Better you than me:goodluck:

My girl will be here late Tuesday, for 24 days! So excited, so happy, so BLESSED!

i had so much fun last night! i didnt expect to and i really didnt even want to go at first but things were so relaxed and the conversation was so interesting and the event i attended was more amazing than i expected it to be! i wanted it all to last forever! now that it's over i cant stop thinking about how i felt and what was talked about and what happened at each interval that made it feel so good to experience!

i dont know when i forgot how to have fun. i'm thinking i've been a real drag to anyone who hung out with me in the last year or two. or G*d forbid more than that! i should send out letters that said "sorry i was a buzzkill and i hope i didnt negatively impact your life because i was so wrapped up in being this version of myself."

i've gotten really serious in the last 5 years or so. ive forgotten what it's like to have a sense of humor or to relax or to not worry about everything. i dont know how to not jump up to take care of things when people need something or to try to fix whatever isnt going right so that no one has to find a solution themselves or just cope and ride out the storm. i dont mean that in a ego focused way that really means "i'm so much better than you and i have to take care of all of this because i dont trust you to be capable". i'm not interested in being a controlling pseudo martyr who thinks she's got to take care of everything and everyone but maybe i've been acting like it and i dont know it or wont acknowledge it to myself. actually come to think of it maybe i have been acting like that. i honestly dont think that other people arent capable. but i do get caught up in thinking that if i dont do it then it wont get done. :deepthoughts: if i'm doing that kind of thing then it means i've turned into my mother and that's just not ok with me. i think i really do owe some apologies. but how do you apologize for forgetting how to just relax and be yourself?

I am so dirty from working outside most of the day.

This is what is on my mind ... a shower, clean clothes and ... (bandroll please) ... the FOUR watermelons I will buy at Sam's Club shortly. I am not a total pig. I am taking one to my training instructor tomorrow. He is from Connecticut. Starting another two week training session in the morning. I have it 8:00 a.m. until noon. My supervisor is in the afternoon class. I love skill updates but we only had one week off from last training. For me, too fast ... I need additional time to trick more ideas from the previous session.

Why can't the weekend last for a week!!

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I vote sweet for president. She will get us week long weekends.

;)

What the hell did i come in here for? My mind is now...completely not where it is supposed to be. I got a bid and quote i gotta work on anyway...Blah.

What's on my mind?

Ready to space out and commute. Brain needs down time! Me losing syntactical powers.

My best friend is undergoing lengthy, but in the end, really life-changing and happy major surgery in the morning. I wish I could be there with her. She's been a staple in my world since 1991, and though it will be wonderful when it is done, I am on pins and needles. She's having a major breast reduction/augmentation because she is almost disabled because of her current size. My boss is on alert that I will be leaving ASAP tomorrow. She isn't just my friend, but also the caregiver for my adult daughter.

A very painful fibromyalgia flare up.

ON MY WAY, to pick up my girl at the airport!!!!!! HELL TO THE YEAH!!!!!!

ell oh vee eee
 

That a lot of us here on bfp are looking for love and even those lucky buggers who are all loved up are hanging out with mates and that's a kind of love ... So why are we so hard on each other? Why do we judge each other for who we love or how we love?

Call me naive but really, is there that much love that we can throw it away like a piece of plastic, not caring what happens?

I'm going to take my slightly grumpy naive self off and make another cup of coffee, maybe a have biscuit too ...

I'm looking for two books to buy for someone special...

Where the Wild Things Are...
and
Picasso, the Green Tree Frog...

But dang!! Picasso has been out of print for a long time,...the online cost starts at $50 and I've seen it as high as $250... WOW, to think my son got his copy YEARS ago at a Toys For Tots event... good thing he cherished that book!

Time to call my best "bookworm" friend...
I can't wait till a certain someone sees that we found an old copy of Where the Wild Things Are... I bet Ms. Bookworm finds it for me!

I will hit the lottery tomorrow ...
I will hit the lottery
I WILL HIT THE LOTTERY ... :praying:
I will hit the powerball..

After I do, Mountain Edge Reality here I come ....
after we process closing .. I'll ship my work laptop and files back to the office, after I change the screen saver to a scrolling, flashing "I quit"... ...

Hitting the lottery will be a nice cure for burnout