Can't wait...
 

Motorcycle season...getting a new spiked leather...buying a new set of cream-colored buckskin chaps, corsetted vest and cowboy boots.

The school work I need to get accomplished.

All the what I so lovingly call "red tape" phone calls I need to make. :cigar2:

How ironic that it is that my bio-family is all of a sudden haunting me with texts for my help and support. :jester:

Friends old and new with the ability to get closer to them.

How hungry I am....

How much I do not like her new work rules that prevent the random texts through out the day but how proud I am of her for following those rules and not getting in trouble. Since I know it is hard on her too. :rrose:

Decisions always more decisions that need to be made.

The pain level I am in and how much I miss the medication that at least made it bearable on some days.

Did I say the school work I need to get accomplished but am avoiding right now :blink:

Reaching out to a friend in need and wishing I could cross the miles to give them the biggest hug in the world (f)

Everything will be alright. I'm here to listen and help in any way I can.

What Is On My Mind........
 

I am watching all the Presidential Inauguration coverage. I am thinking of the President's speech and what the next four years may hold. Today, once again I felt hope. To hear the words Stonewall, Gay and Lesbian spoken from the President's lips before the world, well I have lived to see history being made.

It's the ebb and flow of good & bad...
 

Listening to the Red Hot Chili Peppers' "Under The Bridge"...thinking of home.

Being a parent is whats on my mind.

Its one of the most wonderful and most challenging experiences in my life. I cherish and value my children and their well being above anything else in this world. But there are days that my challenges with my son make me so sad. Its so hard to understand why things are the way they are for him. So hard to come to terms with the facts. That he will never been like other kids. He will always struggle to have friends. He will never quite understand the social constructs of the world around him. He will always fight against the rules...

As a mom its so hard to know I have to have locks and alarms on the doors and cabinets in my house. That I must run my house like a school with unbendable rules and expectations. That sometimes I must do things that make him cry.

Today I have to take away all of his toys. Clean his room of everything he enjoys, and then allow him to slowly earn back the things he loves. He made enough bad choices in a row to require this extreme punishment and it hurts my heart.

This is what is on my mind right now.

I am sick. My temp is high. I feel like someone ran over me with a truck. I am wondering who in my area delivers soup.

I hope you feel better soon! I know when I am sick I usually opt for soup delivery from the local Chinese restaurant. My comfort soup is wanton soup. Will be sending lots of positive energy your way!

I'm worried.
I have a lot of thoughts roaming around.
I'm absolutely lost.

However, I did just finish a test. 5 more to go.....

I think I'm hungry.
There is a particular someone that I wish were here to talk to me. Especially since she signs. I really don't feel like speaking today.

Friends and all of this energy that I magically have today.

((((( breezy ))))) soo sry u r sick .

on my mind is . I have very strong instincts . when will I learn not to defy them.

Here is how the e-mail exchange went....

Me: I wish you were here. I need to talk to you. I really need someone who signs right now.

A few hours later....

Her: Skype!!!!! Text me!!!! I'll turn it on
Me: Wow.... we are geniuses..... :|

There have been several, several times since we met that we've needed to talk to the other and not thought of Skype until now.

Sometimes, it's funny how the most obvious answer is the one right in front of you.

That seems to be happening a lot to me lately.