it took a heart attack to get me to quit. and a triple bypass (june 5th). i am only 45. but, i'm doing well.

it's been hard. the depression. trying to forgive myself for the heart attack. my family history is heavy with heart disease, but smoking played a bigger part.

i'll always want a cigarette, surely i will lol. but waking up in icu, ... all the pain, being on a ventilator, etc. ... i'll never smoke again. i'll never put another in my mouth. i won't go there.

i hope all of you quit forever. i give you love and support.

HA! Way to go on not getting them...And even better, WAY TO GO ON THE HONESTY PART...smiles

I so want one still that is no lie...Just is easier to say no.
And I as well look at the health issues now. TIMES TO SHORT!.

lady pamela, i understand exactly what you are feeling. thank you for the reply.

i need to write all these feelings down, sort it all out. i just want to stay away from the pity pool. keep going forward.

my niece and nephew, ... seeing me go through the surgery was emotionally difficult for them. i hope my living helps them. i'd like to say that i quit smoking for those that i love. but i don't think that i did. for now, i just remember the fear.

thank you.

5 months is wonderful news!
 

Good for you LP!! I hope you are daily able to give yourself kudos for your accomplishment. It is no small feat to put that friggin pack down and leave it, (hopefully soaking in water....LOL) not just by determination...but by your WILL that carries your own personal reasons for quitting.......sometimes it is not an option to regress. Imagine the strength you invoke to maintain your choice.

As well this applies to all of "the quitters" here.....continued success and to those who are still struggling to begin, never give up if it is what you desire.

I am 7%
 

Today I am celebrating my One year smoke free anniversary today. I am loving it! Freedom!!!!!!!!!!

I am 7% :happyjump:


Statistics tell us that approximately 5 to 7 percent of those people who quit smoking without support are still smoke-free one year later. The key to changing those odds involves support. People who quit smoking with a strong support network around them improve their chances for long-term success considerably.
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Congrats Doll! :thumbsup:

I celebrated 1.5 years on June 5th! I quit without support, as in cold turkey.

I just had a QuitNet Anniversary email pop up!

It has been exactly one year since I quit forever! :)

I'm so proud of me.

I started quitting in 2006...usually at the prompting of someone else...and even though I would quit with the best intentions, subconsciously I knew it wasn't forever.

Last spring I went to my doctor to start a course of anti-depressants for the first time, I finally admitted I couldn't pull myself up and out of it on my own this time. It was the best thing I could have done for myself. It took awhile to find the right medication but when I did so much fell in to place, I had the energy and the desire to get up and out and do things. And I had the personal, internal motivation to start making more changes in my life. I decided to start the C25k running program and I decided to start quitting -for good, for me. The two activities went nicely together because as it happens: I can't smoke AND run. After nearly 2-decades of smoking it was physically impossible for me to carry on smoking and have the lung capacity needed to run for more than a minute. Coincidentally the medication I ended up taking for depression, Welbutrin, has also had clinical success helping with smoking cessation.

It was a perfect storm, in a great way.

And I am so happy for having quit.
And I know this time it is forever.

Way awesome for you!
I am so excited for you.
Congrats!!!

I won't be back from work untill way late tomorrow and leave at 5 am,
so I had to post tonight...

I AM OFFICIALLY 1/2 A YEAR...OR...6 MONTHS...OR ..182 DAYS..

SMOKE FREE TODAY!!!!

WAHOO!!!!!


Keep up the good work everyone!!
What an amazing feeling.

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how wonderful for you !
 

For me to say great job is not quite enough LP.......I am proud of you ! And very much so proud of all the quitters in this thread ! It ain't easy fo' sure. But it is a wonderful thing ! :)

My smoking story...smoked for 25 years...quit in Feb of 2009 by choice. Had a heart attack June, 2009. Remained smoke free until October of 2010. Worst relationship break up of my life up to that point. Drove right to the gas station, bought smokes. Lousy excuse....here I sit...puffing away....quit for 3 days last week, was a wreck...tears...thoughts of feeling like I lost something...bought "just a pack for the weekend"...yea right...why can't I find the place in my mind where I know it's what I HAVE to do...and be ok with it....the expense is outrageous...$19.16 for 2 packs...I AM crazy...I must stop...have tried all the "helpers" nothing has worked so far...sigh...please.... I need to be strong, mind over matter...willpower...blah. Absolutely THE biggest struggle of my life right now....help.

3 months!
 

I hit the three month mark. I still want them on stressful days.

Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Just try. To err is human.

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Three months is hugeeee!!!
Congrats to you!!

I will say this, when you want a smoke..come read this thread, talk to someone, detour yourself for a minute.

Remember a niccotine fit only lasts 5 minutes in whole. Unless you have them back to back.

Find something constructive to do for that 5 minutes and your mind will change.

Also it charges you and makes you so much stronger for the next one....smiles

Keep up the great work!
So proud of you!!

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