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Anatomy test on Wednesday...... good grief :(

i had a MRI done today at least i think thats what it was called they tried to find a vein 4 different times made me drink this stuff.being told the stuff could give you the trots..
guess who has a toilet that don't work so good
yes i have plunged it a bunch of times..
FML! oh im out of TP as well
thank goodness for baby wipes
YUP its Monday:blink:

My day, catching up and moving forward. I need to eat something to settle my nerves.

What is on your mind?

How yummy this guacamole is...:blink:

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Originally Posted by dixie (Post 737069)

Compatibility and desire....and how exactly those will play into my next romantic venture....if and when the next occurs. I usually deny myself one or the other, for one reason or another. Not again. I have no plans on "settling". I know what I want. I will settle for no less.

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Originally Posted by Kenna (Post 737154)

is there really such a thing as peace of mind?

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Originally Posted by dixie (Post 737722)

Have you ever had a day when you just wanted to get away? Not just a mini-break or vacation...away from all that you are? I have those from time to time. Today is one of them. I'd like to step out of myself, out of my life. Just be someone else, or even better, no one...just for a little while. Almost a sort of mental holiday, I would say. Just...a break. No worries, no fears, no longings, no desires. Nothing negative, just neutral. Just for a short time......

I don't have these days much anymore. Once in a long while, in a blue moon. Yet today I'm having one.

Maybe it's just me.

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Originally Posted by Uniqueswtfemm (Post 737822)

Om my mind..

Waiting for the other shoe to drop.

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Originally Posted by IslandScout (Post 737829)

On my mind...

thinking about the frozen-in-time aspect of online communities. Love is documented in all its phases, from discovery to disentangling. Arguments can be revisited, jokes relived.

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Originally Posted by KCBUTCH (Post 738103)

keep on keeping on doll-"YOUR" journey only needs to be your own. let your truth guide you, once you set the intention the universe will do the rest, just keep doing what you do. you are a blessing

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Originally Posted by DamonK (Post 738226)

Plans slowly coming together. A little more one day at a time. Cautious excitement building as a result. And dreams.

All of these above quotes have something that strikes a chord for me with recent experiences I've had and/or am going through right now.

I feel that I am on a new road. One free and clear of mental and emotional debris and one that lacks roadblocks and hazards. I believe that the past couple of months especially, though difficult, have shown me what I need to see to move past shadows and darkness and into the proverbial light.

I see truths that were not evident to me previously and, though it's not ideal, I can work with what has been given to me. I'm stronger than I gave myself credit for and I can move beyond these temporary setbacks to gain greater insight into myself as well as those around me.

This too shall pass. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Insert your cliche of preference here.

I'm 'that' sort. The sort to wait for Unique's same shoe. But maybe it doesn't have to fall. Maybe it's fine where it is, wherever that may be. Maybe I don't even need that damn shoe. Maybe barefoot is the way to go.

The past few days have allowed me the chance to step outside of myself. Outside of limitations placed on me, both by others and myself. I dropped into a world of possibilities and I'm hopeful.

Like dixie, I won't settle. Not this time. Big girl panties are fully engaged and ready for pulling, should the need arise. But I don't think so. I think we'll be fine. This feels fine. This feels good.

I don't want to follow old patterns and behaviors and don't feel as if I am. At least not internally. So, what's different? What makes THIS situation different than previous ones? Me? Them? Both?

I can breathe. Fear is minimized. Obstacles dealt with openly and honestly. Maybes and what ifs have made their way into the recesses of my crotchety old brain. Could bes and why nots have followed.

For the first time in a while, I feel free. Freedom is the greatest gift one can give to another and I feel very rich right now.

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Originally Posted by Cowboi (Post 738355)

Today is my Momma's Birthday. She would have been 91. She has been gone from this world for almost 20 years come this March. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I have never gotten over it.

I love you Momma........
Your Tomboy

My mom's birthday was the 24th. Maybe they're sharing a cake. :)

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Originally Posted by dixie (Post 739137)

I am so tired. I could say I don't sleep good, but at this point I pretty much don't sleep at all. I toss and turn and flop around so bad that pretty much everything on the bed ends up on the floor, including the bottom sheet. Restless shit. I'm TIRED of being TIRED.

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Originally Posted by kittygrrl (Post 739145)

how about some hot chocolate? turkey? chocolate cupcake (this works for me:vigil:)??

Warm soymilk?

Grilled Marinated steak and chili- but cooking it for someone who may need a rest after working too long a day. :canadian: and I'd bring some chocolate just in case :chocolate:

On my mind huh...?

The many deep and loving conversations my Spritz and I had this past weekend about our future life together.

Knowing that some things have to be properly timed. I really want to start the Braille course but appreciating that this will have to wait till fall. Preparing for and settling into our family life ii of top priority.

Talking to current and past landlords for further options.

How desperately I want to sleep. Maybe a cat nap is in order.

What is on my mind ? Sleep, this new job, little projects I have been working on, special little gifts and the energy that I feel from floating.

Everything...very long day and now I can't sleep when I really should be. Time to count some sheep I suppose

wondering if this cold is trying to kill me. Thankfully I am on prednisone and antibiotics. Too bad I can't take my cough medicine with codiene at work. Well I could but then I would fall asleep. Not good. Lol.

Conversations that were necessary, painful, heartfelt, truthful. Did I mention painful? Honesty is always the best policy. Always. Even when painful.

Other thoughts running through my head.

The 2800 claims I should have done by Thursday but won't.

Hoping they really are getting me help to work those claims.

Friendships I have let go silent out of fear of rejection.

Coworkers who have been so kind to me lately, one of which has become a good friend.

How much I missed my pups and was so glad to see them.

I have such a weird issue. I think I've finally started "tasting" foods. I smoked a hella lot for about 15 years (close to 2 packs a day OR more). Also, I drank NOTHING but Pepsi. So...for the last few weeks I have had no cigs, no soda of any kind, have been eating healthy foods, and am on vitamins and meds (for Type 2 diabetes and was also on Chantix and blood pressure meds but off of those 2 now).

Here is the issue.....I've always loved spicy and bold foods. Now, even bland foods are seeming to be "too much". I freakin love tacos and spicy chili. I literally can not eat either. Not only are these spicy/bold foods bothering my taste buds, but most all foods that I eat do not taste "right" to me.

I can't figure out what the heck is causing it! Is it the lack of smoking and acidic soda? Is it the meds? Or did my taste buds just choose an odd time to do a complete change??

What's up with that???? LOL

What is on my mind...??

Crap that just churns my butter...

And the shit of it all is that it's not even me and the issues I use to have with the whole thing anymore but now it's more a matter of concern and sympathy for someone who has been casted a part but not yet ready to make a debute in this play we call "life."

Yeh, I'm sure the person exists, just not added into the grand scheme of things at this time. So, I contemplate the idea of, can one really feel sorry for another they have not even met and possibly never will meet but wonders what lies ahead for them?

Yeh I'm tired and needing my sleep before my midnight shift... Here's where I would be referred to as "cryptic." :sigh: Peace to you unknown soul... You have my best wishes waiting for you when you enter stage left. :praying:

Hoping the HABS don't give up any more goals to Winnipeg :hockey::canada:

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Originally Posted by dixie (Post 739892)

You taste buds will adjust

Co-interpreters taking advantage of my professionalism. They know I am always early, so they take the opportunity to be 10-15 late, walk in and disrupt the professor who is in the process of lecturing. This happens often, and it really fucking pisses me off. What is so hard about showing up in time! The worst part is the interpreter offender is a femme friend, so she knows I won't call her out to the agency who hires us. I am going to have to bring it up to her, because it is really bugging me. I made a commitment to honor my "inner goddess" and start pleasing myself, instead of pleasing other people. This is one of those times I need to speak out.

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Originally Posted by dixie (Post 739892)

You've got multiple whammies, possibly.

Smoking and deadening the taste buds with high sugar drinks (I'm a Coke fiend myself) definitely caused foods to taste different and now that that is gone, you will certainly have an adjustment period.

Also, you are in your early 30s. Between 30-40, folks usually find their taste buds changing.

Then you've got some meds that may or may not be affecting flavors as well. Chances are, your system is hyper sensitive right now. I'd stick with the milder stuff until your taste buds adjust a bit and then work your way up. You just may not be into as spicy stuff as you were before. It could be fun, if you think about it. Kind of like a foodie adventure.

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Originally Posted by Gemme (Post 740062)

I tried Chantix years ago, and it sometimes made food flavors, smells and sounds "too much", like dixie said...Even after I stopped taking it, it took quite some time for those side effects to abate.