ARRRRGH I am so tired of pretenders, sometimes I think its better to stay single when living in a small town where people are afraid to admit who or what they are..

I hate having to be someones dirty little secret...

I refuse to be, so if that means being single for life than that's how it will be.

ARRRRRRGHHHHH

What is on my mind is just how stupid this movie is. However, I feel compelled to watch it since I recorded it....

my nephew fell off a roof two weeks ago. he is still in the hospital... he was in icu until two days ago. he was in bad shape with broken ribs and punchured lung.. they have all that stabelized but he has a serious brain injury and just doesn't seem to be pulling out of it. his wife and family that lives close to him are going threw training to learn how to care for him when he comes home... my sister (his mother) called last night to ask if I would be willing to come up there and help with his care. of course I will. the only problem is him and I got into it a few months back ending in him calling me a dyke lesbian, that didn't offend me other than the tone he used and the fact that he wasnt raised with hate.. in fact its just not allowed in our family. he has been hanging out with some people that are haters and taking on some of there habits.. but reguardless ill be there for him and the rest of the family.
he believes he is in a hotel and nothings wrong and wants to go home.

Doctor did X-rays and then some today when I went in for a general check-up. He asked if I knew i had a mild case of scoliosis in my spine up between my shoulder blades and said it might explain why I have pain where I do. The weird thing is, well, I have never had to have an X-ray done before so I don't know if this is pre-existing or not. It kind of boggles me but he didn't seem concerned in the least, so..

He did give me some meds - an anti-inflammatory, vicodine and flexirol? I am trying to wrap up my already late homework and submit and hope she will give me an exception, then pop one and hope to be dead to the world.

I need some sleep, and need to get my sugar back under control.

... While waiting in the waiting room, we even settled on a girl's name, and it feels so right to me that it makes me feel all warm, fuzzy good vibes. A boy would be Michael Thomas in lieu of our father's, and a girl would be totally more unique - Taryn Elizabeth. I just looked at the wife and said "Dude, that is a kickass name.. She is going to rock it!"

What is on my mind...
 

taking off my rose colored glasses....

What is on my mind
 

How much pain I am in and the only answer I keep coming back to for how to deal with said pain.....

The French Quarter!

Sleep

Went to bed, slept a couple of hours ... now wide awake. I finally gave up and came here. Staring over at the clock beside my bed every 15 minutes was not helping. So much to do tomorrow. Must get a load of wood off my truck before I go in to work in the morning.

It will work out. :) I think so.

I realize you made this post a while ago but O.M.G. are you talking about N'awlins?????? Julie and I love going there. We're fortunate enough to live only a few hours from there so go as often as we can. Have fun!!


N'awlins Rules,
Brute.

I spent a lot of time deciding who I was and creating a life I love. I had to remember what I was passionate about and bring it back into my life. I chose to make goals and set myself up to make them happen...

I did a lot for me... and I am happy with what I have... now... I am sad... I want to share my joy for life with someone... and see it excite them as much as it does me...

As morbid as it sounds, i really need to get my will and power of attorney stuff put together.

Its not morbid to have this done. Thanks for the reminder. I changed my life insurance today then had to make the appt for the lawyer to do my will.

Everyone should look at these thing at leaset once every 5 yrs. Things change ppl. Make sure YOUR wishes r carried out not someone elsees.

I write tons of short stories and poems yet I never share them with anyone.

Its not morbid to have this done. Thanks for the reminder. I changed my life insurance today then had to make the appt for the lawyer to do my will.

Everyone should look at these thing at leaset once every 5 yrs. Things change ppl. Make sure YOUR wishes r carried out not someone elsees.

Someone reaching out that I swore I would never speak to again.
Deciding if it's worth the pain to forgive.
I don't want to be the bigger person.

And I don't think I will.