Feeling
 

I feel great! I got good marks from my doctor today. My new knee is cleared for hiking, dancing, and general fun.:cowboy:

I am cracking the hell up after reading this news article ... I cannot be selfish ... this is too good not to share with you! ;)

Police: Florida Woman Attacks Farting Husband


http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/...usaolp00000592

Pardon me....
 

Pardon me while I try and navigate all this newness of the forums, etc.
Just realized you replied to my post Rock On. I too wondered what to expect during the Gong healing and meditation. There was a beautiful wood framed brass symbol approx. 3-4 ft. square that was framed with wood, free floating in the air, held up by an A frame design. A very interesting man, looking a bit like confuscious did this Gong ceremony where-in he had what looked like a drum stick with cotton candy (suppose it has a name) and activated the Gong thereby producing many magical, resonating, soul piercing sounds. It was quite amazing. I'm sure if you search you tube one might be on there.

Worried and a little sad for my next door neighbor, last night the family rushed over and so did a couple ambulances. They are nice brought me a plate of warm brownies as I was unloading and moving in to welcome me to the neighbourhood

Well rested....which is an odd sensation to me now....


I slept so well and had a plethora of dreams....one of which was interesting but too disturbing for the dream thread methinks lol

Pretty pissed off.

The appraisal was done on my new condo last week. Today my loan company contacted me that the appraiser was unable to inspect the shared attic because insulation was falling out. Now there is an access point in the master closet, but the primary access point is outside my condo. Plus there is almost 2 feet of blown-in insulation covering the attic.

So now apparently my entire closing is pending the insulation being removed and the appraiser coming back out to inspect the attic. Oh, and it will cost me another $200.

GRR.

.....used.... played with like a toy.... Like a porcelain doll with no heart or soul....

No... Not with me.... Not this time... No!

Wonderful

but chilly after all these 70's temps waking to the low 40's with a strong wind is chilly lol

Good, well rested, and fortunate.

Tired VERY VERY VERY tired.

Tired and sometimes a little dizzy.

Energized and blessed :rrose:

Thankful and happy for good friends who shared dinner with me tonight- good food and good laughs- fun sideline entertainment with kids.

Sleepy...damn rain...

But also excited....

Things may finally gel the way I need them to tomorrow....

God/goddess willing...

Such a perfect day.... when all of the sudden out of nowhere...Something inexplicable reminded me - flashbacks of the past.... All of the sudden I wanted to run far far away....

I felt like all invaluable air was brutally punched out of my lungs... I couldn't breathe... No panic, no sadness... Lone and heavy, suppressed anger, bitter, liquid and cold poorer out of the corner of my eyes....

Why, why you never protect me? Why... you never.....cared?

I can take care of myself...I can handle anything in this shitty life... I can...There is nothing that I cannot do!

I was the provider, I was the soldier, I was the planner, the organizer, the caregiver, the lover, the protector, the healer, the teacher, the listener, the guide, the inventor.... You were nothing... you were just there wallowing in your sorrows 24/7 365. I've tried, G-d nows that I tried while you just sat there.
Do not blame me! I had to save myself! For the first time every I chose me!

I am stronger then you! I always was... always will be!
Why did you always have to be such a wimp? Why couldn't you even stand up for your own self?

I got tired of being your everything! I got tired of being your mother and not your wife! I don't hate you.... I don't... I just cannot stand to see your face right now. Please stop calling. Please stop asking to talk. It is done, signed, sealed, processed. Done in my heart over a year ago, done on paper now.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger....smarter....colder.....

I have survived 3 wars and I will survive you. I am a strong stubborn woman.
I wish you all the happiness in this world. I wish you would put your big boi panties on and grow up. Pick yourself off the floor and live. I cannot spoon feed life into you every hour of every day anymore... I am sorry.... I love you as a human... you're great... You can do this.... Go out there, fly... I will survive if nothing else, thanks to my own stubbornness - no surrender , show must go on!

How am I feeling? I'm feeling fine.... Free, fine, in control.... alone... I can breathe, I can breathe, finally I can breathe!
Me, myself and I will come out of this storm better, wiser, happier....
Today was good, tomorrow will be better! I will breathe, I will laugh, I will continue to fight, for life is what we make!

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