The "Old Fart" and how much he'll fuss at eating hospital food.. I'd be very happy to hear him fuss because he's here and able to...(if that makes sense?)

A dear friend's good news and how happy it makes me...

A different dear friend's offer because of their compassion and respect...Hopefully, I won't have to take them up on their offer, but their compassion means the world...

My car... and how it acted like my wheels were going to fall off today on the highway when I use the breaks... oh please wait another month...

The estimate I got from the accident and the waiting game on the rest of the news...

The court date...mercy please, mercy...

My job...yeah, really...mercy

Having to rob Peter to pay Paul...and pay George, Freddy, Jake, Murray, Doug, Bruce and Uncle Sam...

Ohhh...and I woke up this morning stressing out about "what am I gonna do this winter when snow hits? I've got a long drive to work now...and roads SUCK here in the winter!" (this stress comes from panic attacks since the car accident last Friday)

Then on my mind is how the current landlady was very manic tonight and how she "pounced" to tell me about how ALL of her cats, kittens and two dogs have fleas since her one dog brought them in...how she wants to use Borax on all the carpets and them some kind of poison spray ...and how she bought my dog some kind of oral medication that I've never heard of..and her response when I told her my dog wouldn't be coming back here (but didn't have the energy to tell her it's because of her and her animals)... I have no patience right now.

I enjoyed dinner these past two nights with a friend and their roommates... and how the 9 year old son of one roommate told me tonight he was happy I came back...

How much things have changed and how I have changed for the better. Seems like every week I continue to smile just a little bit more. Still wishing wishing on stars. Hoping the committee of wish granters get to mine soon!

Dark, scary thoughts. I feel impulsive & like I'm going to make another million mistakes and have everything come crashing in on me completely. I want to smile, I want to blush. I don't want to be selfish but I just want a chance to prove how much I've grown. My thoughts aren't important anyway just rambling. I know everything will be okay. I just like the idea of having my company back *nodnods* I haven't felt this lonely in a long time. I'm not looking for anything. I just needed to get it out. I don't even know if I should be doing it here. Maybe I'll regret it. Most people wish for three little words, right now there's 2 that would be the most comfort this gurrl could wish for.

all those that I miss.

Yes, my dad....but now I get a call from one of my docs today.....more tests for me....we already did this....dammit......

I think I learned something new about liability insurance....if it's true, I'll be able to sleep tonight.

I miss my puppies.

I'm tired.

If all goes well, after the middle of next week, I will be in my own new place...keeping fingers crossed... a beautiful one level duplex with a HUGE deck and a HUGE yard and a heat pump instead of propane, gas or oil... it's not my farm house, but it's nice and quiet. A peaceful place to be thankful for after my daily-city-traffic-panic-attack.

She is.
Definately.
Heavy on my mind.

The memory foam calling my name! It is time for bed I think!

Oriented vs Orientated
 

Apparently, neither is incorrect. So why does "orien-TAT-ed" sound to my ears like nails on a chalkboard? Seriously - drives me nuts!

On my mind...
 

Stupid auto body shops.
Moving and all I have to do in the next two days.
Should I visit my dad on the way.
Should I drive North to see my grandbaby before I drive South West to my new home, this would add a day to my trip.
Are my hips and my knee going to make the 12 hour drive.
Will I find a job once I get there.

mind
 

a friend.

Greco

just want things done so I can get on the road

Conversations.
Repairs.
Ideas.
Thoughts.
Numbers.