Too true buddy! All things change, it's how you embrace and accept the change that counts.

I for one am completely floored and honored by the surprise that popped in my life and I am going for it! I have made my mind up. Now to break it to my best bud here, He is really upset at the thought lol And that was just me casually mentioning I want to do it. I am blessed by good people in my life

Can't sleep....clowns will eat me :|

Someone should tell you a good bedtime story so you can fall to sleep!!!!

If you're the praying kind, please pray for my daughter.

We were in emergency all night, and still no answer as to what is wrong...hard time breathing, chest pain. She's 19 God, please help us find what is wrong.

Never enough
 

Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. I'm not quite comfortable talking about some things, but I need to get them out. I need answers. I know there are no answers.

I want to know why, no matter who I meet or date, they always say they are fine with me the way I am. But inevitably they leave or lose interest stating that I am not trans enough, not lesbian enough, not straight enough, not male enough, not female enough, etc. I get it. They had a preconceived idea/expectation of who and what I am. I don't like it, but they are being honest in what they want. I lay no blame.

Then there are the ones who seem to be interested but then leave after having sex. They just wanted to 'try out' a trans person. They wanted a story. They treat me as an object, a toy, a novelty. They don't want to get to know me. They don't want to take the time to see what a great person I am or the type of relationship material I am. Those are the ones that hurt. Those are the ones who never cared or were interested in the first place. I *rarely* do casual sex anymore thanks to those people. You have to be pretty damn special to me for me to jump into bed with you and even more special for me to want to take the time to get to know you, or let you get to know me. I may flirt a lot, but unless you really have my attention, it doesn't mean anything.

I guess I'm tired and a little bitter or discouraged. I almost want to give up trying to catch someone's interest. Almost. I'm not intending for this to be a pity party. I just needed to vent and get it off my chest.

Working on my list. I have all the things written down that I would like to do for me. Whether they be things that are good for my soul, health, or just make me feel beautiful. Some days you just have to give yourself some love!

I'm finally settling into my new house and relocating. I'm really missing my San Diego peeps and would love to fly back there for pride. I just can't find anyone that I trust to tak care of my dogs. I have a little while... But they are my priority....

I am training my dog, Lily, to rise above her natural predator drive.
I think it is starting to work. This morning she started to go after the neighbors cat and I was able to stop her and ask her to sit. It took a couple of corrections but she was able to maintain. This is progress because before we started formally working on the issue she couldn't even hear me when there was a small fast moving thing about, let alone a cat.

I think that there is no short cut to this. I just have to keep putting her in situations where her predator drive is triggered and ask her to focus on me instead of what all of her nature is telling her, oh and carry high reward treats with me.

It is a big responsibility having a dog with a high predator drive and a lot of bite force, I guess the training and refining never stops.
(She is an American Bulldog/Boxer mix)

On my mind...

My brain says sleep....

My body says breakfast...

I have been up for 3 hours already... I could really use both..but not at the same time....

what isn't on my mind lol I missed her I am glad she is back. I know I was missed too :)

Thank you all for your lovely comments and your concern.(f)

We found out that my daughter is Anemic! She is receiving medication to remedy the problem, along with Iron supplements on an on-going basis. Who knew it could cause so many problems!

Hmmmmmm