yes Ma'am :)
 

Just had my evaluation. I was dreading it. I exceed expectations! Didn't think he noticed...

Listening to a newbie kid at the shelter share his story as to what brought him there... and not understanding the mindset of a parent kicking their child out of the house in favor of a girlfriend/boyfriend. :(

Trying to gently convince these kids that it is not their fault is never easy... :sigh:

Sometimes the universe disguises favors in grave disappointments and heartache. Once you can recognize it as such, you should say "thank you" and move on to the next grand adventure...

~ERS

On my mind is why people take sides in anything without knowing the whole story. Unfortunately, I will have to admit that I have done it and I bet some where along the road so have you. I have come to realize it just is not a fair thing to do to someone. I am not saying the side you may have chosen is wrong or the person you are listening to is lying I am saying that it is completely unfair to the other person and yourself not to have the whole story especially when you use or have used the words love and care for. I just don't get it. Hell I don't get it when I have done it in the past and have decide that I will go out of my way not to do it again with only half of the information. Strange what your mind wakes up thinking.

my mind O_o
 

Simplicity.

Don't make it hard.

Make it hard.

Don't be delicate.

Be delicate.

Own it.

Let it go.

Eat it.

Raw.

That i need my long heavy metal stirring spoons!

how lucky I am..2x4's .. and feisty bite.. I like it

Okay, this morning I had to go to my doctors office to pick up my morphine prescription for the next month. I have done this a 1000th times. I go, I get it and that is it. But this time, they would not give it to me. I got so pissed off, I started to yell at the receptionist. Telling her that I will not leave till I get my prescription! So, she goes and talks to the doctor. (ugh I am still so fucking pissed off over this!!!)

Now, this doctor is a sub for my doctor. I have never met this doctor. The receptionist comes back and tells me that he still wont give me my pills because he wants to review my meds with me. I will be out of my meds tomorrow morning. If I do not take my morphine twice a day my pain will get worse and I will start to withdrawal. I told all of this to the receptionist and she just didnt care. So, finaly the doctor gave me a prescription for enough pills till I see him on monday. Why I got so pissed off over it was it hurts me so much to get my prescription and then to go and get my pills. So, now on monday I have to do the whole thing again! I am going to tell this doctor what I think of him on monday. Its just so fucked up!!!! I am 32 years old I should not have to worry about doctors and pills and so on!

Taking my focus off other places, people and things and keeping it squarely on myself. When I work on my crap I don't have time to mess with other people's crap.

The root canal I have to have tomorrow. Trying to use my powers of avoidance until the morning.

I have a lot going thru my mind right now.. sometimes I wish my mind wouldn't go there *sigh* It makes me get on something and get quiet.. till I finally resolve it

hmmmm
 

It is challenging to be trashed everyday in my own community. I refuse to divulge the truths of my past relationship that would clearly place someone I still care about in a bad light in her community.

Please stop.

You know very well all the love and good attention and support given.

You know very well that for over two years you and your family gave me zero attention and now in making a decision to honor the love that the universe has given me...you at every turn blame me for mistakes you have made.

Please realize everytime you point a finger at me..that four fingers point back at you. You will feel better owning up to being a better role model for your child. I am clear that I am a very loving giving person.

You know this is true.

Please stop