I'm right there with you. I don't think it's negative Nelly. I think it's realizing, at some point that you derserve things you want. And that's ok.

I feel like I've been waiting for a million years for things. I'm tired of waiting. Sometimes I just want to put me first for a change. And that's uncomfortable because it's so opposite of what my life really is. But geez....i'm 44 and think it's about damn time. You know?

Try not to feel disappointed and defeated. Go get what you want. Make it happen. Says the pot to your kettle. LOL!!!

Blessings
 

Last night Dilly and I snuggled up in our bed talking into the odd hours of the morning. We talk of our blessings, and we realize that we have them because of each other. We also realize that we wouldn't enjoy that as much if we didn't have each other. I felt so loved and blessed last night I had to fight crying, and only because crying gives me a headache lol.

I want to share my many blessings with all those in need or not, so my prayers are said and traveling out there in the universe to be spread as much as possible.

I DO know....there always seems to be something else that takes precedence....something always just pops up.....and throws my wants and dreams off kilter...I think I'm feeling this way because I'm going to be 40 in a few weeks. I'm doing the taking stock of my life thing.... I feel like a great deal of my life has passed me by....I'm ready to start living.... I don't want to get so jaded that I don't look forward to anything anymore...and it's getting to that point....sadly....

Thank you for listening and understanding :) <3

Naughty or Nice
 

a million and one things...

silly accented movie lines...

what a difference communication makes...

the future...

my mind is almost to heavy to carry around.

Now thinking about deer jumping over my car and one going through a windshield and glass on my eyelids and face. By the grace of God or some gaurdian angel...i got really tired and leaned back and closed my eyes...just minutes before impact. I was in the passenger seat obviously. I had glass in my mouth and on my tongue...my friend freaked when i didn't answer him right away..How the hell could I?

Thinking of how honored i was and am that Spotted Elk insisted i go to and take part in the sweat. Would really enjoy doing that Today...or again.
A moment and experience i will never forget. Or the quiet of the river and its
serenity that day. God Bless You Spotted Elk.

the battle of wounded knee

I want goldfish.

Christmas Presents!! (Yes, my shopping has begun!)

Vacation next week....oh how I look forward to thee vacation!:pirate-steer:

Being approached with randomness today from someone, well random, and snapping my thoughts back to reality... and a promise I made... but also dreams I've had... with goals I have... and determination to achieve them.

It's a whirlwind of thoughts right now... :sigh: