Numb...Exhausted...My Father is at the ER and it is loaded with others too. My sister came home briefly to pick up food for my Mother and take it to her because she did not eat dinner before the ambulance came. Dad has a fever (greater than 101) and is being given Tylenol and antibiotic by IV. His lower abdomen is distended so they took both chest and abdominal X-rays. He is in and out of alertness. They did get a urine catch and took many vials of blood. They are saying infection somewhere in his body and possible heart and/or kidney failure. I know I have posted of his ups and downs in health before...this last week has left me without words because the dentist's office girl who answered the phone broke down in tears when I told her of his declining health and the fact that he would need to miss an appointment...the doctor's office (the only one I have EVER heard say this to me) asked what they could do to help, and another person told me that she wished there were more people like my parents because if there were then the world would be a much better place. I know in the event of their passing that their wishes are to have no newspaper articles, no services, nothing except a small immediate family viewing before they are cremated and buried. It feels like such a small tribute to the changes they have invoked with people they have come into contact with including the family. I know my thoughts are all over the place here but I have devoted the last 11 years of my life caring for my parents and regret nothing other than wanting more time with them. What do I feel? Scared because I don't know how to live without them.....

Like time differences are really stupid...

Sore
Tired

I had extensive dental work done earlier today and I am hurting.

Amazingly happy and excited for the rest of my weekend mini early bday vacation.

So happy... and getting happier.

Like I need a weekend.

amazing, actually...

Well,she is looking at me kind of weird right now...i'm feeling confused...:sorry:

See if that helps...ummm,nope...ooh boy..

Irritable...

I'm isolating myself a little so others don't have to suffer from it.

Absolutely amazing!

Tired but feelin' good. Just rolled into work to do my time card and finish up a few things then I'm off for four days.

I've done pretty good during this mad rush at work. Didn't make any enemies, haven't eaten too many bad foods, and haven't gained any weight. Pretty much kept my sleep scheudule, though my behind is draggin'. Will get lots and lots of sleep over the next few days and watch some old movies.

Things could be worse for me.

Bright.
Amused from dinner time conversations.
Comfortable.
Content.
Busy.
Happy daydreaming.

very optimistic.

For some reason i'm feeling really good!!

I didn't know that it could get any better...:hk19:

naively and stupidly optimistic....it's really the only sane option.

Tried! I am so tired feeling tried! If I still feel this way on monday I'm going to make a doctor's appt. *blah*