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If you really knew me...
You would now that I am fascinated with understanding why humans do, think, and/or feel. Everything about how we process, or don't, intrigues me. You would know that I have done a lot of my inner work, but I know this is a never ending task. You would know that I do not take kindly to others dumping their emotional stuff on me. You would know I dislike pity and will not entertain it, either for myself or for others. You would know that I love and respect animals, and have a special closeness and understanding of dogs. You would know that I enjoy cooking possibly more than I enjoy eating. lol You would know that I don't really have any family to speak of, but I rarely feel lonely; I can always find something to do to entertain myself. You would know that I am learning to follow my own advice. :) You would know that, ALWAYS I am a thinker. I am hardly ever without some thought in my head that I am in the midst of processing. |
If You Really Knew Me....
You would know that I am working on getting back to who I used to be, and figuring out what happened and why all that changed to begin with.
You would know that my mind is the most fabulous of playgrounds, but to be careful, there are occasional dark areas. You would know that the dark areas aren't so scary. There's a big part of me that has given in to fear for far too long. My home is my sanctuary. My dad is very, very sick and we can't find the cause. And I am not dealing with that very well. My relationship with my sister is difficult at best. I love animals and rescue far too many. I also rescue far too many people. My home used to have a sign that read "Home for Wayward Lesbians"..well, not literally, but it must have existed somewhere. I love, love, love to laugh. I love to smile. I love to have fun and enjoy life and living. I love the Earth. I love the Universe. I am also a bit of a perv...I love sensuality and sexuality. I love seeing what makes people tick. Or tock. Or both! :) I am the eternal optimist. (I love to talk - but maybe you don't have to know me so well to have gathered that!) :) |
{{{{{{{{{{{Playful}}}}}}}}}}} Hi honey! ltns!! Missed you!
I'm sorry about your Dad; hope they find the answer quickly! |
If you really knew me
You would know that I'm quite shy and that it sometimes comes across as being haughty (but definitely isn't). And, you'd know that I'm a procrastinator extraordinaire (which is exactly what I'm doing at this moment)...
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if you really knew me you would know I am walking thru some fires and am very confused right now and so much more stronger than I have ever been in my entire life, even with all this cycloning around me.
you would know I have never been happier...but am distant and keeping it to myself ...this joy is in the well deep within... |
I am happy to hear that softness.
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IYRKM...
that glitter (fancy cars, big houses, looks, rollex wathces,2x too big for your wrist,.. status, labels etc..)don't impress me. What impresses me is the 'under dog', that makes it against all odds.. the mentally challenged, that make no excuses, and go on about living their life with honor and integrity.. animals impress me, with their wisdom and UNCONDITIONAL love.. You'd also know that, I am cofident, not arrogant. That although I may get lonely from time to time, the thought of living by myself for the rest of my life, does not scare me nor cause me anxiety. That I love my dog's kisses. That I am my brothers and sisters keeper. That the ONLY "fear" I have, is that of God forsaking me (not gonna happen). That I'd love to live in a humble little cabin up in the Mouintains. *..and that I used to be a better speller:blink:* |
If you really knew me ...
You'd know that I am not technically savvy at all.
And that I am more bonded with my hair brush than with my cell phone or any other mechanical thingy majig. You would also know that sometimes I don't know that I have a text or a voicemail for days and when I figure out that I have a text, sometimes I can not read it because I am not sure where my spectacles are. So, in a nutshell you would know that it's best to e-mail or ring me... |
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Hi Sweetness!! How are you honey?? Thanks for the thoughts! I've missed you much!!!! |
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So good to see you posting! I so have missed you! |
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It's amazing to be back! I missed my bf Family!!!! I got a lil too tied up in real life!! I will post much more on weekends, as that is when I have the most time! But, I'll be around!! XO |
If you really knew you'd know :
How much I love watching Millionaire Matchmaker I could eat Mexican Food every day I have to have a Caramel Frappuccino from Starbucks at least 3 xs a week I love sleeping in on Sundays and rainy days I love fireplaces Ive never been on a plane, in a limo or been in a hot tub Im friends with my ex gf's I only drink Dr Pepper in a 20 oz bottle not a can. It goes flat too fast. That goes for a 2 liter bottle too. I dont drink it. I love Coke with ice... I love Sonic Ice |
If you really knew me you'd know, my computer is about as old as I am and I need a new one. You'd also know, I'll just have to make do, cuz a new computer is not in the budget at this time.
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If you really knew me you'd know :
Crowds frighten me Meeting new people in person gives me bad anxiety I cant drive at night long distances When I go to the bar I usually go with a friend and her gf just to people watch I cant approach a femme in person. I have no game lol I become either speechless and when I try to talk it comes out stuttering. Once I know you Im not shy and I can actually make you laugh Im very intuiative... I can read body language and actions over listening to someone's words any day |
If you really knew me you would know that...
I have a two martini limit ...
I'm much too sensitive for my own good ... I love B grade (old black and white) horror flicks ... I'm rather quiet at times but it's not a negative thing ... I believe friendship is the foundation for any kind of relationship (lover or otherwise) ... I am extremely stubborn and a wee bit competitive (okay, more than a wee bit) ... Quite often I display alone behaviour, even when I am not alone ... I have a lipstick fetish ... Just for starters. |
TRUST.... is everything to me!
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If you really knew me you'd know :
I dont give trust to just anyone. You earn it. I always give a benefit of a doubt This year was the first year that I have ever dressed up for Halloween... Im loving my life the older I get I love to laugh and laugh alot I cuss alot when Im mad or frustrated Im very sensitive. I wear my heart on my sleeve Im hella loyal and stand by my friends through anything and everything I miss my mom daily... I miss having a close relationship with my brother. he will never truly accept me being gay. I love kids but dont want any of my own Im highly allergic to cats Im very outspoken and point blank I try and hold it in around people who dont know me. :) Out of respect I love my job and my co workers are alot like family to me Sometimes Im my own worst enemy |
If you really knew me...
You would know that... I am wearing spiderman underoos as we speak (because you are never too old!) I hate receiving roses! I love the smell of rain and can sit and stare at stars for hours. If you really knew me... You would know that ... I am a total science geek and am fascinated by the anatomy and physiology of the human body. My first love is music. I never learned to swim or ride a bike. I swore I was the little mermaid when I was 8 only to later swear I was Baby from Dirty Dancing :) I helped raise my siblings and never had a chance to be a kid myself. If you really knew me... You would know that... I am still getting to know me myself. |
If you really knew me, you would know just how guarded I keep myself. We can move beyond the past, but everything in life leaves its print upon us.
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...you would know that I ask "what are you thinking?" a lot...
AND I actually listen to the answer... I like knowing/learning not only what people think but how they think... It annoys some of my friends, but they eventually get use to it ;) |
you would know I deactivated my facebook account and unfriended everyone on my friend's list. Why? Almost everyone who was on there, is in here. It got to be a fung shei thing for me..unclutter my life. I did not need two places.
This was not to hurt anyone's feelings or to unfriend anyone for real. It was simply to get that social network off of my consciousness. I only went there like 3 times in the past 4 months. So why bother with it? I just want everyone to know, nothing personal... |
If you really knew me...
You would know I'm the very best friend you'll ever make. I'm loyal, honest and I do everything in my power to protect those that I love. If you really knew me... You would know my strength and courage, but you would see how I constantly doubt myself. If you really knew me... You would have met a very, very old and gentle soul :) If you really knew me... You'd know that I have two amazing best friends. They are my world, and I can't imagine it without either one of them. They've seen me through so much, and never abandoned me in any of it. I love them more than I could ever tell either one of them, and I know they love me just as much. But, I'll always push them to prove their love to me even though they have time and time again. And if you REALLY knew me, you would understand why THAT is my biggest fault. If you really knew me... You would know how abrasive, harsh and confrontational I am, but how I'm afraid of all three of those things. If you really knew me... You would be amazed with my ability to love. I do so with every ounce of my being, and it can move mountains. If you really knew me... You would understand what it means to be open-minded. I'll never judge you... whoever you are. If you really knew me... You would know that for the last year I've been watching my mother physically and mentally deteriorate before my eyes while the disease slowly eats away at her, as it kills her family to witness this happening. If you really knew me... You would know that almost three years ago I lost one of my very best friends. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't take a moment and try to connect with his energy... where ever he is... and make sure he knows how much I love him, how much he is missed and the impact he continues to have on my life. If you really knew me... You would know that my heart has been broken. By others and by myself. And that I haven't admitted to myself which one hurts more. Yet. If you really knew me... You would see the changes I've made to better my life. You would know for me this is HUGE. And even though I don't say it or admit it often enough - I really am proud of myself. If you really knew me... You would know that I am my own worst enemy. No one can hurt me, beat me up and punish me like I can. Somewhere along my journey I've convinced myself that it's safer that way. I've been working very hard to undo that, and learn to be nicer to myself. I'm getting better. MUCH better. If you really knew me... You would see my dark place of denial. It's somewhere that I don't visit nearly as often as I used to, but it still is a lovely warm place for me at times. If you really knew me... You would know that my biggest fear is failure. But yet, I've set myself up to fail more times than not. This time, however, failure is not an option. If you really knew me... You would see how quick I am to forgive others, but how long it takes for me to forgive myself. |
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If You *REALLY* Knew Me ... .. you would know why I post songs w/lyrics and always have captions on while watching movies. :blink: ... you know what my woobie actually is and that I have it w/me always, especially while sleeping. ;) ... you know why I have been so completely stressed out lately, but also know things are getting much better and there is a beautiful future ahead for us and why I am so very proud of her!!! :rrose: |
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I LOVE you for it my sweet friend and I love turning that question back to you!!!! It is great to hear the hesitation, then your laugh and then you answer!! :) |
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'll be the first in my immediate family to graduate college
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If you really knew me you'd know I'm a very caring, compassionate, giving person, BUT, don't try to push my buttons.
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If you really knew me
...you'd know I trust only myself, and that I trust myself to handle anything.
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If you really knew me, then you'd buy me stock in water flavoring drink mixes. I go through those things like crazy.
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If you really knew me, you would know I bow to no one, and I never back down when I know I'm right.
If you really knew me, you would know just how much I love my wife and friends, 'cause you would be one of them. If you really knew me, you would know I will always do the right thing, not the most expedient thing. If you knew me, you would know I keep my cards very close to my vest. If you really knew me you would know I'm always on the underdogs side. If you really knew me you would know I'm an independent cuss and follow no one. But you'd have to know me to know these things, so I thought I'd let you all know. |
If you really knew me...
You would know that I genuinely care when I say I do. I talk way more than I should I bite my lower lip when I am that good kind of nervous :) |
If you really knew me...
You'd understand the amount of fear I am feeling, and why there is little reason to believe or have faith that it will get better this time. |
If you really knew me... You would know the following... I still cry watching Where the red fern grows... That when I am hurt or upset I don't always think before I speak... Life has handed me a things that have devastated me and I made the choice to try again and again... I have only a couple close friends... They are truly dear to me... I have learned so much about myself in the last two months that I amaze myself with the amount of resilience and determination I have... That every day I do my best to make it better than the day before... If I stumble I get back up and try again... |
If you really knew me you'd know that the SEC Championship game is on right now and the ACC Championship game is tonight and I wouldn't be very happy if the phone rings or uninvited visitors show up.
You'd also know that no I don't want to come over I don't want to go out to eat All I want to do is watch football |
If you really knew you me you'd know :
How sensitive I am How I always feel like Im ten feet tall and bullet proof How Im so blessed but feel very alone all the time How all my life all Ive ever wanted was a family How that is an oxymoron cause I dont want to raise kids How I have been single for 15 of the 16 total years I have been out How that doesnt bother me. Ive dated all those years enough to know what I want in a partner How I cant settle for anything less than what I deserve How I cant be with someone if there isnt "SPARKS" Its there for me or its not. Its quite simple How I love the little things in a relationship How I put my friends and dates priority in my life making time for them etc, and demand the same. How when I feel anything less than, I talk about it, then when its not addressed correctly then I walk away. How even though I have some self esteem issues over the years Ive gained enough confidence not to be with someone who gives me less than what I need. You'd know how important my faith is to me You'd know how I adore my friends You'd know how much I love my job How truly blessed I am... And even though I have a huge giving loving heart, I can still be a big ol GRINCH at Christmas time How I wish I could meet the perfect femme for me to meet under the mistletoe and wake up to this time of year :) How I have never danced or kissed in the rain and I long too How I love to snuggle How I value trust, honesty, intimacy, laughter in a relationship before sex. How those things make sex soooo much better How I over analyze so much How I can be my own worst enemy by doing things like that How I can predict what happens long before it does How this really screws with me "enjoying the ride" How its really difficult for me to just "LET GO" and enjoy said ride How Im thinking I need a patient femme And how amazing it was to spend the Saturday with the foster mom who raised me for the first half of my life before I was adopted |
If you really knew me....
.... You would know that I put on a show most of the time, hiding how I really feel or whats going on deep down. .... You would know that I am very loyal, but only to those who show the same type of loyalty to me. .... You would know that I sometimes try too hard to make everyone around me happy, and I can loose myself in the process. |
That I am truly a very forgiving person...
I can't hold on to negitive emotions.... They just don't stick.. I have drove people crazy with this tendency.. *I thought you hated them? Oh, that was two days ago... please keep up, I'm over that...* The only exception to this is... Hit my nuke button.. (I believe that everyone has a nuke button) For me... If I mean/meant anything to someone and they treat me like I am everyone else in the world... Then they become everyone else in the world and nothing special to me.. For me.. the word friend is special.. it means family... and if I am not special to you, then you are not special to me... My ex best friend did that to me four years ago and I still haven't called anyone that name... |
If you really knew me you would know that...
I hate e-cards I believe everything happens for a reason I love spicy food I listen better when I'm doing art or moving around or doing some kind of busywork even though the reverse might be assumed (That's just me.) it's after midnight and I'm laying in bed under an electric blanket, with my laptop and hence with my BFP family, and with my grey cat Phoebe purring on one side of me and BB reading an Israeli novel on hys Kindle on the other side of me, and I couldn't be happier |
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