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christmas. I want the holidays to be over with.
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Memories....some good, some bad, some happy, some sad....another year almost gone...a new one about to begin...sigh....
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(((((((((((((Ana and Boo))))))))))))) |
Just a lot of different things...
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The Holidays, and the rest of stuff ..sigh
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A sappy Christmas song on the TV.
It's the first Christmas without Dad and each and every sappy Christmas song has me in floods of tears. I feel so stupid. He was hardly the perfect father but he was the only one I had and I miss him so damn much. And now I'm fucking crying again. I hate this. I really and truly hate this. Words |
another orphaned christmas makes me cry.
but, on da high side, i get to cook a christmas meal fo' 18 at work... |
The song plus the story plus the quart of ice cream in front of me lead me to believe that the waterworks I've experienced aren't accidental. But still, they are here and this set them off. |
I am always emotional this time of year. It doesn't take much to make me cry. Today was... feeling lonely, homeless guys in the freezing cold that thanked me for working with the disabled, my dad calling for his yearly memory that he has a daughter and inviting himself and ultra religious wife to my house xmas day.
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#26randomacts - pass the love on.
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---A casserole dish. It was given to me many years ago by my best friend. She lost her life in December 4 years ago of lung cancer. I cherished her. I cherish this dish.
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The appropriate question, for me, would be 'What DIDN'T make you cry today?' I seem to be an emotional mess right now. LOL
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my sick dog
Christmas in a strange place broken promises my own stupidity and naivete smugness and malice people who take pleasure in the pain of others that stupid Sarah McLachlan commercial with the frightened and hurt animals over 300,000 deaths since 2003 due to our conflict in the Middle East over 4 trillion dollars committed to that same conflict impending bankruptcy and student loan default the loss of a cherished memento homelessness reality reality made me cry |
Good tears: A completely unexpected and exceptionally generous and compassionate offer from a new friend, which brought forth a wellspring of emotions from deeply realizing that I am surrounded by love in my life, from new friends and old. It gives me hope at this rough time of year at the end of a brutally rough year, that there is hope of my finding that one special someone that I dream of - and deserve to have in my life.
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~*Prayer*~ Thinking about the healing that I received last night at church...wow... One of the ladies there, signs to music and it is so beautiful...she signed to Silent Night and O Holy Night and I mean to tell you, it was a very powerful anointed moment. I cried like a baby. I thought about Jesus. I know some people don't believe in Him but I do. And I thought about His birth, all the obstacles, how He came to be born on earth and died here too, crucified and resurrected so that I and others like me could be saved and look forward to eternal life. It was this thought of childbirth against huge odds that reminds me of my own children's births, (high risk preganancies, among other things) and how we as mother's bear our babies for our own selfish or loving reasons as the case may be. Then they grow up, and they live their own lives and sometimes they bless us with grandchildren and that whole life cycle continues and keeps bringing more and more love and blessings...it's the gift that keeps on giving...lol And so, this morning, as we get ready to celebrate the birth of my savior Jesus Christ, I'm cleaning and cooking and making everything ready like I used to every year since my children were born, I get to celebrate this holiday with another added little bundle of joy (still in the oven), but here nonetheless. The legacy, the life cycle continues and I am so very blessed. I am now no longer just the mother, but have been granted another title of love--that of Abuelita...Grandmother...Nana. And I pray for everyone of you that you have this (and/or other) insurmountable joy in your lives especially today, but everyday, too, in your lives, and that you recieve the desires of your heart. I just did. Love and many blessings to you all--and Merry Christmas-- Canela |
I woman contacted me to care for her older dog while she went out of the country for 6 months to do something she always wanted to do. I gave her a fair quote and she said it was too much and that she would try and find someone to watch him. He's 9 years old and she's had him all his life. A week goes by and I emailed to just follow up and see if she found someone. She and her vet decided it was best to put him down because if she took him to the pound or in foster care he could spend his life in a kennel and she couldn't bare to do that to him.
I swear if she was standing in front of me I would have assaulted her. |
Tears....so many tears....
4 firefighters were shot this morning here in Rochester...2 have died, one has a shattered spine and pelvis...responding to a fire...the shooter was a convicted felon. He opened fire on all first responders...O.M.G...The fire spread to 7 homes....innocent peoples lives destroyed for no reason at all...I am so incredibly sad.... sad beyond belief, stunned. Families displaced, no home to be safe and warm in....one person is still missing and they are hoping there were no more victims in any of the homes.....please send prayers up if you would.....
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Someone drunk driving on a freeway pulled over, turned around and drove about a mile before slamming head on into another vehicle. Yes, people were killed and children left without their parents and siblings. SAD!
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Watching the magic leave a child's eyes when they were told by their grandmother that there is no santa claus........
(F*ck bio-family. Next year me and my kid party in Vail, Steamboat Springs, Tahoe, etc....anywhere where "family" isn't....) Katniss~~(experiencing the last holiday from hell borne of guilt and obligation) |
Happiness...
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